When Randy came out of the bedroom he was wearing black trunks that fit him so well... I couldn't stop staring. He went into the hot tub room without a word and I followed him. I dropped my towel and he stared at me for a moment. gRandy did I do something wrong?h I asked softly.
He shook his head no, then picked me up, making me gasp. He carried me into the tub, then gently set me down before sitting down next to me. He wrapped an arm around me, so I leaned against him, my head resting on his shoulder. We were quiet for awhile until he said gYou have no idea how sexy you look.h
I looked at him and asked gIs that why you got silent?h
He nodded. gRowan I already have a hard enough time keeping my emotions in check when I'm with you and then seeing you showing so much skin... the thoughts that ran through my head...h
gI'm sorry. I just wanted to make our first Christmas together special. I wanted to do something for you that I thought you would like.h
He laughed and said gBelieve me Rowan I like it. I like it a lot.h
gThen why-h
He pulled me onto his lap and I gasped at what I felt. I looked at him and he said gThat's why I went silent. I couldn't tell you what you caused because I knew you would freak out.h
gI caused that?h I asked softly.
gYeah,h he replied gYou have no idea the effect you have on me. You're so pure and innocent and you always have good intentions and... Rowan that is so sexy.h
gIt is?h
gYeah it is.h
I bit my lip and looked away. He nudged me and I looked at him. gWhat's wrong?h he asked.
gI'm just scared that's allh I told him.
gRowan nothing is going to happen you. I'm a grown man, I can control myself.h
gBut-h
gMy dick being hard doesn't mean I'm going to ask you for sex.h
I blushed at what he said and he laughed, pulling me closer. He nuzzled my neck and said gJust being close to you like this helps.h
gReally?h
gYes.h
I smiled and he kissed me passionately. I could feel him rubbing against me and it made me gasp against his lips. He pulled away and asked gAre you all right?h
gYeah,h I replied gI can feel you and-h
gIt's a new sensation.h
I nodded. gBut not a bad one.h
gGood because I don't want to scare you.h
gYou won't.h
gRowan-h
I pressed against him a little and watched his eyes go wide. He looked at me and said gIt won't go farther I promise.h
gI trust youh I whispered.
He nodded before pulling me into a kiss and pressing himself against me. I kissed back, pressing back, feeling his grip on me tightening. When we pulled apart he whispered gLets dry off and get ready for bed.h
gAre you sure?h I asked.
gI'm sure.h
I nodded and grabbed my towel.
Half hour later we were dried off and sitting on Randy's bed. I was wearing a pair of pajamas that I had also put in the bag and Randy was wearing his black silk drawstring pants. He looked at me, I looked at him. gKiss meh I whispered.
He leaned over and kissed me gently before pulling away.
I shook my head and said gI mean really kiss me.h
gRowan that isn't a good idea,h he told me gI'll lose control.h
gFine. Lets just lay down and sleep then.h
I pulled back the covers and climbed in underneath, laying on my side facing away from Randy. I felt the bed move, then felt his arm around my waist and his chest against my back. gRowan don't be madh he whispered.
gI'm not,h I told him softly gI just hate that you won't kiss me.h
He rolled me onto my back and kissed me passionately. I kissed back, deepening the kiss a bit. I felt Randy move, the felt him on top of me, pressing against me again. I gasped against his lips and pressed back. He moved his lips from mine, burying his face against my neck, pressing against me harder. gRowan,h he said gI can't control myself right now.h
gRandy yes you canh I told him.
gI can't.h
gRandy-h
He pulled away, a cry escaping his lips. I looked at him and sat up, backing away. His eyes looked black and haunted and the look on his face... I couldn't read it. He shook his head and uttered a curse before looking at me, his eyes and face normal. gRowan don't be afraid of me,h he whispered pleadingly gPlease. I'm not going to hurt you, I swear.h
He held out his hand and I took it, shaking slightly. He helped me lay down on my side, then wrapped an arm around me, holding me close and whispering in my ear gI'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Rowan please don't be scared of me.h
gIt's OK,h I whispered back gI'll be fine.h
gRowan please know that I will never hurt you.h
gI know Randy, I know.h
He kissed my hair and said gLets just sleep. It will be better in the morning.h
I nodded and squeezed his hand, he squeezed back.
But even long after he fell asleep I couldn't.
Why is he always so afraid of hurting me if he knows he won't?
Why does he get this way sometimes?
What is it about Randy's past that is haunting him so badly?
I want to know.
I need to know.
I'll ask him about it tomorrow.
So that is the ending to Rowan and Randy's first Christmas together.
Some ending, right?
What do you think is haunting Randy?
Think he will tell her when she asks?
Review and let me know!