A/N: Apologies for scripty layout at beginning - my writing sometimes bad... gonna look at doing a course on writing... but anyway I'm ramblin... sorry about not posting earlier and leaving it like it was - I had to go to work (shock horror) but finished story on my break... so here it is... enjoy peeps (btw this A/n makes no sense- its 1am and brain is wandering agan)

"Rose, concentrate on my voice reach back into your mind to the time before you crossed the void, back to when you were travelling with the Doctor" Alex paused and checked Rose's file, "Just before you saw the ghosts in your mothers flat"

"Doctor," Alex frowned as Rose spoke softly,

"Rose, where are you?"

"The Tardis"

"The Doctor's ship?"

"Yes"

"Describe your relationship with the Doctor"

"We are friends"

"Only friends?"

"Just friends"

Something seemed to push at Alex's mind and Alex couldn't explain it, he looked at Rose and shrugged,

"Have you ever had a physical relationship with the Doctor?"

"No"

Suddenly Alex saw a picture of Venice enter his mind, it wasn't modern Venice, it was from an earlier time. Alex shook his head trying to clear his mind you must help her remember. Alex stared around the room to see who had spoken those words but there was no one there. He took a drink of water and stared at Rose, "Have you ever been to Venice?"

"No"

Another image filled Alex's head, Rose was in Venice with the Doctor. "The Doctor never took you to Venice?"

"He was going to, but we ended up going to see mum instead"

Rose suddenly recalled that day on the Tardis, the day the Doctor had decided to take her to see her mother

She sighed sadly, "No Venice then?"

He looked at the console, "Maybe another time," he turned and gave her a cheeky grin, "your mother will slap me if I keep you away too long"

"But we have the Tardis"

The Doctor shook his head, "The Tardis can't protect me from your mother"

Rose chuckled, "I guess it would be nice to see mum again, it will give me a chance to catch up on all the washing oh and I can give her that bottle that tells the weather" she chuckled, "mum will love it"

The Doctor stared at her smile sadly, remembering how her lips felt against his as they lay together the night before. Rose caught him looking at her and felt something tug at her mind, a memory that refused to be read…

"The Doctor stared at me sadly and something in his eyes…"

"Rose why is the Doctor sad?"

Rose went tense, "he's done something"

"What Rose?"

Rose moaned as she tried to access the memory, "I don't know" but even as she said this a light filled her mind – remember- and suddenly she saw the trip to Venice, she saw Casanova and she saw the night she and the Doctor spent together. Rose sat up her eyes open wide "I remember Venice"

"Rose" Alex sat up alarmed, "you shouldn't have been able to break out of a trance like that"

Rose stared at him, "But I remember," she smiled, "He told me he loved me, I felt his love fill my mind" Rose's smile broked and she frowned, "Why did I forget?" Rose's lips parted and she shook her head, "He did it, he made me forget" Rose shook her head, "He made me forget something like that" Rose placed her hands over her eyes, "I wasn't good enough for him, it was all too good to be true" she laughed strangely, "Why would a man like him want a girl like me?"

"Rose…"

Rose stood up and walked up to the wall and kicked it hard and glared at no one in particular, "If he regretted it he bloody should have told me, instead of wiping my mind!" She shook her head, "he knew I didn't like anyone interfering with my brain"

"Rose, you need to calm down"

fud "How could he do this to me? The best night of my life and..." she sighed and turned to face Alex, "but I guess it meant nothing" she laughed hollowly, "I bet he's glad I'm stuck here, I'm out the way now he can pretend it didn't happen and move on" she paused, "I wonder if he did the same to his other companions" Suddenly there was a flash of light in her mind and memories of her time spent with the Doctor came to the surface. She remembered his 9th self and the guilt he carried over the loss of Gallifrey, she remembered the day she visited her father and nearly destroyed the world and yet the Doctor had stuck by her, she remembered the day she lost her face and his fear for her; he always feared for her safety. "Oh Doctor," Rose closed her eyes as tears began to run down her face, "always trying to protect me"

"How is wiping your memories protecting you?"

"He thought he would lose me, I guess he was proved right cause here I am" she sighed, "he thought it would hurt less if we weren't so close" she chuckled, "he's such a fool but I still love him" she turned to Alex, "I guess that makes me a fool as well"

Alex shook his head, "That just makes you human Rose"

She smiled and placed a hand against her tummy, "at least I still have a part of him with me, the one thing he overlooked" she sighed sadly, "and he'll never know"