This one is really hard to write because James is technecly dead by the time Leah turns into a werewolf. So i thought, right, i have three options...
1)Leah is dreaming (whilst in wolf form, or human form) about a guy she met whilst in human form, not knowing about werewolves, she's dreaming that she finds out he's a vampire or something like that.
2) James comes back to life somehow
3)It was James' twin who died and not him, he knew Leah before his twin died and before she was a werewolf.
i decided on the first one but if anyone wants me to write anything about the other two, then review and tell me so. Plus, im not sure on the time frame, its kind of set in Breaking Dawn and twilight.
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Can you dream about things that you don't understand...but then understand them when you wake up?
Is it possible?
It must be, i can't not be.
I dreamed it, and yeah, being the only werewolf gal isn't supposed to be possible either but it is, i am real. So that means my dream can be real too, right?
Right.
Only, I'm not sure. i mean, what if i'm just crazy? What if some crazy werewolf hormones have affected my brain and I'm dreaming about stuff then not understanding that i don't understand it...and yet, that makes even less sense then the actual thought of knowing something i didn't know before the dream that can't be real.
God, thats confusing. And not to mention annoying.
Dream or crazy? Crazy or dreaming? What's the difference anyway? Maybe it wasn't a dream and I'm just dead...or maybe I'm perfectly alive and dreaming a dream that i shouldn't have dreamed.
James is not alive. He can't be, he died in a fire. They told me, Seth swore to me god dammit.
Plus James wasn't a vampire. That 's stupid, impossible even.
But in the dream...in that stupid, maybe-not-even-a-dream dream, he was. He was my worst enemy.
Grr. Seth only told me that James was dead when Bella was all depressed. More depressed then i was at the disappearance of my best friend (other then the bitch known as Emily, who quite obviously is so not my best friend anymore).
So what if...if James was a vampire, a blood sucker, a leech. What would that make me? I was in love with him and he was killing innocent people, would that make me evil? Cold? I hadn't even known he was all vampified and yet i called him my best friend.
The dream is really starting to make me regret sleeping.
Flashback to dream
We were sitting in a tree, looking down at the fox snuffling around below us, James had his hand over my mouth so that i didn't scream or laugh and startle the creature. James glanced at me, his pale skinned face smiling, eyes glittering with happiness.
Eventually the fox moved on but James didn't pull away, he removed his hand and leaned in close, kissing the smooth side of my jaw, my eyes had fluttered close in pleasure.
"Did you know that when a penguin finds his true mate, they stay together forever?" He had whispered, breathing in my skin's scent. Then he looked up, his eyes meeting mine. "Be my penguin, Leah?" he smiled, head cocked to the side, watching her with his expression of content.
"But...but what about Victo-" i tried to say but his hand covered my mouth and he shook his head.
"Victoria...she is nothing compared to you, i don't want her," He grinned "I want you!" and then he kissed me.
As our kiss grew in passion i felt something on my lip, a sharp prick and a wave of heat, pulling back with a gasp, i raised my hand to feel the wetness there, red stained my finger tips.
Suddenly a bright light shone on us both, the sun breaking free from the clouds that always surrounded Forks. I glanced up at it, then at James. When my eyes saw him, they automatically registered the fact that it wasn't normal, James was glowing, not happy glowing, not sun beaming down on him, but literally sparkling.
The gasp that tore from my throat made him smile, a cheeky grin that i missed so much.
"You understand now, right?" He finally asked "What i was?" What i am?" the dream me nodded, touching his skin lightly as if to make sure he wasn't a figment of her imagination. At the beginning of the dream it was like i was that girl, now i was watching from a different point of view, like an out of body experience.
"I wish i could be alive to be with you, Leah, i so wish it," He whispered, stroking my cheek, "But i'm not, i'm dead. I can only be with you in your heart, your thoughts and like now, your dreams." He looked me right in the eyes and smiled, continuing to talk all the while "We will meet again, i can promise you that. When you join me we shall be happy, we'll be together."
Then he faded and i woke up.
I understood what the sparkling had meant, the cold hard skin just added to the theory but i couldn't believe that my James had done something as bad as that, that he'd taken someones life.
There was only one thing i could do.
"Seth?" i called, bouncing down the stairs, Edward was seated next to him, watching a football game on the TV.
My little brother looked up.
"How did James die?" I asked, watching them both closely.
Seth seemed to pale and Edward's whole body clenched up. Ha, so they did know something.
"Leah..."Seth started, climbing to his feet but Edward put a hand out, looking me dead in the eyes.
"My brothers killed him when he attempted to murder Bella." He said, voice level and void of emotion.
He tried to kill Bella? Can't really say i blame him.
Edward growled and i laughed, Seth just looked uncomfortable.
James had said that he'd see me again, when i joined him.
As in dead? He'd see me when i was dead? Well that could happen easy enough.
Edward's head snapped up and he stared at me in shock. "Leah," he started, "Leah, no, no way!" but i was already out the door, running to the cliffs. Edward and Seth were a minute behind me because i knew all the special secret ways.
When i reached my destination, i froze. There was a man there, his back to me but i knew immediately who it was.
"James..." I whispered.
He turned and smiled at me, opening his arms for a hug.
Embracing him was like breathing. Like riding a bike, you may not do it for a while but you never really forget how to.
"You can't do it Leah," He whispered into my ear "Death comes naturally and you have to live out you life, i will always wait for you but i don't want you to kill yourself just to see me again,please. Promise me" i didn't reply and he took hold of my shoulders, shaking me slightly "Promise me!"
"Okay..." i whispered, and then he was gone again, just air, just pain in my heart. Just me again.
I wasn't crazy, he had been there, it was proved years later when i died to protect one of those stupid Cullen vampires form the war with The Volturra.
I was in Jame's arms again, ahppy content and right.
Whole once more.