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A/N: Robs: Alrighty, here is JPOV and guess what? He's out!!! Alrighty so Warning for this chapter: there is Anal play, if it squicks you out you can skip it. I have it marked with *!*!*!*!* and ended with *!*!*!*... now that being said, enjoy :D .
K: So two weeks later and look we're still alive! ;) NaNoWriMo is kicking our butts, but we're still trying to get stuff out for ya. Um... whatelse *taps chin* OH! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAYDREAMINGAWAY :P
Special thanks to everyone who helped me while writing this and of course our beta Amber; we love you.
Home is the one place in all this world where hearts are sure of each other. It is the place of confidence. It is the place where we tear off that mask of guarded and suspicious coldness which the world forces us to wear in self-defense, and where we pour out the unreserved communications of full and confiding hearts. It is the spot where expressions of tenderness gush out without any sensation of awkwardness and without any dread of ridicule. ~Frederick W. Robertson
Chapter 20: Welcome Home
My palms were sweaty and my hands were shaking. I was going home; for the first time in two months. And frankly, the thought both made me elated and scared shitless.
I was going to be home, with nothing stopping me from scoring a rock. Back to the shadow people, my nightmares, my family and the best thing my life had to offer, Alice. It had been a week since I had touched her, smelled her or kissed her. Dear God, I had missed her.
I politely said goodbye to the staff and the two friends I had gained here, Peter and Hurley. Hurley was stuck here until he was 'cured' and Peter had another week, so he was pretty excited too and exchanged numbers with me so we could get together for dinner or something. I got hooked up with a guy named Ray, he was to be my 'sponsor' and I was told about NA meetings I could attend if I was having a hard time resisting my craving.
After that, I was free and heading home in the backseat of the Mercedes while Carlisle was driving and Esme was holding his hand in the front seat. I wished Alice could've been there, but I knew she had to be in school. I wanted her to do well and graduate and do everything and anything she wanted to do.
I leaned back in my seat and thought about all the things we'd been through during the past five months. I could see the changes in me and I even saw them in her; and it wasn't just the physical things. Alice definitely looked healthier, certain parts of her anatomy were larger, but she also smiled easier and seemed more carefree now. It made me happy to think I was the cause of that, somehow I had made her happy, healthy and feel safe.
When I got home I wanted nothing more than to spend the day with Alice, but I was told she was at school and would probably be home around three. So I guess there was nothing to do but wait for Alice to come home and to cook dinner for her. Anything, but think about getting high, fuck, Jasper, don't think about it.
When I walked into my apartment I almost walked right back out, it looked so different. They painted, they added furniture and while I had known all about it before, it looked completely different and I wasn't entirely expecting that… how different it all looked. There were even rugs on the floor and new kitchen stuff. I walked around, taking everything in and noticing that the bedroom seemed unfinished, like it was only painted and that was about it. Wait… Alice had told me that it was only partially done.
Once I was done I noticed Esme had brought me over some of my books from their house, which was nice of her. I found a book to occupy my time until I was ready go to the store and pick up food for dinner, maybe I'd cook her dinner and make it a special night tonight.
At about two I left to shop, determined to find a nice ready-bake pizza, soda and salad for tonight. Once I found a good one I thought she'd like, I dealt with the obvious come-on's from the cashier and walked home, enjoying the sea breeze that had picked up. I noticed the dark clouds rolling in, signaling that rain was on the forecast for the night. Maybe I should pick up wood for the fireplace.
After picking up wood that was supposed to be 'easy start' at the corner store I walked up the three floors to our apartment, hoping to god she was already home. Unfortunately she wasn't, but that gave me time to put everything away and mope on the couch for a minute or two. I looked at the mural she had obviously worked very hard on under the bay window. She did a really good job and I laughed as I noticed the white rabbit cuddling with a little black kitten, was it possible she always saw me as her white rabbit?
I heard the lock turn and had to stop myself from running to the door and pinning her against it, fuck I missed her way too much. I steadied myself to walk over to her at an acceptable pace, letting myself be obvious in the way I checked her out and smiled my approval as she tossed her backpack to the ground in the foyer. She looked really hot in that uniform.
"Jazzy you're home!" She squealed, breaking into a run and grinning like a fool as she jumped into my arms. I caught her and grinned back what I hoped was an equally impressive grin. "I missed you!" she squeaked between kisses.
"I missed you too," I manage to get out laughing a little at her enthusiasm.
"When did you get here? Where you here alone long? Did you see what we did? Do you like it?" She asked in a rush.
"About ten-thirty, yeah, but I went out and got us dinner and firewood for the fire 'cause it looks like it's gonna rain and I wanna snuggle, yes and yes." I answered, grinning at her.
She squeaked happily and blushed, "I get to sleep in your arms again…" She kissed me, firm on the mouth. I couldn't let her go with just chaste kisses; I finally plundered her mouth with my tongue, holding her tight as she kissed me back eagerly. I broke away before my lust clouded brain convinced me to take her on the couch and hugged her tightly.
"Thank fuck!" I had missed holding her at night. She giggled and hugged me tighter; I could tell she felt absolutely euphoric, "I hope you know that I am keeping my promise from a week ago." I informed her.
She bit back a grin, "Good."
I cupped her butt cheeks under her skirt and squeezed for emphasis, "You look really good baby."
"Well I made a little effort 'cause I knew my man was coming home today," she giggled while smirking at me. My eyes scanned her face; I then noticed the small stitched cut just under her cheekbone. Remembering how I told her I wished I could kiss it and make it better I placed a gentle kiss on it.
"That bitch still bothering you?" Her smiled dropped as I asked that and she shook her head.
"No. This was her first day back since the fight…" she shrugged, "we'll see."
"She better not bother you," I warned, kissing the stitches once again.
She wrinkled her nose, "Yeah cause I can't fight back this time. I promised I wouldn't, since ladies aren't supposed to fight," she chewed her lip.
I raised an eyebrow, not even to defend themselves? "I'll have someone close to her kick her ass if she does."
"I can fight my own battles Jazzy. Perhaps kill her with kindness," she gave me a rather sweet smile, which looked evil if you ask me.
I kissed her, "Yes," then gave her three more peck kisses.
She pulled back smiling as she brushed the stray locks of hair out of my face. "So what's for dinner good lookin'?"
"Pizza, a salad," I wrinkled my nose, "and Pepsi."
She laughed, "Salad huh?"
"For you... and they served it at the cafeteria, so I guess I've gotten used to eating it."
She bit into her bottom lip and noticeably checked me out before asking, "And for dessert?"
I smirked at her, "Cuddling...by the fireplace." Maybe a little more than cuddling.
She wrapped her arms around my neck, humming appreciatively. "I like that idea."
"So did you have plans for my first day out?"
"Yes actually." She dropped herself to the ground and walked into the kitchen, curious I followed. Once she reached the phone on the wall she unplugged the phone cord.
Damn I was hoping for whipped cream again, I smirked. "Nothing else huh?"
She smiled, "Just you…" She wrapped her arms around me, "And me."
I hugged her to me and planted a kiss in her hair, "I like that."
She tilted her head to look up at me. "And some other surprises, but they can wait," she gave me a devilish grin.
I smiled lazily at her, "You are such a little minx."
"You love it."
"Yes I do," I agreed, making her smile warmly. "So do you have any homework?"
Her bottom lip jutted out, "Yes. I have some history work to do."
I reached down and patted her shapely rear a little, "You gotta do your homework now so I can play with you after dinner."
"With that as incentive how am I ever going to focus?" She asked in a teasing manner.
"Because if you do a good job I'll give you a treat," I waggled my tongue at her in a suggestive manner; she bit back a grin and nodded in response. Good to know we were on the same page. I turned her around and smacked her ass rather hard to get her to head towards the dining room, "Want anything to drink?" I asked as I ran to grab her bag from the foyer.
"Um, ice water please?" She called from the dining room.
I jogged over to her and handed her the bag before getting into the cabinet that normally held our glasses and pulled out a glass with sunflowers decorating it, "You got new glasses?" I asked her.
"Uh, yeah," she responded from the next room. "Your mom thought we might like having a matching set... Is it too girly?" she sounded worried.
"No, it's cute," I chuckled as I filled the glass with ice cubes and then water. Sunflowers were so Alice, not really my sort of thing, come on, do I look like a hearts and flowers kind of guy to you? But it was sweet for her.
"'Kay," she chirped, I heard a gentle thud of her placing her books on the table. "I felt weird getting stuff like that without you."
I shrugged as I made my way to where she was, "I have no style."
"But it's our home you know? I didn't want to make it too girly," she laughed slightly.
"It isn't…" I reiterated, handing her the glass of water and leaned against the table next to her.
"'Kay," she reached up and placed a soft kiss on my lower lip.
"I am gonna go take a jog okay?" I wasn't having a craving yet, but I was afraid with boredom it would lead to one, so I decided to keep myself occupied.
She nodded, "Yeah... will you have your phone?" I nodded to answer her. "'Kay... I love you," she smiled.
I leaned down and kissed her once again before leaving, "I love you too."
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I ran for about an hour; a few miles away, and then back. All while concentrating on my breathing pattern and where my feet were landing. By the time I got home I was damn near exhausted from the physical exertion, I trudged my way back up the steps and when I walked through the door Alice told me she wasn't finished yet. I grunted in response and decided to shower really fast so I could get all the sweat off me.
Once I was finished, I realized I had forgotten to grab a change of clothes before showering so I ran to the bedroom in just a towel earning an appreciative wolf whistle as I ran to the bedroom. I dressed in sweatpants and a white tee-shirt before walking back out looking for my Alice. I found her, not in the kitchen like had she been when she whistled at me, but back in the dining room, putting her books away in her bag.
"Did you have a nice run?" She asked innocently, bending over so I got a nice peep show of her cleavage.
"Yeah it was nice," I adjusted my dick in the sweats so that it wasn't protruding so much.
I noticed that she was watching me as I adjusted myself before she looked up and smirked, "And had a relaxing shower?"
"I smell better if that is what you're askin'," I teased, she shook her head at me while smiling, "Wanna smell?" I offered.
She closed her bag and laid it next to the table leg. "No… but I want a kiss," she jutted out her bottom lip. She looked adorable; I had to kiss her, so I did. I felt the vibration of her humming and smiled as she ran her fingers along the waistband of my sweats. "I think someone wants to say hi," her sing song voice carrying up from my lips.
"After dinner," I murmured.
"When's dinner again?" She asked, grinning at me.
"As soon as it's cooked," I straightened myself out.
"Smart ass…" She smirked, "I'm gonna go get out of my uniform. How about you get dinner started there handsome."
I waggled my eyebrows at her, "You gonna eat naked?"
She laughed, "Nope. You don't get to see this body naked until later," she rubbed up against me as she walked away, swaying her hips deliberately as she walked towards our bedroom.
"Tease," I called after her.
She glanced over her shoulder at me as I stood in the archway, "Only for you babe." Then she walked into the bedroom and closed the door. Damn it, now all I can think about is her naked, which was not helping things in my pants. Maybe I should cook the damn pizza, I thought as I moved around the kitchen pulling out the new round baking sheet and putting the pizza on it, then placing it in the oven to cook.
Then, mainly because I had nothing else to do I started to clean the already clean countertops. She came in just as I was tossing the dirty rag into the washer and I gripped the counter to stop myself from tackling her and ravishing her on the floor. She was standing on her toes, hanging her keys up on the hook and making her partially exposed ass cheeks flex, "Nice ass baby."
She looked at me over her shoulder and wiggled her ass in my direction. "Thanks babe," she said as I walked over to her and smacked her ass hard making her squeak and jump. "Babe, do you want me to set the table or do you want to relax on the couch?"
I licked my lips, I wanted to relax with my dick in her mouth, whoa little Jasper, fall back. "The couch," why not, it's my first day back.
Her smile lit up her face, "'Kay. I'm gonna turn some music on," she kissed me before leaving the kitchen. Did she have to wear clothing that revealed so much during dinner, damn I cannot think straight with that much blood traveling to my dick.
I busied myself by getting the plates out of the cabinet, noticing that the dishes were bright white and there were no scratches on the surface of the plate, "Man y'all went all out, huh?" I heard a light classical melody filter towards me.
"Yeah, Esme said we needed a fresh start," she called back.
"I like it."
I felt her arms wrap around me and her face touch my back. "Good, I'm glad."
"I've missed this," I whispered, putting my hand on hers.
"Me too," she murmured into my shirt. I poured the bagged salad onto each of our plates and then mentally backslapped myself for forgetting the one thing that makes salad edible.
"Um… I forgot dressing."
She giggled, "It's okay babe, I have some Italian seasoning I can make," she unwrapped her arms and moved to the other side of the kitchen, pulling out a stool and standing on her toes to reach up and grab a packet of something. I wrapped my arms around her and ground myself into her ass making her giggle some more before I just watched her make the dressing. "Can you hand me the vinegar?" I moved away from her to grab it and hand it to her. How can one girl look so sexy while cooking is beyond me. She thanked me before putting everything into a bottle and shaking it up.
Deciding to put myself to use rather than just stand there, I pulled the pizza out of the oven and let it cool for a minute before searching through the drawers for my pizza cutter. "There's a pizza cutter in that drawer…" She informed me, pointing to the drawer opposite to where I was standing; I grabbed it and grinned stupidly at her.
"You want Pepsi right?" she asked as she made her way to the fridge.
"Yep," I started cutting the pizza carefully to keep the pieces even.
"'Kay," she responded, bending over so when I looked over my shoulder I got a nice eye full. Very nice.
"How many pieces do you want?" My voice sounded huskier than I intended, damn shorts.
"Umm… Two?" I think she may have noticed. I set the plates up and then followed her out to the living room, setting everything up so we could sit next to each other. I'd missed this.
"It smells really good Jazzy," she said, settling down next to me.
"I hope it's good." I smiled at her, "it's my first real meal in two months."
She gave me a small smile, "Well I learned some new recipes, so you might be spoiled here shortly," she winked.
"I like being spoiled."
"Good," she giggled.
"You gonna sit next to me?"
She smiled at me and snuggled closer to me, "Of course silly man," she said as I wrapped my arm around her and began eating.
"So how is work?"
"Good," she smiled. "I like it and my co-workers and boss are nice too. I actually have this week off," she smiled at me. "Kim was uh... understanding when I asked for the week off."
I smiled at her happiness at work, "Good I am glad. I start on Wednesday."
"Are you nervous?"
"A little bit," I smiled nervously at her.
"I think you'll do fine," she reassured me.
I stabbed at my salad; I wish I could believe that. "I am glad you think so."
"Relax Jazzy, you'll do fine. If I can survive the hell that is high school, this will be a cake walk for you," she teased, sticking her tongue out at me.
"You'd like to think that huh?" The fact of the matter was I didn't know how well I was going to do without being able to get high. And then, there was the fact that I'm a completely different person when I'm sober.
"We're not just talking about work anymore huh?" she asked.
"What do you think we're talking about baby?" I asked her gently.
She paused for a moment, "Life after rehab?"
"Yeah, I dunno if you'll like me... you know," I shrugged, looking away from her, "the real me."
"I love you Jasper. I don't think there's anything you could do that would make me leave you."
I looked at her, "You say that now," I didn't mean to sound like an asshole; I was just trying to be honest. Would she really like the shy, quiet, wounded bookworm?
She pulled the fork out of my hand and crawled into my lap, straddling me so she could look into my eyes. "Babe, I'm not gonna lie and say this is gonna be easy. I mean we started when we were at our worst," she gave me a rather pathetic smile. "But I know I can't live without you Jazzy…"
"I can't live without you either," I admitted.
"Promise me you won't keep me in the dark when a craving hits or something 'kay? I want to help you, you know." She chewed her lip in a worried manner.
"Okay baby, I'll try…" I cupped her cheek, and smiled as she leaned into my touch. "I wanna be a better man for you."
"I just want you to be you."
I smiled at that, "I can do that, we should eat before I take you right here," make that a bookworm with a slight sex addiction.
"Or… I could feed you 'cause I don't wanna move just yet."
I gave her a lazy smile, "Yeah you can feed me, I won't mind." She laughed at my response as she reached behind her for my plate. "Can I feed you too?" I asked, instinctively reaching for hers, she blushed and nodded. How did she turn that into something sexual? "You're really beautiful you know that?"
"Thank you," she said, smiling shyly at me. I smiled at her as I ripped a piece of pizza apart and fed it to her, taking turns being fed and feeding each other. It was quite relaxing and oddly natural feeling. We sat there in silence; feeding each other and laughing a little for awhile, until she began sucking my fingers a little longer than necessary after each bite.
"So… is the sucking my fingers thing supposed to be purely a cleaning off thing?" I asked. She nodded her head slightly, continuing to suck greedily as she hummed a yes. I felt my cock twitch a little in response to the humming. "It's uhh," I cleared my throat, "arousing."
She wiggled in my lap, "I know."
I tickled her sides a little, making her laugh and wiggle more, "You're just a minx aren't you?"
"No!" She protested, giggling.
I stopped tickling her, "Insatiable?"
"Not really. Just missed the fuck out of you and our little world we have," she leaned forward and kissed me.
"I did too... picture messages are just not enough." Nor are they big enough to do anything justice.
"Nope. And sleeping in your bed wasn't the same either."
I tilted my head, "Why not?"
"'Cause you weren't there…" She admitted softly.
"I know the feeling," I kissed her quickly to make her smile.
"And I was scared," she whispered.
"Of what?"
"They know I was at your parents' house…"
"Who?"
She paused for a minute, "Jorge and James."
Holyfuckingshit and I wasn't there?! Fuckfuckfuck. I stopped mentally berating myself to ask, "Um, did my dad get rid of them?"
She nodded, "Yeah, Carlisle and Esme got a letter demanding they return me to Jorge... that's what sparked the fostering thing. Esme said that they'll never know I live here with you... but I can't say I didn't have that creeped out, someone's watching me vibe…"
"I'm so sorry I couldn't be there for you baby," I pulled her closer to me.
"That's part of the reason why I didn't tell you until now. But now you're here... in our home... Hell I think we need to celebrate happier things," she smirked at me.
I still felt bad but I couldn't help but also feel elated to be with her now, "Hell yeah."
"You done with dinner babe?"
"Yep," I popped the p.
She gave me that sunshine like grin of hers, "Okay then. I'll go clean up if you light the fire?"
Two wardrobe changes in one night, well, the way this was progressing she'd eventually end up naked and I had no problem with that. I nodded and said, "Okay."
With that she crawled off my lap, collecting the dishes as she went and jogging over to the kitchen before heading towards the bedroom. I, on the other hand, approached the fireplace and fiddled with it for awhile to get the screen off, opened the chute and placed the quick start log in, setting it alight.
After I managed to replace the screen and wash my hands, Alice poked her head out of the bathroom. "Ready for your next surprise babe?"
"Yes?"
She laughed a little and walked out of the bathroom. Someone had definitely gone shopping, lace and see through lingerie looks really fucking good on my girl. She leaned against the wall near our bedroom with her hands behind her back, displaying what that little dress wanted displayed prominently.
"Hi," she purred then bit her lip. Fuck Jasper, put your tongue back in your mouth!
"Hi," I greeted rather lamely.
"Got that fire going babe?" I forced my head up and then back down as she sashayed towards me. "So do you like?"
"What's not to like?"
"Well... the color could be wrong…" Nope, white looks really fucking good on you. "Or maybe my hair doesn't look right styled like this…"
I cut her off, "You look fucking hot, shut up." She bit her lip, smiling at me. "Well don't shut up, just stop taking trash about yourself."
"I wasn't," she challenged.
I made quotations with my fingers, "The color doesn't look good on me."
"I said it could be. I was simply answering your question." She stood in front of me.
"It was a rhetorical question," she rolled her eyes at my response. "Turn," I demanded, she did, keeping her hands balled up behind her back. I could see through the skirt enough to see the little lacy panties, fuck she looked hot. I stopped her from moving for a moment and lifted up the back of the dress to kiss her still perfect back dimples and squeeze her ass hard enough to earn a squeak. "So when did you go shopping?"
"A week ago," she responded quickly.
I smirked, "Sooo... you bought this for nighttime wear?"
She nodded, "Or before bed wear," she said cheekily.
"Why do you have your hands in a fist?"
"'Cause there's more to this outfit…" More? I quirked an eyebrow at her. "Well... kinda more to the overall surprise…"
I waited for a moment to see if she would continue, but it seems that she was purposely being evasive. "Like?" I pressed.
Her cheeks flushed a brilliant shade of red, "Why don't you look for yourself?"
I opened her fisted hands and saw a bottle of lubricant. Interesting. "Um lube? Do I not make you wet anymore Kitten?"
"Oh no babe, no problem there... I just thought since you said you wanted to," she trailed off, her face getting even redder.
I tilted my head to try to figure out what she was saying to me, "Wanted to... What?"
"You know… play with my…" she mumbled then dropped her voice to a whisper and said, "ass." I dropped the bottle of lube out of shock and gaped at her for a few minutes while she looked at me confused. This was quite the surprise.
"Are you sure baby?" I asked in a near whisper, she nodded. I suddenly became nervous, I had never done this particular act with anyone I cared for before. Granted, I had imagined it was Alice I was with a few times. "Did you... you know, read up and stuff? Make an informed decision?"
She wrapped her arms lightly around my neck. "Of course. But I want to try it Jasper... my body is yours," she looked up at me lovingly, a look I could never deny.
"I really want to with you too, but I don't want to hurt you," I admitted.
She reached up and placed a kiss on my jaw. "Maybe we should have a code or safe words? Like if I need you to stop I can say the word… or in your case if you feel yourself slipping out of control, you can say yours to warn me... and I can try relaxing?"
I think someone has read too much about deviant sexual acts, I smirked a little at her, "You don't think 'no' could work for you?"
She gave me an amused smile, "Perhaps a safe word as back-up then?"
"Okay," I decided to humor her, "What shall they be my love?" I asked as I pulled her into a sitting position with me, her straddling my lap once again.
"Well from what I know, these words should be something we don't use a lot even in normal conversation."
I chuckled at her, "Okay yours should definitely be 'no' then."
She laughed and pushed me backwards into the rug. "Oh yeah mister smart ass and what should yours be?" she challenged.
I actually put a little bit of thought into it, "Something alcoholic…"
"Whiskey?" She offered. What my father drank. Perfect. I gave her a rather sharp little nod of the head in agreement. "You okay Jazzy?" She asked as she put her hand on my cheek.
"Yeah I'm fine baby. I am gonna do something with you I've wanted to do for awhile so... why not be happy eh?" I grinned at her.
She smiled happily right back, "Exactly."
I reached over and felt around for the plastic bottle and gripped it tightly in my hand once I found it, "Sooo... Bedroom?" I wanted her to be comfortable during this.
"What about the fire?" She asked, just as I heard the first droplets of rain hit the windowpane.
"We have all night... Do you have any tests or anything tomorrow?" Because there was no way in hell she was going to feel like going to school tomorrow.
She shook her head, "Nope."
"You're gonna take a sick day tomorrow, okay?"
She nodded, "'Kay."
With the affirmation I picked her up and carried her to the bedroom. "I love you Mary Alice."
"I love you Jasper Cullen," and the look in her eyes as she said it left no doubt in my mind that she meant it.
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I laid her in the middle of the bed and knelt over her letting my eyes once again travel over her pretty lingerie covered body. "This is gonna have to go," I said as I pulled on a piece of white lace.
She nodded and shifted to help me remove it, leaving her naked. God, I'd missed this. She reached up to pull my shirt off and then I felt her push my sweat pants down, her warm hands sliding over my skin. It felt fucking awesome.
Once all our clothes were on the floor and I was kissing my way down her body I really felt like I was home, finally where I was meant to be, with my Alice in my arms… naked and wiggling under me. I was the luckiest man in the whole world. I ran my fingers over her, teasing her clit a little before I slid them through her folds. She was so hot and wet for me. I kissed and nipped my way back up to her ear, "Where's your bullet baby?"
Alice started to get up, but I held her down and reached for where she was pointing. I found it in the drawer beside the bed. I gave her the remote so she could control the speed and I held the business end to her, coating it in her juices. I felt her turn it on and she immediately started to grind into my hand, pushing herself against the vibrating bullet.
"Does that feel good Kitten?" She nodded, making hot little moaning noises that went straight to my dick.
"God, I wanna fuck you Alice…" I always wanted to fuck her. I pushed myself between her legs from behind, moving against her easily. She was so wet for me the head of my cock slid inside her accidentally, she moaned and I pumped her hard a few times before I pulled out and added even more lubricant from the bottle. I wanted her completely slick to make this as easy as possible on her, I really didn't want to hurt her, but now that she had offered herself to me in this way, I wanted to fuck her ass so bad I felt like I was going to explode. I don't know why I found this so fucking erotic… I just did.
I rubbed the rest of the lube on my fingers into her ass, coating her opening. "Are you ready babe?" I asked as I moved myself closer and wrapped my arms around her.
"Yeah Jazzy… go slow 'kay?"
"Yeah… don't worry… I'll be gentle." I kissed my mark behind her ear, "Remember your safe word?" I smirked as I tried to cover my nervousness with humor and moved my hand to over hers on the bullet.
She jerked back into me about to reply to my remark as I felt the head of my cock find just the right spot and she stretched a little around me. Alice turned up the speed a little on the vibe and moaned. I stopped moving while she got used to me.
"God Jazzy, you're so big…" She pressed her head back into my shoulder.
"You want me to stop kitten?"
"No… Just let me move 'kay?"
I nodded into her neck as she slowly pushed back, groaning as she did. God, she was going so slow I thought I was going to die. But it had to be like this, if she wasn't controlling things I didn't think I was going to be able to do it. As it was, I had to think really hard just to remember my safe word… I didn't want to forget 'cause I wasn't exactly sure I wasn't going to need it. This feels so fucking good.
With one final push and the best sounding moan I'd ever heard her make she had me completely sheathed inside her. "You okay?" I whispered in her ear.
She nodded, but held still. So I did too.
"Does it hurt?"
She shook her head, "No," she gasped, "It really hurt at first, but now… it doesn't… it feels really, really full." She pulled up then pushed back down, making my eyes roll back in my head and me bite down on her neck. "Like you're totally consuming me… It actually feels really fucking good now," she panted.
"Can I move Kitten?" I was praying she'd say yes, I needed to move… Now.
"Yes… please Jazzy… Fuck me."
That's all I needed to hear. I started to move slowly as I could at first, then she reached up and grab a handful of my hair tugging it hard as she thrust back into me. The bullet buzzing along making her moan loudly.
Her pussy was slippery on my fingers, "You little minx, you like this don't you?" I growled into her ear as I pulled almost completely out and pushed back in, proud at how I was able to control myself. She groaned and nodded her head in response, her hand clenching a fist full of hair again. I love that shit. I continued my thrusts, grunting into her neck.
"You thought about me doing this, didn't you baby?" I managed to get out between clenched teeth. I was barely holding on, but I wanted to get her to the brink with me. She squeaked and nodded, she was panting now too. Her hips gyrating slightly as she worked herself with the bullet.
"Fuck Jasper… God!" She growled. I moved back a bit so I could look down and watch as I pulled almost all the way out and teased her with just my head and then thrust back in till I was completely buried. God damn that was hot.
I heard her scream my name and then felt her body start to tighten around my dick, I knew she was cumming. I kept watching and moving, steadily now as she rode out her orgasm chanting my name over and over.
By then I couldn't stand it anymore, I had to move faster and harder… I concentrated, working to make sure I was still gentle with her. I continued my pace, "Fuck Kitten… Fuck…" I pulled out quickly, grabbing my dick pumping just once into my fist and rubbed her back as I came, harder than ever.
Once we could both breathe normally again I reached over the edge of the bed to grab my tee-shirt to wipe us both off.
God… it was good to be home.
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Once we finished whispering loving words to each other and I'd kissed her and thanked her for the best fucking orgasm ever, I carried her to the bathroom. She was completely spent, my body was pretty overexerted as well, but it was my duty to take care of her, and that is what I would do. I ran her a bath and quickly got her into it before I began cleaning everything up myself. I couldn't wipe the grin off my face as I gathered the fitted sheet and tossed it in our washing machine and put new, clean bedding on our bed.
After that I picked out comfortable clothes for her and went to the bathroom, where she laid half asleep in the water. I brushed the tendrils off hair of her face, making her pretty blue eyes focus on me. "Hey kitten," I said softly.
She gave me a weak smile, "Hi Jazz."
"How are you feelin'?"
She gave me a rather glazed over expression, "Sleepy."
"Does your tummy still hurt?"
She nodded her head, "A little."
"I'm sorry baby," I sat her clothes on the stool and cupped her cheek.
"It's okay Jazzy."
I kneeled by the tub, rubbing my thumb along her cheekbone, "Did you... enjoy it?"
Her eyes met mine, "God yeah… I can't say that it's something we'll do every night… but it's definitely worth a repeat performance," she waggled her eyebrows.
I couldn't help but smirk at her, "You're amazing my love, and I love you."
She grinned at me, "You better," she teased. "I love you too."
I leaned forward and kissed her gently, "Want to sleep by the fire?"
She nodded her head, "That sounds good."
"Okay," I pointed towards her clothes, "I got you some sweat pants and a tee-shirt and there's a fluffy towel right here on the hook for you... want me to leave you alone?" I asked her, standing up.
She raised an eyebrow at me, "Get your happy ass over her mister."
I smiled at her, and kneeled back down, "What?"
"Why would you think I want you to leave?" She tilted her head in question.
I shrugged, "I dunno," I looked down, because I just ravaged your body like a lust filled caveman. "Maybe you wanna think by yourself or something."
She scoffed, "I've had two months of that nonsense."
I looked back at the floor and smiled a little, feeling shy suddenly. "Yeah, well I mean, after what just happened…" I shrugged.
"All the more reason for you to stay with me right?" The corner of her mouth turned up slightly.
"I've never done that sober before," I admitted.
"Well I've never done that at all before... so it's a first for both of us," I looked up to see her blush.
"I could tell you had never done it before," I informed her, smirking at her.
She leaned her head on the lip of the tub, "I guess you would," she laughed.
"That felt fantastic though," my face grew hot when I realized I said that out loud. I had no idea what to say to a lady after you did that. Before, with Maria and the meth bunnies it was just like here's a rock, go the fuck away now. But this was entirely different with Alice… For one, I wasn't giving her drugs in exchange for anal, and for two, I didn't want her to go away.
"Wanna wash my back?" She asked.
"Sure…" She handed me the wash cloth and I began washing her slowly, enjoying the silence that had fallen between us. It was comfortable, neither of us felt like we needed to fill the air with mindless babble. Her happy and contented sighs sounded nice as my hand glided over her smooth skin, gently massaging her sore muscles. When I was done she finished washing herself in front of me, teasing me as she slowly washed her legs and chest.
Once she was done, thoroughly teasing the hell out of me, I helped her dry off. Gently rubbing her wet hair dry with the towel and admiring her naked body before she got dressed. Then we set up camp in the living room, on the chaise portion of our couch in front of the fireplace and under our comforter. We listened to the melody of the rain tapping against the window panes and rooftop, as the lightning and thunder occasionally rumbled outside.
We laid there, one of my arms wrapped loosely around her, with her head resting on my chest, in silence, just listening and content in being together. I couldn't stop thinking about what she had just given me, and in all honesty it was probably the only thing she had left to give me, but why did she think she had to do it?
I think part of it may have been guilt over the Edward thing. Edward… I could feel the little jealous monster inside glare and stomp around, growling loudly at the mere thought of his name. How dare he touch what was mine? I didn't fully understand it, every girl I sent his way he ignored, but the one and only girl I didn't want him near, he fucking wants her. That was some interesting shit.
I looked over at her, only to notice she'd fallen into a peaceful sleep. Her long, dark lashes fanned out across the top of her cheekbone and her plump pink lips parted slightly. She's beautiful. I pushed her hair back to look at my mark behind her ear, only to notice it was outlined by a purple and black tattooed heart, and judging by the fact that it was raised a little, it was fresh. My parent's let her get a tattoo? And what exactly had caused her to get said tattoo? Although I was pretty sure I knew already. I knew I had already forgiven her, the trust would be earned back with time, but I forgave her. It was understandable, to me at least. In her mind I no longer wanted her, so she went to him for comfort. People who can't understand or forgive that are heartless, soulless bastards. I would like to think I am a caring person, I hugged her a little closer to me, I'll never leave her again.
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I woke the next morning to see that it was still raining, though not as hard as it had been earlier. I carefully slid myself out from under Alice and padded quietly to the phone to call Esme. After some begging and pleading on my part, using the fact I just got out of rehab and was worried about spending another whole day alone as an excuse, I got Esme to call Alice in sick at school.
When I walked back over to the couch, Alice was pretending to sleep. I could tell because her eyes were twitching and she was having trouble keeping her big grin under wraps. I chuckled at her and shook my head, "Wake up faker."
She pulled the blanket up over her face, "No."
"Why not?"
"'Cause I'm sleeping," she giggled.
"Again, faker." I reiterated making her stick her tongue out at me. I smirked at her and kneeled on the side of the couch, held her face between my hands and kissed her deeply. I didn't even give a fuck about morning breath, I was just happy to wake up with her for the first time in months.
Her laughter broke the kiss, "Morning Jazzy."
I smiled down at her, "Morning kitten."
She finally sat up and stretched, her shirt lifting a little to reveal a bit of tantalizing flesh. "So what are we doing today?"
"I dunno kitten, whatever you want to do." I ran my hand gently under her shirt and along her stomach as she shrugged and chewed her lip, "Why are you chewing your lip?"
She stopped to give me a small smile. "It's been a long time since it was just me and you…"
I smiled back, "Yes it has and it's raining," I pointed behind her to the bay window where the rain was still pouring down in sheets.
She looked over her shoulder at the window. "Yeah," then turned back to face me. "Maybe we could cuddle and watch movies or something? Or I know…" She stood up and walked over to the entertainment stand before bending over and looking through the cabinet, giving me a very nice view of her perfect little heart shaped ass. "Your mom said you might have missed your old system…" She looked over her shoulder and caught me looking at her ass, "Maybe you can teach me how to play?"
I lifted my shoulders a little, "I kinda liked the movie idea…" I smiled coyly at her, "I really want to chill out and cuddle with you." Be in our own little bubble for awhile.
She nodded her head, "But we have to make cookies first cause it will help warm the place up and we'll have sweets for the movie."
I swiftly moved over to her and wrapped my arms around her, pulling her up and began kissing up her neck, "I have my sweets."
She giggled, "Well then I think we're all set then huh?"
"Well did you want cookies?"
She shook her head. "No, I was just thinking of a way to warm up the house 'cause we don't have any fire wood," she spun around to face me, "and if you're going out I'm going with you." She hugged me tightly and smiled up at me and I smiled right back.
"If you want, I could get more firewood."
"It's your call babe, just remember… if you leave I'm coming with you." She stated again.
I didn't want her to have to walk in this weather, "Did you drive here?"
"The Bronco is here, yes. I walk to and from school though," she gave me a small smile. Yeah... no, not happening.
"Maybe we could go stock up on some stuff huh?" I nudged her gently.
She nodded, "Sounds good 'cause I have a feeling the rain is gonna get worse later."
"Yeah...what do you want for dinner?"
"Umm... I dunno I just woke up silly," she wrinkled her nose at me.
"Well I figured, we can get breakfast out, make grilled cheese for lunch and then buy dinner while we're out so we can watch movies and…" I bit my lip thinking about what I really wanted to do all day, then mumbled out, "Make love all day."
She gave me a coy smile and nodded, "I like that plan."
"Okay well…" I felt the corner of my mouth inch higher, "What are you making me for dinner," I nudged her to get my point across.
She laughed, "Hmm… what are you in the mood for?" She asked, walking towards the kitchen.
"I think anything would be better than what I have had for dinner for the past two months," I informed her, following her to the kitchen.
"Gotta make my job difficult don't ya?" She teased as I leaned against the doorframe.
"Yep."
"Well…" She pulled herself up onto the counter and kneeled there as she began digging through the cabinets. "Do you want like soup? Pasta? Good old fashion meatloaf? Mexican…" I could hear the clinks from the cans as she moved them around. She looked so cute doing that, I just had to get behind her and kiss her somehow; I had missed this so much. So I kissed her between her shoulder blades.
"Fried chicken," I murmured.
"You want some southern food huh?" She looked at me from over her shoulder as I wrapped my arms around her.
"Yes please."
She leaned back into me, completely trusting that I wouldn't let her fall. "'Kay, you want mashed potatoes and gravy and all that stuff too?"
"Yes," I mumbled between kisses on her neck making her hum happily.
"I can do that then," she responded happily.
"Good." I ran my lips along her neck, making her shiver with excitement in my arms.
"Now get me down so I can get dressed," she ordered.
"Kay." I agreed, pulling her off the counter and spinning her, making her laugh before setting her onto the ground gingerly.
"I love you Jazzy," she said, standing on her toes so she could reach my lips.
"I love you too," I leaned down and kissed her gently for a minute before letting her go so she could get dressed. I brushed my teeth and spiffed myself up a little while I waited for her.
Once she came out in a long sleeved shirt and jeans we left for the grocery store. We drove there and the entire time she held my hand, it was so nice to be near her again, I didn't want to let her go. I watched her in the store, choosing to push the cart as she practically danced in front of me, picking items and tossing them into the basket, she mesmerized me, entranced me with the sway of her hips, the flick of her wrists as she grabbed items off the shelves and put things into the cart. Every time she would catch me looking at her longingly she would run over and quickly peck me on the lips then run back and continue her dance.
About an hour later we were done at the store, we got our breakfast from Burger King and we were on our way back home. We stopped momentarily so I could buy her another bracelet from the vendor I usually went to. This time I picked out one with a three leaf clover, because she was my good luck charm and gave it to her, earning a happy clap and a huge kiss in approval. I guess she liked my apology for the break up in rehab.
When we got home we ate our breakfast and she put the first movie in so we could cuddle, and honestly, I can't remember any of that movie, because one way or another we ended up making out, and the make out turned into more. A drop-my-pants-and-stick-my-very-hard-dick-in-her-and-moan-a-fucking-lot-because-it-felt-so-good type of more. Afterwards we cleaned up and cuddled some more, she watched whatever movie she put in while I was content with kissing the side of her face and nuzzling her neck.
Lunch and the cuddle time after was much the same, we kissed some more, gentler and less urgent than when we had this morning, but we still ended up in quite the same fashion… pants off, with her on top of me, writhing and moaning as I guided her hips up and down, her fingers tangled in my hair as our lips fought to stay connected. We went over the edge together, panting and murmuring how much we loved each other before collapsing on the couch, entirely spent and at peace with the world.
The rest of the day followed the same pattern, I think we were making up for lost time, and I was seriously beginning to worry that I was going to chafe her with as much sex as we were having, but she kept pushing for it, kept wanting it, kept going for it, so I wasn't going to stop her. I was nervous about having to work in a school, around a bunch of teenagers and their severely fucked up emotions and their constant need to hurt and berate each other, but I had to do this… For Alice… For us… And for this small piece of paradise I have going right now, I would do anything.
End Note: So it will be a little bit before we update again, we have to get through November, but hopefully begining of December you'll get the next one.
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