Warning!! (Romanti) Smut alert! You've been warned.
"Sara, Honey, what's wrong?"
"It hurts. I'm so sorry. I must still have some bruises in there that haven't fully healed."
"Oh Honey. It's ok. I wasn't expecting to even get this far today. I didn't think we'd get too much further than your bra off. It was a nice surprise." He spoke honestly. She didn't deserve to have him lie to her; especially about anything related to their relationship.
"I know, but you made me promise not to take your shorts off unless I was ready." He gently pulled her to his chest when he saw her eyes fill with tears. He knew she was feeling guilty.
"You were ready. You didn't break your promise Sara. It's going to take some time. I love you and I told you that if it never goes all the way then that is perfectly alright with me. I don't need sex with you to be happy. I just need you to be happy." She cried at his words of love and he cradled her to his chest a little closer; even though it didn't seem to be physically possible.
"I love you so much Gil. Thank you for loving me."
"I love you too Honey. Thank you for waiting for me and loving me back." She relaxed in his arms for a few more inutes bfore craning her neck up to look at him.
"Can I try again?" He nodded and kissed her before lying back again. She took just as long to sheath herself on his body as she did the first time. He watched her face and knew she was still hurting. He stilled her hips.
"Just stay still and get used to the feel of me. I can tell you one of my fantasies if you'd like." She nodded; always eager to hear him tell a story.
"I used to dream regularly about you. The most recurring one is sort of out of body experience. It first appeared after I watched A Christmas Story. I have this man, I guess you could call him a ghost, come to me and show me what my life is like if I continue ignoring you. It's not pretty. I die a lonely old man. Then he shows me my hearts true desire; you. I see us kissing and making love. I see a child being born. It tells me what I have to do and in my dream I act on it. I kiss you in the middle of the lab and take you back to my office and proceed to let my baser desires control me. I take you on my desk and up against the wall and on the couch and finally on the floor. It is rough and I hear you scream your pleasure as I send you into bliss over and over again. I usually wake up with wet shorts." She smiled at him and he smiled back. It was her turn.
"I have had dreams of being on your desk too. I would come in to talk to you and notice that you have a headache. I close the door and turn off the lights. I would kneel on the floor by your chair and turn you to face me. You are so stunned by my brazen action that you are speechless and helpless to stop me when I unzip your pants. Let me tell you that although I dreamed you up as a large man, it never even came close to the reality inside of me now. Anyway, I opened your legs and take you in my mouth. I love to hear you groan and feel your hands in my hair. I pump you until you explode your unique taste down my throat. I swallow every drop selfishly. You regain your senses and haul me to my feet. I love that I am firmly in your clutches and it looks for a moment as though you can't decide to kiss me or yell at me. Since it's my dream, you always kiss me. It's hard and soft and gentle and demanding and possessive all at the same time. You strip my shirt and bra immediately following up with my pants and panties. You sit me on your desk and begin to take me to heights I have never been to before. The fact that we are in your office at the lab heightens my response and you love it. Naturally, since it is a dream, there is nobody around to bother us or come bursting in as I scream your name during my climaxes. Oh the wicked things your mouth does to me. That's usually when I wake up."
"Wow. That's quite a dream. I like it so much better than my own. I do agree with you, the reality is so much better than the dream." Neither knew when she had started to move, and neither was making an attempt to stop. Sara was pleasuring herself on him and he loved it. He caressed her hips while she moved on top of him moaning in pleasure. He joined her creating a duet of voices. He felt her muscles a fraction of a second before she stilled and shivered. He lightly thrust up a few more times and moaned her name as well. She had to disengage before falling on him.
"That thing is lethal. Amazing." Sara breathed out into his neck. He could only nod and kiss the top of her head. He cupped her chin and prompted her to look at him.
"Are you ok?"
"Yes. I love you. Are you ok?"
"Yes. I love you too." He kissed her and together they drifted off to sleep.
A few days later, it was time for Sara's dentist appointment. Grissom sat in the room with her, but not within reach. He knew without looking up from the article he had been reading that the dentist had just entered the cubicle. She was older and graying. Her hair was tied in a neat bun behind her head. Under her lab coat, she was wearing a fitted skirt and floral camisole. She had deep brown eyes framed by the wrinkles that come naturally with aging. She didn't appear to be fighting the battle to keep a youthful appearance. Her small size reminded him of an aunt he has in Minneapolis that he hadn't seen in years.
"Hello Sara, how are you today?"
"Fine. Frankie, this is my boyfriend Gil. Gil, this is Frankie." Gil shook hands with the woman. He pondered the sound of his new title and decided he liked it; for now. He also knew that he wanted to change it to something better and far more intimate.
"Sara, you didn't have x-rays last time. We should do them to look for that last wisdom tooth."
"Actually I'm pregnant. I also haven't had any pain since I saw you last. I don't think it's going to come."
"Congratulations. When are you due?" She looked at the both of them happily.
"I'm headed to my first doctor appointment after this. I don't know yet. I'm not exactly broadcasting this either." The dentist picked up on her word choice and began to wonder if the baby belonged to this man in the room. He loved her, that much was obvious, but Sara has always been a quiet patient.
"Have you thought about the braces I keep bugging you to get."
"I actually like the gap your teeth." Grissom mentioned quietly. Sara looked at Frankie with a small smile.
"I guess you have your answer. Let's get my teeth cleaned." Frankie nodded and proceeded to clean and polish Sara's teeth. The whole process took roughly fifteen minutes and then they found themselves in the car once more. She got nervous the closer she got to her doctor's office. Gil took her hand in his to keep her calmer while she drove. He held her hand as much as he could once they left the safety of the car.
She sat nervously on the table in her paper gown. Gil stood in front of her and held her hands while she waited for her doctor. A knock on the door alerted them to company. A woman approximately Sara's age came in the room.
"Hello Sara. It's a surprise to see you again so soon. Didn't you just have your annual exam a few months ago?" The woman had stark blonde hair, which was currently in a long ponytail, and blinding green eyes. She was thin like Sara but about Catherine's height, which without heels was a few inches shorter than Sara. The blue scrubs only seemed to enhance her features.
"Yes. Recently I was raped and as a result of that I am now pregnant. I am here for a prenatal exam."
"I see you brought company."
"Dr. Mee, this is my boyfriend Gil. Gil, meet Dr. Mee." They shook hands.
"Ok, Sara, tell me what happened and we'll go from there." Dr. Mee sat on her stool and listened to the horrific story of what had happened. The doctor paled a little if it was possible on her already light complexion. While he sat listening to Sara tell her story again, Gil decided that it still didn't get any easier to hear. Actually he has heard it three times, but he must have blocked it out at the hospital because he doesn't remember her telling the story to Doc. He had no idea how she could tell it three times now without emotion. Maybe it's because of the job they do and she was used to detaching herself when explaining the evidence. Thankfully, none of them would have to go to court to testify and that the men were never leaving jail except in a body bag.
"Alright. Let's take a look." The doctor explained everything she was going to do and even complimented Doc's stitching of her vaginal walls.
"Sara, have you have intercourse recently?"
"A few days ago was the first time since the attack. Why?"
"There is still some bruising. Was it rough?"
"It hurt and I thought that there was still some bruising. It was not rough and I was in control of the pace and pressure." Gil flushed with embarrassment thankful that he was behind the doctor. Sara was glad that there was a sheet blocking her view of even Grissom at this point.
"Well, the stitches stayed intact and are almost completely dissolved. If you want to continue to have intercourse, then do as you have done so far. Try to refrain from a daily occurrence for now. Go ahead and get dressed and I will get the ultrasound machine to confirm how far along you are. I will be back I two minutes." The doctor left the room and Sara quickly dressed. She sat back on the table trembling. Gil came back to hold her in his arms. When the doctor came back in with the machine, Gil tried to go back to his previous spot. Sara physically requested he stay at her side and see this with her.
The image of a tiny white blob moving around on the screen was so surreal that both Gil and Sara looked at her stomach for any kind of evidence that there was a baby inside her. They found none.
"Well, as you can see, he or she is alive and well. Since there is movement, you are past eight weeks. That means the baby has his or her own blood and circulatory system. The arms and legs are still buds and I don't see any definitive fingers. The head is still curved in toward the heart a little bit and there is still a tail bud. You are nine and a half weeks. I want to see you again in three weeks and I will do another ultrasound to make sure. I will also want to do an amniocentesis to make sure there are no abnormalities. This is common test done in women over thirty five. After that age, the risks go up. Here is a photo of the baby if you want to share it. I will see you in three weeks. Listen to this," Suddenly, the sound of a rapid heartbeat filled the room. They listened for a minute before any comments were made. "Sounds very healthy. I will see you soon, Sara. It was nice to meet you Gil." They both nodded numbly and the doctor pushed the machine out of the room and left them alone. Sara made her appointment and walked to her car. Grissom thought she was being unusually quiet.