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Chapter Twenty One

My body didn't wake, it didn't even move. The next two years were as awful as the first day I was placed in this hospital. Lucas would still visit every day. No matter how booked his schedule got he continued to sit by my bedside every day.

Except he no longer cried every day. It had now become a daily routine for me to roam the hospital halls. I could be well known as the ghost of the hospital! Christmas was once again rolling around the corner and the fresh blanket of snow on the ground looked beautiful against the moon light.

My popularity from my album had died down. Of coarse I was a millionaire, but how do you spend money when you're a vegetable? My fathers hospital expenses had been well paid for, the only thing that had possibly not changed was me being a vegetable and Lucas. Nothing about Lucas had changed.

He looked the same, and he still wore his same old gray jacket in the winter time. He never changed; maybe it was because he wanted to be the same when I woke up...if I ever woke up. I looked up at the clock as it read seven thirty. Lucas would be in my hospital room any minuet.

I rushed to my room floating along the halls. I had just reached the outside of my room door when I heard my sister Carrie's voice in my room. She was talking to some one.

I quickly walked threw the door and looked inside. It was Carrie talking with my doctor.

"So how much longer do you think?" She asked, mind you Carrie had changed over the past two years along with everything and everyone else except Lucas. She was, well a bitch. There is no other way to put it. Sure I love my sister, but she can be so mean for no reason.

"Well her stats aren't exactly climbing" He replied.

"Oh" Carrie paused as a tear trickled down her pale cheek "Please tell me is my sister going to die!" She sobbed, but a half hearted sob. I could tell she was faking. I don't know what she was playing at, but I didn't like it.

"I'll just leave you a minuet" The doctor replied.

"Thank you" Carrie sobbed and waited for the door to shut behind him. Suddenly Carrie's frown turned up into a smile. "Listen here Blondie!" She snapped at me, well at my body. "You've taken everything from me! First you took Austin…yes that's right all he ever talks about is you, you YOU! Then you had to make an album and become world wide and outshine-"

"Carrie?" Lucas stood at the doorway to my room

"Oh Lucas" Carrie look's panicked

"What are you doing here?"

"I was…a…singing…yeah singing to Sami!" She paused "Shine on me today…" Carrie sang

"How was your day?" Lucas grinned moving closer to her

"Good how was yours hun?" hun? I question myself. Carrie walked up to Lucas and leaned in right there in front of me and my body and KISSED him! Just there on the lips! Lucas's arms wrapped around her as Carrie's reached up around his neck, where one of her hands played with his hair. Apparently Austin and she were over.

I felt shattered. Nothing had changed in the past two years. Nothing about Lucas he still wore that same old grey jacket every time he came to see me he still spiked his hair the same way, and he still wore that same burnt out look. But not this time, no he was smiling beneath the kiss I could see it.

My heart literally felt as if it were braking. It hurt inside. I couldn't scream, I couldn't cry. I was so shocked by this; I couldn't believe I hadn't noticed this before. Why would I ever expect him to wait for me? Of cores he would move on I shouldn't have expect him to give up his life for me.

They finally broke apart and Lucas smiled down at her.

"I love you Lucas" Carrie grinned

"I love…." But he trailed off "Hey lets go grab a bite to eat?" He questioned and walked out the door.

"I'll be there in a sec Lucas" Carrie shouted as she turned back to my hospital bed.

"And now to lead sleeping beauty to the fiery pits of hell" It was almost as if flames danced across her eyes as she reached for the plug outlets. She placed her freshly manicured fingers on one of the plugs, and gave a gently tug on it until it fell to the floor. The heart monitor's regular beeping began to slow.

My ghostly figure began to disappear, as did Carrie when she zipped out the door behind Lucas.

"No!" I screamed as tears sprang to my eyes "Carrie how could you!" I was disappearing first I noticed it in my hands as it traveled around my body.

"SAMI!" a voice came from the door way. It was Austin mind you my ghost has almost completely disappeared. "NURSE!" Austin shouted running to my bedside. He tore the oxygen tube from my face and placed his lips to mine. Holding my nose he breathed into me.

"No Sami not like this!" He cried as he placed his lips to mine again. My eyes shot open. Not my ghostly eyes my eyes! It was me again in my body! I gently pushed Austin off of me.

"Sami!" Austin screeched as he looked at me in aw. "Your….your awake" He blinked as if I wasn't real. "Oh god Sami" Austin sighed grabbing me as he began to cry. "Oh Sami they talked about pullin the plug on you so many times! I always knew you were a fighter!" He cried. I didn't know what to sad I was in to much a state of shock. The heart monitor was now beeping frantically.

"She is in shock!" The nurse called from the doorframe. "Out!" She called to Austin as she rushed to me with a needle. Pricki8ng it into my arm I immediately fell back onto my bed.

Visitors would be arriving soon, and I knew it. They would surely call my whole family. And Lucas my heart felt as if it would break again. I wouldn't stay here! I wouldn't look upon his cheating face!

I was well awake now and Austin had left to go get Belle, and Lucas and Carrie were no where to be found. I gently climbed out of bed I still felt so weak from being asleep for so long. I could barely speak, and hardly remembered how to walk. My legs felt like jelly as I tried to stand. I reached a near by wheel chair, but was cut off by a cord attached to me. An ivy in my hand. I grabbed a towel and applied pressure to my hand as I quickly pulled it out.

I plopped down in the wheel chair not really sure of what I was doing, but I knew I had to get far from this hospital. Where to go? What to do? My mind was clouded with questions. I wheeled around in circles in my room. I didn't have much time so I had to make it quick.

Hello I'm a millionaire! My mind practically screamed I could have anyone and do just about anything. I looked to my bedside phone…No bad idea they could trace calls out of that on a phone bill I bet. I looked around the room frantically as my eyes came across a purse. It was my purse My cell phone! I thought praying it would still be turned on. I wheeled to it and pulled out my phone. I couldn't really talk but texting would work.

I'm soaring high above the clouds. Being a millionaire has its quirks complete with private jet. I was heading for the beautiful land of Paris.

"Mu….mus…k" I tried to say, but was still unable to speak well. The waiter on the plane handed me my CD player. I had requested a CD be waiting for me with a portable CD player.

I placed the head phones over my ears and hit play.

I used to make the light shine for you,
The sun has left my sky.
Velvet walls surround my sorrows,
I've sacrificed my pride.

Giving up on me,
You're giving up on me
Giving up on me,
You're giving up on me.

I didn't give up on you Lucas you gave up on me…on us. I had left nothing but a note on my hospital bed as I left that hospital. It contained only an I Love you to my family and a thank you to Austin for saving me. I knew once I got to Paris I would have to heir a teacher to help me speak again as well as a physical therapist to help me walk again. Until then I would have to heir people to help me get around.

I've laid myself to sleep tonight
I know you've played out everything in your mind.

And now you throw it all away,
A shattered memory that you would stay.
Through thick and thin with me,
You're giving up on me.

How could he do this to me? Why did he move on just like that? I shouldn't have expected him to wait for me, but when he told me he loved me…I almost feel as if now it were all only a lie.

Giving up on me,
You're giving up on me
Giving up on me,
You're giving up on me.

I lied myself to sleep tonight
I know, you've played out every line in your mind

I wasn't quite sure at the moment how I would ever get over him. I hadn't cried just yet but I knew that would be coming soon. Once I was alone I knew it would all pour out of me like a black waterfall of secrets.

And now you throw it all away
A shattered memory that you would stay
Through thick and thin with me.

And when you feel the pain,
I'm wishing I could stay.
How can I say I love you back,
You never made me happy.

House hunting that was another thing I had to be looking in to. I wanted to have a house build but I knew it was completely impossible to arrive there and have my home done already. I would need to find a starter place then plan my home.

You've laid yourself to sleep!
I never said this wouldn't hurt.
You gave up everything!
I never said I'd give it back.

I know! (I know!)
You'll never change!
I won't be good enough for you.
I know! (I know!)
You'll make it through,
I'll never be around to see.

And now you throw it all away
A shattered memory that you would stay
Through thick and thin with me.

Giving up on me,
You're giving up on me
Giving up on me,
You're giving up on me.

The song faded out and tears sprang to my eyes as the next song came on. Curse this song! It was like the pledge of mine and Lucas's love all over again. My soft tears turned into hysterics as I pulled a blanket over my head and cried the song continued to play.

Is this a dream?
If it is
Please don't wake me from this high
I've become comfortably numb
Until you opened up my eyes
To what it's like
When everything's right
I can't believe

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me

So, here we are
That's pretty far
When you think of where we've been
No going back
I'm fading out
All that has faded me within
You're by my side
Now everything's fine
I can't believe

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me

And I was hiding
'Til you came along
And showed me where I belong
You found me
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know?
How did you know?

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me

(You found me)
(When no one else was lookin')
You found me
(How did you know just where I would be?)
You broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
The good and the bad
And the things in between
You found me
You found me

The End

Note: Don't freak out! There is a book 2 already in the making it's not over! Don't worry!!!!