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One last touch from Randy's lips to his. "He's gone? Goldie? Randy? No Wade, bring him back! Why are you doing this!" John screamed before his body shook him awake. John shot up in bed, he looked around the room. John's body trembling lightly as he sighed, Randy was no where in sight. "Goldie" he whispered into the the darkened room, hoping that Randy was hidden by the shadows of the darkness. His heart only to ache more at the silence that surrounded him.

John wiped the sweat from his brow and bowed his head. Reaching up with his other hand he touched his lips. The lips where his Goldie had touched then disappeared from his life. No pleading or begging with Wade would change the Englishman's tarnished, drunken mind as the authorities forced Randy to leave his side. John closed his eyes as the memory of Randy being handcuffed then led away flashed into his tormented mind.

John removed the covers from his pajama covered legs and moved to the side of the bed. He swung his legs over to the side, that was when he noticed his quivering self. With a trembling hand he felt for the switch to the lamp on the bedside table. "ummn" he grunted as the light filled the room and flooded his eyes. On trembling legs he slowly rose from the bed only to fall back down onto the bed. "Damn it!" he exclaimed, mad at his shakiness and the thought that he might need someones help to make it to the bathroom.

John sat there waiting for a moment, rubbing his twitchy legs trying to calm them before trying to stand once more. He slammed his trembling hands down onto the mattress when he fell back down on to the bed, his legs just too unsteady to stand on. "I fuckin hate you Wade Barrett!" John screamed out in total frustration, not caring if the disturbed man heard him or not.

Tears of anger and embarrassment fell from John's eyes as he slid off of the bed onto his hands and knees in a feeble attempt to crawl to the bathroom. With wobbly arms and legs he manged to make his way into the bathroom, raising up slowly he found the light switch and turned on the light. He became extremely worried by the energy it took out of him to crawl the small distance to the tiny room.

He was so disturbed by the condition of his body he never heard the door to the room he slept in being opened. A pair of gentle eyes began to water as they watched the once strong man struggling to stand if front of the commode. John struggled to grasp hold of the vanity so he could stand. The tears of anger making their way down his cheeks as his knees began to falter. His arms too weak to pull him up and his legs to unsteady to hold their own.

"John" John jumped at the soft accented voice that came from behind him. He turned to see the saddened concerned face of the man who heard his cry of anger. "May I help you? I promise I won't touch you any place you are not comfortable with." came the gentle tone. John sighed in frustration and nodded his head as Justin reached out his hands...

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"Thanks for bailing me out." Randy spoke sadly as he rubbed his aching wrists, the feel of the cold steel still lingered. Hunter gave him a gentle pat on his shoulder. "Your welcome. Sorry I haven't been around for you kid." Hunter said with a worried tone. "That's alright. I know Evan's been keeping you busy." Randy replied. He was trying to keep his tone light so Hunter wouldn't keep worrying about him. All he wanted to do was be in John's arms but knowing that was not possible he would settle for a hot shower and a really good cry. Randy was just wondering how long it would take for the latter to begin as he felt the tears just below the surface.

Randy laughed lightly as they walked out of the jail. "What is it?" Hunter asked not too sure what was so funny. Randy shrugged his shoulders as the moisture filled his eyes. "I was just wondering when I became such a female?" Randy whispered as the first of the fresh tears began to freely fall. "When you first laid eyes on him." Hunter softly stated...

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Justin held onto John tightly as he helped John back to the bed and sit up against the head board. No words were said in the bathroom as Justin helped John complete his business. Justin discreetly kept to himself what he thought of the amazing view of all that was John, out of respect for the hurting man he kept quiet. He had helped John to wash his hands and face before putting his arm snugly around John's waist.

"Thank you" John finally spoke as Justin pulled the covers up to his chest. John remained sitting up in bed not even ready for sleep to reclaim him. "Your welcome John. I know what you need and I wish I could bring him back to you, but if you need anything I can give you, just ask. Heath and I are both here for you." Justin spoke honestly.

"It hurts." John whispered. "I can give you your pain pill if you want." Justin offered. "There is no pill strong enough to ease this pain. No pill can." John bowed his head into his still trembling hands feeling the need to cry, but the tears would not come, no tears would come. This began to frighten John in fear that he was truly losing himself...

October/11/2010

The rest of the week went by in a blur for John. A very painful blur. Physically he was still feeling shaky on the inside and at times his hands would tremble for no reason. Mentally John Cena was falling apart, slowly he was breaking. John feared the worse when no tears would fall, he knew he was becoming blank, a void, zombie like.

Wade was loving breaking John. John would do as Wade would tell him, becoming subservient. Doing whatever he was asked in fear of what Wade would do to him or even worse, to Randy. Wade threatened John with a more worse punishment if he didn't do as he was told and the threats would almost always involve Randy. John would begin to tremble as the thought even accrued to him, feeling defeated he gave in doing as he was told.

Through out the weekend Wade would tell him to sit naked at his feet or bring him coffee, he would do it. When Wade ordered John to kiss him, he would do it. When Wade told him to masturbate in front of him he did it. Wade licking the cum from John's hand when he was done. No matter how odd or how vile he would do it. Had the fight truly left John? He had feared so. The only thing keeping John going throughout his hell was the thought of at least laying eyes on his Golden one.

It was two in the morning and John woke up from yet another nightmare. John didn't know which part of the nightmare was worse. The part where he was struck by the volt or Randy being ripped from his life.

It must be the part where Randy was taken from him he thought, because every time he thought about Randy not being in his life it felt as if he had plastic wrap, wrapped tightly around his face and he could not breathe. To Randy it felt the same...

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"Damn! Damn! Damn!" Randy yelled out in pure frustration as he set up in bed. He was awoken by a horrific scream. His Baby's scream was what he heard. It played over and over in his mind. Every time he closed his eyes and sleep claimed him, the lightning flashed and the scream came. "DAMN!" Randy yelled out again as he rubbed his eyes.

"Randy! Hey everything alright?" Cody asked as he was jolted awake. Cody had agreed to share a hotel room with the moody man. No one else wanted to and he had felt sorry for him. "I can't fuckin breathe Cody! What do you think? Hell no everything is not alright! My baby is with that damn psycho and every time I sleep I hear his screams!" Randy exclaimed.

If the lights had been on Randy would have seen the look of fear that crossed Cody's face. It had been a very long time since Cody had seen Randy's anger. It was something to this day he wished he could forget. Everyone knew that Randy had anger issues in the past, but only Cody knew just how deep those ran. Randy fights everyday to keep that demon inside but Cody was fearing it's release.

"I'm sorry he's not here." Cody spoke barely above a whisper. He knew getting angry with Randy would not help the Viper. It could only make matters worse. Cody removed his covers and climbed off of his bed making his way to Randy's. "Randy it's two in the morning, can I hold you and maybe you can get some more rest. No offense but you are looking rough." Cody spoke honestly as he sat on Randy's bed.

Randy took in a deep breath trying to retain his anger. He held his breath for a moment then slowly let it out. "I shouldn't have yelled at you Codes I'm just losing it here man. It's only been a few days and I feel like I'm suffocating. I can't breathe Cody, It hurts my lungs to even think about him being with Wade. John should be here WITH ME!" Randy erupted once more. This time though he felt Cody jump as the gasp left his throat.

"Shit Cody I'm sorry, I didn't mean to frighten you." Randy said. Cody moved away from Randy. Randy knew he fucked up and scared the younger man. Randy reached over and turned on a soft light. "I'm not going to hurt you Cody. I promised you never again and I meant it." Randy stated as he looked at the fear written across Cody's face.

Cody looked down at his hands as a tiny flash of memory invaded his mind. A memory of his wrists being handcuffed to a bar stool as the a big boot slammed into his gut. Randy sighed knowing what Cody was thinking about. "I'm sorry I hurt you that Cody. I really am. I was out of my mind. I'm better now Cody. I never want to be that person again." Randy tried to reassure him. Cody looked up at Randy, Randy was relieved to see a half smile cross his lips.

"I know you are better now. It just, well you know brought back..." "Yeah I know, I didn't mean to make you relive that night. I wish I hadn't hurt you, I should have never drank that night." Randy interrupted. Cody slowly reached over and took Randy by his hand. "That was a long time ago. I never knew I would feel that way about you leaving me. Leaving me alone. I gave you what I thought you needed at the time. I don't regret it. I still love you and you will always be my best friend." Cody explained remembering what led them to that fight.

"You knew me before I even knew myself. I finally opened up and excepted I was gay after that night. You helped me more than you will ever know, You led me to him." Randy responded. "No Randy, he led you to him. He gave himself to you. John loves you Randy, you two will get through this." Cody stated.

Randy nodded his head, "Yeah but will John be the same? Will we both be the same. Cody I have flashbacks from watching Wade, well you know. Wade forced John to submit to him." Randy said. Cody's eyes went wide. "It's only been one week and Wade forced John? Then tried to kill him?" Cody asked stunned by what he had just heard. "Yes, I'm afraid for John, who knows what Barrett's fucked up mind could come up with. What if he hurts John worse and I'm not there for him." Randy began to tear up.

"Rand you will drive yourself crazy with 'What if's'. Come on and try to get some sleep. Raw is tonight, at least you will get to see him." Cody said trying to make Randy feel better. "How can I look at him and not want to hold him, touch him?" Randy asked as he laid back down, Cody laid down beside of him...

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Two hours before Monday Night Raw and John walked into the arena and into the locker room. The rest of Nexus behind him except for Wade. Every superstar that was there stared as Wade held John's hand. John's head was lowered as the spectators looked on. Heath nodded his head at Justin, Justin nodded his head back and whispered something to Wade. "Cena go get me a drink from catering." Wade ordered with a smirk on his face. John knew he had no choice, he could hear the snickers and giggles behind his back as he walked toward the locker room door.

John closed the door behind him and looked around the hall. "Where are you Goldie? I need to see you." John thought to himself as the plastic wrap feeling hit him full on. He literally had to stop and touch a wall to hold him self up. John was startled when the door that was two inches in front of him opened. He stood there for a few seconds waiting for someone to come out of the room but no one did.

Curiously John moved to the door and looked inside. That's when he saw him, his Goldie. Standing with his back to a wall waiting for his baby to enter. John looked down the hall,he was almost sure no one saw him, he entered the room and closed the door.

Randy and John found their way through blurry eyes onto one anothers arms...They shared a kiss that stopped the world from spinning and time from moving on...

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