Disclaimer: I do not own Beyblade.
No yoai, no rape, no sexual abuse.
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Past and Present
by zzdoricorezz
Chapter 25
"talking" 'thinking' =flashback= i/ Russian /i
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I'm standing in Boris' office looking out the window, trying to figure out just what exactly it is I'm going to tell Mr. Dickenson. From Mr. Dickenson's view, the grandson of the most feared man in Russia and Japan gets adopted by the man who was his partner in crime and has been investigated for child abuse.
For a moment my mind starts wondering back to the abbey.
=Flashback=
I have been launching my beyblade for last two hours now with no rest in between. My hands are aching and they're starting to refuse any more co-operation with the launching. My legs are shaky and my shoulders feel like I'm carrying something twice my wight. I'm starting to skip breaths, taking longer breaths trying to keep my body from seizing on me.
There's a guard that was assigned to me today watching me closely. I know he is wishing for a mistake to take place. This session was supposed to end ten minutes ago, but I guess the guard wants to see how much further I can go before I collapse.
I can feel my eyes lids drooping, I feel like falling asleep while standing. My right foot slowly starts to give way, slowly slipping out from under me. All I can do is wish this guard ends the session before I hit the ground.
My foot starts slipping and I try to keep it steady but my muscles have had enough and refuses to help me out. My foot slips and I drop down onto one knee. I have to stop myself from falling over by putting my hands on the ground.
I'm so tired I didn't even notice I'm on the ground until the guard starts walking closer shouting at me. "Get up, you weakling. You're far from done!" The guard shouting at me wakes me up.
I push myself up and find my balance on my feet. "Now launch!" The guard points to the beydish.
Although I have done better than anyone else in this session, it doesn't matter how good you are. You are forced to train until you fall unconscious.
The guard's attention is turned to the door when it slowly creaks open and Boris steps in. The guard walks over to Boris and I can hear them talk but I can't make out what's being said.
I notice out of the corner of my eye, the guard bowing slightly and then leaves the training room.
I'm still standing in a launching stance after being shouted at but I haven't restarted launching yet and my legs are threatening to let me fall once again. Boris walks over to me and stops right next to me.
"I hear you broke a launching sequence by dropping to your knees." Boris puts a hand on my head.
I drop my arms to my sides and I can feel the tension leaving my muscles, I'm relieved to not keep my arms up. But now to face the consequences for falling out of pure exhaustion. I slowly nod, not using any words.
Boris is slowly running his fingers through my hair as he pulls his hands away. I'm so tired I lean into his touch without thinking, it feels comforting. Boris places his hand on my shoulder and turns me towards him and then he bends down and picks me up.
=End of flashback=
I'm pulled from my thoughts by feeling a hand on my shoulder. I snap back to the present and I turn to see who's hand it is only to find Boris standing next to me.
"Your mind is a million miles away Kai." Boris tells me as he also looks out the window.
"Mr. Dickenson is on his way up." Boris informs me, he tightens his grip for comfort silently saying 'I know this is going to be hard', then he turns and walks back to his desk.
I smirk, Boris shouldn't underestimate me. I know just how to deal with other people.
With no emotion.
There's a knock on the door and a BEGA employee first steps in to announce Mr. Dickenson's entrance, then he leaves the office. Just before Mr. Dickenson enters the office I hear him say something to the BEGA employee. Just hearing his voice makes me a bit nervous, now I'm not so sure how to tell him.
Mr. Dickenson steps into the office and looks at me first. "Kai my boy, it's good to see you." Mr. Dickenson greets me first with a lot of enthusiasm.
"Mr. Dickenson" I greet back not using his name Stanley like grandfather, I don't want to sound like him. I keep my mask in place not revealing any kind of emotion.
Another man follows behind Mr. Dickenson with a briefcase in his hand.
"I'm Richard..." Richard holds out his hand to shake Boris' as he gets cut off mid-sentence.
"From the child protection services." Boris just glances at his hand and then look back at the man almost like to stare him down.
"Right the reason why we're here." Mr. Dickenson turns to Boris. "Can we have a minute alone with Kai?"
"There's no need for that." I say before Boris gets a chance to talk. "I signed that paper, what else do you need to know?" I say a bit annoyed but still keeping my mask in check.
"We have to talk to you in private for this visit to be legitimate." Richard says before any other words are said.
Boris looks over to me silently asking what I want but I don't respond.
"Very well. I'll leave you for a minute." Boris walks towards the door and gives me one last look before he closes the door behind him.
As soon as the door closes Mr. Dickenson steps closer, almost jumping to me. "Kai can you tell me what's going on?" Mr. Dickenson asks almost in a plea.
"It's simple really, Boris wanted to adopt me and I agreed." I state flatly. I can ignore a lot of things but a grown man whining is not going to make me keep my sanity.
"Tell me, how did this adoption come about?" The child protection agent asks me calmly. "That is none of your business." I tell the man, I don't even know him, did he really think I'm just going to talk to him about my personal life?
"Please understand I have to ask you these questions..." Richard is cut off by the phone on Boris' desk ringing. I walk closer to the desk, pick up the phone and slam it back down. I'm already tense and annoyed, I don't need a phone ringing to bother me as well.
"What part of 'I agreed to the adoption' don't you fully understand?" I ask the agent with an angered expression on my face fitted with a glare, I can immediately see how he crumbles.
"Kai do you know..." Richard is once more cut off mid sentence.
"Kai, you can't possibly think that this man cares about you?" Mr. Dickenson pleas again. "Don't you remember what happened in the abbey, to all those kids, to the demolition boys?" Mr. Dickenson asks me in a serious tone. "Kai, this man is a monster." Mr. Dickenson lowers his voice somewhat just so that Boris can't hear him calling him a monster.
My heart suddenly starts beating at a strange pace, that word he just used, monster, it changed the whole atmosphere.
"You. listen. to. me!" I raise my voice, I'm sure everyone outside the office can hear me.
"I agreed to the adoption by my own free will, what part of that don't you get? Now do yourself a favour and stop bothering me." I command in a harsh tone.
I walk past Mr. Dickenson towards the door, but as I pass him he grabs me by my wrist.
"Kai, do you know what he did to Hiro?" Mr. Dickenson is not going to believe that an evil man like Boris cares for me.
"Let go." I angrily command/growl and then I harshly pull my hand away. I walk out of the office and slam the door behind me and head straight for the stairs. I don't feel like being around people right now.
Mr. Dickenson jumps slightly as the door slams shut.
Mr. Dickenson just keeps staring at the door, he cannot believe what Kai said. Mr. Dickenson is still staring at the door when it reopens and Boris steps in.
"Was it really necessary to upset him?" Boris asks Mr. Dickenson almost in a mocking tone knowing he's walking away with this one.
Mr. Dickenson pulls his jacket straight. "I think we are done here." Mr. Dickenson tells the agent from child protection without even looking at him and then walks out the door without saying anything else.
Boris watches them till the door closes and then he smirks, another sweet victory over Dickenson.
As soon as I reach the staircase I break out into a run as fast as my feet can carry me. I burst through the door to the roof and when I hear the door close behind me I stop. I just stand still not moving, just trying to rid myself of the feeling of my personal space being invaded.
=Flash=
"Kai, you can't possibly think that this man cares for you?"
=Flash=
"Kai, this man is a monster."
=Flash=
I open my eyes when I feel a warm wet substance on my face, I lift my hand and wipe away a lone tear.
=Flashback=
I stand up from my bed and the blanket that was wrapped around me drops to the floor. I walk to the door and step into the freezing hallway and head towards the training rooms. The cold is too much, I'm not going to get much sleep at all, so I may as well train, it'll warm me up.
I reach the training rooms, it's just past midnight and it's empty and filled with dead silence. I get to pick a dish since I'm the only one here and I start launching. A few minutes later the door opens and I turn to see who it is.
An abbey guard walks closer to me. "What are you doing?" He demands to know as he walks closer. "No one is supposed to be out of their rooms!" The guard shouts at me and before I can say anything he's grabbed me by my arm and starts to drag me out of the training room.
I don't struggle or try to pull away, I've learned that the more you refuse to co-operate the angrier the guards get, so I just let myself be dragged as I try and stay on my feet.
We come to Boris' office and the guard roughly pushes me inside. I quickly steady myself so that I don't fall over, Boris would not be impressed.
The first thing I feel is the warmth of the heater in Boris' office.
"What is this?" Boris demands to know from the guard. "He was in the training room after the lights was switched off." The guard tells Boris and then leaves.
Boris looks to me. "What were you doing in the training rooms?" Boris wants to know. This is not the first time I was caught out of my room after all the lights was switched off and everyone is supposed to be in bed.
"I was training." It was not just about the training I was trying to get warm. "What for?" Boris asks me in a slightly annoyed tone, he is surprised I gave up my little free time I do get to rest.
"Couldn't sleep." Boris doesn't seem to believe me, since you only get to leave when the guards decide you have trained enough, and that's usually when you can barely stay standing.
"Why not?" I don't reply, I don't want Boris to think I'm weak because of the cold that keeps me awake. "Why not Kai?" Boris wants an answer.
"I'm cold." I say just above a whisper, slightly ashamed.
=End of Flashback=
I can remember the next night I found an extra blanket on my bed.
Mr. Dickenson doesn't know what he's talking about. He doesn't know anything.
=Flash=
"Do you know what he did to Hiro?"
=Flash=
I know Boris isn't the best person in the world, probably one of the worst but he's the best person in my life. He's the only one in my life that hasn't turned his back on me and left me to myself.
I close my eyes and just let the freezing air of an autumn Russia just blow away all of my emotions as my skin starts to numb in the cold. I hope I don't ever have to face Mr. Dickenson again or Tyson and especially Tala and his team, they are the last people on this planet that would ever understand.
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End of chapter 25
To be continued