Chapter 21
Bonding
Kili sighed softly as Vilkas pulled her up into his lap, and started to kiss down her neck. She swallowed a few times and opened her eyes a little, tightening the grip she had on Vilkas' hair, as he shifted under her.
"Vilkas…" She whispered and tried to pull away from him slightly.
Her actions were met with a growl, and his fingers dug into her back.
"Vilkas?" She asked a little firmer and let go of his hair.
He tensed under her and let go of her quickly, hissing under his breath, "I...damn it!"
Kili looked down at him once she was free, concerned, "Love…"
"I'm sorry, he took control for a moment…" Vilkas spat out and looked away from her, refusing to meet her eyes.
The Dragonborn frowned a little and cupped his chin, wanting to see his face, "You did nothing wrong...why are you apologizing?"
"You don't understand!" he snapped and quickly removed her from his lap, standing up to move across the room as fast as possible, "The wolf, he wants you too. To take you on his terms, I won't allow it,"
Kili stared at the back of the man she loved, trying to understand what he was feeling. The struggles, the pain...but she knew she would never know, not unless she was a beast as he claimed to be.
"Vilkas...I love you, I want to be with you. Is that so bad?" she asked softly.
He turned around and glared at her, "You don't know what you are saying, he could hurt you."
"So that's it? We are to be in relationship were all we do is kiss, because you are scared the other part of you will hurt me, in hopes that there will be a cure? Vilkas, what if there is no cure? What then? Are we never to be married or know each other as husband and wife because you wish to protect me from what ifs?!" She screamed the last of her statement, her thu'um leaking in her voice and shaking the walls around them, catching them both off guard. Taking a moment, she took a slow breath, trying to keep her anger under control, "I love you Vilkas...but...I want all of you...And if that means I have to be with the Wolf as well, than I am willing to risk it, please,"
Vilkas swallowed, the woman he loved as begging, begging for something she deserved. Something he was denying her as a coward. Something he hated. With a sigh, and walked back over to her, kneeling in front of her.
"I am sorry…In my arrogance I hurt you more than I have protected you," He whispered, and grabbed her hands, "Forgive me…"
Kili watched as he gently kissed her knuckles, "Vilkas, there is nothing to forgive…"
"Yes there is, because you are right. I cannot live life on a hopeful possibility that something that may or may not be out there. To deny you what you want…" he argued rest his head in her lap. "Could you really love all of me...even the mistake?"
Kili slowly ran her fingers through his hair. "You know the answer because I have already answered it,"
He turned his head slightly and looked up at her. Small bits of gold licking into the sliver gray of his eyes. Yes he knew the answer. He just wants sure how to believe it. Kili, smiled and gently left his face with her hand again.
"You have my love, all of it. Please do not reject it…I do not think I could bear it,"
Using his hand, the companion straightened up, kneeling between her legs completely.
"Kili...it I lose control or you change your mind…"
Kili leaned forward and pressed her lips against his, "I will stop you...promise. I have faith in you. You should have faith in yourself…"
Vilkas didn't respond with words next, he simply kissed her again. Letting his hands wander up her legs to her back as he continued to kiss her. She moaned softly and let her own hands wander as well, whimpering softly when Vilkas pulled away.
"Lay down...as comfortable as you can," he ordered softly and bumped his nose against hers.
Kili nodded quickly and pushed away from him as he stood. Crawling backward she watch him jerk his shirt off and crawl towards her has she fell back against the pillows. Reach if up she ran her fingers up his arms as he settled between her legs.
"I'm going to take my time...make love to you slowly, so that you remember this night," he whispered and pecked her lips gently before kissing down her neck.
"All right…" she breathed and wrapped her arms around him and ran her finger through his hair. "I...I am not sure what to do…"
"Do whatever you feel like doing...make noise, touch me, move against me, anything that make you feel good. I will take care of you,as I did last time," he whispered against her ear before nipping at her earlobe, causing her to squirm under him, chuckling softly he added, "Like that…"
"I want to touch you…" She whispered.
"So touch,"
Kili smiled at his comment and ran her fingers down his back, slowly. Vilkas groaned and ran his hands long her sides, stopping at her breasts. He pulled back from her neck, looking at her confused.
"You aren't wearing bindings…?" he whispered.
Kili shook her head, and bit her bottom, "I was in a hurry to get upstairs...I may have also forgot something else,"
Vilkas narrowed gaze at her, "You minx…"
The Dragonborn smiled and leaned up to kiss him again, "I may have hoped...for this to happen…" she whispered in between kisses.
Vilkas growled and grabbed the side of her face and held her still. Nipping at her bottom lip and tugging gently. Drawing a few noises from her lips as he continued his treatment.
"You may regret it…"
Kili shook her head and wrapped her arms tighter around him, "Never…"
He growled again and returned his hands to her shirt, and grabbed the collar, jerking down to rip it in half. Kili gasped and squirmed again.
"That was your shirt…"
"All the more reason to get rid of it…" He whispered and pushed her down on the pillows once more, giving him better access to her skin.
Kili sighed soft and let her eyes flutter shut as she kissed down her neck. She was not sure what to do or say right now. She was surprised he was even interested in her bosom, being a fighter like she was, there was not much for a man to get excited over.
"Kili,"
His voice snapped her out of her thoughts, and she looked down at him, "Hm?"
"You are thinking too much. What's wrong?" He asked, softly and rubbed her him gently.
"It's just...I know I am not shaped like other women…"
She watched him tilted his head to the side, before shifting up, to allow his hips to press up, and in between her legs. Slowly, he rubbed himself against her, causing her to gasp and arch up against him.
"You feel that…?"
"...Yes,"
"That is what the thought of touching you does to me...the act of touching you, drives me wild. I could careless how you are to other women. I want you. All of you. Do you understand that?"
Kili nodded and started to move against him. Wanting the pleasurable sensation to continue. He chuckled and pulled her tighter against him, pressing the hardened flesh beneath his trousers against her more, watching her eyes flutter and roll back at his teasing.
"Forget about everything else, love. Focus on this, on us," he whispered.
"A-all...right…" she whispered and did her best to nod again, "Vilkas…"
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Kili groaned softly and tensed up, trying not to move. The pain shooting through her was quick, yes, but it was still pain. Natural instinct was to flee, but she did not wish to. Biting her lip she squeezed her eyes shot and wiggled. Her movements of course, worried Vilkas.
"Kili…"He whispered and pressed a few kisses against her eyelids, "the worst is over, I promise…"
She nodded quickly and released a shaky breath, "I know...it just...it hurts more than I thought,"
He nodded and bumped his nose against hers, "I know...but it will never hurt again."
One more nod and she tilted her head up and kissed him. She knew he was struggling to stay still, and for her sake. The kiss was to distract them both, for just a small moment.
"All right...move slow…" She whispered and forced herself to lay still.
Vilkas nodded, doing his best to make her comfortable, and keet true to his promise.
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Kili sighed and squirmed a little, feeling a cool sensation running along her legs. Shifting slightly she opened her eyes, and looked down. Watching Vilkas, clean her, before she grab his attention.
"Love…"
He looked up at her as he tossed the rag aside and laid down beside her, "You alright?"
She nodded and rolled onto her side, to get as close to him as possible, "How long was I asleep…"
"Only a few moment…" He whispered back and kissed her forehead, "You aren't in any pain are you?"
Kili shook her head, "I feel perfect…"
He chuckled in her ear, and rubbed her back gently, "I'm glad...you got rather loud there at the end...I wasn't sure if was because of pain or being overly sensitive,"
The Dragonborn felt her face heat up, "I was loud…?"
Vilkas smirked and looked down at her, "Oh yes...You made very lovely noises my dear. It would seem that my actions drove you mad, with pleasure, because for a moment the only thing that came out your mouth was moans,"
Kili gulped and buried her face in her hand to hide, causing him to laugh again.
"It's not a bad thing to be vocal, love…"
"I know...but you shouldn't tease me…"
"Why not…?" He asked softly and nipped at her ear, "Watching you lose yourself under me was a lovely sight…"
"Vilkas…" she whispered and pressed up against him.
The werewolf smiled and grabbed one of the near by fur covers and wrapped them up together. "Easy love,"
Kili shivered and wiggled again, finding a comforting position on her side. "You are a tease…" she pouted.
"And you love it…"
She giggled and kissed his chin, "I won't lie about that...Is your wolf sated?"
Vilkas hummed and nodded, "For the moment…He like for you to be close."
"Oh?"
"Yes...he's claimed you…"
"You sound upset by that…"
Vilkas took a deep breath and sighed, "I would have you as my wife...which I am thankful I was able to do so. He would take you as a prize…"
Kili nodded once, and started to play with his chest hair. "I will not argue with you...but if he likes for me to be near all the time, perhaps you can travel with me? I need to head back the Graybeards soon…"
Vilkas blinked, "You want me to travel with you..?"
"Yes...I mean...I will be gone a lot and I know it will be frustrating not knowing what will happen to me while I am away and if the wolf drives you crazy than there's another reason for you to be there…"
He cut off her rambling with a kiss, "Easy girl…"
Kili swallowed and looked down her hands.
"I would love to travel with you." He smiled.
Kili's head jerked up at that statement, "Will you?"
"If I am not needed here, I will go with you,"
She giggled and kissed him again, causing him to chuckle as well. "Does that please you?"
"Yes…"
"Good…" He whispered and ran his fingers down her spine, getting her to arch up against him again.
"Vilkas…"
"Shh…" He shushed her and kissed her again, "Let me, love you,"
The Dragonborn smiled and closed her eyes. Letting her lover do as he pleased. Before she fell asleep in his arms.
Drem yol lok! Greetings!
I hope you all like this chapter, I suck at sexiness soooooooooooooo...yeah I hope the Implied actions sates you lovely readers.
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