Chapter 23: Beautiful Disaster

BPOV

"So he's really coming here?" My mom asked excitedly.

I didn't know what the hell was going on with her. She was practically jumping out of her skin in excitement.

"Mom, I already told you he was!" I said in exasperation.

I had just gotten off the phone with Edward only ten minutes ago and she had asked the same question at least five times. My dad just laughed beside me. He found her pestering of me funny while I found it overwhelming.

"I know, but I'm just making sure! I want to know what he looks like!"

I smiled. "He's very handsome."

My dad coughed beside me and I smiled at him. He got too overprotective all the time.

"I'm sure he's not as handsome as me." He said.

"Uh…yeah…sure, if you say so, Dad." I said sarcastically.

He glared at me and I laughed. I sure did miss them.

"Do you have a picture?" My mom asked.

"Actually…no." That was pretty sad now that I thought about it. I dated him for over three months and I still hadn't gotten any pictures of him. I would need to crack out my camera and get some pictures taken at some point.

"Does he have a Facebook?"

I chuckled. Edward with a Facebook. The guy barely knew where the Start button was on the computer, never mind navigating through Facebook.

"No."

"Well this seems like a match made in heaven then because you are the only two people left in the world without one." She said.

I rolled my eyes. "We aren't the only ones."

I didn't see the point in having one. If I wanted to keep in touch with someone so bad, I would ask for their number and give them a call.

"Well, still, you have the same ideas apparently."

"Well Edward isn't very tech-savvy."

She scoffed. "What generation is he living in?"

I chuckled. "I don't know. He's one-of-a-kind."

"And what about his sister?" She asked.

I didn't know why she asked so many questions since she would be seeing the both of them in no time, but I liked answering them nonetheless. I loved talking about the both of them.

It was refreshing to be able to talk to my parents about them. They didn't know about Edward's past. They didn't know that he had destroyed a bar and got in a fight with some guys like the rest of the town knew. They didn't know he had IED. I didn't necessarily want to keep stuff like that secret from them, but I didn't want to tell them right away. For once, I wanted someone to meet Edward while having no predetermined notions on what kind of person he seemed to be.

I wanted them to see him for who he was.

They would find out eventually, I knew that, but not now. I didn't want him being any more nervous than he already was. His voice over the phone let me know that he was seriously freaking out, and I knew if he thought my parents were going in thinking that he was some crazy person, he would have freaked out.

But they didn't think that. My mother was so obviously excited to get to meet him, and even though my dad tried to act indifferent, I knew he really wanted to meet him as well. We had a conversation over the phone the other night. Through the midst of our laughing and jokes, he mentioned that I sounded happier than usual, and I just told him Edward made me happy. At least he knew that. Maybe if they saw how much we both loved each other, they would be more lenient when they found out the whole story.

"She's really smart and funny. I think the both of you would get along." I said.

My mother and Alice were both alike in their hyperness and general happiness for life. I could definitely see them getting along.

She clapped. "Great!" She got up from the couch and started walking around. "Now let's get talking about this place."

I groaned. I knew this was coming. They knew I wasn't friends with Angela and Tanya anymore, but not the specifics. They knew I moved, but they didn't know what my apartment looked like until they came over. I knew they wouldn't be pleased.

"What about it?"

"Bella, you know we could help you get a better apartment." She said.

"I know, but I don't want your help. I don't need to get a bigger apartment, it's just me."

I wouldn't back down from this. There was no way I would take money from them. I could take care of myself. Yeah my apartment was really small, but who cared? I didn't, so what did it matter to anyone else. I didn't need a bigger apartment. I barely ever stayed home all day anyway.

She sighed. "Well I guess there is no fighting with you, Bella, but you need to know that we wouldn't be mad or anything. We want to help you."

"I know, but I don't need any help." I said.

That was exactly why I liked being on my own. I didn't need people needing to pay for me. I got a certain sense of gratification when I got my paycheck at the end of the week and I paid my bills.

My mom just shrugged. "Whatever."

She walked out of the living room and into the kitchen. I didn't know what she was doing in there, but I guessed she just wanted to get away from me for a minute. She wanted to know that I would always need her, and I would always need her, but not for stuff like that. That was my job now.

"Don't mind her, honey." My dad said with an arm over my shoulder. "She just loves you a lot."

"I know, but I don't want her to get mad at me."

"She isn't mad. She is just still having trouble coming to terms that you aren't a baby anymore."

I snorted. "I haven't been a baby in years."

"Literally, yes. But figuratively, you have always been her baby, and mine as well. And now look at you…you have a house, you go to college, you have a job, and a boyfriend…it's a lot."

"But this is what I want. I'm happy."

"I know that, and she knows that. You will just have to see when you have kids on your own. It's hard to let them go."

I sighed. I didn't even know if I wanted kids. I think I did. Not now of course, but when I graduate college. I would actually love to have kids with Edward. He would be an amazing and beautiful father. He already showed how loving he could be as a father with how he was with Alice. I could just imagine him holding a tiny baby girl or boy that he could probably hold with his one hand.

I needed to stop thinking of stuff like that because if that were ever to happen, it would be way in the future.

My phone started ringing and my dad picked it up from the coffee table. He got a confused look on his face when he looked at the screen.

"Er…Asshole is calling." He said.

I laughed at the look on his face and took it from his hand and answered it.

"Hello?"

"Hey, do you mind if we go over now? I know I said three, but Alice woke up and she is too excited to even sit still."

I chuckled. "Sure! We are all just here waiting anyway."

"Alright, well I'll be there in less than five minutes then."

"Alright bye, baby."

He said bye as well and I hung up the phone with a sigh. I couldn't wait to see him. Although I was nervous about what would happen. I hoped my parents would be nice.

"You have your boyfriend stored as asshole? I don't know how I feel about that, Bells." My dad said.

"No, Dad, it's not anything like that. He's not an asshole to me at all. We just joke around a lot."

"Does he call you names?"

"Not maliciously."

I wasn't going to lie. Edward did call me a bitch and told me to fuck off sometimes, but it was all a part of his sense of humor and personality. I never got offended by it, I knew he was joking.

"I don't know if I like that, Bells…"

"Dad, don't even start judging him before you even meet him. I promise you that he treats me very well. I couldn't ask for anyone better."

He sighed. "Okay, well I trust you. I'll make my own judgments when I see the boy."

Then as if on cue, there was a knock at my door and my heart jumped. I got a little nervous and excited at the same time; nervous because I didn't want my parents to make him uncomfortable and excited because I would be seeing him.

I ran to get the door and my mom came out of the kitchen with a curious and excited look on her face. I opened the door and my legs got attacked by a little girl who squeezed me tight.

"Hi, Bella! Where are your Mommy and Daddy?" She asked right away.

"Alice, give her time to breathe." Edward said.

I looked up at him and he looked fine, albeit a little nervous, but he kept his cool.

I laughed. "No it's fine." I turned and held Alice's hand as I did so, so she could see my parents. "Alice, this is my mom, Renee, and my father Charlie."

"Hello!" Alice said and ran straight to my dad first. She hugged him around the waist and I watched my dad's amused, yet surprised expression.

"Hi, Alice." He said.

She pulled away. "I like your mustache. Very cool." She said.

I could hear Edward face-palm behind me and the rest of us just laughed.

"Well thank you!" He said sounded genuinely flattered that she would say such a thing.

"You're welcome!" She said and then turned to my mother. She ran and gave her a hug as well. "Hi, Bella's mommy!"

I looked at my mom, and she looked down at Alice with a soft expression on her face. I could tell Alice already had the both of them wrapped around her little finger. She had that effect on people.

"Hi, Alice! It's so nice to meet you!" My mom said.

"You too! You're pretty just like Bella!" Yeah, if she didn't have my mom a few seconds ago, she definitely had her right then. My mom loved compliments.

I knew her meeting them would have went well, now I just had to worry about Edward. I turned toward him while my parents were enthralled in talking with Alice. He scratched the back of his neck and he looked more nervous than before. I reached over and took his left hand. He would have to shake my father's with his right. I wish there was a way I could get him out of the whole hand-shaking thing, but the truth was, I knew he could do it. Plus, my dad would have probably thought it rude if he didn't. But I did have faith in him. He could do it.

I lifted his hand and kissed the back of it. "You ready, love?" I whispered.

"As ready as I'll ever be." He said.

I kissed his hand once more and turned back to my parents. I walked with Edward further into the house. There weren't that many steps to take since my house was miniscule.

"Mom? Dad?" I said to get their attention.

Alice stopped talking and faced me along with my parents. I saw my mom look Edward up and down, and by the look on her face, I concluded that she liked what she saw.

"This is Edward." I looked over at Edward and he had a small smile on his face. "Edward, these are my parents."

Edward held on tighter to my hand and stepped forward with his hand outstretched to my father. I watched in amazement.

"It's nice to meet you." He said.

My dad studied his face and grabbed onto his hand. Edward squeezed onto my hand impossibly tight. It hurt a little, but I would not ruin the moment for him. I knew he could do it and he was shaking hands with my father with ease.

"Nice to meet you too, Edward. I'm Charlie." My dad said. They both let go of each other's hands and I had a huge smile on my face. "Your sister is quite a character."

Edward laughed softly. "Yeah, she is."

"You raised her yourself?" My dad asked.

I gave him a warning look. That was too much for a first meeting, but Edward didn't seem to mind that much.

"Yes, sir, I did." He said proudly.

I leaned my head on his shoulder silently and subtly letting him know I was proud of him. He didn't freak out, and he sounded proud being the person to raise Alice. He should be.

"Good job." My dad said.

"Thank you, sir." Edward said sounding bewildered.

Their little moment was interrupted by loud laughing coming from our side. My mom and Alice were both laughing about something and I saw an interesting partnership being created. Tonight could get interesting.

"Mom." I said. She looked over to me. "Are you going to say hi to Edward?"

"Oh of course!" She walked up to us and gave Edward a hug. He didn't let go of my hand, but wrapped his other one around her. "Hi, Edward! Sorry, I was distracted by that beautiful little girl over there."

He chuckled. "Completely understandable." He said with a loving look toward Alice who now spoke with my father.

It seemed she wouldn't stop talking. I was so glad that she got along with my parents though. Maybe that could make Edward calm down a little as well.

"Aww…that's sweet." My mom said.

Edward blushed and I smiled and contained myself from kissing his pink-tinted cheek. I didn't want to embarrass him even more.

"Ecy, are we going to stay for a long time?" Alice asked.

"We are staying for a while, why?" Edward asked.

I was so glad to hear the nervousness out of his voice. He felt more comfortable.

"I'm kind of hungry." She said.

"Oh…we ate before we went to park…" He said. He sounded nervous again. I didn't know why.

"I know, but my tummy is yelling at me to eat more!" She said.

"Well why don't we go out to eat?" My mom said. "Lord knows we can't all eat in this God forsaken place." She said.

I rolled my eyes. It wasn't that bad! So what if I didn't have a table?

I looked up at Edward. "We can if you want." I told him.

He nodded. "Sure."

"So Edward, what do you do for work?" My dad asked him.

We were all at a small diner that wasn't too far away from my house. We sat in a booth; my parents on one side, and me, Edward, and Alice on the other. Alice sat on Edward's lap and she ate her macaroni and cheese while Edward didn't get anything. He had already eaten and hadn't checked his sugar after he did so he didn't want to risk anything.

I just got a chicken Caesar-salad and my mom and dad were splitting a big bowl of chicken Alfredo. I felt bad Edward had to sit there and watch all of us eat, but he didn't seem to mind. Alice tried to feed him some macaroni every once in a while, but he would just shake his head and say no thank you. Most of the conversation included Alice. She had a million questions for my parents. She went from questions about my mom's earrings to questions about what I was like as child.

But now that she was occupied with her food, my parents brought their attention to Edward.

"Uh…I deliver papers and I work in maintenance at the hospital." He said.

"Oh…so you didn't go to college?" My mom asked and I gave her a warning glare from across the table.

She didn't pay attention to me. I would but in, if it got out of hand, but Edward didn't seem too uncomfortable.

"No, I haven't gotten a chance to, or have the funds to. I might one day, but for now, I am fairing just fine with the jobs I have and the help I get from the government." He sounded so sure of himself.

No one could ever question his decision. I didn't know where this all came from. I began to realize that Edward always had the confidence in him, he just pushed it back when he realized the person he spoke to knew of his past. He did the same with me when we met. Hell, he did the same thing with everyone else he met when I was with him, including Tanya and Angela. I had a feeling this was different for Edward since he was basically starting a new, fresh relationship with my parents.

I was proud of him.

"Oh well at least someone in this country is getting help from the government for a fair reason." My mom said.

"Yeah I have seen a lot of people use that in the wrong way." My dad said. It looked like he would have embellished on it more, but Alice was at the table. "You don't use it for the wrong things do you Edward?"

And now I glared at my dad. Those kind of questions were so not necessary.

"Dad!"

He just shrugged and Edward put his hand on my knee telling me it was okay. "No, sir, I use my food stamps to put food on the table. That's about it."

"Well good then." My dad said looking kind of embarrassed for even asking the question since there was nothing there for him to get mad about.

"So how long have you guys been together?" My mom asked.

"I already told you, Mom." I said to her.

"I know, but no one asked you, honey." She said. "I was talking to Edward."

I rolled my eyes. "Do you think it will sound better when he says it?"

She shrugged. "I don't know, maybe." She looked at Edward. "Well…"

"We have known each other since the end of September or so…uh…and we started dating in the beginning of November."

"What's the date?" My mom asked.

"Uh…I don't know the exact date." He said.

"Oh. Well isn't that important?" She asked.

"Mom, I don't even remember the exact date. It just kind of happened."

I actually did remember the date that he asked me to be his girlfriend, but that didn't matter. I didn't want them to think that he didn't care or anything. It didn't bother me at all that he didn't remember, I didn't feel like it was such a monumental day. It was kind of like it was meant to be, so it was only a matter of when we decided to succumb to our feelings. There was no reason to put a date on it, it happened when it happened because it was bound to happen at some point.

"Well that sounds like you, Bells, not really into superficial stuff like that." My dad said.

"Exactly." I said sending a thank you look at my dad for not making a big deal of it.

"Dates are so hard to remember anyway." He continued. "Hell, I guess I should know when the Declaration of Independence was signed, but I have no idea."

"Oh I know that!" Alice said. She put her finger on her chin. "July 4, 17…uh…177…" Edward whispered something in her ear. "July 4, 1776!" She said excitedly and Edward chuckled.

"Wow that is impressive for a six year old to know." My mom said with a smile in Alice's direction.

Alice beamed proudly. "Ecy taught me that!"

"Well isn't that nice!" My mom said.

I had a good feeling about the whole thing. Everything seemed to be going very well and I couldn't be happier. Yes my parents made some inappropriate comments, but Edward seemed to take them well and my parents seemed like they really liked Edward and of course Alice.

"So what about dates? What has been your most favorite date, Edward?"

"Not sure." He said.

That was kind of hard question to answer.

"Mom, we haven't been on very many dates." I said to save Edward from having to scrounge up an answer. Both dates were equally amazing. Our first and second dates were ones I would never forget for as long as I live.

"But you both have been together for months!"

"Mom," I said grudgingly. "Drop it."

"I don't understand why you are getting so upset, honey. Don't you want to go on dates?"

I sighed and looked over to Edward. He was looking down at the table. I didn't want to make him feel bad, but I wouldn't lie. "Yes, but they aren't that important. We see each other almost every day."

"Well I demand that the both of you go on a date while I am here." She said. She looked to Alice. "Alice?" She said.

"Yes, Renee?" Alice said while wiping her face of cheese.

"How would you like to spend a day with me and Charlie? Do you think that would be fun?" She asked.

"Yes! That would be so much fun!" She said excitedly and started clapping her hands.

"Great!" My mom said. She turned to Edward. "Would that be okay with you, Edward?"

"Uh...yeah…yeah sure."

"Mom, he doesn't even really know you guys." I said.

"No, it's fine, Bella." Edward said. "If you both were able to raise someone like Bella, I think I can trust you with Alice."

"Aww…" My mom said and 'aww' was right.

He really could be so sweet sometimes and a nice date with him sounded blissful and I couldn't wait. I just didn't want him to feel pressured.

I looked over at him and he gave me a soft smile. I grabbed onto his hand that was still on my knee and squeezed it. I couldn't wait to go on our third date.

Alone.

"So where're you taking me, baby?" I asked him.

He had been a little quiet since we left my house where he left Alice with my parents. We were taking Edward's truck, and I left my car for them to do with it what they wanted. Alice seemed excited to spend the day with them and I knew I was excited to get to spend the day with Edward.

The time on the clock read twelve noon, and I would have Edward all to myself until 7:30.

Amazing? I thought so.

"Uh…for now I figure we can just drive around aimlessly until we find something to do for an hour."

"Didn't you plan this out, baby?" I was only teasing him.

I didn't give two shits what we did. If the whole date meant we would drive around in his truck until 7:30 and just talked, I wouldn't mind. My parents would be leaving tomorrow. They spent more time with Alice all week so she was more familiar with them, and I thought that made Edward a little more comfortable with leaving her there alone with them. But he had a week to plan the date. I offered to come up with it, but he blew that idea off real quick.

"I did, but it's too early to do what I had planned."

"And what is that?"

"Well I figured I would go with the whole dinner and a movie deal. Keep it simple, you know?"

I smiled and leaned over to kiss his cheek. "I like simple. So what are we going to see?"

He smiled. "Saving Private Ryan." He said with a short glance in my direction.

"Uh…babe…I'm pretty sure that's not in theaters."

"Uh…babe…I'm pretty sure you're wrong."

I chuckled at his imitation of my voice. "Shut up."

He reached his hand out to me and I held it between mines. He brought my hands to his lips and kissed the knuckles of my left hand.

"You don't know about the Golden Theater?" He asked.

I shook my head. "No."

"Well I guess you wouldn't. It's really small and only has one theater, but it plays old movies every Friday and guess what just so happens to be playing this week?"

"Wow…that's quite the coincidence."

"Coincidence…or connections. Bev knows the owner. She knew we were going out tonight so…"

"Are you serious?" Even when Bev was miles away she still found a way to help Edward. She had already been gone about a week so only one more week to go until she was back. We all couldn't wait.

"Dead serious. I don't know about you, but I am fucking excited."

I giggled. "Well I guess if you're excited, then I am excited as well."

He pulled the car over near the park. "Alright, I got nothing. Let's just go for a walk and then we can walk to the theater. It's not too far away."

"Sounds good to me."

He smiled at me and I let go of his hand so we could get out of the car. I met him in the front of the car and zipped up my jacket. It was pretty chilly outside but it wasn't unbearable for a walk. Edward zipped up his hoodie and put his hood over his beanie-clad head. He held his hand out to me and I grabbed it and squeezed it tightly.

He smiled at me and we began walking silently. Just holding his hand was enough. Just the thought that he was comfortable with this little public display of affection meant so much to me and I began to hope that Edward really was changing. Not changing per say…more like adapting and accepting. He seemed more comfortable in his skin. I didn't know if I had anything to do with it and it really didn't matter what the cause was. At least he was feeling better about himself.

I just hoped it would have lasted.

I wiped the tears from my eyes and tried to get my sobs controlled.

Edward, the asshole that he was, was laughing at me uncontrollably and leading me to his car with his arm around me. Fucker. He has nerve laughing at me for crying over that movie. It was so sad and beautiful at the same time!

"I-I want t-to punch you in the face." I said.

He just laughed and pulled me closer to his side. He kissed the top of my head.

"Oh, hermosa, you are such a sap."

I pushed him away and he almost stepped onto the street. He didn't look like he minded at all. The jerkface was just about crying from laughing at me. Nice to know my pain is his entertainment.

"I hate you."

He pulled me back to his side. "Why?" He asked with a chuckle.

"You made me go see that movie! How could you do stuff like that to me!"

"Oh stop crying you baby…it's a movie."

"But stuff like that happens, Edward!"

"I know, but it is what it is, hermosa."

I wiped the tears from my eyes. "It was a good movie though, I have to admit."

"Of course it's a good movie. I don't like bad movies."

"Oh well excuse me." I said. There goes that confidence again. I found it sexy.

"Oh shit!" He stopped dead in his tracks.

"What! What's wrong?" I asked frantically. He looked fine.

"My eye! It's twitching!" He said. I sighed in relief. Jeez, he nearly gave me a heart attack.

"So what?"

"Shit, shit, shit…it's still going!"

"Edward…what the hell is wrong with you?" I never understood him. I never in my life saw someone freak the fuck out over an eye twitch.

Paranoid bastard. Adorable paranoid bastard.

"Bella are you kidding me? Your left eye twitching is a sign of bad luck!"

I rolled my eyes. Oh here we go with the superstitions. "You sure it's not the right eye that is bad luck?"

"I don't fucking know, but I bet it's the left one because that is just my luck." He put his hands in his pockets and started walking faster to the car.

I walked after him and rolled my eyes once again. The guy was nuts with his superstitions. They were hardly ever right. Yeah, last time there was the whole cat thing and we got stuck in the mud, but I didn't think that was really that unlucky. That was the best night of my life.

He walked fast back to the car and I tried to catch up with him. I knew the rest of the date would be filled with him being on alert and paranoid about his fucking twitching eye. Maybe I could convince him that the left eye twitching was actually good luck…yeah probably not. He wouldn't buy it. Well he might believe me deep down, but he was too stubborn to admit it.

We finally made it to the car and he got into the driver's seat grumbling to himself. I just chuckled at his craziness and put my seatbelt on.

"Stop laughing at me, Bella!"

"Stop being silly, Edward! Your eye twitched, who cares?"

"I care!"

"Edward, superstitions are stupid."

"I have three words for you, Bella. Stuck. In. Mud."

I laughed. What was so funny was he wasn't kidding at all. He was dead serious about it and I just found it funny. How Edward, a man that was usually really blasé about a lot of things would get so worked up about something so inconsequential. Hell, we just watched an extremely graphic and heart-wrenching movie and he left laughing. Now his eye was twitching and he was nearly having a panic attack. It doesn't make sense, but that was just Edward.

Gullible. That's what he was.

"Stop. Laughing." He said through gritted teeth.

"Oh! This coming from the guy who laughed at my tears!"

"That was different."

"How?"

"Never mind. Just stop laughing at me."

Yeah, that was stubborn Edward's way of saying 'you're right and I'm wrong.'

"Look, can you just calm the fuck down. I don't want to spend the rest of our date with you freaking out." It was funny at first, but if he continued getting all worked up about it and snapping at me, I wouldn't think it was so funny. Well even the ones we love get on our nerves sometimes right?

He sighed. "I'll try." We stopped at a red light and reached his hands out to me. "Can you give me a cigarette?"

I controlled myself so I wouldn't sigh. I wished he would quit smoking. Yeah, he looked hot doing it, but it wasn't good for his health. But, I wouldn't start that fight with him on our date so I reached for his pack in the glove box and took one out. I handed it to him and he put it in his mouth. At the next red light his lit it. He put it back to his lips and sucked the smoke in and I looked away. I didn't want to get in an accident if I jumped him in his seat.

While I looked out the window waiting to find out where we were to go next, I remembered something.

"Oh!" I reached into the back seat.

"What?" He asked and I could hear him blow the smoke out the window. Sexy bastard.

"I brought my camera! I remembered that I don't have any pictures of you."

He held up his middle finger to me. "Get a shot of this."

I laughed and did take the picture. I looked at the picture on the screen and laughed. Figures the first picture I would get of him is one where he is flipping me off. His hand covered his face too. That wasn't a good thing.

We stopped at another red light. "Hurry! Look at me!"

He looked over in my direction with the most obnoxious and scary yet adorable smile on his face and I took the picture laughing my ass off. "Come on! Can't I get a picture where you look normal?"

"That hurts my feelings. I was serious with that last one." He said with a sad voice. Oh, he was a good actor but he was not fooling me.

"Serious, my ass. You looked like a fool."

"You look like a fool."

"You are a fool."

"I got my pimp hand strong, hermosa." He said grudgingly and held his hand up.

I laughed hysterically and reached over and grabbed his face and laid a nice wet kiss on his cheek.

"I freaking love you." I said and kissed his cheek again and again.

"You're going to get us in a freaking car wreck if you keep kissing me and restraining my head, beautiful." He said with a small laugh.

"Woops." I gave him one last kiss on the cheek and sat back down in my seat.

"We can take pictures later. Now, we must eat."

Well. Fuck my life.

The date was going great. Yes. It was. The only problem was halfway through our dinner in which we laughed and joked around with each other the whole time, the fucking power went out in the restaurant. That doesn't sound so bad, right? No, I didn't think so. I thought it was actually kind of cool. It was not every day that the power goes out in a restaurant.

Edward, my superstitious boyfriend, felt differently about the whole situation.

He barely even ate any of his food and his leg did not stop shaking the whole time. He kept telling me he was getting a bad feeling and the worst part about it was that he was starting to make me get worried too. I didn't think his eye twitching meant that we would get bad luck, but I didn't know…it seemed like he had a deeper feeling than just the eye twitching with the way he reacted. I even had to admit, after I thought about it, the lights going out in a restaurant may be a sign of bad luck. I wasn't sure…I was just sounding like Edward right now, but I also had a bad feeling.

I didn't like it at all.

It was six in the evening so we only had an hour and a half left of our date. Edward and I got in an argument in the restaurant when he kept saying 'I have a bad feeling about this, Bella' at least ten times. I wasn't annoyed with him, I guessed I just realized that there may be some validity behind these feelings he was getting because I started to feel them too.

Well anyway, I sort of flipped out on him and told him to just shut up about the whole thing and he got offended and I felt stupid for snapping at him since he was just telling me his feelings. Something I tried so hard to make him feel comfortable telling me. I fucked up, and I knew it was just because I wanted to make believe that nothing was going to happen, but I couldn't fight the feeling deep down in my stomach.

Edward was driving somewhere. I didn't know where it was, but I didn't ask because I just felt ashamed for being a bitch to him. He didn't say a word either. By the direction he was going in, I had an idea where we were heading.

The field.

The field where we got stuck in the mud and the field where I fell completely in love with him. I could still remember dancing with him in the bed of his truck with his sweatshirt on me and beautiful music playing around us. But other than the music there was silence and peace. Something I really needed at that moment.

"I was planning on taking you to the field. If you just want to go home, I guess I understand." He said quietly, but it was loud in the silence of the truck.

"I don't want to go home." I said looking down at my hands on my lap.

"Okay. Then do you want to go there? We can go somewhere else if you want."

I didn't want him to talk anymore because the tone of his voice reminded me of how I took the life and care freeness out of his voice with my pestering. I felt horrible.

"No, I want to go."I said.

He nodded his head and we continued driving. It was already dark outside and I looked straight ahead out the front window. Edward turned the truck and we made it through the trees to the field. He didn't say anything else. He probably thought I would snap at him again. He didn't want to talk to me and I did that. I made that happen. He continued driving and when we made it through the trees, I sighed in relief. It was just as I remembered; beautiful, barren, peaceful…everything that was good.

Thankfully there was no mud and he drove out to the middle with no problems. He shut the truck off and flicked the headlights on so we didn't sit in complete darkness. He rested his head on top of the steering wheel and sighed. He turned his head, his forehead still attached to the steering wheel.

"Are you crying?" He asked in disbelief.

I wiped my eyes. "Yes."

He sighed. "Look. I know I can be annoying…I don't mean to be. I'll try to…"

"No." I said and reached over for his hand. "No, you aren't annoying. I just…I don't know. Can we just forget that whole thing happened? I love you. I don't want to fight." My voice sounded defeated even to me.

"You don't think we should talk about it?" He asked.

I shrugged. "Maybe we should, but I don't want to. I just want to be with you."

He nodded his head. "Me too." He kissed the back of my hand before he let it go. He reached into the back seat and took out a bag. "Come on." He said as he opened his door.

I got out of the truck as well and followed him to the front of the truck. He pulled a blanket from the bag and laid it out on the ground. I watched on with my camera clutched in my hand. He sat down on blanket.

"Come here, beautiful." He said.

I stepped onto the blanket and sat down between his two legs. I leaned back on his chest and he wrapped his warm arms around me.

"You're not too cold are you?" He asked.

"No, I'm perfect." I said.

"This is what I originally had planned before the mud ruined our date."

I chuckled. "It did not ruin it. It was an amazing day."

"I think so too." He said. "So I think my meeting with your parents went pretty good, don't you think?" He asked.

I nodded. "I think so. They really like you, baby."

"You know, I wasn't as nervous as I thought I would be. There was something different. They didn't know all that shit, you know? They took me for who I was."

I ran my hands along his arms. "It's how everyone should treat you."

"I guess there is an easy fix to that, huh?"

"What?"

"Moving away. I could easily do it. I can take Alice and go to a different town in another state. It would be so much easier."

"Why didn't you?" I didn't want him to ever leave of course, but I was curious as to why he didn't so long ago. He probably would have had so many friends and he might have been happier than when I met him.

"Bev." He said right away. "I couldn't imagine ever living away from her. She helped me out so much. Alice loves her too much. I would never take Bev away from her." He said.

That was right. I forgot Bev would never leave her apartment because of Leon and the emotional connections she had to it.

"Do you think she would ever think about moving?"

He shrugged. "Don't know. But I won't try and pressure her."

"I understand."

He tightened his arms around me and kissed the side of my head. "I had a great time today."

I smiled softly. "Me too."

"There were tears, freak outs, and fights, but I would say we laughed more than any of that."

I smiled and got up from his chest. I face him and moved myself so I could straddle him. I wrapped my legs around his waist and he put his hands on my back. I put my hands behind his head and kissed him.

"Not enough of these though." I said.

"Agreed." He said and brought his lips back up to mine.

I moaned against his delicious lips and kissed him harder. I just got my tongue in his mouth when his phone started ringing. Just great. I groaned and pulled away from him.

"I'm sorry." He said. I just shook my head. It wasn't his fault. "Hello?" He said into the phone.

It was Alice. She wanted to know when we were going back. I could hear her through the other end. She wasn't crying, she wasn't upset, but she just wanted Edward back. Edward told her we would be there in an hour or so, and she sighed, but agreed that that was fine. She told him she was having a good time, and even though she sounded fine, I could tell Edward started to feel bad. When he hung up the phone, I asked him about it.

"You want to go back, don't you?"

"We don't have to." He said.

"That's not what I asked."

He sighed. "Yeah, I guess. It's not because I want to get away from you or anything it's just…"

I kissed his forehead. I didn't want him to think I was mad at him. "What is it?"

"I would call my parents and ask them to come home when I was her age. They never did."

I hated hearing little things that like. It made me think of a small Edward, he must have been a beautiful little boy, sitting at home waiting for his parents to arrive. He was still too young to realize the extent of his parent's maliciousness. He was just an innocent little boy wanting love from his parents and he never got it.

"Okay, we can go." I said.

"Wait." He said and pulled me back on his lap when I started to get up. "I have to realize that I'm not them. Alice knows I will never leave her hanging." He said with conviction and confidence. That confidence…I hope it stays with him.

"She does know that."

"Alright, well maybe we can just stay a little while longer."

"Okay. We can take pictures." I said and reached over for my camera.

Taking pictures will distract him. I leaned back on his lap and held the camera up so his face was in the digital screen.

"Smile."

He stuck his tongue out. I took the picture anyway because that was just Edward.

"Do you think that's hot?" He asked.

"Maybe." I said.

He started laughing. "You're a freak."

"Come on, be serious now." I held the camera up again, determined to get a good one. "Aw fuck!" I said and swatted at my face. A bug flew right at my head! Edward started laughing hysterically at me and I slapped his chest. "Not funny!"

"I'm sorry." He said through his belly laughs.

He shook beneath me and I figured that moment was the best moment for a picture. I picked up the camera and snapped a picture.

"Hey!" He said.

He tried to take the camera from me, but I swatted his hands away. I looked at the picture I took and it took my breath away. He was smiling so widely and you could see the twinkle and happiness in his eyes. His happiness exploded from the picture and I didn't think I could have gotten a better picture. It was a nice representation of a happy Edward. An Edward I always wanted to see.

I was too distracted by the picture that he took it away from me.

"Smile, hermosa." He said.

I pulled an Edward and stuck my tongue out. He took the picture and laughed.

"Sexy." He commented.

I took the camera from him. "Come on, take a picture with me." I said.

"Oh fine." He said.

I held the camera out in front of us. We were cheek-to-cheek, my arm around his neck. I snapped the picture and looked at the screen. He smiled for the picture, and so did I. We both looked so happy and so right next to each other. Edward moved the camera so he could look at it. He smiled when he saw it and kissed my cheek.

"A picture really is worth a thousand words, huh?" I said.

"This one only screams a few too me."

"Oh yeah? And what are they?"

He kissed me on the lips softly. "That we look perfect together and I love you so much."

I smiled and kissed him again. "You took the words right out of my mouth, baby."

I lay on my bed with my head spinning with a whole lot of nothingness.

It wasn't nothingness actually, it was just too much to even comprehend. With Edward gone, that feeling came back to me that something dark was going to happen. I didn't know what that meant, but it made me uneasy and unable to fall asleep.

Edward had already fallen asleep and told me goodnight over a text an hour ago. It was midnight now and I needed to be up in a couple hours to see my parents off.

There was a soft knock at my door and I jumped at the sound. I turned in my bed to face the door.

"Come in." I called.

The door knob moved and my mom appeared in her pajamas and her hair all a mess. They stayed at the hotel the whole week, but they wanted to spend the last night with me.

"Hi, honey." She said.

"Hi, Mom." I said.

She walked over to my bed and sat down next to me. She reached for my hands and held them between her cold ones.

"Having trouble sleeping?" She asked.

I nodded. "Yeah. A lot on my mind." I said. "What about you? Why are you awake?"

She rolled her eyes. "Your father is snoring and stealing the blankets."

I chuckled. "Sorry to hear that."

"Yeah, I'm used to it." She said. "So I've been thinking…"

"About what?" I asked.

"I have a good feeling that that boy is your soul mate." She said.

I didn't know where that came from, but I felt it was also the truth.

"You think so?" I asked. At least there was someone having good feelings about something.

"I know so. I studied him a lot. The way he looks at you says it all. I expected more PDA from a young couple, but there is something so…I don't know…mature about your relationship. Like you both are past the whole puppy love stage and you just skipped to the deep love stage that couples married many, many years have."

Her words reminded me of the deepness of my feelings for Edward and also the bad feeling I had in my stomach.

"I guess that's just the way it is." I said.

"You're right. It is, because when you love someone, you don't have to try to love the other. It just happens." She sighed. "Trust me, I know. I love your dad a lot, but don't think that the ease of your love will take away any struggles."

"I know that." I swallowed and my mom noticed how emotional I was getting and pulled me to her side.

"But those struggles won't mean anything to you with all the happy moments I know you will have with that boy and that little girl. She's so precious."

I smiled a watery smile. My tears already started to fall silently. "I know she is. I love her too."

"I know. I can tell." She looked down at me. "Oh honey! Why are you crying?"

I wiped my eyes and sniffled. "I don't know, I just love him a lot and I am happy."

Actually, that was only part of it. I cried because of that feeling, that feeling of the possibility of everything coming crashing down.

The feeling of everything changing.

I knew it was coming and I didn't know if I was ready for it.

If we were ready for it.

He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster?

Beautiful Disaster, by Kelly Clarkson

Okay, this chapter took a complete life of its own, so no prologue this chapter…can't say the same for the next lol.

Big thanks to Alexa my friend, pre-reader, and now she would like to be called BETA! Hahaha She yells at me for my tenses. (she doesn't really yell, I'm just being overdramatic but still) I can't help it! But she fixes it for me and all is good in the neighborhood. (Sorry. It's almost 2 in the morning and I'm a little loopy.)

I did review-teaser-replies last chapter, and I will this chapter as well.

Next chapter will be out soon!

Review please!