A/N: (Is just going to ignore the fact that it's been 13 days since I last updated... or something like that...)

For Bee for her reviews, they make me happy. Tusen takk.

For FitchSwitch, because Tell Me A Story and Never As It Seems are some of the best new stories I've read on here.

And for Es... I'd put in a disclaimer, but I have a feeling you'll read this sometime tonight. :P

And with that out of the way... Part 2 of the diaries :D Have fun :D

Chapter 24: …to a story

Katie - Bristol

I have no idea what the hell she is doing to me. We were going to talk, not nearly have sex on the kitchen counter with Naomi in the house. We were going to define what we were to each other, talk about what the kissing on the way to London meant. She was not meant to look at me the way she was looking at me, she wasn't meant to steal every coherent thought I had just with that look. She wasn't, but she did.

I've never had anyone look at me like she does. Like I'm her own personal saviour or something. I don't know who started it, it might have been me, but all I knew in that moment was that I didn't want to stop. I don't know what she sees when she looks at me, all I know it that I've never felt so… Wanted.

So when she lifted me on to that kitchen counter, kissing me, I was kissing back. I was holding on to her like she was gonna disappear if I didn't hold on tight enough. I wanted to ask her what it meant, what we meant to each other. I wanted to ask her if this meant that we were a couple, if it meant we had to tell people about us. There was only one slight problem, I couldn't remember a single question I had. I'm pretty sure if you'd asked what my name was at that moment, I wouldn't quite know what to answer. I knew her name though, I was moaning it rather frequently, sighing it in to her mouth, breathing it over the skin on her neck, tracing it on her lower back.

I never thought I'd say it, but I've never been more happy to have someone interrupt me in my life. It was definitely completely embarrassing when it happened (I had my hands all over Effy, clutching her closer with my legs, kissing her until I saw stars… At least I hadn't started undressing her, although that was next on my agenda.), but me and Effy really need to talk. And I mean talk, not jump each other like we're two cats in heat.

I think it's the eyes. They look right through you, see what you're trying to hide. What you don't even know you're hiding. And when they look at you like you're the only person they ever want to look at… How can you not jump her? Yeah… It's got to be the eyes.

And to be honest, the thought of having sex with a girl… It freaks me out. I mean, how do you do it? Do you have to go down on them? Maybe you just do what you do to yourself, only on her instead? I wonder if there's some kind of class, or book, or something to help you learn these things. (God, if someone caught me with a book on lesbian sex…) Maybe I should just raid James room, he's bound to have some sort of… reference material… I should look into it. I mean I can't ask Emily, that would be mortifying. I haven't even told her I like Effy.

So Naomi interrupting us? A very, very good thing. (Although, her not interrupting might have been a good thing too… God, I'm confused.)

Anyways, on to something new, I can obsess over Effy later. Emily is here! She came down with my mum the day we finished our exams. I wish she'd come a bit earlier, she could have helped me with history. I'm rubbish at it! Think it went sort of ok, though, Naomi helped me study the other day and actually made more sense then our teacher ever did.

We had a "nice" family dinner, complete with some kind of green goo my mum insisted was food. Dad wasn't all that happy that she just included herself into the family, but the dinner went surprisingly well. They were both struggling to at least be civil to each other. James wasn't all that happy either, until mum announced that Emily was moving back. I've never seen the little perv that happy, except maybe when I gave him one of my old skirts and told him he could keep it. Dad was over the moon and even Emily cracked a smile.

Something is bothering her though, she seems a bit off. It's not as bad as the days I spent with her in London, but in some ways it's worse. She's lost that sparkle in her eyes, the one that made her who she is. I'm hoping the night out I have planned will help. I hope everyone likes her, makes her feel welcome.

Her therapist has opened an office down here and she's decided to keep seeing him. I asked her why she would bother, it's not like she needs to anymore, mum made her go. She told me that she felt like she needed to talk to him. And then she frowned and mumbled something about him knowing something and getting to the bottom of it. I don't understand what she meant by it, but if it's what she wants, I won't say a word.

She seemed excited when I told her we were meeting everyone, though. I think I talked a little too much about Naomi and Effy. Effy because of what I wrote about earlier and Naomi because of what she did for us. She didn't flinch or treat us any different and she promised not to tell anyone until we're ready to. She's a good friend. I can see why Emily was attracted to her once upon a time (I mean, she's got nothing on Effy, but she is pretty amazing herself.).

I wonder if Emily still likes her… When we were younger, she couldn't shut up about her for a week, after we first saw her. I know I screwed up by not telling her that Naomi couldn't keep her eyes off her (when she wasn't looking), but back then I was a right little bitch.

If the same thing happens now (that they like each other) I'll do whatever it takes to make it happen. To help them see that the other likes them. Hopefully, that will make up for me being so… bitchy… back then.

Emily - Bristol

This week has been crazy, I don't even know where to start. First off I'm in Bristol and even though it's a shitty place, I've missed it. I've missed James spying on me through the keyhole while I shower, I've missed kicking the shit out of him for it, I've missed Katie and her constant bitching (well, the bitching part has gotten better and she's calmer now, more herself.), I've missed my dad's smile, I've even missed that there's nothing to do here.

Before I left London, I met up with Dr. Snipes. The way I keep hearing Naomi, seeing her out of the corner of my eye, feeling her around me, it was driving me absolutely crazy. I honestly thought he would be able to calm me down, make some of it stop. See, I don't want all of it to stop, just the parts where it leaves me completely confused and heartbroken. Lately, she's been telling things like "She means nothing to me.", "I was scared.", "I love you and no one else, please believe me" And that's when she's not saying my name in such a heartbroken way, that I can't help the stab of pain I feel when I hear it.

There are times though, times when I can feel her lips on mine, hear her sigh in my ear, feel her wrap her arms around me. And I don't want that to stop. Yes, it's only ghostly touches, so gentle it's barely there, but they make me feel like I'm on top of the world.

I thought maybe talking with Dr. Snipes would give me some perspective, but all it gave me was more questions. He made me go over the whole thing from the beginning, smiling to himself through out the entire story. When I was done, that smile just grew and then he told me it was all going to be fine. When I told him I was going back to Bristol, he actually chuckled.

"Going back for her, are you?" He asked me, confusing me even more. He gave me his card when I left, telling me that it had his new number on it, that I should look him up when I figured it all out. Before I left I heard him say to himself. "Imagine that, they really are connected." I'm not sure what he meant, I'm not even sure if he really was talking to himself, but it sounded important. It sounded almost prophetic.

I couldn't help being excited when we got to Bristol. It was the same drab buildings, the same lifeless weather, but she was here. Naomi still lived here and the city suddenly felt so much brighter, so much more alive. Even God knows how many hours stuck in a car with my mum, couldn't put a damper on my elation. I wanted to run through the streets looking for her when we got there, I wanted to scream her name from the rooftops, but I couldn't. She's not mine to look for and I'm sure she wouldn't have a clue who I was if I did find her.

The thought of that brought my mood back down. I know Katie knows her, I know she considers her a friend. So sooner rather then later I would have to face her, I would have to meet her and behave like a normal human being around her and not a lovesick puppy who wants nothing more then to just run to her and put my arms around her. God, I want to just be able to look at her, touch her, make sure she's real.

When Katie informed me (she never really asks for anything.) we were going to a club to celebrate the school year being finished and that she had invited all her friends so that they could meet me, I didn't quite know how to react. I was angry that she hadn't asked me before just deciding on what we were doing and I was all excited again because Naomi would be there. I think I got a bit too excited about that and that Katie noticed, I saw her smirk to herself when she thought I wasn't looking. Can't be helped now, though.

The club she took me to was packed. I don't think I've ever seen that many people getting squeezed into a place that small before. We couldn't find anyone, not the people Katie wanted us to find at least, for a long time. Finally, after spending 20 minutes getting from one end to another of that damn club, we found a really tall guy called Freddie. He seems like an ok guy, a bit too laid back maybe, but ok. I remember Katie leaving us to go look for some of the other guys, telling us to stay where we were so that she could find us again.

A very loud guy called Cook came bouncing towards us after a while, giving Freddie a hug and pushing some pills into his hand. He made some sort of lewd comment that I shut down, but instead of getting mad he just howled with laughter and pressed a drink in my hand before telling me. "You're clever too, Blondie's gonna love you!" He disappeared into the throng like a ghost before I could ask him who this Blondie person was.

Freddie just shook his head and gave me one of the pills. I remember looking at him a bit doubtfully, but he just smiled at me and took his own. I think the unsettling feeling that something was coming, the feeling of something tugging at me, combined with hearing Naomi tell me that she always misses me, made me swallow my own pill. Things got a bit hazy after that.

I remember dancing. Not your ordinary, innocent dancing, but full on "lost in the beat" sort of dancing. I remember my heart thumping loudly, dragging me towards the middle of the floor. I remember feeling her eyes on me, burning through me. I could feel her around me as I danced, surrounding me when I closed my eyes. It felt fucking fantastic.

When my eyes opened again I could see these pale blue streaks of colour swirling around me. They reminded me so much of her that my eyes trailed them, watching as they danced their way to the ceiling, all the time twisting around something I couldn't see. I had a feeling that there was something I was missing, some part of a puzzle I wasn't seeing. I stood there looking at the lights for quite some time. (or it could have only been seconds, I sort of lost track of time. There must have been something weird with those pills.) I could hear her breathe next to me, hear her heartbeats, the whispered calling of my name. It was intoxicating all on it's own and I wasn't sure if I was high on the pills or her.

The rest of the night is sort of a blur. I remember that tugging feeling coming back as I was dancing, pulling me towards something unseen. It almost feels like gravity, only more insistent. Katie came back and told us that we should probably just leave, that the others have all left. I remember frowning and looking for Freddie, but he was gone. I can't remember if he told me he was going or not, didn't really care at the moment. Suddenly the lone blue light is connected with a red one, only they weren't touching at all. I remember staring at them slack jawed while Katie was yelling at me, trying to get my attention.

The tugging feeling eventually drags me outside, Katie in tow, and suddenly it all became clear. My head no longer felt clouded, I could feel every fibre of me humming in anticipation as I turned around. For a split second I saw her, I saw Naomi. It's the weirdest thing I've ever felt. Even if her eyes only barely connects with mine, even if it's from the other side of the road, I can see them widening in recognition. I can hear her voice talking to me.

"Will you stay with me?" It pleads, sounding like it's about to break. It makes me want to run after her, follow that stupid cab to the end of the world. She knows me, she knows who I am! I could have cried if I wasn't so busy smiling. I don't know how I got home, my moment of clarity was short lived, but it doesn't matter. I wonder if she'll come find me, just walk up to the house and ring the bell.

On second thought, she did look a bit drunk and out of it… Maybe she won't remember. Why would she, she's never really met me. She probably don't even know who I am, just a vague girl she talked to once at a party. It was nice to have that moment though, nice to imagine that she might know me and that I might have made an impression.

At least I'll get to meet her properly in a few days. Katie's first words when we got home was something about a dinner party to introduce me properly. Apparently Cook and Freddie doesn't count as meeting the gang…

Katie - Bristol

Dinner party… What idiot came up with that idea? Oh right, that would be me. Do you have any idea how frustrating it is to not be able to touch someone you really want to touch? To not be able to greet them with a kiss, or do more then briefly put your hands on them for just a second?

Effy came over before the thing started. We've already talked about our… situation. She's been really understanding about it all, even when I told her I didn't want to tell anyone what we are just yet. It's not that I don't want to shout it to the world, but I'm scared. I know it's not exactly fair on her that I insist on keeping it to ourselves, but I just… I want to make sure that what we have is real, that it's not just some extremely cruel joke on her part. I don't expect that it is, but as I said, I want to make sure.

The hard part about it is when she comes over to "help" like she did today. I had to contain my excitement and just settle for a hug. All I really wanted to do was kiss her until we both couldn't breathe and drag her up to my room, but we've both agreed on "going slow", to not rush into anything. See, we figured that both of us have had our share of meaningless sex and we just don't want the other to be a meaningless number in a long line.

Every time I see her though, I keep questioning my sanity when I said yes to it. I want her so much it's ridiculous. I want all of her, I need all of her, but I will take it slow if that's what she wants. I'll wait until we're both sure. (Just don't expect me to be happy about it.)

So there we were… Me, Effy and Emily, making dinner. It was worse then torture, just completely horrible. I sent Emily out for some supplies that we couldn't possibly have a dinner party without. Just a few things I conveniently "forgot." I don't think she cleared the corner before I was on Effy like a shot. I think I even took her by surprise. I just can't seem to get enough of her.

Emily was weird when she got back, I almost thought she might have seen us kissing (hands all over each other, under clothes and clinging to each other like the other was about to disappear.) I don't think it was something we could've explained away as a hug. Emily never said anything though and just went to our room when we were done with all the preparations, so I'm sure she has no idea that anything is going on with me and Effy.

Naomi showed up with Cook in tow. I didn't invite the fucker because I really can't stand that he's touched Effy first. It's not logical or rational, but I hate his guts… Well, until he and Naomi were standing there looking like two kids who were very proud of themselves. One with a bunch of flowers, the other with a fucking gateau. You really can't stay that mad at a person after that. But if he touches Effy again, all bets are off.

Speaking of (writing of? Hmm… Diaries are hard some times.) Effy, I almost blew it today. See, I've been worried that her and Naomi are getting too close. I mean, they live together, they're obviously good friends and I'm not sure what the hell is wrong with me. I've always been a bit too quick to get jealous, but this is ridiculous.

I watched Effy grab her hand, watched her following Naomi up to the bathroom and when I followed them up there a few minutes later, I found them laughing hysterically, holding onto each other. I never really knew I could get that unreasonably jealous. It's just insane. It felt like someone had set me on fire (and not the good kind of fire), I seriously had trouble containing myself.

I tried pushing that feeling away all through dinner, tried to find some reassurance in the way Effy kept squeezing my thigh and running her fingers lightly over it every few minutes. I hate that I felt that way, all insecure and needy. I don't want to be THAT person… You know?

So I confronted Naomi after the dinner was finished. The look on her face when I asked her what was going on between her and Effy was really more then enough to set me straight (ehh…) She looks sad though, Naomi I mean. Something is definitely wrong. She still managed to divert attention away from Effy and me when they were leaving though. I can't really believe I thought she would do something like what I thought for a second she'd done. Naomi is a really good friend, she wouldn't do that.

I hope Emily liked everyone and I hope everyone liked Emily. She's being a bit weird at the moment, snapping at me for nothing and not really telling me what's wrong. Maybe it was a bit much to introduce her to everyone all at once? Maybe I should have just done it gradually, like one or two at the time.

Oh well, too late now.

Emily - Bristol

I think this has been the best and the worst day of my life. There is no other way to describe it. For a moment, I had her. I knew she remembered me, there was something there, but she sort of closed down before we even got started.

I didn't even see her at first, her friend Effy was sort of shielding her, but all of a sudden she was just there. After spending over a year wanting to see her properly, it was a shock. She was so God damn gorgeous that I couldn't form a single sentence. I just sort of stood there like an idiot and nodded as she went on about lint and how we'd met once before.

I remember following her with my eyes as she went up the stairs to the bathroom, she stayed up there for a long time. Effy followed her first and then Katie eventually went after them. I should have figured it out then, usually Katie would just scream that dinner was ready and not bother to wait for them before she started.

The dinner itself was… Excruciating. To sit that close to her and not touch her, not talk to her. It was clear that she was squirming as well, moving away from me. I tried to get closer to her, casually of course, but she kept shifting away from me. I finally just asked her to pass me the peas. I mean, who does that? You sit next to the person you're madly in love with and all you can say is: "Pass the peas, please?" My head was screaming something else though. I'm not sure if I had actually said what was really on my mind, things would have been much better. Although "Fuck me now, please." does sound a bit better then "Pass the peas, please."

All in all, the entire dinner was just… Awkward. It didn't get much better after that.

I couldn't keep my eyes off Naomi when she slipped out the door and into the backyard. I stood there staring at the door for a while, contemplating what to do next. Katie must have gone after her when I was busy cleaning my plate in the sink, because I never saw her go out there. I heard them though, after I'd worked up the courage to go after Naomi.

I heard the flirtatious remark from Katie about having to kill someone if something was going on, and I heard the response from Naomi. It felt like my heart was shattering and there was nothing I could do to stop it. Naomi was never nervous because she was seeing me again, she was nervous because she had a thing for Katie and wanted her twin to like her. Not because she'd thought about me the way I thought about her.

The tightness of my chest only intensified as I could feel her around me again. She was still outside, I knew that, but suddenly she was everywhere. I could feel her heat radiating, hear her laughter and whispered words. The words were so soft though, I couldn't make them out again, but they were mine. And I doubt Katie has ever heard her like that, felt her like the way I feel her. That thought is the only one that made me act normal throughout the rest of the evening.

The one thing I learned from all of this was how to close down the parts of me I didn't want Naomi to see. I didn't want her to see my jealousy, my insecurity, the way my heart sped up when she was around. I just can't switch the feelings off, I can block them from my face and keep them from breaking through, but I can't stop feeling them.

I held it in, all of it, until she left. I ignored the sickening feeling I got in my stomach as Katie went out of her way to show her to the door. The way they pretended that they weren't really doing anything out of the ordinary. I saw the flush on Katie's cheeks, saw the way her gaze lingered when Effy and Naomi walked down the road together. I know what it means, I've seen that look on her face before… The problem is, I've never seen her that intense before. She must really, REALLY, like Naomi.

It makes me so fucking angry! Why couldn't she have found someone else to like? Why does she always go after something I wanted first? GAH! It makes me so fucking frustrated! She ALWAYS does that!

Fuck her! And fuck Naomi too! I'll avoid her! Hell, I'll avoid them both.

I just heard her whisper to me: "You are so breathtakingly beautiful and I'm so hopelessly in love with you. You really have no idea what you're doing to me" The words made me sigh, cause it's like a reflection of what I feel for her. I'm not sure if I'll be able to stop myself from seeking her out again.

This is killing me.

Katie - Bristol

Naomi has been acting like a mental case these last few nights. She thinks she's hidden behind that tree across the street, but I've seen her. She just stands there for hours looking up at our bedroom window. I texted Effy to let her know, but she said to just leave her there. Said something about her having some stuff to figure out. It's kinda creepy if you ask me, can't she figure it out somewhere else?

Anyways… The weather is being a bitch. It's so goddamn hot! Like all the time! If Effy wasn't so busy with Gina leaving (I'm gonna miss the old hippie.), I'd take her swimming. I mean, think about it… Effy in a bathing suit, Effy in need of sun screen on her back, Effy all wet and hot and… GAH! Right, why was I fighting this whole "I might be attracted to women." thing?

Emily seems affected by the weather too, she's been snipping at me all week. I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to have done and she won't tell me. I tried asking her about it, but she keeps shutting me down. I don't know what the hell her problem is. When she thinks I'm not looking, she glares at me like she did that time I took her favourite teddy bear when we were 5.

I tried talking to her about Naomi yesterday, that didn't go well… She nearly snapped my head off. Maybe she's just pissed off because I haven't told her about Effy. I'm sure I'm being obvious as hell, even if I never really just call her Effy… It's always Naomi's friend, Effy. Oh god, maybe she thinks Effy and Naomi is together. That could explain some of it, but why is she mad at me?

Right, I just have to make it clear to her that Effy and Naomi? Not seeing each other. I've already asked them both and they both looked at me like I was a fucking lunatic. They're close, I'll give them that, but more like sisters and best friends, not in the "Oh God, I want to rip your clothes off with my teeth" kind of a way. If they were, I would have to kill them both in the most gruesome way I could think of.

Effy just called, she's got the house to herself. I think I might just go over and spend some time with her. Emily has fucked off to God knows where and James is really starting to bug me. He's insisting on walking around the house in nothing but a bikini and high heels. I think he said something about having that Gordon kid over and I really can't stand the two of them. James is bad enough on his own, but with Gordon? Pain in the ass doesn't even begin to cover it.

I wonder if I should try and get Effy to come swimming… Better bring some sun screen to be sure. And maybe raid dad's liquor stash… No that probably won't be necessary, Effy probably has something to drink.

Hmm… What the hell do I wear? I mean, I want to look good for her, but not too good so that we'll end up doing more then kissing. I would like there to be more then kissing, but I haven't read through that article I found in that disgusting magazine I found in James' room. I'm not sure what I was looking for, but there it was… Glaring at me: "10 ways to please your woman"

Yeah, really should read that first… And now I'm late.

Emily - Bristol.

Avoiding Naomi isn't as easy as I thought. She has a way of popping up when you least expect it. (If the last day was anything to go on at least.) And when she's not popping up in person she's there regardless. Her eyes are on me, her hands ghost along my skin, whispered words in my ears. It's worse when she's actually around me though, it hurts more.

I couldn't sleep this morning (because of all this crap with Naomi) and thought I'd get out of the damn house before Katie woke up. She's been trying to get me to talk about what's bugging me and all I really want to answer is "You!" but I can't really do that. I just sort of wandered aimlessly for a while before I went to get a hot chocolate at this coffee place. Turns out hot chocolate in the middle of summer? Not very good. It did take my mind off things for a while though.

The next point on my "Avoid Katie and Naomi" list was to go get some groceries. So there I was, minding my own business, not really paying attention to anything and WHAM! Who do you think barrels into me, full force? Of course it was Naomi. I forgot how small Bristol can be sometimes.

I think I managed to stay disinterested for about 5 minutes before I sort of cracked. I don't know what it was. Maybe the flash of hurt when I pretended not to know her name, maybe the way her shirt clung to her. I honestly have no idea what it was, but pretty soon I was actually sort of talking to her. And I have to say, her voice in real life? So much better then the one in my head. (Is it really in my head though, it feels so goddamn real sometimes.)

There's a part of me that wanted to make her see that she's chosen the wrong twin. I think that's why I laughed with her and tried to help her with her mother's shopping list. (It did say kilt… I wonder what the hell Naomi's mum wants with a kilt.) It wasn't until she was so close I could feel her warmth radiating into me, surrounding me, that I managed to snap out of it. I can't help it, every time she's around me there's something inside me that is clawing it's way to the surface. I can feel my heart dragging me towards her.

I came to the conclusion right then and there that I shouldn't be around her anymore. That conclusion didn't help me very much.

See, after I went home, Katie started bugging me about how great Naomi and Effy were. I just wanted to yell at her to shut up. I already know that Naomi is a wonderful, amazing person. I already know she's passionate and opinionated, she has a heart that is so big and I know that from just looking at her. I used to watch her when we were in school together, used to listen to every word anyone ever said about her. I don't need Katie reminding me, I really don't. So I got out of there.

It really shouldn't have surprised me when I got to the lake and she was there, but when she hoisted herself out of the water like that… I swear to God I almost swallowed my tongue. (Although I wouldn't exactly say that it was surprise that made me do that…) Jesus Christ, she's gorgeous! I already knew she was beautiful, but… GAH, I can't really put into words what seeing her in a bikini did to me. I kept trying to push it away, to not perv at her, but I had more then enough trouble keeping myself from jumping her on the spot. (Not that I'm only interested in her body, but it certainly doesn't exactly repulse me. It would be easier if it did.)

I don't really know how I managed to drag my eyes away from her, all I know is that I was minding my own business and the cow, somehow, tripped and I ended up taking a nosedive into the lake. I was planning on taking a swim, but not with all my clothes on. She probably did it on purpose, even if she did apologize to me like 5 million times.

So there I was, completely wet (and not in a good way), looking at her trying desperately to keep her balance and to be perfectly honest (what's the point of a diary if you're not) I have never seen anyone that beautiful in my life. The sun was setting, lighting her up in all the right places. She was still damp from her swim, her hair curling softly. But the worst thing was, during all of it all I could hear in my head was: "NOT YOURS." It was infuriating. I hated Katie so much at that point, I didn't know where to look.

When she lost her balance again and somehow ended up on top of me, all I could do was laugh. The look on her face was priceless, but I think the real reason why I was laughing was because of the complete absurdity of the situation. Needless to say, the laughter died when it all clicked in my head. Naomi, half naked, on top of me.

A tiny part of me wanted to just roll her over and kiss her, but I couldn't. See, even if Katie would have done it to me in a heartbeat, I can't do that to her. I just can't. And the situation pissed me off so much that when Naomi went to change, I sort of let the air out of her tire and hid behind some trees.

I figured that if I just took off, she'd follow me. But if I let the air out, she'd be too far down the road before she figured out that I never really went anywhere. Stupid, I know, but it made sense at the time. Parts of me wanted to punish her for not letting me get over her. Part of me wants to just kill Katie and keep Naomi all to myself.

When I heard what she said though, my heart broke… But I just sort of froze and just stood there watching her walk away. It's the hardest thing I've ever done.

I've got to get over her. I just have to!

Katie - Bristol

Things I've done in the last 24 hours that my mother would kill me for if she knew about:

1. Kissed a girl, quite a lot of kissing actually.

2. Had a bit too much to drink.

3. Taken drugs, not too many of them, but some

4. Done more then kissing a girl. (Turns out I didn't need to read that "how to please your woman" thing. Hehe.)

5. Made out with said girl in public because she was so hot when she hit that bitch (I'm sure she'd eventually get over the whole kissing a girl thing, but in public? Her head would explode.)

6. Lied to my sister.

7. Drugged my sister.

8. Kidnapped my sister

9. Put my sister in a room with a known lesbian in the hopes of said sister and said lesbian, work shit out and become girlfriends

10. Had my way with MY girlfriend again.

11. Almost told that girlfriend I loved her, but chickened out. (Actually, I'm sure mum would actually like that, but the fact that I wanted to do it… She might have still killed me just a little.)

Emily - Bristol

"Come out with me." She says. "It'll be fun!" Well, fuck you too Katie! Of all the cunting bars in all of cunting Bristol, we had to go to the one Naomi was in. I'm pretty sure she planned it, fucking cow. I should have just turned around when I felt my heart speed up at the entrance. I should have turned and run when the bouncer said something about expecting us and that our friends were waiting inside. I mean, for fucks sake! I just followed her like fucking puppy. I thought I was over that phase of my life! I could scream!

And then, you know what the fucking cow did? She ditched me to have a chat to that Effy person! Who does that? Who practically drags someone out and then just fucks off with someone the minute we get in the doors? It's bad enough that she's using me like some sort of an excuse when she's out stalking Naomi, but to see that Naomi didn't exactly seem to mind dancing with some random slut? I can't even…

I don't know why I got so angry and felt like I needed to pay her back. Make her jealous. I was doing so well with the whole ignoring her thing. I barely spoke to her at her housewarming (Or parent leaving) party. I answered in monosyllables, I didn't look at her (unless she wasn't looking that is) and I tried very hard not to care when my sister dragged her inside to "talk". Effy tried talking to me at that point, tried to distract me from it. (I swear Effy knows more then she lets on, she's probably in on all of this and is trying to push them together or something.)

So I danced with this… this… Giant not Naomi! Look, I'm sure the girl is nice (a bit clingy maybe) but fucking hell, she was tall. It probably looked like some sort of a freak show, the two of us together. And her hands were all over me, like a freaking octopus. Not cool. But do you think that worked? NO! Naomi got up and let that SLUT put her hands all over her. Even if she didn't like Katie like that (Which I'm starting to suspect, either that or she used to like her and is using this green eyed THING to get back at her. That's it, isn't it? Katie turned her down! My sister is so fucking stupid sometimes, why would she turn down Naomi. Maybe it's the clothes? Maybe Naomi is too smart for her? Or just too much.)

I knew she followed me outside before I saw her. It's the weirdest thing, I swear I could have closed my eyes in that club, spun around several times and picked her out of a crowd in an instant. So it wasn't that much of a surprise when she suddenly appeared next to me and lit a smoke. I was going to just walk away from her, but she wouldn't let me.

Thing just got kinda ugly after that. I got angry, she got… relieved? Which only made me more angry and she was just so close… And before I really knew what was happening, she kissed me. And that would have been fine if I hadn't kissed back. I could feel this surge around us, a passion I couldn't stand against. It was ridiculous. (Ridiculously hot!)

But I can't go there, I just can't. I'd be her second choice… Katie will have had her first… Gah! I don't know any more. I'm so fucking angry with her! And with Katie!

Anyways, I have to go, I can hear Katie coming up the stairs, she bringing me fucking tea… As if that's gonna fix anything.

I think we all know how much that tea helped. YAY!

We'll be back to our regularly scheduled Naomily next chapter, until then... Go read those fics I mentioned. I promise they are both exceptional. :D