Chapter 25 – You Make Me Want To

"Well I never met a girl like you. That's got me thinking like I do. To hang up my hat and kick off my boots. But you make me want to. You make me want to"

January 21st, 2012 ~ 12:15 p.m.~
~Zak~

The dungen was suppost to be a place of peace, where I go to clear my mind. Instead, it was a place of mistakes. I still went there, I sat in the chair in the middle of the room, my head in my hands. How did I manage this? How did I manage to fuck my life up so bad, that I didn't even want to live anymore? I could've of just accepted that decision. Instead, I had to fight. I had to argue. Because that's what I love to do. Why can't I just forget about what she's done? She's pregnant. She's going to be having a bunch of always high & drunk guys taking care of her and her unborn child. I can't let that happen – nor Can I run with her, and tell her I'm sorry. She hates me. Hell, I'd hate me too!

I'm a dick. I've come to realize that. I pulled out my cellphone. I went on twitter, I went to her twitter.

::RileyJean::

2 hours ago: Why did I manage this?

1 hour ago: Can't I make one thing right?

30 minutes ago: Why can't he just belive me?

15 minutes ago: I wish he could tell me It's okay.

10 minutes ago: TheOfficalFunnyMan I love you!(: Text me!3

5 Minutes ago: Maybe I can make this on my own.

3 minutes ago: I can. Can't I?

1 Minute ago: Zak_Bagans. Check your email - dick.

Great, being called a dick and being told to check my E-mail. great. I went onto and signed in. And there it was "1 new message" blinking in the upper righthand corner. I clicked on it - my hands shaking.

To: Zak bagans.

you know what? i tryed. i tried. and i tried for you. i tried to make things better. i tryed to get on your good side. i tryed to make you happy. i didn't get in your way. i tried to help you - when you needed your space, i gave it to you. when i need mine you act like a total dick and can't even let me fucking talk. i can't help it that you got me pregnant. what am I suppost to do about it? I can't change it! what do you expect me to do? do youexpect me to get an abortion. ? I don't care what you think or how you think i should raise this kid - but it diefnently won't be with you.

I'll make this go public any way possible. poperzzi. email. . everybody will know about. it. and your fame. your show. YOUR LIFE. will be over. Zachary bagans. you freaking hear me.! your life is OVER. you will never see the light of day again you fucking little asswipe. you fucking crawl into your pathetic dungen adn die - because honestly nobody would care.

riley.

Ouch, okay. That hurt just alittle bit. I didn't think - I couldn't think. I replied

Riley.

Riley you are such a fucking drama queen. what the actual fuck is wrong with you. how the hell do you expect me to react with a "i'm pregnant" comment. like seriously. do you know how fucking old I am. I don't like KIDS. I DO NOT WANT THEM. Don't you fucking know that by now? You didn't try to make things better - you made them worse by running off with that fucking weed smoking idoit. You didn't try to make me happy you fuking liar. You go in my way all the fucking time. I am a total dick, because you are a total dick. You deserve for everybody to have a fucking dick toward you, because you'll take it anyways wouldn't you!

And you have no FUCKING reason to keep my child from me, You try it. Really, do. it. because they will think your more of a bitch then I do. what are you goin to do? Photoshop pictures of me fucking beating you? My life will be over? Bitch, i'll forget about you like you never came about in my life. Will make me fucking happy. I will never see the light of day? Bitch, it'll be like dracula. Ass wipe? where have I herad that.. Crawl in my pathetic dungen? don't mind if I do mrs. I HAD SEX IN THE FUCKING DUNGEN BECAUSE I'M A SLUT. Nobody would care? please. Bitch, Nobody would care if you died. you have no reason to keep my unborn son/daughter away from me. Bitch, your a little whore who can't keep your legs closed for five seconds. hahahhhahahahhaa. bye bitch.

Zachary Alexander Bagans.

And when I sent it - I didn't feel one little ping of guilt.

Sorry for all the bad grammer and all that good shit. It's like 12 o'clock at night.

I have a wedding to to go tomorrow. and i'm soooo sleepy.

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