Chapter 25

Jean wandered down from the freezer, tireless and...Bored. She found herself thinking what her life had been like since Josef turned her. It was filled with moments of bliss and happiness, she was truly happy with this vampire but something was missing. Josef was so sweet with her and she loved him, he always made time for her and anything she asked for her would give her yet she didn't know what it was she wanted.

She made her way down to the kitchen and had a glass of freshly donated A+ before going to the den to read a book. She tried to keep her mind busy, keep from thinking of the one thing she couldn't figure out.

When Josef came in from the office he could sense Jean. He could tell she was struggling with herself and made his way up the stairs to find her. He found her at the computer with her legs tucked under her as she stared into the screen. She had sensed her sire's presence and looked up to meet his chocolate eyes.

"How was your day my sweet?" Josef made his way to Jean as she pushed the tray with the laptop aside welcoming Josef to join her.

Jean gave half a smile, "Good."

Josef leaned over stroking her check softly with his finger before kissing her lips with a soft and sensuous kiss. When he pulled away he looked into her eyes, "Something is bothering you, I can tell. Do you want to talk about it?" Josef didn't want to push her; everyone deserved to keep part of themselves to themselves.

Jean leaned in kissing his lips moving her hands to his neck pulling him deeper as she kissed him lovingly. When she pulled back she pushed him to rest back against the couch as she straddled him her arms still around his neck. She sat there on his lap looking down for a moment before meeting his gaze. "You have been amazing Josef, you have given me so much but..."

Jean stumbled for the right words, Josef's concerned eyes turned to sadness. He had found someone special but he wasn't enough for her; the thought of this hurt him more than he would ever show. He knew they would always be connected as sire and fledging but not all turns for love stay together for eternity he knew that.

Jean felt Josef stiffen like he did when he was in an uncomfortable business deal and sensed the sudden change in his scent. She couldn't quite figure out what it was, something new to her senses. Her train of thought derailed she removed her hands from his neck instead seeking his hands to hold in hers, "Josef...what's wrong?"

Josef let the side of his lip curl up, he had been a very good teacher he couldn't even fool her. He didn't want her to regret anything so he put on his mask he wore with everyone else hiding his own feelings deep within. "Nothing is wrong just something I remembered about work. Please go on Jean, what were you saying?"

Jean shook her head, "It's nothing important, it can wait. Is there anything I can do to help you relax?"

Josef fought the inner voice in his head saying 'don't leave me' and pulled her hands to his lips, "Tell me what's on your mind." He knew he could keep her in his grasp for awhile just using the sire fledging bond, pulling on the strings of it to keep her in his life, like Coraline had done to Mick for so many years but he refused to do that to Jean. He wouldn't use their bond; he would just hope that one day she came back.

Jean thought about his response, she could see something was off he was wearing that mask the one he wore when he was being hospitable to associates he couldn't stand. She wanted to know what was bothering her sire, her Josef, but he for some reason felt it better to hide from her, so with a deep breath she found the words she had been searching for. "I need a project, or something to do. I feel so useless, all I do is feed, sleep, and..." Jean moved forward slightly on his hips gesturing to what she meant. "I know I'm not ready to go back to counseling, but I have to do something Josef. A job...a project...anything I can do."

Josef felt a sudden rush of relief wash over him realizing he had it all wrong. She was an active person and was tired of sitting around all day, she wasn't tired of him. His mind went wild with want, a need to take her he didn't realize how strongly until he realized he had ripped open her blouse and bra and flung them across the room.

Jean had forgotten everything but Josef and the feel of his hands on her body. She ground herself into Josef feeling him hardening beneath her as he flipped her beneath him. Josef quickly pulled the rest of her clothes from her body kissing and caressing every inch of her body. His mouth circled her rosy nipple before latching on and sucking lightly, as her hands pulled his head closer. He couldn't wait any longer to burry himself deep inside her, while he worked her twin he worked on shoving his pants down and kicking them away while Jean shoved his shirt of his shoulders letting her hands roam over his bared shoulder blades.

Josef lifted her effortlessly in his arms laying her down on the length of the couch, stretching his athletic frame over hers. Taking her lips in his running his tongue along her elongated fangs Josef pushed deep inside her piercing his tongue at the same time. Jean's muscles started to contract with the taste of his blood and his cock deep inside of her. She sought to give him the same pleasure while sucking on his tongue he began to thrust hard and fast needing release she bit down on her own tongue. Their blood mingled in their mouths, Josef lost control as their tongues caressed, her insides milking him for all he was worth while she sucked hungrily on his tongue until the wound closed.

Josef felt a tear form in his eye as he moved he held Jean close his mouth moving to kiss her neck resting his forehead on her chest. For long moments Jean lay there just holding him close stroking her hands across his shoulders and neck, simply allowing him to feel her love. She wasn't sure why but she had sensed a new emotion on him, one that worried her. Josef gain enough control over himself to lift his head up to find her lips kissing her softly as he pulled out.

"Josef…are you sure you're okay?"

He smiled at her, a true smile the one she knew was only for her, he had taken his mask off once again. "I'm great now." Jean studied his face for a moment before he answered her unspoken question, "I jumped to the wrong conclusion earlier, and I shouldn't have."

"What conclusion?"

Josef sat up pulling her with him, "It doesn't matter anymore. It's forgotten." He stood pulling her with him, "Why don't we go to the freezer and when we wake up we can discuss what was bothering you?"

Jean could see Josef was changing the subject but she didn't mind, she could sense nothing wrong about his mood now and that was all that mattered. She nodded and looked around the room for their discarded clothes finding her blouse ripped in the front holding it up on a finger for Josef to see.

Josef chuckled as he slipped on his pants going commando, "It did look beautiful on you but I do think my addition improved it." Jean rolled her eyes as Josef draped his shirt over her shoulders, "You can borrow mine if you want?" Jean slipped her arms through the sleeves as Josef lead the way up to their freezer.

Josef held her close as she fell asleep. He had taught her well, the downside being he wasn't able to hide from her. He lay awake just holding her and contemplating telling her the truth, he had so many secrets in his life, this would just be another one. He loved and trusted her there was no doubt about it but he didn't want to admit his weakness and insecurity to her, he was after all supposed to be her hero.

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To Be Continued…

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