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I woke to the feel of sunlight dancing over my lids. I moved reluctant, my body aching strangely as I felt the naked flesh of Gail curved around my own and the memory of last night came in full view. I smiled against my pillow humming slightly with wondrous recollection. It had all been strangely beautiful, even the sad parts.

Gail was leaning on her elbow, her chin on her hand, watching me. Her other hand lay calmly and possessively on my smooth naked thigh.

She laughed softly. "Kiss me." she commanded arrogantly, her eyes fixed on me. When I didn't move, just smiled at her. She lifted her chin and turned my face towards her, kissing me lingeringly. "I'm hungry." she said as she moved away. I gave her a startled look and Gail laughed gently. "For food not you." her eyes took a wicked amusement as my face flushed "but if you tempted me …."She insinuated in that husky voice. Then with a sudden change of mood, she swung off the bed.

"I'll try not to." I smirked and glanced at my alarm. "I'm going to be late for work." I groaned.

"You called in sick." she announced.

"I did?" that surprised me. I know I hadn't made a call. Had Gail made the call?

"You did." She confirmed pulling a t-shirt over her head. "You needed a day off. I made sure you got one." She told me before she headed into the kitchen. I agreed. I did need a day off. I felt too lazy to move and stretched the warm curve of my body like a sleepy cat and laid there until her return.

"I put the coffee on …" Gail said entering. "You know it won't bite you right?" She'd caught me staring at it. I couldn't help it. It brought back memories. Memories I'd tried to forget.

"I know." I shrugged hugging my pillow tighter.

"Really?" she gave me the look. "You practically ran away from it last night. In fact you did as soon as I whipped it out." She sounded amused.

Whipped? Really?

"You surprised me that's all." I grumbled. She moved to sit on my side of the bed and I scooted over to give her room as she wedged herself between me and the nightstand.

"Are you sure that's it?" she ran a hand through my bed tussled hair. "Or is it that you don't think I'm studly enough to pull it off?"

"Hmm?"

"A stud … not stud stud …but I think I could pull off soft stud. I have the upper body strength." Her reasoning made no sense.

"What?" My brain was still sleeping. What was she getting at? "You're more of a femme…Gail."

"I know but … Last night, did you refuse to let me give you strap on sex, because you thought I wouldn't know how to do it?" she asked directly. She was never one to beat around the lesbian bush. "I think I'll be good at it Hol. I know the mechanics; hip thrusting is not that hard." She reasoned.

"…"

It was way too early to be having this conversation. I buried my face in the pillow and groaned before I glanced up at her.

"I've been reading up." Gail continued. "We'll buy lube." Because lube fixed everything. "But I think it's something we would enjoy together." She looked so hopeful and excited at the prospect. How did I break it to her that I didn't want a penis … fake or otherwise in me?

It wasn't that I found them repulsive. It wasn't my hatred of penises that had made me realize that I was a lesbian. It was my love of women that did that. It was however closely related to the fact that my first and only time with one had been … scary and unpleasant. Loosing my virginity was a memory I had longed hoped to forget and had until last night. I had also never used a strap on before… Mackenzie had disliked them immensely and my other relationships hadn't gotten that far. I knew sex with a man and sex with a woman wearing a strap on was vastly different on an emotional level and slightly different on a physical one. So making love with Gail wearing a strap on wasn't going to bring up my horrid heterosexual sex memories.

What had me worried was the penetration. How did I explain that to Gail, whose had sex with men her entire life that, that level of penetration made me wary especially when the first time had been a memory I'd rather erase? Her strap on had been at least six or eight inches and that scared me.

"Holly?"

"Hmm?"

"What's wrong?"

"Promise you won't think it's silly and laugh?"

"No. Of course not sweetie" She told me sincerely.

"I've-never-had-strap-on-sex-before. My-first-time-with-a-man-had-been-just-horrible!" I mumbled hurriedly burying my face in the pillow again. I couldn't look at her. "and-I'm-scared-to-because-your-strap-on-looks-so-big!" I just couldn't face her. She was quiet for a long time and I dared not look. I felt her smooth my hair and touched my back. Then she slowly eased down beside me and I adjusted myself accordingly.

"Look at me …" Gail touched my hair again. "Please…" she asked when I did budge. With slow measured movements I turned my head to look at her. We were now laid eye to eye. "It's ok …" she told me. "It's ok to be scared."

"It is?"

She nodded.

"You don't think I'm being silly?" I asked. "It's not like I've never had sex before." I rolled my own eyes. I still felt foolish.

"I don't." Gail shook her head against our shared pillow. "We don't have to; it's not that important, our sex life is wonderful just the way it is." She assured me. "But if you change your mind, and want to give it a try." I shook my head at that. I never wanted to try it. "Think of it as being both our first times." Gail suggested. "I'm nervous too, I've never used one, but the thought that maybe we could excites me." She admitted. "I'll make it special." She explained. That had my interest peaked. "I'll go slow … I'll be gentle …I'll be kind …. I'll whisper sweet nothings in your ear. I'll take care of you, like you did of me our first time." Her voice floated over me like a melody and I smiled my fears slowly departing. "We'll only do what you feel comfortable with and I can promise lots and lots of foreplay." I smiled at that.

"Okay" I finally answered. "I'll think about it." And I would, I wasn't giving her false hope.

"Thank you." She smiled pulling her pillow from the other side of the bed and propping it behind her head as she rolled on her back.

"You just made me hungry." I teased moving above her. "and not for food …" I purred. Gail grinned, opening her bent legs to invite me in. She didn't even bother faking a mild protest.

I kissed inner her left thigh, then her right. My tongue warm and moist as I lowered my head to her. I breathed her in. Her scent filling my nostrils and blurring my senses. She made me senseless in the best of ways. My loins stirred. I pressed a reverent kiss upon the dark triangle patch between her thighs and her legs opened further in the sweetest of invitations.

"Please … don't take your time." Gail pleaded. "Taste me …" she instructed and I smiled my heart filling before taking a taste of her juices. "Mmmmm" I heard her moan. "Don't stop …"

I took another taste, slowly my tongue seeking her out, opening her up. I felt her body quake beneath me in appreciation of my efforts and my heart went wild. I knew all her secrets and knew them well but rediscovering them was time to be treasured.

"Hol …"she breathed. "Your phone…"

"Ignore it." I muttered against her before taking another taste. I hadn't even heard it ring, not that I cared either.

"It might …Ahh… be important …" Gail panted.

"The most important thing right now is centimeters away from my mouth." I blew on her for full effect and I heard her laugh, its aftershocks vibrating right through her to my lips.

"Good Morning … Holly's phone." Gail greeted taking the call. I pressed a kiss to her, my tongue darting out to stroke her slowly. Her body tensed. "Hilly? Hi. Yeah … I'm …" I gave her a full lick. My tongue rolling over her back and forth. "I'm back!" Gail gasped. "She didn't tell you?" I pulled her between my lips. Gail shuddered. "No … Yes…I'm okay…" she sounded breathless. I sucked on her. "Yeeaah?" her response sounded pained. "We … we … we…" her hand slapped against my head trying to still me. I would not be denied. "We can co … co … cum!" she finally finished. "I stuck my tongue in and rotated it like a pro. "Yes! Yes!" she tried to squeeze her legs shut, almost smashing my eardrums. "I LOVE double dates!" she breathed. I cupped her bottom with both hands and pulled her closer now mouth deep in her. "Dates get me soooo EXCITED!" Gail gasped, she pulled my hair hard. "Mmmhmmm….Mmmmhmmm" She was trying to hold it. "Byeeee…. Hil…" Gail breathed ending the call and a moment later she cried out her orgasms and they were beautiful. "You little devil." she panted with a smirk sometime later as I moved above her to lie against her stomach.

Gail stroked my hair like only she could and thanked me with words that only a woman in love could and I laid there for a long while listening to her talk about random nothings and sweet everything.

"You've gone quiet …" she said after I had failed to answer a question.

I eased up, hovering over her and claimed her lips with mine. I wanted my kiss to show my penance for my miss deeds. I'd been so wrong about so many things, yet here I was. Still in her presence, being able to listen to tales of her life. Still being able to love her. Still being loved by her. Gail's arms moved lazily around my neck and I looked down at her, my heart heavy and remorseful. How could she be so forgiving in the face of what I'd done?

I'd been so foolish yesterday. How could I ever think that she would cheat? That she would want another? How could I have ever thought those soulful blue eyes that stared up at me were shared with another? Would want another? My body relaxed against hers, the weight of my regret too heavy to carry and her legs wrapped around me possessively, pulling me to her. She still wanted me close. I wanted to be close.

"I love you …" she whispered and I felt my body quiver, my emotions becoming unsteady within me. How could her words have such a profound impact on me? I felt the tear fall from my eye and watched it touch her cheek. She stilled.

"You're not going to leave?" I asked tearfully.

"No."

"You're mine?" another of my tears touched her cheek.

"Yes."

"I'm sorry for what I did."

"Sweetie its ok." she soothed touching my cheek.

"Its not." I shook my head. "I'm sorry for what I did. How can you forgive me so easily?"

"It's easy to forgive mistakes, when I've made worst." she admitted with the saddest of blue eyes. Without Gail saying it, I knew she was talking about cheating on Nick with the detective when she was jealous over Andy. I nodded my understanding and kissed her softly. "The other stuff …" she was referring to my scars left by Mackenzie. "We'll fix those with time, love and patience." She reached up to kiss me and I kissed her back, the best way I knew and the most honest way I could.

AN: Look no cliffhanger! Lol isn't it comforting NOT knowing what's about to come next?