Beca was first roused from her sleep by something cold and wet on her face, before it was replaced by something warm. She opened her eyes, and moved her head back in confusion as the blur in front of her changed from unrecognizable colors in her half asleep state, to figures standing above her.

It was then she realized it was a wet tongue of a puppy on her face. She propped herself up on her elbows and gently pushed the excited puppy back, petting her head as she looked up. Alex stood next to the puppy, her face stoic as she looked at Beca. Her messy hair, and pajamas told her she hadn't been awake very long.

"Morning bunny," She said tiredly. "What are you doing?"

"She has to go outside to potty." She said and Beca nodded, smiling at the dog wagging her tail excitedly.

"Okay love, better take her out then, so she doesn't have an accident on the carpet."

Alex didn't say anything, aside from looping her hand in the puppy's collar and walking her toward the back door.

Beca watched her go, rubbing sleep from her eyes. She waited until Alex had closed the patio door before she looked away, to find Aubrey standing above her with a cup of coffee in her hand.

She looked at her for a moment before looking down, and slowly sat up scooting over so she wasn't taking up the entire couch.

Aubrey let out a breath and extended her hand that held the cup. Beca saw the motion and looked up. Slightly confused, she gently accepted the coffee. "Thank you." She practically whispered as Aubrey sat down next to her.

She didn't drink it right away. Instead, let her hands rest on her legs as she used them both to hold it.

Aubrey was quiet for a moment, watching her. Then, "You slept on the couch." She stated.

Beca looked at her for a second before nodding. "Yeah, I… I stayed up last night, for a while, and you were all in bed already, I didn't want to disturb you, so I just slept here." She said.

"Why would that disturb us? You have come to be late before."

She shrugged. "You were all so angry with me last night. I didn't really feel like I should."

She said, looking into the cup. They were angry, there was no denying it. But it upset and confused Aubrey to think Beca felt as though she had to sleep on the couch, because of it.

"Beca look at me." Aubrey said leaning forward and Beca turned her head to fully look at her.

"We had a good reason to be angry." She said. Beca nodded and looked down, before quickly looking back up, like Aubrey asked.

"I know you did. You still do."

Aubrey nodded. "Yes, we do. But no matter how angry we may be with each other, no matter how bad the fight. You should never feel like you shouldn't come to bed." She said.

Beca nodded. "Chloe was so angry. I hurt Stacie and Alex, they both had such big days that I missed. I've never broken a promise to Alex. I never intended to be so late. I know I should have just come home. I should have never laid down after my set. And I will never forgive myself for hurting them." She said.

Aubrey listened to her, hearing how her voice went from scratchy and sleepy, to trembling and loud. She scooted closer to her. "I know you didn't mean it. We all know you didn't mean for it to happen, Becs. But it was still upsetting, you understand?"

Beca nodded. "I do, and I am so sorry. Chloe was right, that interview wasn't worth it. It wasn't worth all of this. Nothing will ever be worth what this family is."

Aubrey gently took the neglected coffee cup and set it aside on the coffee table before pulling Beca to lay against her. This wasn't a new position. Aubrey couldn't count the times she had laid with Beca like this, the younger of the two crying. Beca had missed some important things. But it wasn't intentional, and she knew that. She knew she was passed beating herself up over it, and was now mercilessly beating the crap out of herself. Beca may be stronger than she used to be. She might have survived a lot of things, but she was still fragile.

She was still bent in certain ways. Aubrey knew this, they all did. They all had their scars, which would rear their ugly heads in from time to time. Bec had done well to ignore them. However, as easy as it was to turn their backs on the past. It could just as easily, come up and take ahold of any one of them, taking them back to the vulnerable state they had been trapped in. And Aubrey knew when it came to them and their happiness, Beca was liable to be sucked in so fast, they wouldn't even see it coming. She knew she was spiraling now. She had broken promises, missed milestones and had the whole family angry with her. So, like she had done so many times. Aubrey held her. Her hand gently running through Becas hair, soothing her.

Beca lay back, feeling the tears that threatened to spill over and tried to stop them. She couldn't do this. She was over this. She couldn't fall apart every time one of them was angry with her. How was that going to help anyone? How would she ever move on, if she broke down and basically reverted back to the scared, uncertain girl she was in the beginning? She couldn't. She had a child, and a career now. A family. She couldn't let the past mess it up, because she was irresponsible. She couldn't let the fear of them leaving her, or becoming so angry at her negligence, that they made her leave, take over. That isn't a possibility, and she knew it. But underneath all of that. Underneath the happiness, the family, the new job. Lie those insecurities that she tried to keep hidden. The ones that came out, guns blazing the moment, she felt she had messed up.

The patio door opened again and the puppy ran through the living room. Alex ran in after her, not giving Beca or Aubrey a second glance. The sudden noise broke Beca from her thoughts and she shook her head slightly. Only then realizing that she had failed at stopping the tears and her cheeks were wet.

She sat up, wiping them away and sniffling. Aubrey sat up as well. "It's okay, Beca. We will all talk today. We will figure out how to make it work."

She nodded. "Yeah." She spoke softly. "I love you."

Aubrey smiled and leaned forward, pressing her lips against Becas softly. It wasn't a quick kiss, and they both wanted it to last longer than a few seconds. They needed it too. So when Beca reached up, her hand sliding behind Aubrey's neck to hold her in place, Aubrey didn't resist, kissing her a little harder. She had missed her the last few days. Everything with James before her trip had kept them all busy. She couldn't remember the last time she and Beca had done anything more than a light kiss here and there. In fact, she couldn't really remember any of them, being affectionate with her. She knew Chloe couldn't keep her hands off Stacie, and she and Stacie had been intimate as well. She and Chloe never ceased to find time to mess around if even for a minute. But the way Beca was kissing her now, it was needy, but not sloppy.

She held onto Aubrey, leaning into her. But, Aubrey pulled back, knowing that even with the realization that Beca probably hadn't had really any form of intimacy from any of them in a while. They couldn't right then. "We can't," She said softly.

It was the way Beca bit her lower lip and looked away from Aubrey, nodding slightly that made her worry about just how long it had been since any one of them, paid much attention to her. She was about to speak when Alex walked back in.

"Mom, what's for breakfast?" Beca stood up.

"I was going to make breakfast today, do you and your pup want to help me?" She asked.

Alex looked at her. "No thank you." She said turning and walking away. Beca sighed, rubbing the back of her neck before walking into the kitchen after her.

Aubrey shook her head. Making it a point to talk to Stacie and Chloe as soon as she could.

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Chloe and Stacie were still asleep upstairs, while Aubrey helped Beca make breakfast and Alex sat on the floor with the puppy, listing off names to Aubrey.

Stacie was sound asleep, peaceful in the bed. However, next to her, Chloe lay sleeping, not so peacefully. Her face was coated in a thin sheet of sweat and she had kicked the covers away from her. Her face was distressed and the softest whimpers escaped her as she shifted uncomfortably. It wasn't long before she bolted up with a gasp, her eyes wide and darting around frantically. Her breathing uneven. When she came back to reality, taking in surroundings, her swallowed hard, and dropped her face into her hands for a moment, before looking beside her, at Stacie. She smiled lightly and pulled the blanket up over her before getting out of bed, and going into the bathroom for a cold shower.

Doing her best to rid her mind of the same nightmare that unbeknownst to the other, had been plaguing her mind for the last several nights.

XXXXXX

Beca had offered to take the puppy out when she had begun to scratch at the back door and Aubrey took that opportunity to speak with Alex. She lifted her up on the counter and handed her a bowl and a whisk.

The little girl whisked the eggs as Aubrey stood in front of her. "Alright Alex, I know you are upset with Mama. But she is very sorry, and she didn't mean to miss your party. You know that, and you know much she loves you. I know you are angry, and hurt. But, do you think, for me, you could forgive her? Mama really needs all the love she can get right now. And I bet she wants to have another party, maybe even bigger, or maybe we can go somewhere. She didn't mean to miss it, love. So what do you say? Can you forgive her?"

Aubrey knew she was technically bribing the child, but she also know the importance of forgiveness and if they were going to move passed this, they needed to do it right.

"But you and Mommy Stacie and Chloe are mad at her." She said.
Aubrey shook her head. "We were. It's all better now."

"Then why didn't you let Mama sleep with you last night?"

Aubrey frowned taking he bowl and pouring it onto the frying pan. "That was a misunderstanding love."

"What's that?"

Aubrey smiled at her. "It means, Mama thought one thing. And we thought a different thing. So Mama slept on the couch, because we didn't talk about it."

Alex looked down and nodded. "Are you guys fighting?"

Aubrey shook her head. "No, we aren't fighting."

She nodded. "Okay. I guess I can forgive her."

Aubrey smiled. "Thanks kid." She said kissing her forehead before lifting her off the counter.

Beca walked back in then and Alex walked over to her and hugged her around the waist. "I forgive you for missing my party Mama. " She said and Beca looked at Aubrey who smiled and continued cooking.

Beca knelt down and hugged her daughter, feeling the emotions coming back up. "I love you so much Alex, and I'm so sorry I wasn't here."

"I know Mama. It's okay." She said and they pulled apart.

"Mama, why are you crying?" She asked and Aubrey turned around to see Beca hastily wipe away her tears.

"I'm okay love, why don't you go think of a name for the puppy, and I will call you for breakfast?"

Alex nodded and left the kitchen calling for the puppy who could be heard running from somewhere in the house.

Aubrey walked over and gave her a hug. "You okay?"
She nodded. "Thank you, I now you did that."

Aubrey smiled and stepped back. "I don't know what you are talking about." She said grabbing a couple empty mugs from the cupboard. "Coffee?"

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Chloe walked out of the bathroom in a t-shirt and sweat pants, towel drying her hair, to see Stacie sitting up in bed.

"Morning beautiful." She smiled walking over and Stacie looked at her. "You sleep okay last night?"

Stacie nodded. "Yeah, but you didn't."

"What do you mean?" She asked hanging the towel on the desk chair.

Stacie turned slightly. "You were restless all night, you made noises. Were you having a nightmare?"

Chloe froze for a moment, until she saw the genuine look of worry on Stacie's face.

She nodded slightly and sat on the edge of the bed, tucking one leg under her. "For the past like, week." She said. "I keep having the same one."

"What's it about?" Stacie asked reaching over and placing her hand on top of Chloe's. She hesitated. "It might help if you talk about it."

Chloe looked up at her. "I don't want Beca or Aubrey to know about it." She said.

Stacie looked a little surprised but nodded. Chloe looked down again.

"It's kind of a few different nightmares in one. It's like, one minute, I'm in the old apartment in Barden Aubrey, is in a pool of blood at my feet and I can't get to her…the next, I'm with Beca in that trailer Jesse had kept her in, in Louisiana. No one really knows what all happened there, but in my dreams, it's awful." She said and Stacie squeezed her hand. From there, we are in Maine, Bumper has Aubrey, and Jesse had Alex. You, you're barely alive." She said and Stacie could see she was breaking down. "Then we are in the courtroom, Jesse is choking her…but I don't have the gun. I didn't take it. I didn't take it, and Jesse is killing her, and I can't move. None of us can move. Then we here a snap, and Beca is dead." She said looking down and Stacie can see the tears dripping off her face, making dark spots on her sweat pants.

"That's when I wake up." She said lifting her face and angrily wiping away her tears. "He kills her. And I wake up."

Stacie wasn't sure what to say. She didn't now Chloe had been having reoccurring nightmares. She had no idea. "I just, I can't seem to close my eyes lately, and not see him. Or you, or Beca, Aubrey… hurt, bleeding. Dying." She said, her voice cracking. "I don't understand."

Stacie opened her arms, and Chloe easily moved over into her embrace. "I'm not a doctor, Chlo. But this sounds an awful lot like PTSD."

"PTSD?" She sniffled. "I wasn't in any war-"

"Baby, listen. You don't have to have been in the war to suffer PTSD. You went through and extremely traumatic experience. Multiple times. You…you killed Jesse. You saved Becas life. Beca has it. She's had it for years. You've seen how she reacts to certain things. How she shuts down, or gets scared. How she spirals. Flinches at fast movements, loud noises. Alex had nightmares, and she sometimes is triggered by certain things." She said and Chloe nodded.

"I don't want to have these dreams anymore." She said. "I don't want any of us to hurt anymore."

Stacie nodded. "I know, me either. It's going to be okay, love. Would you, maybe consider seeing someone?"

Chloe sat up. "Like a psychologist?" She asked. Stacie nodded.

"Maybe it will help you."

Chloe looked down in thought for a moment. "It couldn't hurt."

"I will even go with you, if you want."

Chloe nodded. "Yeah?"

Stacie smiled giving her a soft kiss. "Of course."

Not quite ready to leave the bed yet, knowing that Aubrey and Beca were downstairs, and there were things that needed to be discussed. They lay back down, and curled around each other, Chloe gently rubbing Stacie's belly.

"Do you think Beca will be happy with the gender?" Stacie asked absentmindedly.

Chloe smiled. "Absolutely. Beca is going to be thrilled. And your idea on how to tell her, is adorable." She said.

Stacie smiled. "What do you think Alex is going to name that puppy?"

"I have no idea, hopefully something easy to say." She laughed. Stacie chuckled. "Well, should we go down? I smell food, and baby is hungry."

Chloe nodded sitting up and getting off the bed, helping Stacie up too.

By the time they walked into the kitchen, Beca and Aubrey were already at the table, and Alex was at the counter with her breakfast. It was higher up, so the puppy couldn't steal her food.

Beca looked up at them as they entered and they both watched as her face fell and she looked back down at her plate.

"Morning, I thought you two might have died in your sleep." Aubrey said. Stacie rolled her eyes playfully as she lowered self into the chair next to Beca.

Beca looked up and lifted the pan full of scrambled eggs. "Want some?" She asked softly and Stacie nodded.

"Please." She said lifting her plate and Beca scooped some onto it.

Chloe sat down as Beca was setting the pan down, and she looked at her. "Chlo?" She asked and she nodded lifting her plate as well.

Once they were all served, Beca sat back in her chair. Her appetite that was hardly there to begin with, had completely vanished. She knew they were still angry with her, and hard as she tried to push away the hurt, she couldn't.

Aubrey had taken notice, that she had stopped eating and Stacie had too. Hey were around five minutes into the meal when she spoke.

"Okay, I know that the last few days have sucked. Things that shouldn't have happened, did. Things that were important were missed." Stacie said. Beca looked at her cautiously and so did Aubrey and Chloe.

From the center island, Alex looked over, listening as well. "We were all upset. We had hurt feelings. But, it was an accident on Becas part. We all know that." She looked at Chloe. "We know that you didn't miss these things on purpose." She said reaching over and taking Becas hand.

She looked up at her. "I didn't, I'm really sorry."

Stacie nodded with a smile. "I know and I forgive you." She said.

Chloe looked up. "So do I." She said quietly and Becas eyes teared up for the third time that day. Her emotions being all over the place.

"And I am sorry, but I had some major news, and we worked hard on how to tell you, and I am not waiting anymore." She said.

"Can I get it?" Alex asked excitedly from island and Stacie nodded.

Beca smiled wiping her tears and Aubrey and Chloe were smiling as well, waiting for Alex to return from the refrigerator.

Soon enough she was walking over, holding a plate with a cupcake on it. "Okay Mama, this cupcake is specially made for you." She smiled and Beca took the plate setting it on the table.

Alex then climbed into her lap as she looked at it. It was a chocolate cupcake with the tiniest, edible print of an ultrasound on the top.

"Is this?" She asked excitedly to Stacie. She nodded.

"Break it open."

Beca smiled as she picked up the cupcake and unwrapped the white wrapper, then carefully pulled it apart.

The sound of something hard pinged the plate and she looked to see a bunch of M&M's falling out of the center of the cupcake. Her eyes grew wide as she looked at them.

"Blue…" She said softly. "It's a boy?" She asked looking at Stacie who was now the one with teary eyes.

She nodded. "I'm having a boy." She said.

Beca set the cupcake down and leaned over to hug and kiss her as Aubrey and Chloe watched happily. Alex, very quickly popped as many M&M's into her mouth as she could before Aubrey caught her.

"Oh baby, this is so great!" Beca smiled kissing her again then leaning down and kissing her stomach.

"A boy."

A/N: IT'S A BOY! PLEASE REVIEW! And don't get comfortable. There is a storm coming. And yes… Bechloe is not in the clear. Nor is Chloe herself. What do you guys think? Love the reviews iv been getting, keep them coming they HELP.