Stef
We went to our marriage counseling appointment and she grabbed my hand too make sure I was ok.
"Hey it's good to see you guys again. Was the baby born?" he asked and I nodded.
"Yes March 9th, Brayleigh Lea Adams Foster" I said and he smiled.
"Congratulations. She letting you sleep?" he asked.
"Between her and her mom not really" Lena said only half serious. Thanks for that, Lena.
"You having trouble sleeping?" he asked me.
"A little bit. I haven't had nightmares just can't sleep." I said and he nodded.
"Why do you think that is?" he asked and I shrugged.
"Any ideas?" he asked Lena.
"I think she's overwhelmed." Lena said patting my knee. I know she's trying ensure I have too talk about what's going on with Brayleigh. I still can't believe that she is making me go too an appointment with a psychiatrist. PPD? Even if he doesn't think I have it he will want too see me again. I have a lot going on and he's going too want too see me again.
"What's overwhelming you?" he asked me and I decided too try and lighten the mood.
"Five teens and a newborn" I said half jokingly and he smiled at me.
"Well that certainly is stressful but it's more than that isn't it?" he asked. Damn therapists, why are they so good at reading people.
"Um… I'm not feeling really connected too Brayleigh." I admitted and he nodded.
"That's normal. You have been though a lot, it's normal too be overwhelmed by it all. I recommend taking a little bit of time each day fifteen too thirty minutes too just relax by yourself. You need a little bit of time too yourself too not go crazy and I mean by yourself" he said looking at Lena who nodded.
"Also you're not working right now right?" he asked and I nodded.
"Yes i'm on maternity leave for sixth months" I said and he nodded. I could have taken a year off but me and Lena agreed that I would loss my sanity by than.
"Ok good. I want you too try and have time alone with not only Brayleigh but the rest of you're kids and family. Doing whatever but a little bit of one on one time could really help make you get back to normal routine. Make you get a deeper bound with them which could really help you at a time like this" he said and i nodded.
"Now how have you been with everything going on recently?" he asked Lena and I looked over at her.
"Well I'm fine. I'm just worried about Stef. I want her too be happy and I don't think, I know she's not." she said and I looked down.
"Is that true, Stef?" he said and I shrugged.
"Are you feeling any disconnection with Brayleigh?" he asked Lena and she shook her head.
"She's feeling a bit jealous sometimes" i said and she sighed. Throw me under the bus and I will do the same.
"Jealous of what?" he asked and I looked over at her.
"Sometimes I get jealous that Stef is her birth mom." she admitted and he looked shocked.
"Why do you think you feel that way?" he asked and I realized that we never told him about Frankie.
"I got preeclampsia and lost our daughter Frankie sixth months ago" she said and he looked shocked. He had a look on his face that said, 'Man you guys have had a rough year'.
"Oh i'm sorry too hear that. Well that definitely adds a variable too the conversation." he said looking like he doesn't even know were too begin. You know we have a complicated life when we stump our therapist.
Mariana
I was upstairs listening to music when I heard Brayleigh start to cry. Guess I had it too loud, I turned it off and went over to her. Moms are at their appointment, and Gram is attempting to make dinner. I went over to her and picked her up.
"Hey there sweetie." I said and headed downstairs to get her her milk. Gram saw me coming down and sighed. She had her hands covered in cheese and I laughed.
"I got her" I said grabbing the milk from the fridge. I sat down and fed her and gram just watched me.
"You are way too young to be good at that." She said and I laughed. I just shrugged in response.
"Don't get any ideas, having a baby is better when you can give it back to its parents" she said and I laughed.
"I know I won't" I said.
"That and my daughter would kill you" she said and we both laughed.
Lena
We got home from therapy and supper was just about done.
"Oh how nice we get home and supper is practically on the table" I said and Stef laughed.
"Don't talk so soon it's my moms cooking" Stef whispered to me.
"I can hear you" Sharon said and Stef laughed.
"I love you and all but your cooking is not your strong suit" I said and she rolled her eyes.
"Her cooking really isn't that bad" I said and Stef gave me a look of 'are you kidding me?'
"You do realize that we have been dating for 12 years and you don't have too kiss up too her anymore." she said whispering too me and I played slapped her.
"Stop it" she said and I went up too go check on Brayleigh. She was awake and I picked her up and took her downstairs. I smiled as she fell asleep in my arms.
"Hey their Bray" Sharon said playing with her feet.
"Not even a week old and she already has a nickname" Stef said. We passed her around while people were eating. After supper I called the number too set up an appointment for Stef too see a psychiatrist.
I had Brayleigh in my arms and used my shoulder too keep the phone against my ear.
"Hello this is Lena Adams Foster i'm calling too make an appointment for my wife Stefanie Adams Foster with Dr. Johnson" I said when I finally got someone. I was on hold when Stef came downstairs too get Bray from me.
"Oh thank you" I said handing her too Stef.
Once I finally finished the call I wrote down the appointment on the calendar. The appointment is on April 3rd, I was hoping I could get her in sooner but they are swarmed.
Stef
I took Brayleigh from Lena since she looks busy. I know she is calling too make an appointment for me too see a psychiatrist which is the last thing I want but oh well.
"Hey mama thinks mommy is going crazy but you don't, do you?" I said and she just cood quietly.
"See I knew I liked you for a reason" I joked and sat on the bed. I put her on the bed laying her on her back. I played with her feet and she squirmed around.
"I know i'm not being a very good mom right now, i'm sorry. I'm glad you are too young too notice. It's not you through, I promise" I said in a baby voice.
"You are so loved" I said picking her up and rocking her to sleep.
Sorry about the wait, that it's really short, and that the chapter sucks. Writers block is terrible thing to have. Next chapter should be better (no promises). Hope it wasn't too bad.