DISCLAIMER: I do not own a thing from beyblade, if I do, there would be some changes, starting with more Kai.

WARNING: abuse, rape, incest, Mariah bashing, maybe some slash as background. I don't know yet.

A/N: there will be some changes in the characters, and it will not really follow the story line of the series, but it calls FANFICTION for a reason.

Summary: you all have heard of stories where Kai is changed into a girl. Well this story is what would happen if Kai was born a girl, but had to keep it a secret, because her grandfather thinks that girls are weak. Then she runs away from him and from there on, her live changes. Dramatically.

Summary2: Kai, born a girl, raised a boy. Her grandfather sends her to the abbey, to Boris, they hurt her too many times. Now she ran away, trying to find her true self, meeting true friends along the way. Rated for abuse and rape. Kai/Tala or Kai/Rei.

A/N: will have rape, abuse, and who knows what else.

Chapter 25

Kai was twisting, turning and flailing around, blindly, not waking. She woke Rei and Tala up, who where sharing a bed with her.

When Tala saw her flailing around, he jumped out of bed, just in time, because not a moment later, a fist smashed in the place he was lying on.

Rei was less lucky, and got a fist against his stomach. Tala let out a little smirk when he saw that, but then he turned his attention back to Kai, and grew serious.

He shook her, trying to wake her up, but it didn't work. To his surprise, tears where starting to leak from her eyes.

Then the screams began.

"NO, PLEASE NOT AGAIN. PLEASE STOP IT" sounded between the sobs. Never in his whole live had he seen Kai like this.

Tyson, Max and Kenny woke up from the noise.

"Wha…what's happening?" asked Tyson sleeping.

"Kai is having a nightmare." Rei said.

Finally after a lot of shaking Kai woke up, with a gasp, as if she was drowning, and she finally could breathe again, witch in fact was something like that, only she was drowning in memories.

"Tala?" Kai asked, as if she couldn't believe her eyes.

"Yes it's me." Tala said, and Kai dived into his arms, sobbing. She hadn't noticed the others, and that is a good thing, because she would hate herself if she showed others that she was weak.

Tala signed to the blade breakers that they should leave them alone. Max, Tyson and Kenny left easily enough, but Rei seemed reluctantly to leave.

Then after a glare from Tala, he left.

"Kai, what's wrong?" asked Tala in a soft voice.

"It hurts, it just hurts so fucking hard."

"What?"

"Remembering the past."

"Yeah, I know, I've been there, done that."

"And the darkness that it brings back is devastating. Oh Tala, why can't I be strong, like you?"

"Strong, me? Kai you are so much stronger than me, not only did you survive the abbey, but you could survive as Voltaire's and Boris favourite plaything, and that's saying a lot."

"Tala, promise me, that you, when I get hurt, will do nothing about it, just nothing."

"What?" Tala asked, bewildered at Kai's question.

"Promise me that Tala, otherwise I would worry myself over you too much when we are back at the abbey." And when she looked at him, with all the despair in her eyes, that seemed like they where holding back tears, his resolve broke, and he answered 'yes' to her question, knowing that there will be a time that the promise will be broken, if it's sooner or later he didn't know, he just knew that he couldn't stand to see her suffering.

"Kai, there is something I need to tell you." Tala said, biting his lip. "something that I wanted to tell you, but I didn't have the guts, but I want you to know it before we enter the abbey once again."

"What." Kai asked, curiosity burning in her eyes.

"Well, you see…well…mmmmmh…What I want too say…" he started, but then he looked at Kai, grabbed her by the shoulders and dragged her to him, and kissed her on the mouth.

When he was done, he simply said. "I love you."

"Tala, I…I thought…how long, I like you too, and you are kind of cute, but how do you know if you in love? Are you sure, and what about Rei, the way you two are staring at each other the whole time?" Kai asked in a frenzy, blushing, and looking at the sheets.

"I'm sure I love you Kai, my heart is beating just for you, and you are the first thing on my mind when I wake up, and I just thought that Rei might like you too, so I had to keep an eye on him.

"Tala, I think I love you to, but could we take it slowly, and no sex until we are older, like normal teenagers. I just want to be normal for a change, no worries for the future, no worries about the past, just today, nothing more that counts." Kai said her eyes already drooping.

"Yeah, Kai that would be just fine." Tala whispered, and then he lay down in the bed, Kai lying in his arms, and so they fell asleep.

Ten minutes later, the blade breakers came back in the room to see if Kai calmed down already. They knew that she had a hard past, but that she got such nightmares from it.

Rei was jalous that Tala had made him leave, it could be him that held Kai in his arms instead of Tala, but he decided to let it for now.

Luckily he didn't heard the conversation those two where having otherwise he wouldn't have it left by that.

RUSSIA

The clones where stepping out of the tubes, already wearing shorts, Voltaire was inspecting them.

"Spencer, what is your task?" he asked to Spencer clone, to see if the programmation was correct.

"To utterly humiliate Kai, breaking her spirit, so that she will listen to us without a question."

"Good." Voltaire smiled evilly. What he didn't see was the flicker of emotion that shot in the clones eye when he turned away.

The meaning of the cloning process was simple.

You take a human, you take some DNA, and you clone him.

You have a perfect replica, with memories and the same condition from it's donor.

Because the brain is still in making when you clone it, you can at a stage delete some memories, well not delete block them.

The memories could return, but only if the person, of thing that the memories are about are important enough for him, and then only if the clone is strong enough.

Voltaire (A/N: I was writing Voldemort, luckily I saw it in time, it would have been so embarrassing) turned to Boris.

"Where are the Demolition boys?" He asked.

"There in the dungeon, not 'training' for the moment."

"Why aren't they 'training'?"

"Because no one in the abbey may know that they are cloned, and if they are 'trained' than they scream, and they will know who will scream."

Voltaire nodded, and then looked at the clones, who where dressed, and where receiving their bit beast.

He smirked.

'Oh yes, my dear Kai, you will suffer like you never suffered before, and this time not at the hands of enemy's, no at the hands of those who you call friends.' He thought, his smile growing wider and wider at the second.

Then he commanded that the demolition clones should get started to practice, and left.

TBC

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