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He Who Sins

Chapter Twenty-Five:

Rose shook violently again, the metal chains rang against the wall as she tried to fight them – she had been hanging here for days. Her eyes had adjusted to the darkness that seeped into the room cloaking it, no light escaped into the room and Rose could barely make out the outlines of the walls – four small walls pressed together confining her in this hell.

'Let me go!' she shouted as she rang her chains against the wall – the only reply she got was the sound of her own desperate voice ringing through the cell and back to her. No one could hear her – no one could help her – Rose knew that she could be trapped her for all eternity and no one would notice – no one except the Doctor. She let a single tear trickle down her cheek

'Doctor' she whimpered as she waited for him to come – she had no idea of how far away he was.

The Doctor pulled himself out of the memories and looked at Jackie

'Well?' he said. Jackie jumped back out of her memories and blinked several times, regaining her composure.

'It sounds like…' Jackie began; the Doctor stood up and leant across the table

'Yes' he urged her, desperate to find Rose.

'It sounds like the sins' she murmured. The Doctor looked at her frowning

'That's what Rose said…' he mumbled as he remembered her falling to the floor before him, the feeling as his dead arms tried to reach out for her. He shook his head at himself and drew himself out of the memory – he had to focus on how to help her, not on what he did wrong. Jackie placed her hand on his

'You'll get her back, I know you will' she assured him. The Doctor looked up at her, the raw truth of his words in his eyes

'I hope you're right' he murmured. Jackie half smiled then returned to her thoughts

'So someone's done something to make you two get affected' she began slightly confused, the Doctor began to nod enthusiastically

'Yes – I got these over whelming urges. Firstly must have been lust…' he trailed of when Jackie glared at him with a raised eyebrow

'What?' he asked

'That's my daughter your talking about' she reminded him. The Doctor let a faint smile pass over his lips

'I know'. Jackie shook her head at him

'Then it must have been anger – Rose shouting at me after…after we…' he trailed off again as he began to blush – Jackie was watching him carefully.

'Next' she said. The Doctor quickly hurried on

'Then envy – when I hit Mickey…how is Mickey boy by the way?' the Doctor added curiously. Jackie raised an eyebrow

'He's been better but he'll survive' she told him – in her voice there was a ring of warning. The Doctor nodded

'Right, then there must have been gluttony when Rose got a bit peckish' he continued 'Then greed, which brought us to you because something harmed our computers… if something was going to take her…hurt her – then it knew it couldn't do it in the Tardis because we were protected' he mused. He began to tug on his ear as things fell into place 'which means someone deliberately broke the connections to draw us out of the Tardis so that we were vulnerable…then affected me with sloth so I couldn't protect her – so there was nothing I could do but watch' he reasoned as he weakly tried to defend his actions – he knew there was no excuse.

Jackie saw that he was trying to defend himself and she didn't stop him – she knew he needed this closure, this peace of mind, otherwise he'd surly go mad. Jackie stood up and began to pace the kitchen like the Doctor

'So that's what happened' she concluded. The Doctor nodded – his eyes lit with hope

'But where do we find these people?'

The hope quickly faded from the Doctor's eyes as he realised the one simple truth of the entire matter

'I don't know' he admitted sadly. He didn't know who they were and he didn't know how to find them. He slumped back into his chair and clenched his fists as Rose's empty scream echoed around his mind – this was all his fault.

Rose's body shook as the cold stung at her toes again, she could feel the millions of goosebumps riding over her skin, in her bodies vain attempt to warm itself. All she was aware of was her babies – that and the fact they still hadn't moved. She let her head slump forward as she lent back against the wall, she reached her hands down to her bump but she couldn't reach it – she had know way of knowing if they were alright, there was nothing she could do but wait and hope. Hope for her hero to save her; she had no idea of how lost her hero was without her.

The Doctor threw another page of mindless notes at the wall, around his stark sheets of white paper crumpled into ball littered the floor. No matter what he tried, how he thought and what we came up with, it all circled back to one fact – she was gone. The Doctor let his head fall into his hands as his body began to gently shake, all he needed more than anything in the world was for Rose to wrap her arms around him and promise everything will be okay. Only she never came – the hug he needed so badly remained in his memories, he was truly alone.

Jackie stood in the doorway and watched the Doctor slowly breakdown – Jackie had managed not to cry so far, she was staying strong for the Doctor but the moment she saw him cry tears for her daughter she couldn't hold it in any longer. Jackie let tears stream down her face as she saw the Doctor grieve for her daughter – it was in this moment she realised how much the Doctor truly loved Rose, and for that one simple fact she was more than ready to welcome him into the family.