Rosalie's thoughts
Rosalie's POV
Ever since Alice's vision about who knows what, I've thought about our family's life since Bella came into the picture. This was brought about when Alice screamed Bella's name during her vision. I don't think any of the others registered what she was saying because they were too busy making sure she was alright, but I know Alice. She can survive anything.
Before Bella came to Forks I was happy. There wasn't much that I wanted but couldn't have. Only something I have dreamed of. Children. Other than that I had all I wanted. A loving family and perfect husband. I got to spend time tinkering away at the cars in our garage; shopping with Alice; chatting with Jasper and spending quality time with my wonderful husband. My life was as perfect as it could get. Or so I thought. Only now can I see how selfish I was. I was too busy living my perfect life to notice that Edward was suffering. He had lived almost a century alone. He started with loving parents who brought him up as the perfect gentleman, only to lose both in the Spanish epidemic. He then started a new life as an unchanging, frozen creature. Carlisle was there for him first then he met Esme, then I came along pursuing him even though he had no interest in me. When I found Emmett he had to not only live with two mated couples but their constant thoughts. He was the only one of us to have a gift so we never truly understood what it was like but when Alice and Jasper joined us I think Edward was relieved to have someone to talk to about that sort of stuff. It also meant another mated couple in the house which isolated Edward even more even though he was the second in the Cullen family. It didn't help having a coven containing three succubus women as 'cousins'. Tanya and Irina were all over him until Irina got the message and moved on, however Tanya kept attempting to seduce Edward.
Once Edward met Bella there was a visible change in him. His eyes were lighter. He would joke around with Emmett and Jasper. He laughed more care freely. He never hid away in his room anymore, instead he played the piano more often; composing new, uplifting pieces. That was the Edward his mother would have wished to see. She would have been proud of him.
At first I resented her. She caught Edward's attention when I could not. The plain, dull human girl was better than me, the stunningly beautiful vampire. I couldn't believe it. I then became jealous when she found out what we were and was willing to through her humanity away. Her chance to have a life, get married, have children, grow old and die in the arms of the one she loved. Don't get me wrong, I love Emmett with my entire being and wouldn't give him up for anything, not even children if it meant not having Emmett there with me, but Bella had her whole life ahead of her and was throwing it away to be with Edward. For that I was cold hearted to her, in an attempt to scare her away from the family.
I see now that the family needs her. She was the final piece of the puzzle. Our family never knew what was missing until Bella joined the family. Now that she was gone our family was falling apart. If I had another chance I would be a sister to Bella and support her decisions in life because it was hers to do as she pleases. I will also help Edward in any way I can because he deserves it. I've spent my life being selfish and it was about time I stopped thinking of myself but Edward instead.
All I have to do is block Edward from me when he returns on Thursday.