Sorry this update took so long, I couldn't get on fanfiction.net for the
longest time. And to those who wondered what the heck happened to Wufei?
I'm here to tell you!
Chapter 25 Disbelief
Why do I continue to miss him? And why do I continue to love him? Even after his death, his voice, his smile, and his scent is still alive in my mind but every time I reach out for him, the illusion would shatter into pieces and turn back to what it is, just my imagination and nothing else. Don't people think that I hurt after each empty embrace or mistaken delusion? Yes, I do and every single time when I extend my arms, I return vacant in both mind and hands and a little bit more of me was lost in the exchange, a little bit more that I will never get back.
The massive building cast its mysterious shadows on me, hoping to intimidate me into bowing before its greatness. No, I will never bow to anything that he had touched and never to Treize. My stubbornness still doesn't fail me even after everything else has and yet, I don't know if I should be grateful or not of that fact. After another night of blinded wandering, I found myself outside of my castle and facing Treize's old home. The cool breezes sweep past my feet and the leaves that were resting were brushed up at the unseen forces. Dust flew past my face, but my eyes never closed. I have no idea why I am here and my memory of how I came to be is a complete fog but it isn't important anymore. The deaths of near a hundred occurred here. The tears and blood of these innocents are spilled here. And my happiness ended here also.
I stood there motionless, almost to the point where besides for the gentle rise and fall of my chest, I could easily be mistaken for a statue in the shadows. In my robes, I did not feel awkward nor out of place in front of this house, even though enveloped by an air of despair, is still undeniably elaborately decorated. I stood there in place for god knows how long. Time has escaped my calculations again just like all those days after Wufei left me. It could have been mere minutes or even hours. I did not care nor even slightly attempt to. The house was cleaned and its spotlessness only enhanced its dreamlike façade. Treize had taste and even I had to admit that and it is a shame that this house will no longer be remembered for its beauty but for what happened inside its obvious splendor.
Suddenly, I heard a small, almost undetectable noise from the shrubbery behind me and if it wasn't for the fact that the night sky is so quiet, giving the surroundings a surreal hushed quality, I wouldn't have heard it. It did, however, knock me out of the trace cast on me by the past and back to the present where my reflexes served me again. I guess even after all that's happened, I have not lost myself completely, no matter how much I wanted to. I dragged a boy out of his alcove from behind the bushes and was shocked for a second realizing how young, not to mention tired this child was. His bright eyes hinted at a great fear for the hands that tightly gripped his own right at this moment, but in their depths, there were also regret and a distinct sadness.
"Who are you and what are you doing here?" My voice betrayed none of the sympathy that I felt as I demanded an answer. I haven't spoken to anyone for a long time because I was locked in my own refuge, my room for the past few days. Every single person pretended that they understood what I was feeling when it was obvious that they did not have a single clue. It would have been better if they just admit that they knew nothing instead of pitying me. My voice choked.
"Who are you?" His voice was proud and rebellious as he replied. I was not surprised that this boy does not recognize me. How many kings in the world would randomly stroll to a house in the middle of the night? Wordlessly, I purposely shifted my body towards him where the moonlight gave the ground an illusory luminosity and the seal of the royal family embroidery on my robes was seen clearly. His eyes widened almost instantly as his eyes involuntarily strayed and landed on the symbol of the monarch.
"Oh, I am sorry… um… I did not know. Um…I didn't think that…." Realizing that he was blabbing and sounding even more foolish than before, he shut up immediately and awaited his punishment, for he knew that there most assuredly will be one.
I surprised him again. "It doesn't matter, I don't care." And it was the truth, not because he was so young and ignorant and it was to be expected and forgiven, but because I didn't have the energy anymore. Still, I was curious.
"What are you doing here in the middle of the night?" At that, his face took on a bemused expression and his eyes conveyed the same question to me, except that I'm not required to provide an answer and he dare not ask it of me.
"I was looking for someone." He apparently did not wish to offer any more information and if I were any other person, I would acknowledge his discomfort.
"Who? And why this time of the night?" I'm not any other person. Damn good manners in general.
"….." He hesitated and that annoyed me. I did not have much patience to begin with and this boy who could very well be a lackey of Treize's is making it worse. I stared at him and even in the dim light; he sensed the threat within my gaze. He has no choice now because now, this is personal.
"I was looking for my sister." He muttered unwillingly and I perceived the displeasure implied in the tone of his words. I lost control…
"Now, I don't give a damn whether you wish to answer my questions or not but if you value your life, you better do so. Do you have any idea whose property you are standing on? It belongs to the murderer of nearly an hundred lives including that of the queen, my wife. Now, I have no problems whatsoever to kill any people involved in this crime and right now, I think you are one of them so you better start talking or else you are not going to live long enough to do so." That was probably the most that I've spoken in a while and the words expressed the hatred and bitterness I felt perfectly as they were practically forced out of clenched teeth. The responses came almost automatically afterwards.
"Please don't kill me, I'm innocent I tell you, I'm innocent!"
"Then you better start talking now, shouldn't you?" came my curt answer. Wufei was innocent too and did that change anything? No, it didn't and why should it change now? The boy took my anger as a sign of my disbelief towards him and became almost hysterical to clear his name.
"No, it is true. My sister and I had a bet that this house was haunted because of what happened there and she snuck in to prove that fact."
"What happened to her?"
"She disappeared. She never came back." My attention was immediately captured by those few words.
"So she went in the house, and she was never seen again?" He nodded.
"Yes, and I thought that she might still be here so I have came every night to observe the house." He paused, suddenly remembering just who I was and became ecstatic.
"Wait, you are the king… can't you help me? Can you send pictures of her out and post them up in the kingdom? Can't you tell your guards to look for her please?" I almost laughed at how naïve his words were but one look at his expectant and hopeful face, I bit back the cruel words that I was going to say and nodded helplessly. Wufei's kindness has rubbed off on me and even though he is dead, I should at least honor his teachings.
"Oh my god! Thank you so much… She has black hair that is really, really long and reaches almost all the way down to her hips. She is very thin and around seventeen years old, about this tall." He made an estimate with his hands next to his own lanky figure. "And she disappeared around two weeks ago."
He eagerly went on and on and every word of his triggered something deep within me as the wheels in my head begin to turn again. It was the first time that I willingly recalled Wufei's death and estimated the time periods that I have tried to ignore before. The description sounds so familiar…. And two weeks ago, that was exactly when that body…. The face was marred with streaks of red, and completely unidentifiable from the torture and from soaking in the water so long, but everyone just assumed that it was… Wufei. Could it be?
"I have been here for the past few weeks and I think there are actually people in this house. The room is always dark but I think I hear sounds, voices within. Do you think that she is still in there trying to trick me?" I barely absorbed his voice as my thoughts stirred in an incredible rate, putting together all the information that I have been told and the facts at my disposal already. Who'd know that the solution would come in the form of this meager boy? He granted me with the final key to this complicated lock. My heart that felt as if it was locked away forever finally resurfaced and I saw a beam of light ahead.
"Hello? Hello? Your majesty?" His tone was worried as I stared out into space, looking at nothing and my gaze frozen. The sound startled me as I turned to finally look at him again and frowned at his enthusiastic expression. Poor boy…. If he'd really known.
"Come into the castle tomorrow and ask for me, I'll give you a hundred gold pieces. What other family members do you have in your household?" He was taken aback by my seemly unimportant and out of the blue question.
"My parents and grandparents. An uncle and a baby sister." He still looked puzzled at my sudden curiosity.
"Um… better make it two hundred then."
"Do you mind if I ask, but why are you giving me money?" His face edged forward as he silently demanded an answer, an answer that I did not wish to give him but have to for his own good. He cannot live in ignorance forever but I do not wish to see his face and the expressions that will surely manifest. I've seen it too many times in the mirror than I wish to count and I do not wish the same fate to an enemy, much less a childlike boy. Life is cruel no matter how you look at it.
I turned around and left, and as I was walking away I finally gave him the answer that he so greatly craves.
"Your sister is dead, her body was found in the river two weeks ago…"
I closed my eyes at the choked sobbing behind me and disappeared into the rays of the rising sun.
Wufei, I'm coming…. And when I do, I'll tell you everything….
Thus ends another chapter. I still have not gotten an offer for a website to put my pictures of female Wufei on, so if any of you want it, I'll e- mail it to you. Do you guys get this chapter? Hopefully, you do. And also… I want REVIEWS. So please, click that little button on the bottom and give me your thoughts, advice, or maybe criticize me for all I care. Please… I'm begging you. Also, since this story is going to end soon, like in three more parts, I have another story in the works. How does this sound to you?
Duo is a master chef whose cakes, pies, and all kinds of other sweets have the power to make anyone fall in love. But challenge comes in the form of Heero, a food critic who finds nothing satisfying. Thus begins a battle of will, mind, and stubbornness. Who will admit defeat first? And is Duo's cooking enough to make even the hardest heart fall in love?
This is another chapter story and if you guys have any ideas, please tell me. Yes, it is a 1+2 but if you want any other pairings to show up, tell me and I'll try and work with it. I accept almost every pairing there is, yaoi or not.
Chapter 25 Disbelief
Why do I continue to miss him? And why do I continue to love him? Even after his death, his voice, his smile, and his scent is still alive in my mind but every time I reach out for him, the illusion would shatter into pieces and turn back to what it is, just my imagination and nothing else. Don't people think that I hurt after each empty embrace or mistaken delusion? Yes, I do and every single time when I extend my arms, I return vacant in both mind and hands and a little bit more of me was lost in the exchange, a little bit more that I will never get back.
The massive building cast its mysterious shadows on me, hoping to intimidate me into bowing before its greatness. No, I will never bow to anything that he had touched and never to Treize. My stubbornness still doesn't fail me even after everything else has and yet, I don't know if I should be grateful or not of that fact. After another night of blinded wandering, I found myself outside of my castle and facing Treize's old home. The cool breezes sweep past my feet and the leaves that were resting were brushed up at the unseen forces. Dust flew past my face, but my eyes never closed. I have no idea why I am here and my memory of how I came to be is a complete fog but it isn't important anymore. The deaths of near a hundred occurred here. The tears and blood of these innocents are spilled here. And my happiness ended here also.
I stood there motionless, almost to the point where besides for the gentle rise and fall of my chest, I could easily be mistaken for a statue in the shadows. In my robes, I did not feel awkward nor out of place in front of this house, even though enveloped by an air of despair, is still undeniably elaborately decorated. I stood there in place for god knows how long. Time has escaped my calculations again just like all those days after Wufei left me. It could have been mere minutes or even hours. I did not care nor even slightly attempt to. The house was cleaned and its spotlessness only enhanced its dreamlike façade. Treize had taste and even I had to admit that and it is a shame that this house will no longer be remembered for its beauty but for what happened inside its obvious splendor.
Suddenly, I heard a small, almost undetectable noise from the shrubbery behind me and if it wasn't for the fact that the night sky is so quiet, giving the surroundings a surreal hushed quality, I wouldn't have heard it. It did, however, knock me out of the trace cast on me by the past and back to the present where my reflexes served me again. I guess even after all that's happened, I have not lost myself completely, no matter how much I wanted to. I dragged a boy out of his alcove from behind the bushes and was shocked for a second realizing how young, not to mention tired this child was. His bright eyes hinted at a great fear for the hands that tightly gripped his own right at this moment, but in their depths, there were also regret and a distinct sadness.
"Who are you and what are you doing here?" My voice betrayed none of the sympathy that I felt as I demanded an answer. I haven't spoken to anyone for a long time because I was locked in my own refuge, my room for the past few days. Every single person pretended that they understood what I was feeling when it was obvious that they did not have a single clue. It would have been better if they just admit that they knew nothing instead of pitying me. My voice choked.
"Who are you?" His voice was proud and rebellious as he replied. I was not surprised that this boy does not recognize me. How many kings in the world would randomly stroll to a house in the middle of the night? Wordlessly, I purposely shifted my body towards him where the moonlight gave the ground an illusory luminosity and the seal of the royal family embroidery on my robes was seen clearly. His eyes widened almost instantly as his eyes involuntarily strayed and landed on the symbol of the monarch.
"Oh, I am sorry… um… I did not know. Um…I didn't think that…." Realizing that he was blabbing and sounding even more foolish than before, he shut up immediately and awaited his punishment, for he knew that there most assuredly will be one.
I surprised him again. "It doesn't matter, I don't care." And it was the truth, not because he was so young and ignorant and it was to be expected and forgiven, but because I didn't have the energy anymore. Still, I was curious.
"What are you doing here in the middle of the night?" At that, his face took on a bemused expression and his eyes conveyed the same question to me, except that I'm not required to provide an answer and he dare not ask it of me.
"I was looking for someone." He apparently did not wish to offer any more information and if I were any other person, I would acknowledge his discomfort.
"Who? And why this time of the night?" I'm not any other person. Damn good manners in general.
"….." He hesitated and that annoyed me. I did not have much patience to begin with and this boy who could very well be a lackey of Treize's is making it worse. I stared at him and even in the dim light; he sensed the threat within my gaze. He has no choice now because now, this is personal.
"I was looking for my sister." He muttered unwillingly and I perceived the displeasure implied in the tone of his words. I lost control…
"Now, I don't give a damn whether you wish to answer my questions or not but if you value your life, you better do so. Do you have any idea whose property you are standing on? It belongs to the murderer of nearly an hundred lives including that of the queen, my wife. Now, I have no problems whatsoever to kill any people involved in this crime and right now, I think you are one of them so you better start talking or else you are not going to live long enough to do so." That was probably the most that I've spoken in a while and the words expressed the hatred and bitterness I felt perfectly as they were practically forced out of clenched teeth. The responses came almost automatically afterwards.
"Please don't kill me, I'm innocent I tell you, I'm innocent!"
"Then you better start talking now, shouldn't you?" came my curt answer. Wufei was innocent too and did that change anything? No, it didn't and why should it change now? The boy took my anger as a sign of my disbelief towards him and became almost hysterical to clear his name.
"No, it is true. My sister and I had a bet that this house was haunted because of what happened there and she snuck in to prove that fact."
"What happened to her?"
"She disappeared. She never came back." My attention was immediately captured by those few words.
"So she went in the house, and she was never seen again?" He nodded.
"Yes, and I thought that she might still be here so I have came every night to observe the house." He paused, suddenly remembering just who I was and became ecstatic.
"Wait, you are the king… can't you help me? Can you send pictures of her out and post them up in the kingdom? Can't you tell your guards to look for her please?" I almost laughed at how naïve his words were but one look at his expectant and hopeful face, I bit back the cruel words that I was going to say and nodded helplessly. Wufei's kindness has rubbed off on me and even though he is dead, I should at least honor his teachings.
"Oh my god! Thank you so much… She has black hair that is really, really long and reaches almost all the way down to her hips. She is very thin and around seventeen years old, about this tall." He made an estimate with his hands next to his own lanky figure. "And she disappeared around two weeks ago."
He eagerly went on and on and every word of his triggered something deep within me as the wheels in my head begin to turn again. It was the first time that I willingly recalled Wufei's death and estimated the time periods that I have tried to ignore before. The description sounds so familiar…. And two weeks ago, that was exactly when that body…. The face was marred with streaks of red, and completely unidentifiable from the torture and from soaking in the water so long, but everyone just assumed that it was… Wufei. Could it be?
"I have been here for the past few weeks and I think there are actually people in this house. The room is always dark but I think I hear sounds, voices within. Do you think that she is still in there trying to trick me?" I barely absorbed his voice as my thoughts stirred in an incredible rate, putting together all the information that I have been told and the facts at my disposal already. Who'd know that the solution would come in the form of this meager boy? He granted me with the final key to this complicated lock. My heart that felt as if it was locked away forever finally resurfaced and I saw a beam of light ahead.
"Hello? Hello? Your majesty?" His tone was worried as I stared out into space, looking at nothing and my gaze frozen. The sound startled me as I turned to finally look at him again and frowned at his enthusiastic expression. Poor boy…. If he'd really known.
"Come into the castle tomorrow and ask for me, I'll give you a hundred gold pieces. What other family members do you have in your household?" He was taken aback by my seemly unimportant and out of the blue question.
"My parents and grandparents. An uncle and a baby sister." He still looked puzzled at my sudden curiosity.
"Um… better make it two hundred then."
"Do you mind if I ask, but why are you giving me money?" His face edged forward as he silently demanded an answer, an answer that I did not wish to give him but have to for his own good. He cannot live in ignorance forever but I do not wish to see his face and the expressions that will surely manifest. I've seen it too many times in the mirror than I wish to count and I do not wish the same fate to an enemy, much less a childlike boy. Life is cruel no matter how you look at it.
I turned around and left, and as I was walking away I finally gave him the answer that he so greatly craves.
"Your sister is dead, her body was found in the river two weeks ago…"
I closed my eyes at the choked sobbing behind me and disappeared into the rays of the rising sun.
Wufei, I'm coming…. And when I do, I'll tell you everything….
Thus ends another chapter. I still have not gotten an offer for a website to put my pictures of female Wufei on, so if any of you want it, I'll e- mail it to you. Do you guys get this chapter? Hopefully, you do. And also… I want REVIEWS. So please, click that little button on the bottom and give me your thoughts, advice, or maybe criticize me for all I care. Please… I'm begging you. Also, since this story is going to end soon, like in three more parts, I have another story in the works. How does this sound to you?
Duo is a master chef whose cakes, pies, and all kinds of other sweets have the power to make anyone fall in love. But challenge comes in the form of Heero, a food critic who finds nothing satisfying. Thus begins a battle of will, mind, and stubbornness. Who will admit defeat first? And is Duo's cooking enough to make even the hardest heart fall in love?
This is another chapter story and if you guys have any ideas, please tell me. Yes, it is a 1+2 but if you want any other pairings to show up, tell me and I'll try and work with it. I accept almost every pairing there is, yaoi or not.