Chapter XXV False Reflections
It was the half demon, Shin. He looked into the miko's eyes; his face remaining stoic and colder than the Demon lord's ever managed. He slowly walked along the path, he seemly to be floating rather than walking. He gracefully tilted his head, staring off into the distance of the tall pine trees flowing in the breeze.
"The hanyou has left…" Shin said calmly.
Kagome blinked, and then sighed. 'Figures Inuyasha would leave…probably went to look for Kikyo.'
The miko lowered her head as she tried not to cry. It made her so angry and hurt, that Inuyasha would refuse to believe the truth of it all.
The sound of silk brushed against the stone path, as Shin stood in front of the miko. Lingering near her, he gently gazes at her with a slight amusement in his eyes. Kagome looked up …fearful of what he might do, she then swallowed and spoke up.
"What is it?"
Shin leaned forward, his face inches away from hers.
He exhaled from his mouth, as hot breathe flowed over Kagome's face. She hesitated, wondering what he was doing.
"Shin?" questioned Kagome as she held her breathe.
"Do you love him…?" asked the hanyou.
Kagome blinked, "Love him…?"
"Yes…"
Kagome lightly backed away, relieving her personal space. "Who may I ask are you talking about?"
Shining from the moonlight, Shin's lips glazing from the soft corners of his mouth, he smirked softly.
"The Demon lord, known as Sesshomaru." Shin said.
Kagome blushed, "Yes I do love him…"
"Heh…a love that could be impossible for you to ever truly acknowledge." Shin said.
"What do you mean?"
"He is a demon….you are a human…a miko…Surely you understand, if you were to be with him. You would die in less than a hundred years, while Lord Sesshomaru may live another millennium at the most." Shin said with no emotion.
Kagome's heart sank…The thought of only being with him, for as long as she lives, and then to leave Sesshomaru, alone for the rest of his days.
Kagome knew that demon's live longer than humans. And half demon's life spans differ from their parents' blood and genetics. And yet…
Kagome closed her eyes, the emotions of loneliness tugged at her heart. The feeling like she'll never be good enough ran through her mind.
Tears formed up from her eyes as she choked, 'I will not cry...I will not-
Kagome then felt the embrace of two arms wrap around her as the soft texture of silk covered against her. She gasped as her eyes opened wide.
Shin was hugging her, resting his hands around her back and waist. Pulling her close to his form, he sighed heavily.
"It is not wrong to love someone, nor to want them. Selfishness as it may be…But if it means giving up everything you hold dear in the end…What more is there?" Shin said with a tone laced with sadness.
"Shin…" Kagome said quietly.
The half demon pulled away, the flow of silk draped back in a fluid motion of black as he turned his head looking away from the miko.
Kagome looked at him…His words hung in the air, thick and filled with deep concern…
Kagome understood, there were no more words needed…She knew what he meant.
A flash of red blurred through the thick forest as the view of branches, tree-trunks and dirt became dimly visible from the moon's soft light.
The scent was there…the scent of almonds and graveyard soil…the bitter smell of death.
'She's near…Kikyo…' thought the hanyou as he desperately searched her the dead miko. He came to a clearing where she stood.
"K-Kikyo!" called out Inuyasha.
The dead miko turned her head looking at him.
"Inuyasha…"
The hanyou slowly walked up to her, his mind was spinning with so many thoughts. How he found out of what Kikyo will become…How he was betrayed…He had to know, know now if she would truly do such a thing.
"Kikyo…" Inuyasha said as he looked down at her, facing in front of her form. Inches away from nearly touching her cold hand.
She pulled away; placing her hand on her heart she gave him a look of hurt. "What are you doing here?" asked Kikyo.
"I-I came to see you…Kikyo…I want to be with you…I want to- Inuyasha choked at his words thinking of the right ones to say.
"I want to be with you…I'll defeat Naraku…So you won't have to fight anymore…I will protect you." Inuyasha said with a serious tone.
Kikyo's eyes glisten, "Inuyasha…"
Kikyo then wrapped her arms around him, holding him tightly. Inuyasha embraced her back.
"Inuyasha, we were fated never to meet again…You must know that…" Kikyo said as she pulled away lightly and then cupped his cheek.
Inuyasha looked at her with loving eyes, "And yet it was fate that brought me back to you." Said the hanyou.
Kikyo looked at him slightly surprised, his words were true and filled with such devotion.
"Inuyasha…" Kikyo said softly.
Kikyo pulled out of his embrace and slowly turned away. She clenched her heart.
"Inuyasha…even after all this time…you still hold such strong feelings for me…a dead woman…" Kikyo said with shamefulness in her voice.
"Kikyo, It's your spirit I care for, not your appearance…"
"Truly Inuyasha…you wouldn't…?" Kikyo said as she looked at him.
"You wouldn't despise me if I used these hands to take the life from you?" Kikyo said as she looked at him with uncertainly in her eyes.
Inuyasha thought deeply, looking into her eyes, they glistened an empty void of sadness.
Inuyasha's eyes narrowed lightly as he looked at her.
'Kikyo….What answer could I possibly give you…?'
Small clouds drifting in the sky, hovering beside the moon's light over the gardens. Dimming the two figures as a cold breeze flowed by them casting an eerie awkwardness. Kagome then looked up at the sky smiling warmly.
Shin looked at her, his cheeks heated as he softly admired her…Then a flash of memories poured into his mind…terrible thoughts.
Shin then felt a firm tug at his chest, a deep burning sensation-rising and descending slowly. A feeling-cringing against his body, crawling through his skin. His tongue rolling off the tip of his mouth as he hissed violently; gripping his chest and falling to his knees. His eyes shut tightly.
"Shin!" called out Kagome as she kneeled to him.
"What is wrong, are you alright?" asked Kagome worried as she lightly placed her hand on his shoulder.
The moment she touched him, he flinched and growled lightly. She pulled her hand away, unsure of what to do or say.
"Shin…Tell me where are you hurting?" asked Kagome as she examined him carefully.
The half demon opened his eyes, pain and anger shone in those blood-red orbs as he grinded his jaw.
"I-It's nothing…T-This happens fro-from time to…time…" choked out Shin as he closed his eyes again.
Kagome then sensed it, the dark aura surrounding him, she could actually see it. Pure black swirling over his body, it was so intense she almost felt like she was going to faint.
Shin then heard a soft whimper; he opened his eyes looking at the girl. Her eyes were heavy as she soon fell to the ground.
Quickly he grabbed her from hitting the ground. Holding her up, he rested her on his shoulders.
Her eyes opened slowly, "Sh-in…" whispered the young miko as she clinged to his kimono.
Shin bit the side of his tongue, the emotions he were feeling were not his…the desire was not his…He tried to release her, to release her soft hold on him. He trembled in her embrace. Kagome looked up at him.
Shin's eyes were closed shut; he was lost deep in the corners of his mind-he was surrounded in darkness. Drowning in his own regret. The emotional strings tugging at his heart, consuming his mind.
The thoughts of wickedness, the desire of sin…The bitter darkness screaming at him-the evil that flows in his veins calling for blood.
His inner beast was taking over. Memories of the vile hanyou crept in his head, all of sicken thoughts poured into him.
Then a loud pleading cry called out, Shin opened his eyes, he looked down at the person in front of him.
Kagome was crying trying to pull away, why? Why was she so afraid?
Then Shin realized that his claws were gripping into the miko's arms. Blood soaking down her white kimono. He returned to reality...He released his hold of the girl.
Kagome fell back and then looked at him. Her eyes shining a dreadful emotion of fear and confusion. She held her right arm, and back away further.
Shin then felt like his heart was ripped out from his chest. Guilt and shame flooded over him.
"Forgive me…" said Shin as he lowered his head.
Oh no…poor Kagome!
Well, if anyone is a little confused…Shin is still traumatized over what his mother has done-thus he kind of loses it…also he does not just have the same miasma as his father, but the same thoughts, which he's tried to block out from his mind.
And another note, I know I'm centering everything around Kagome and Shin right now, but I promise you this is a Sess/Kag pairing and you will get more Sesshy and Kaggy goodness in the next few chapters.
More to come!
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