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No matter how many times Sonny kisses me or how tenderly he wraps his arms around me after we make love or how gently and confidently he always says "I love you, Will" before we fall asleep, every time feels like the most wonderful, magical dream come true. That someone as amazing as Sonny loves me and wants to be with me, well that in itself seems quite miraculous. And if I'm lucky enough to keep this man's love for the rest of my life, well then I promise that I will not let even one day pass by without giving thanks to the stars above for bringing me my soulmate and true love.

I know what you're going to say: that my romantic declaration couldn't have been any sappier had I drained it from the maple tree myself. Well, too bad. Every word is sincere, and I honestly wish for everyone to be able to experience this kind of love at least once in their life. When I'm with Sonny I feel invincible and vulnerable at the same time, hot and cold, hard and soft, strong and delicate, so very grounded and like I'm floating on air. I never thought that we could work - Sonny and me. I thought that he was too much of a free spirit, born to travel the world, and I was too much of a small town boy dedicated to my family. But what neither of us counted on was meeting in the middle somewhere between climbing mountains and playing the tooth fairy. That destination also includes one smart, adorable, precocious little girl. Just when I was starting to think that I couldn't maintain a long term relationship with Ari in my life, Sonny came along and showed me that I could. He proved to both me and Arianna that he could capture our hearts in very different ways. I guess you could say that we all fell in love.

Quite frankly, it is because of all these wonderful things in my life that I am on top of the world. Well, not literally. In fact, you might be interested to know that in my various sexual encounters - which pretty much just includes Gabi, some desperate groping in the front seat of my car after a couple first dates with guys I don't remember, and then Sonny - I have yet to top. Yes, it's true; Gabi climbed on me during our one and only time together. The front seat make-out marathons don't count, and then there's Sonny. Whether it's because of my lack of experience or his eagerness to teach me, I've only known the bottom with him. Don't get me wrong! I am not complaining. I just...well...I'm pretty sure I'd like to see how it feels to take charge one of these next times.

"Sonny?" We are curled up into each other on his side of the bed.

"Yes my love?"

"Ummm," I pause a second and subconsciously bite my bottom lip. He gently rubs my lip with his thumb, setting it free. "Okay, ummm, in all of your...experiences, have you always topped?"

His eyes open wide with surprise. "Aw, sweetie, you're finally learning the gay lingo. I'm so proud," he teases and snuggles me in closer. "To answer your question, yes, I suppose I have. I mean I have been versatile, like with Garrett, but I am used to taking charge, you know, and typically that means I end up on top."

We sit in silence for a moment, while I let his revelation sink in. It's not that I'm surprised, in fact, his response is exactly what I anticipated. What surprises me is my sudden desire to do that, too; to be the top for once. I know how fucking incredible it feels to have Sonny inside of me, and I just can't help but wonder what it might feel like if I was the one inside of him.

"Would you be open to me topping sometime?"

He doesn't speak for a moment, and I'm afraid I've broken some unwritten rule between lovers. "Son?" I croak nervously and pull my head from his chest to look him straight in the eye. Did I just ruin this moment with my ignorance? But what I see isn't annoyance or hesitancy. What I see is raw, unabashed desire. He answers my question with a searing kiss.

In one swift movement, Sonny has pulled me completely on top of him. "Will," he growls as he presses his hips into mine, "you are so fucking hot. Yes...I mean no, I mean yes, I want you to top me."

And that's when I start to freak out a little. "But I'm not sure what to do...I mean, how do you like to be ahh, prepared? How do I know how fast, how hard? How will I know if I've hit the right spot?" When I envisioned asking, I thought maybe it would happen during one of our next times. I didn't expect it to happen right now. This very moment.

"Will," he places a finger over my lips, "we help each other, right? You didn't need a lesson our first time together. Just follow your instincts. It's more about feelings and giving pleasure than about following the handbook on the proper way to have gay sex."

"There's a book?"

"No, honey, there is no book!" he chuckles at my naiveté.

"Brat."

"Maybe. But I'm your brat. And you can't help but love and adore me." His smile is warm and inviting, and I lean in to capture his freshly licked lips with mine. I intensify the kiss, take his hands in mine and stretch them up over his head. He groans as our bodies flatten against each other, our growing hardness even more evident than before. Watching as his beautiful brown eyes flutter closed with pleasure, I press his knees up close to his chest and let myself slide down in between. This elicits another wonderful sound from him, and now my confidence isn't the only thing growing quickly. I let my cock slide down so my leaky tip just caresses his hole.

"Oh God, yes, Will!" And I can't help myself from smiling, knowing that my movements, inexperienced as they are, continue to drive Sonny crazy.

"Tell me what you want, baby," I encourage him to help me know where to go next. He sits up slightly, grabs the lube from the nightstand table and coats a couple of my fingers thoroughly. He leads them to his pink, puckered hole. He gasps audibly and shivers - and I can't tell whether it is from the coldness of the gel or the anticipation of my touch.

Before I actually touch him, though, I have to stop and take in the sight before me. This incredibly gorgeous man, MY man, is laid out in front of me, hair tousled and cheeks flushed, swollen lips, eyes intense, boring into mine, chest smooth and taut, abdomen firm with his arousal stretched up past the dark curls, incredibly strong, tanned thighs spread open for me, exposing his most intimate, sacred place. Without even thinking, I dip my head down to rub my cheeks and nose against his hard cock, his firm balls, his spread buttocks and beautiful entrance. I inhale and I'm utterly intoxicated. I have to close my eyes to settle my own breathing and keep my emotions in check. My tongue snakes out, and I softly lick all around and down to this place I've never been. As I taste him there for the first time, Sonny lets out a huge moan, "aaahhhh! Oh shit! Will, that feels incredible." He's panting and starting to writhe underneath me.

"Sonny, you are incredible...to smell, to taste, to watch...you take my breath away."

"Will, please," he pleads, eyes mirroring my own unbridled desire, "I want you inside of me, please." His last words are no more than a whisper.

I nod, holding his gaze for just a second before focusing my attention back on pleasuring him. I take my previously lubricated finger and circle his hole, teasing before entering, slowing pushing a little inside before retreating. "Yes, Will..." I hear from above, and that's enough encouragement to keep moving; pushing in a little farther each time. "Two now, please. Open me for you..." Sonny's words are such a turn-on, and I have to take a couple calming breaths to settle the orgasm I feel creeping to the surface. I will not let myself cum until the perfect time.

My middle finger joins in the penetration and without any direction, I start to move my fingers apart to stretch him. A couple times when I push all the way in, I feel a smooth, firm bump that causes Sonny to shout every time I brush up against it. Must be his prostate, I think to myself proudly. I add a third finger and that's when Sonny sits up and grabs my wrist. "Now, Will, I'm ready. Please." His words are confident and desperate. And polite. Even making love the man is so damn polite!

"Okay Sonny," and I smile and kiss him on the lips. He reaches for the lube one more time and gets a condom from the nightstand drawer. Rolling it down over my hardness, he adds additional lubricant to the outside, up and down my shaft. He lays back down, and I direct the head of my cock to his entrance and push just inside the rim. "Oh, god, oh, god, oh god..." I wonder who is saying that until I realize it's me.

"Yes, Will! I want you to fill me up!"

And so I push in further, and further until I'm balls deep and surrounded completely by Sonny's intense heat. Immediately I start to pull back out only to thrust in again, this time more forcefully. The room suddenly fills with our sweet, passionate cries, and that in itself is enough to make me explode.

"Sonny, you are so tight, you feel amazing..."

"Will, you, aaaahhhh, you hit the right spot every time. You are huge and feel so fucking incredible inside me."

We continue whispering our sweet-nothings as our breathing becomes more ragged and our voices start to crack. "Son, I'm getting close..."

"Shit, Will, cum inside of me..."

"Can I touch you Sonny?" I ask as I see his hand creep down to his own throbbing erection. He nods haphazardly, and I reach out to wrap my hand around his that's already on his cock.

"Fuck!" Sonny's head goes back and his hips thrust forward. I keep the hand job rhythm the same so each thrust is matched with an equal stroke. I can feel us both coming undone and our previous talk is now reduced to unintelligible moans and gasps and declarations of love.

"I love you so much!" and I push into him even harder, thrusting with everything I've got.

"And I love you too...oh my god, this is it Will!"

I pick up the pace until I feel us both hold our breath and clench our stomachs. "Cumming, oh, Sonny, I'm...yes!" I punctuate my declaration with one final, forceful push until I feel myself start to fill the condom.

"Yes, Will...I'm cumming, too..." and I feel warm ribbons cover my hand and belly as he releases with me.

We breathe together through our mind-blowing orgasm, and we collapse into each other's arms together. Neither of us speak for a while. I don't think either of us can.

After a while, I feel a hand under my chin, pulling my gaze up to meet his. Sonny's brown eyes still look a bit hooded but at the same time they sparkle and hold mine as our mouths both open into a wide grin. "Wow," is all I can manage.

"Yeah, wow." We keep grinning like giddy school girls until I start to feel a little uncomfortable and itchy. I reluctantly pull out of him and push off of him to head into the bathroom to clean up. I grab a damp towel to take back into the bedroom for Sonny, but just as I turn around to leave, he's there, arms around my waist and lips on my shoulder blades.

"I was just bringing a towel so I could clean you up."

"I thought maybe you would, which is why I decided to meet you here."

My back still to him, I feel safe asking my next question, "so, ummm...did that go the way it was supposed to?"

"Will, ah, let's just say that I'm open to being more versatile after your recent performance as a top."

I smile, suspecting and hoping that's what he'd say. "I did okay, then, huh?"

This time Sonny spins me around in his arms, so I am facing him, our noses less than an inch apart. "Never ever have I felt like that before, Will. Never."

"Me either. That was pretty spectacular."

Sonny can only nod, and I see a tear creeping into the corner of his eyes. "You amaze me, Sonny, and you are beautiful and I don't want to live even one day of my life without you."

He answers me with a tender kiss. His hands thread through my hair and I pull him closely to me. "Ditto," is all he says and then nuzzles my nose with his. It's an incredibly touching moment, being so close to him, declaring to each other the depth of our commitment. "Not another day without you, Will. Promise me."

"I promise." I punctuate my promise with a kiss and take his hand to lead him back into the bedroom.

"Are you thirsty? Hungry?"

I stop to think for a moment. "As a matter of fact, I am. Should we head to the kitchen instead?"

"Sounds good to me." Suddenly he stops us in the hallway. "Will? I meant what I just said, you know. I'm not sure how this will all look in the future, but I know that I don't want to and cannot live without you. You are as essential to me as the air I breathe. So, know that we have a bright, happy future ahead of us. No one will get in our way."

"No one," I whisper and lean in for a kiss. Our foreheads settle against one another as we drink in the smells and sounds and feeling that is us.

"Mmmmm, a grilled cheese sandwich sounds good..." Sonny interrupts the silence.

"I think I even saw some tomatoes there we could throw on, too. I love grilled cheese with tomato."

"Yummy. You're in charge of making them, okay?"

"Deal. And then maybe as my reward for fixing you food, I get to top one more time tonight?" I wink suggestively at him.

"Take it easy there tiger, let's eat first and then figure out if we have the stamina for more. Okay?"

"Sure. But just so you know, I'll always have the stamina for you, Son, always."

"Good. I feel the same way," he pauses to look at me before pulling me back towards the kitchen. "Now, let's eat."