Love is blindness, I dont want to see,

Wont you wrap the night around me,

Take my heart,

Love is blindness.

In a parked car, In a crowded street,

You see your love made complete,

Thread is ripping, The knot is slipping,

Love is blindness.

Edward

I stormed after Bella. Fuck it. I cursed under my breath for being so fucking idiotic as to make such a low remark. I had sacrificed her at the expense of getting one up on Jacob. What the fuck was my problem? I really was an asshole sometimes.

I refused to run so it took me about a 100 yards to catch up on her, I passed Alice on the way who once she saw me follow had given up the chase.

"You're a fucking idiot Edward" She said as I flew by her, my stride increasing as I saw Bella start to run. I was amused by her little jog, she was so sexy even in situations like this. I needed this night to end with her body wrapped around mine, no other option was even considerable.

I closed in on Bella, grabbing her by the elbow and spinning her around to face me.

"Where the fuck are you going?" I asked her, feeling hard done by since I had just fought that gorilla for her honor.

She didn't speak. Her eyes flashed angrily and her mouth fidgeted but she said nothing. She just stared angrily at me, wearing me down.

"Look, I'm fucking sorry about...what I said" I said, pulling at her sleeve, "I just wanted to get at him."

"Right." She said, nodding sarcastically, "Well tell me this Edward, how do I know this fucking whole thing isn't just a plan to get at Jacob?"

"Don't be so fucking ridiculous." I laughed, and then I shut the fuck up quickly as her face fell like thunder.

"So now I'm ridiculous" She said, turning on her heel and continuing her march.

I grabbed her elbow again, "Where the fuck are you going?"

"Get your fucking hands off me Edward" She said flinching out of my grasp, "Just go away"

"No." I said, beginning to lose my cool, "So what now? Its off? Its over? I just fucking fought for you"

She laughed out loud at that, "No you fucking didn't" She said, "You did that all for yourself. Your fucking ego. Just go away. My dad is coming to pick me up"

"No, I won't go away" I was incensed, "What the fuck is this? That guy is a fucking prick and he deserved it."

"He is not a fucking prick" She said sharply, shaking her hair out of her face with a defiant stance. "Jacob is one of my best friends"

"Oh ho!" I laughed, "Yeah right Bella, he is not your friend, he just wants to get into your fucking pants and you know it!"

Her jaw dropped and she narrowed her eyes, "He does not! Fuck you Edward, Jacob has a girlfriend"

"Yeah yeah, I saw that, I'm sure she is one lucky girl...So if he is so happy there how come he is so fucking interested in who you are with then?"

"He is a little protective of me, I'll give you that...but after the mess you left..."

"I left? I left?" I started to lose my cool, I didn't think through what I was going to say, "Hang on one fucking minute Bella, you fucking finished things with me. You finished it with me remember?"

"Yeah Edward I do remember." Her voice got all high and wobbly, "I remember your sister and your brother being assholes to me and you doing nothing. I remember you hanging me out to dry over and over. I also remember you fucking kissing someone else! Yeah Edward I fucking remember."

Touche.

I didn't have anything to say so I just tried to kiss her instead, it was a fucking insanely stupid thing to try and do and she pushed me away with fury on her face. Then she slapped me across the cheek, leaving my ear ringing for the second time in one night.

"Fucking hell!" I shouted, rubbing my jaw with my palm. She turned away, so I grabbed her by the jacket, "Bella, please, this is fucking ridiculous, I'm sorry. Please can we just move on? "

"Move on?" She shouted, smacking at my hands that held her sleeves, "No fucking problem Edward. Watch me move on right fucking now. You asshole!"

She wriggled out of my clutching hands and marched off again. I stood there, watching her storm up the steps of the police station without so much as another look my way.

I smacked my palms to my forehead, pulling my hair back roughly. I wanted to pull my brain out and smash it off the pavement. I turned back and stormed back to the bar. The Quillayetes had left the scene and the rest of the crowd had gone back in out of the freezing air. Jasper and Alice were sitting on the wall outside waiting for me.

Jasper rolled his eyes at me as I approached, "That was pretty mental Dude" He said, "Nice punches though, clean lines" Alice slapped him on the arm and he flinched.

"Where is Bella?" Alice asked quietly as I reached her side, she stretched out her hand and patted my shoulder.

"Gone to get a lift from her dad." I said, "She is really pissed off, it's ridiculous"

"Ed, do you blame her?" Alice asked, grimacing. "I mean you practically called her 'sloppy seconds'...it was seriously harsh."

"I didn't mean it like that." I demanded, feeling like punching the wall, "She fucking knows I didn't. She fucking knows me."

"Of course she does Dude" Jasper said, hopping down off the wall and lifting Alice down, "She has to be mad though, you gotta give her that, I mean you said it in front of everyone."

I felt my brain twist, how could I be such a fucking jerk? Ugh. I was so mad at myself.

"Here" I handed Jasper my keys, "Go with Alice, I'm gonna walk"

"Edward its freezing!" Alice protested.

"I'm fine" I said giving her a gentle shove toward Jasper, who took her hand and narrowed his eyes at me.

"I'll drop Alice home and drive back this way, in case you're still walking" He said and I nodded, I'd head for the motel. We'd probably get back at the same time.

I turned on my heel and headed into the cold darkness. I pulled my collar up around my ears, pulled my beanie hat out of my pocket and dragged it down over my ears. It was cold but I needed to walk all the adrenalin off, the fight still had my heart thumping.

I would walk back to the motel, I would sleep and then tomorrow I would apologize to Bella until she forgave me.

Two dozen other dirty lovers,

Must be a sucker for it,

Cry cry but I don't need my mother.

Just hold my hand while I come

to a decision on it

Sooner or later

Your legs give way, you hit the ground

Save it for later

Don't run away and let me down

Sooner or later

Bella


I took a ride home with the on duty officer, after calling my dad and getting no answer. When I got back to the house I noticed a rental car in the driveway and a light on in the guest room. My mother was here.

I was slightly weirded out by the fact that she hadn't told me she was coming, and also disturbed by the knowledge that Charlie definitely hadn't been expecting her. I knew how he behaved when she was coming, vacuuming like mad, opening the windows. So she must have arrived unexpectedly. Something must be wrong.

I was cautious opening the door, making a big racket, kicking the bottle rack and exclaiming loudly as I entered the house. There was complete silence. I moved around downstairs, banging anything I could. Walking in on my parents doing it was not an option I was willing to consider.

Eventually when I was sure the coast was clear I headed up to my room. My dads door was slightly ajar and though I tried to avoid looking in I did anyway. There they were. Asleep in each others arms, my parents, and it felt like such a de ja vu. I wondered did I remember this image from being a little kid. I cannot tell you what happened to me at that point, it was like everything i knew was suddenly a lie and I could not breathe. I ran to my room and locked the door, gasping for breath as I leaned against it. Even though I thought I knew this was going on, I had heard them admit it a few weeks before, seeing it just brought it home. The reality, the proof of it was hard to take. This was insane. My mother was fucking married! How long had this been going on? Nothing made sense.

The de ja vu was so fucking strong, I began to wonder had I unconsciously registered my mother sleeping in my fathers arms before? Had I walked by that door many times and somewhere subconsciously registered that they were together behind it? Ugh. I felt like I would throw up with the confusion.

I needed to get out of here. Edward.

I pulled my phone out of my pocket and looked at it. No. I couldn't call Edward, I couldn't just flip flop like that, I was angry. He would see me as such a weakling if I backed off now, I wanted to show him that he could not walk over me. I wasn't some meek little woman. I didn't need anyone.

So I rang Jacob.

"Hello?"He answered the phone after one ring.

"Jake? Its me." I said, not sure what I wanted exactly.

"You okay?" His voice got loud, "Has that prick-"

"No!" I nipped that line of questioning in the bud, "Jake can you come over? I need you."

"I've just dropped Leah home" He said, "I can drive back your way..."

"Thanks"

I hung up. Staying in my coat and grabbing my scarf and hat I snuck back downstairs and out onto the porch.

Jacob pulled up about five minutes later, just at the corner and I ran down, gratefully jumping in to his passenger seat and closing the door.

"Where to?" Jacob asked, a grin on his face as he shook his head playfully.

"What?" I poked his arm, "What's so amusing?"

"Nothing" He said, "I'm just glad you rang. I was worried with the whole thing with Leah you would stop...this shit"

"No such luck" I said rolling my eyes, "Fuck Jake I am in so much weirdness at the moment"

"What's up?" His face got serious, "That Cullen fuck better not be-"

"No, no its not him" I said vehemently, "You need to give him a break you know..."

Jacob clucked his tongue, "He is a fucking loser Bella"

"Hey!" I felt indignant, "He is not. Anyway thats not...he's not my problem so can we just drop that?"

"What's your problem?" Jacob turned into Airport Road.

"My parents...." I muttered, revolted by what I was to say, "They're fucking."

Jacob burst out laughing, banging the steering wheel, "No shit Sherlock!" He said shaking his head.

"What? You know?" I was horrified, "What do you mean?"

"Bella, I can't believe this is news to you"

"Well its not exactly news, I heard something a few weeks ago..."

"A few weeks ago?" Jacob's tone got softer, "Bella, they've been at that for years..."

I hung my head, tears flooding my eyes and I pretended to rub at a stain on my jeans.

Jacob pulled into the hard shoulder, leaned across the car and took me into his arms. Jacob hugs were the best, he knew exactly the right amount of pressure and patting that just made me feel so much better. He kissed the top of my head.

"How can you be sad about it?" He asked in a whisper, "I mean Bella thats your parents..."

"I know" I said, hiccoughing, "but they've never been....my whole life...."

He shook his head against mine, "They're just people. Don't be too hard on them."

I lay my head on his shoulder, wiping my tears in the thick fabric of his jacket.

He released me and I sat back, rubbing my eyes with my fingers.

I heard Jacob mutter, "Oh here we fucking go." I looked across at him, then followed his gaze out the front windscreen to see Edward, my Edward, standing in front of the car with a look of absolute fury on his face.

My heart sank, "Shit" I said, "What must this look like?"

"What do you fucking...Bella what the fuck is going on?" Jacob started unbuckling his seat belt, and suddenly the idea of them fighting again overwhelmed me and I burst out crying again.

"Jacob...stop! Please..." I grabbed his arm, looking at Edward whose face was flinching in outrage. He shook his head and turned on his heel, shoving his hands in his pockets and storming off up the road.

"What the fuck is his problem?" Jacob started the engine.

"Jake its complicated, I...we're seeing each other again..." I braced myself.

"Seeing? What the... Bella how the fuck can you say that?" Jacob was completely disgusted. I supposed from his point of view it must seem insane, he couldn't understand the sexual pull between Edward and I, nor the real life love that we felt within that.

"I'll explain later" I said, popping the door and jumping out of the car. I leaned back in, "Jacob thank you for coming to get me. I'll call you tomorrow..."

"Where are you going?" He demanded, his head turning to look at Edward in the distance, "Bella I don't fucking get this...I thought you hated him"

"I don't hate him" I explained, "Jacob, you're my best friend... thank you for being there for me tonight but I gotta go!"

I shut the car door and tucked my chin in as I ran to catch up with Edward. Jacob's car turned in the road and drove away and suddenly there was darkness and wind and cold and I was running after Edward, hoping to find warmth there.

I caught up with him as we reached the cross roads, grabbing him by the arm and saying his name with as much breath as I could muster.

I expected him to grab me close, to kiss me, to hold me there in the rain and never let go.

But instead he looked at me like I was scum, shook my hand away and walked away.

Song - Save it for Later - The English Beat