Vampire Academy: Deadly Intrigue and Deadly Love

Chapter 25 of my Vampire Academy story, enjoy.

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Disclaimer: Vampire Academy belongs to Richelle Mead.

Chapter 25

ROSE POV

I couldn't believe it, how could this have happened, how could I have been so blind? It was three days after that fateful encounter with Lissa. To say I was horrified would be an understatement. I hadn't seen Adrian; I hadn't even touched a drop of alcohol since then. My mind was in turmoil.

'Guarding Lissa has been everything for me. But…But now, now I…' My thoughts whirled. 'I've been such an idiot, I've put myself in such a position; put Lissa in danger, put myself at risk…I've only myself to blame.'

I knew truthfully that all this was all my fault. I had to accept that, but it was hard. Especially since now everything was coming to the surface; Mason's death, my constant partying, this issue, what happened in the Royal Court. It was overwhelming; I couldn't cope, not on my own. That was my main problem, I had tried to handle this alone and now I was paying the price. But I had to fix this; it hopefully wasn't too late; but to do so, I needed help.

'I can't; I can't just go around asking the others for help. They'd all lecture me; in fact, I think they've all taken Lissa's side in this.' I thought sadly. 'I'm not surprised really…Wait…'

An idea occurred to me; there was someone who could help me, I knew right away what I had to do.

I scoured the room, narrowing my eyes.

'That's odd…where's…?' I thought, confused.

I had been looking for the sweater I had been wearing, during that incident with Tasha. All the others were being washed, yet strangely I couldn't find it. I shook my head and decided to forget about it, I left my room and hurried to seek the help I needed. I sighed, it felt strange doing this, I had to admit, I was slightly dizzy; a feeling I'd been having since that meeting with Lissa.

Taking a deep breath I knocked on the door; waiting as I heard the reply from inside. The door opened and Dimitri stood there, surprised.

"Rose, what are you doing here?" He said; sounding rather suspicious. "It's late, after curfew."

I nodded, shifting awkwardly. "I-I know, but, I needed to talk. It's, it's important, please."

He narrowed his eyes, clearly confused. But he nodded and let me into his room. I entered and he closed the door behind me.

"What is this about?" He asked.

I bit my lip, finally it just came out. "I need help."

There are obviously so many meanings to that statement. But luckily Dimitri knew exactly what I meant. His expression changed slightly. He gestured for me to sit down, I did so.

"You're serious about this?" He asked. "You actually mean it; you've realized…?"

I nodded sadly; I knew Dimitri knew all about the argument with Lissa by now.

"I…I only hope it's not too late." I said. "But I really need help. I just…"

Dimitri nodded; I knew I had to talk about my problems. He was showing he was willing to listen.

Letting out a slow breath I began to speak. I told Dimitri about my inability to cope with the grief, my difficulties and why I had started partying and drinking. I was trying to avoid steering the conversation directly towards Mason.

I continued. "I; I know this got out of hand. I just; I felt like I was so…lost. But despite knowing this I just couldn't help it."

Adrian nodded. "Then Adrian came along, he gave you a new lease on life, but at great cost?"

"Yes; I admit it." I said at last. "But I…I…"

I could feel the tears threatening and I tried to hold them back. But Dimitri shook his head.

"No Roza, don't…Let it out, you'll feel better." He said softly. "Say it, just say it, that which truly hurts."

Feeling the tears welling up I choked the words out. "Mason is dead; he's dead because of me. If I hadn't said anything to him, if I hadn't got too close…"

Dimitri shook his head. "It's not your fault Rose, now come, it's alright. Would Mason you to be like this?"

I shook my head, Dimitri was right, Mason wouldn't have wanted this. Unable to hold back any further, I burst into tears, all the pain and sadness overflowing. I felt Dimitri's arms encircle me as he embraced me. I cried into his shoulder, letting all the anguish flow out of me.

I wasn't sure how much time had passed, but slowly, finally, the crying subsided and I slowly recovered. I sat up straight as Dimitri let me go. I wiped my eyes, sniffing lightly.

"I…I just couldn't cope." I said at last. "How can I…?"

Dimitri smiled. "With help Rose; I'll help you. But…"

He trailed off, looking serious. "Rose, if you are sincere about this, if you truly get help and fix things properly. You have to be serious about it."

I nodded. "I understand; I need to get…clean, no more drinking, get better. Unless I…?"

Dimitri shook his head. "No, it's not too late yet. I…I'll need to inform Headmistress Kirova about this change. I'll do what I can Rose, to convince her not to dismiss you yet. But remember, I'll help you as much as I can, but in the end. Only you can help yourself, when it comes to this, getting clean."

I nodded in understanding. "Thank you Dimitri, I…Thank you, I promise. I'll do what I need to do."

He smiled and, feeling relieved I was finally able to leave and return to my bedroom. I quickly got dressed in my black panties and black tank-top, my summer pyjamas and lay down on my bed. Finally, for the first time, after so long, I slept soundly.

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