Against Your Will
By: Kigen and Faraway Dawn
Because of my recent turning of Faraway Dawn into a Narutard; our love for NaruSasu, and the fact that there are few good Sasuke uke fics, I bribed Faraway Dawn into a roleplay. ... And this would be the twisted result.
IMPORTANT NOTE: A conclusion has been reached. From now on, I will write Against Your Will alone. Faraway Dawn has decided to take a step back and let me do things. As of right now, I'm still posting what remains of the rp (we had far more in reserve than I originally thought). Once the rp is used up, and I start writing on my own, I'll post to let everyone know. We are still using rp story.
Disclaimer: We totally abused the curse seal in this rp. If Naruto was ours, this would be the result. Warning for stubborn Sasuke, screaming Naruto, and sappyness.
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Naruto didn't move; just staring at the empty room. "He's... gone." But its ok. He's alive at least. He just left. "H-he... he left." But he's alive! He's ok! He just left! Someone can find him and drag him back. "He's gone."
Tsunade had already has sent out a messages for Kakashi to go after Sasuke, and Jiraiya to come to take care of Naruto. "He'll be fine Naruto."
"He left... Thought he couldn't even make an attempt at leaving for another week or so. He really left. I gotta bring him back." he turned and started to leave quickly.
Tsunade grabbed the boy and held him so he can't leave. "Naruto, calm down. Kakashi went after him. Kakashi will bring him back."
"Let me go! I need to bring him back! He just left!"
Tsunade held him tight. "And Kakashi just went after him! Sasuke can't get far. Kakashi will be back in less than an hour with him."
"I need to bring him back!" he struggled against Tsunade. "That idiot! Running off like that! He's still not well! He's going to get himself killed out there!"
"He won't get himself killed." Tsunade grit her teeth. "Naruto, stop this right now. He'll be fine."
"And what if Orochimaru finds him before Kakashi does?"
"Orochimaru won't find him. He can't that quickly." she held Naruto so he can't move.
"Well what if he does?"
Tsunade sighed. "Naruto, I'm sorry." With a few hand seals, she used a genjutsu to put him to sleep. Naruto collapsed slowly against Tsunade, completely and deeply asleep. The woman sighed, and went to put him in the bed in the other room. Hopefully, the genjutsu wouldn't wear off before Sasuke was back and taken care of.
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Panting, Sasuke closed his eyes to keep the daze of color the world was from spinning before opening them again. He was only a few miles outside of Konoha; the most he could go at the moment. He didn't know where exactly he was, but it wasn't far enough away. Wasn't far enough away at all.
And Naruto... Oh god Naruto... He had said, admitted to...
He couldn't stay. Not anymore. He never could.
He had to get away.
Stumbling over his own feet, breathing erratic, he crumbled to the damp forest ground.
Kakashu quickly caught up to Sasuke. Well at least he didn't get far. The jounin stopped next to Sasuke. "That wasn't a very bright idea you know." he knelt down. "You aren't exactly in the best condition to be running off."
"Sh't up." Sasuke panted, trying to push himself up. It had been a month, maybe more since he had stood for more than a few moments time, as his legs were happy to remind him.
"You're not going to get much further before your body gives out on you. You don't have enough physical strength right now."
"I'm not going back." With more then a bit of effort, he managed to sit up at least.
"You are. But tell me why you don't want to. There has to be a specific reason you chose now to try to run, even though you knew you would not get far."
"I'm not going back. I can't." His face and body were smeared with dirt, mud, and foliage from the ground; the soles of his white feet turned brown.
"Why not?"
Sasuke glared at him, a little weakly. "You and everyone's else's damn conspiracy."
"Conspiracy?"
"First, you come and try to twist my mind. Now, Tsunade's somehow convinced Naruto..." he trailed off, panting and glaring.
"That he loves you?"
Sasuke jerked his gaze away. "I'm not playing these games anymore."
"Naruto does love you. I've known longer than anyone."
"It doesn't matter. I don't. I'm not staying."
"You have to come back. Where else would you go Sasuke?"
"I'll figure that out when it comes to it."
"Don't you see Sasuke? You're not even running because you want to."
"Really? Then if you know me so well, why am I leaving?"
"You're leaving because you feel you are getting off too easily for everything. You feel that if someone won't punish you, you'll just punish yourself. That, and you are afraid. Afraid of being loved and letting yourself love. Deny it all you want. The only one you're fooling is yourself, and even you must admit you're not doing a very good job."
"Spew all the romantic pychobabble you want. It's not going to change my mind."
"Like I said, you're only fooling yourself, and not even doing a good job at that."
Sasuke snorted. "What am I supposed to do? Go back there like I never left, say I'm in love with Naruto and marry him and live happily ever after?" he scoffed bitterly. "Life doesn't work like that."
"Of course it doesn't work like that. I never said it did."
"I'm not going back."
"You don't get a choice in the matter."
"I'll leave as soon as I'm able." Sasuke vowed.
"Then we'll have to stop you."
"It will only work for so long."
"Hopefully you'll be convinced to stay by then."
"You won't."
"Keep telling yourself that..." Give it a few more months and he'll be convinced.
"There's nothing you can do to convince me."
"I don't need to convince you."
Sasuke snorted. "What are you going to do with me after you drag me back?"
"That's up to Tsunade."
Sasuke huffed to himself, forcing himself onto shaking legs.
Kakashi got up and steadied Sasuke. "You can barely walk right now Sasuke. You need to come back and recover completely."
"I'm well aware I have no choice in that matter." he leaned against Kakashi.
"You're probably not too thrilled but you should let me carry you back."
"You can't just drag me through town, can you?" Sasuke muttered, done fighting for now. "I'm still not supposed to be here."
"Everyone knows you've been in Konoha Sasuke. Give people more credit and give me some credit also. If I carry you I can avoid more people. If I let you walk like this... well... Everyone is going to see you then and the rumors will all be confirmed."
"Do whatever the hell you want." He was exhausted. Transportation jutsus's didn't work well when he wasn't supposed to mold his chakra for another week.
Kakashi picked Sasuke up and headed back. "If it makes you feel any better, Naruto is going to give you hell for running off."
"I'm surprised he hasn't yet." he tried not to be too mortified that Kakashi was carrying him.
"He would have come after you himself if Tsunade hadn't stopped him." And he would have given you hell; lots of it. Or at the very least had a panic attack and then given you hell.
"I know that." That was no secret.
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Sasuke sat in the chair Naruto usually sat in, clean and in fresh cloths. He stared at the wall, away from Naruto.
The blond groaned slightly and opened his eyes a bit. I feel like I got hit with a ton of bricks...
Sasuke eyes flicked to Naruto before turning back to the wall.
"What the... what the hell happened?" he opened his eyes a bit further. What the hell did she do to me?
"Tsunade used a genjutsu on you." Sasuke answered quietly.
Naruto sat up quickly. "Sasuke!"
"Who else idiot?" he wasn't looking at Naruto.
"I-I thought you were... I thought you left."
"I did."
"Someone brought you back?" Bet he's not thrilled about that.
"Kakashi dragged me back."
Naruto nodded. "So why the hell did you just run off like that? Do you have any idea how freaked out I was when your vitals just suddenly vanished? I thought you died before I saw you were gone."
"I didn't die."
"Yeah I know that now!" Naruto crossed his arms. Damn him. Doesn't have a freaking clue how worried I was?
Sasuke didn't say anything, his eyes never leaving the wall.
"You really are a pain in the ass sometimes Sasuke."
Sasuke nodded absentmindedly, acting like he wasn't paying attention.
I can't say anything now. He just ran, what if he tries it again?
After a pause, Sasuke spoke. "You're an idiot dobe."
"You're an idiot too."
"Tsunade lectured me." Sasuke said off hand. "Told me that I scared the shit out of you and how you freaked."
"Yeah so? I was afraid."
"You're wasting your time."
"What?"
"You shouldn't concern yourself with me."
"A bit late, don't you think?"
"I didn't think I'd need to say it."
"You're an idiot. It's not like I can just not worry about you or just not care." Naruto muttered. "If I could, I might really try not to. What with all the trouble you wind up being."
"You're the one who decides to deal with me. No one is making you."
"Yeah. Don't know what the hell I was thinking."
"So you don't have to stay here." Sasuke concluded.
"I'm going to."
"Why?"
"Because..." Naruto trailed off.
Sasuke tensed. "Just say it. I already know."
Naruto tensed slightly. "Already know what?"
"I heard you and Tsunade talking."
"You did?" Naruto looked away slightly.
"Yes."
"So you... heard everything?"
"I heard enough."
"Great..." Naruto murmured.
"What twisted you to listen to her?"
"Nothing twisted me." Naruto sighed. She was just... right.
"Then why did you agree?"
"Because I don't think she was wrong."
Sasuke's body went rigid. "What do you mean she wasn't wrong?"
"I meant what I said. I don't think she was all that wrong about it."
Sasuke didn't move, staring at the wall.
Naruto took a deep breath. Why did he have to be listening?
"Why?"
"... I don't know." Naruto admitted.
"How long? Never mind." Sasuke said quickly.
"I don't really know that either." he sighed in slight frustration. Just my damn luck. Well, lack of luck...
"It doesn't matter anyways." Sasuke mumbled.
Naruto stared at one of the walls. Shouldn't have opened my damn mouth in there. It's not like Tsunade has all the walls sound proofed.
"I can't do that." Sasuke explained. He sounded a tiny bit regretful if you were paying close enough attention. "I have my duties."
"What?"
"I need to repopulate my clan."
Right... Should have guessed... Naruto muttered. "Yeah and I bet you're not exactly willing to try to convince your brother to do that."
Sasuke tensed. "He won't be able to."
"Still planning to kill him?"
"I won't stop until he's dead."
"You know, I'm starting to take everyone else's side on the issue. I say just leave him alone."
"Could you? If you knew your parents, your family; and saw them slaughtered... would you let it go?"
"I couldn't. I just don't think you're the type to kill someone you used to respect and love. I don't think you'd be able to handle it afterward. I'm not saying you're weak or anything. I don't think anyone would be able to handle killing a family member. At least not someone with any shreds of emotion or sanity in them."
"Exactly. You don't think. You don't know. You have no idea what it's like."
Naruto sighed. "He's all that's left of your family Sasuke. Don't you think, even for a moment, you'd regret killing him? I mean... murderer or not, he's your brother."
"A ninja feels nothing." Sasuke mumbled.
Naruto grumbled. "Oh, that's the biggest load of crap in the world."
"It's none of your damn concern Naruto. So stop butting in."
"It's my concern because it's going to affect you. Last thing I want is to see you worse off than you already are." And like it or not Sasuke, you're as broken as people come emotionally.
"I highly doubt I could be any worse off right now unless I was dying."
"Ok then I'll put this in nice simple terms that will sink in quickly. YOU ARE AN EMOTIONAL DISASTER! You don't even know you're feeling things until it's been pointed out to you or until it's too late. I know and understand why you're that way, but don't you think killing someone you loved and respected, your own brother, would push you just a bit too far? Damnit Sasuke. Could a person even be sane after something like that?"
"He seems to be doing just fine. And He was someone I loved and respected. I don't anymore."
"You're also nothing like him."
"I'll get over it, trust me."
"You're a bad liar."
"You never knew when I was lying before. What makes you think you can tell or not now?" Sasuke asked.
"You don't sound as confident when you lie anymore."
"You're reading too deep into things idiot."
"No... just reading you better."
"Whatever you want." he still was not looking at Naruto.
Naruto looked at Sasuke. "So that's the only thing holding you back? Your clan?" Come on... Spill.
"The most important thing."
"Well what else?"
Sasuke shrugged. "I have one reason. Why look for more?"
Because I'm pretty sure that really IS the only reason you have.
"Are you staying?"
"What?" Naruto blinked.
"How long do you plan on staying?"
"What, you mean... here?"
"Yeah."
"I dunno."
Sasuke nodded. He wanted Naruto to leave so he could have time to think and be to himself.
"Oh don't you worry. I'll be out of here as soon as the room stops spinning." the blond rubbed his forehead. "Thought she just made me fall asleep but I feel like she ran me through a couple walls."
"You're not going to stay here and make sure I don't run off?" Which was what Sasuke was expecting honestly.
"Make up your mind. Do you want me to leave or do you want me to stay?" I wonder if THIS is what Sasuke's head felt like after those reversals...
"You just surprised me dobe. You don't need to stay." Sasuke just wanted some time to think.
"Surprised you?" Naruto shrugged. "You make it sound like I'm completely predictable."
"With some things you are."
"Yeah... guess so." he tried to get out of bed.
Sasuke watched him struggle a bit. "Don't move if you can't."
"I'm f-" his words were cut short as he fell out of the bed and onto the floor from a severe lack of balance. "...fine."
"And that's why you're on the floor."
"Ok, so my balance is a bit off."
"Just stay still. You're not recovered fully yet."
"Sasuke, no one listens when they're told to stay still." he got up slowly. "Right? I mean when have you ever listened?"
"Only when I had no choice in the matter."
"And even then you didn't listen right away." Naruto got back up onto the bed.
Sasuke nodded, slumping a little in his chair. He was still recovering from the chakra he had used earlier.
"So how the hell did you get out of here anyway?"
"Transportation jutsu. The room was shielded against transportations going in, not coming out."
"Hm? Really?" Naruto looked around. Guess they'll be changing that now.
"It's already been changed." Not to mention that he couldn't shape his chakra for the time being, even though he still had access to it.
"How did you even notice it? I certainly can't tell."
"I watched them do it."
"Oh. So... how far did you get?"
"Three, maybe five miles outside Konoha."
"That far?" Naruto asked.
Sasuke nodded.
"So how wiped out are you?"
"I can barely sit upright."
"Which explains your total disregard for good posture..."
"I'll care about my posture later dobe."
Naruto patted the bed. "Lay down."
"I'm fine here."
"Your back is going to be sore as hell if you sleep there. Trust me, I know."
Sasuke shrugged. He was already sore, what was another ache or two?
"Come on. You've got enough recovering ahead of you without back pains."
"Everything already hurts. This isn't going to make it any worse."
"Quit being so damn stubborn."
"No."
"Don't make me drag you onto the damn bed Sasuke." Everything's still spinning and I'd probably drop you on the floor. Then you'd really be hurt.
"You couldn't right now if you tried."
"I could. We both might end up on the floor a few times before I got you to the bed, but I'd get you there eventually."
"Fall off the bed and haul your ass up without holding onto anything before you try lifting me."
"Alright." Naruto got up and went over to the chair. "You know the spinning isn't half as bad when you irritate me with your stubborn attitude." He lifted Sasuke bridal style, carrying him over to the bed and droping him down on it. He fell onto the bed after a wave of dizziness set in. "Short lived though it tends to be."
"Can't you go ten minutes without hugging me or picking me up?" Sasuke leaned back against the pillows, exhausted.
"I wouldn't have to pick you up if you'd quit being so damn stubborn and just lay down. You're exhausted."
"I'm aware of that dobe." Truthfully, he didn't know if he could stand right now.
"Besides it's not like you hate it when I do hold you. You never put up a fight or push me away."
"If you want me to hit you every time you touch me, I'll be ore than happy to comply." Sasuke muttered.
"If you wanted to hit me you'd have done it a couple hundred times by now."
"Shut up and let me sleep." The Uchiha laid down, turning his back to Naruto and pulling the blankets up.
Naruto wrapped an arm around Sasuke and pulled him against his own body. Taking a breath, Naruto whispered, "You can hit me when we wake up... alright?"
Sasuke tensed, before relaxing. "I will."
Naruto muttered slightly. "Liar."
"'m not." With a sigh, Sasuke closed his eyes.
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It's going to be longer between chapters then a week after this; but I felt bad about the cliffhanger. So, mercy to my beloved readers. Though, those looking for Sasuke and Naruto to just become a couple, prepare for a bit of a wait.
Thanks for reading and please review.
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