Song 25: 3 Doors Down - Here without you...
(This song was a request... I hope you like it.)
"Castiel, I know your busy and all" Dean said leaning forward in the chair, "I just wanna talk to you for awhile. I hope your safe and I hope you remember that you can always ask me for help. I miss you and I love you. Your more than welcome to pop on in."
"Dean are you coming to bed?" Came a shout down the stairs.
"I'm just locking up" Dean shouted back. He had finished locking up 5 minutes ago, he was, like always just praying to Castiel before going to sleep. "I love you Cas."
That night Dean couldn't sleep. The memory of the blue eyed angel running through his head. Lisa laying next to him, cuddling close, oblivious to the fact that he was wide awake and not going to sleep anytime soon. Remembering the way Cas's lips felt on his. Remembering the fun and wild nights they had. Remembering the fights, the laughs. The jokes. The times they had to care for each others injuries. Remembering the first time they meet. The sparks that flew when he first looked into Cas's eyes. The sound of his name. The way his tie was always crocked. His ruffled hair. How thick the locks felt in his fingers. He remembered everything.
Things just didn't seem the same now Cas and Sam were gone. He was dying to go hunting again, but Lisa said her and Ben were not getting involved with it. She made that clear. With Sam in the box and Castiel in heaven doing god knows what, he was alone. He always kept an eye out for things in the papers, things he used to hunt. He promised Sam and Lisa that he wouldn't go hunting again. But damn, he did miss getting dirty and dressing up and showing those fake ID's and digging all night until he ached. And have Cas's help him unwind afterwards.
"Cas, I need you. I do. Really. I need to know your ok. Why won't you just let me know your ok? At least. You owe me that much" Dean whispered being carful not to wake Lisa. Finally he closed his eyes and let sleep claim him.
He was sitting on a dock. Just watching the lake. Peaceful, calm and silent. Then he layed back and then he heared some noise. He looked up and saw, Sam talking to Castiel and Bobby. Dean ran to them,
"Dean" Castiel smiled kissing him, "your here. We've been waiting for hours."
"Sorry, I couldn't - couldn't"
"We know. We've missed you" Castiel linked their fingers together.
"I miss you"
"I miss you too. We all do"
"It's good to see you son" Bobby beamed at Dean.
"Hey, Dean" Sam waved.
"It's good to see you. All of you" Dean was crying with joy and he didn't even know it.
"Then why are you crying?" Castiel asked,
"Because I'm happy. I have everything that matters to me. My true love. My geeky brother and the man who was like a father to me" Dean was at peace and he knew that he would have to wake and leave Castiel soon. But he didn't want to leave again. These dreams were the only things keeping him sane and if they always ended how could he carry on.
"Don't worry. We'll be waiting when you come back like we always are" Castiel rubbed Deans check with his thumb.
"I know" Dean smiled, pulling Cas into the water.
"Dean" he cried. Bobby, Sam and Dean all chuckled at the angel. "Dean, my coat."
"Then take it off. It'll dry" Dean laughed kissing the angel senseless in the water.
"You coming in Bobby?" Sam asked getting ready to jump in.
"No, I'll just sit here and watch y'all" Bobby smiled sitting on the bank.
"I don't wanna leave again" Dean pulled back gasping for air.
"You have too. And you have to be strong about it. I'll see you soon enough" Castiel smiled into Dean's eyes, kissing his forehead.
"Soon enough is still to far away" Dean never wanted to let him angel go, "why can't you just come back to me?"
"I'm always with you Dean. You know that. Open your eyes more often and you'll see that I never really left."
"I never see you anymore. I miss you. A lot. And I need you, I can't believe you just went back" Dean was crying again.
"I just told you, I never really left. I arrive to you after all your prayers, you never see me because you close your eyes, to pray. You close your mind too. You mind needs to stay open, then you'll see me. I'm always there" Castiel dried Deans eyes and held him as tight as he could manage.
"Can you at least call me every now and then Bobby?" Dean asked looking up at the older man.
"Of corse I can son" Bobby nodded.
"Does this mean I have to wake up now?" Dean asked.
"Not yet. You can wake up whenever you like, but you will have to wake up at some point" Sam explained. "Sooner or later you have to live the life you could never have."
"I don't want it. I'll take out crazy, disfunctional, supernatural family over Ben and Lisa any day!"
"We know. But for a while at least. You deserve a break" Castiel rested his head on Dean's shoulder, "you have given so much. You deserve to take for a while. When you want to come back to chaos, you know where yo find us."
"I don't want to be here without you..."