I think we are all feeling rather deflated after last nights episode and then Mondays preview, but I managed to get some writing done, got past my anger for Lucy.. just! Anyways ...

I hopefully will be updating later when I get home, but it will be late if I do :) Enjoy!

Baby Talk

I wasn't sure where I was driving too all I knew was that my foot was pressed down on the accelerator. I hadn't answered any of the calls I had received from Joey or Abi and there were plenty to say the least. I stopped finally, pulling into a lay by, letting my head drop to the steering wheel.

Pregnant was not what I expected to wake up to this morning. In fact it wasn't what I expected to wake up to for a while yet. There was so much I wanted to do before this happened, travel, get married, have our own house; children were the last thing to do. I wasn't maternal at all, in fact I once gave Oscar a chocolate bar and Lucozade for breakfast not knowing what else to give a 5 year old, me and kids didn't go well together.

Picking up my phone I listened to one of the messages Joey had left on my voice mail.

Babe, Abi told me you need to come home please, don't run from it baby, we can handle this together just like we said. Please Lauren I love you, call me.

His voice was strained, I felt guilty for leaving so abruptly without any indication, leaving my sister to pick up the pieces and explain my sudden disappearance. But in that moment all I knew was that I had to get out for a second, I needed time to myself to get my head around what I had just discovered.

It was time I headed back and faced the music, faced it with Joey.

I could see Joey's face at the window as I arrived back; he was at the front door within seconds, engulfing me into a hug as soon as I reached the door, closing it behind us.

"Don't do that to me ever again" he stated cupping my face into his large hands, deadly serious.

"I'm sorry, I just needed some time to myself" I mumbled, feeling even guiltier now I had made him worry.

"It was positive" I whispered, his eyes locking with mine, a small smile unexpectedly creeping onto his face.

His hand moved from my face to my stomach, gently caressing it.

"How do you feel?" he asked his hand still on my stomach, the other running through my hair.

"Scared" I admitted honestly, because I was. Petrified to put it bluntly. But I couldn't help but smile as the fact inside me a baby, a mixture of me and Joey was growing, something that would tie us together. "Excited though" I whispered.

"Me too" he replied, kissing the top of my head.

A few days later, we managed to get an appointment with the doctor just to check everything was okay and determine how far along I actually was. Laying on the bed I felt a little nervous as the doctor placed the cold gel onto my stomach, clutching Joey's hand tightly as she rolled the device over my stomach, our eyes locked on the screen. The small sound of a heartbeat filled my ears as I watched as she paused over my stomach, the baby appearing on the screen before me, the shadow of a tiny heart fluttering overwhelming my mind.

"Your about 10 weeks gone Lauren" she smiled at me, as I glanced at Joey. I hadn't expected to be that far gone, I hadn't even noticed anything different, just recently I was beginning to feel a little sick, maybe a few mood swings such as hitting Heidi, but apart from that there were no sounds.

"I hadn't even realised" I muttered, my hand naturally resting on my stomach, Joey's going on top of mine.

"Sometimes it's not detected till late, one patient of mine didn't know she was pregnant until 5 months gone, it happens Lauren" she replied, getting up from the stool she allowed us a few minutes.

"Can't believe there's a baby in here" Joey murmured, his eyes fixated on my tummy, his hands rubbing it gently.

"Our baby, baby" I smirked, brushing his cheek affectionately with my hand.

"I know it's rather soon, but I wouldn't want it any different Lauren, this is our baby, he or she happened for a reason" he smiled, kissing my stomach tenderly.

"Me too babe, although I'm rather scared to tell my dad" I chuckled, pulling my top down to cover my stomach, as Joey helped me down from the bed.

"I think he will surprise you" Joey commented, kissing my head, he took my hand in his, as we headed home.

We found Abi and Jay in the living room, engulfed in a TV programme until we walked in, Abi's face lighting up, waiting for us to speak.

"Looks like you're going to be an aunty and an uncle" I smirked, pointing to the pair. Abi screeched loudly, hoping up from the sofa, engulfing me into a tight hug, Jay shaking Joey's hand before hugging me.

"How do you feel Aunty Abs" Joey smiled, kissing her cheek softly, their bond so strong it made my heart soar.

"This is amazing, I'm so happy for you guys" she replied "This is huge news" Jay chuckled rubbing his head.

"So I better ring mum, and you better ring yours" I suggested, wrapping myself out of Joey's hold. Reaching into my bag for my phone. I still hadn't met Joey's mum, I had spoken to her on the phone many times, but she lived really far, so finding time to see her was hard, but I expect after this new she would be coming to see us sooner rather than later.

Dialling my mums number, it all became rather real, I was about to tell my mum she was becoming a grandparent for the first time.

"Hi darling" her voice bright and happy on the other end.

"Hey mum" I chuckled, the nervous settling in.

"What's wrong darling?" she asked, hearing in my voice I wasn't being my usual self.

"I have some news" I murmured "I'm pregnant" I let the words leave my mouth, the line going awfully quiet.

"Oh Lauren" she sighed "Are you sure you're ready for this?" she questioned understandably. She was worried, worried I wouldn't be able to cope, worried me and Joey hadn't been together that long in theory.

"We're ready mum, I need your support please, me and Joey need you" I replied.

"You will always have my support babe, congratulations, send my love to Joey, I will be home in a month or two" she replied, the happiness in her voice coming through.

"Love you mum" and with that I ended the call, a huge weight off of my mind.

Heading back into the living room, Joey had just finished his call with Pat, he smiled widely at me. "Mum sends her love" I commented, sitting back down on the couch with him. "Same" he chuckled, his hands resting on my stomach. "Mum is coming up next week" he said, finally I get to meet his mum, especially now I was having her son's baby.

Silence dawned over us and I watched Joey closely, his hands tracing circles over my tummy gently. I couldn't quite believe what was happening. We were having a baby together, so unexpectedly but so perfectly.