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He didn't come back, I knew he wouldn't but I thought I had a right to hope. All other rights seemed to have been taken away from me all the ones I wanted at least. Things went back to how they where before he had arrived, it was like he had never existed.

The truth is he had though and he had come crashing into my small home town of Forks, shaking it up giving me reason to breath again before leaving me with scars upon my heart. I had been like this before when Renee died but this was different he wasn't stolen from me he left me because he couldn't stand me. I bored him; this very town where we had been so happy was the place that was caging him.

I can't help but wonder if we had met somewhere else would we have stayed together? I laughed quietly under my breath. No it was my fault, he hated this town but he hated me more.

I can understand why though my own father didn't love me but now it's different. When Alice left me on that night dad came and sat down with me, he just sat there but it meant the world for me. I feared being alone, being alone allowed me time to remember. There where times when I could surround myself with people like at school but when Charlie's gone and it's just me at the staff well I remember.

Each memory rips through me each time I recall it but I remember because it means he was real. Even though it hurts me knowing he is real, living on is enough for me to walk outside my house. To go on living even if it's only a fraction of my soul truly living my life, the rest I gave to Edward. I could only hope he found happiness back in Chicago. I knew where he lived but I had not right to just walk up to his house and demand to see him, he left me. He wants me out of his life and for his want for me to be gone I promised myself I would never go and find him. Yet no matter how much I wanted him here I knew he was not mine, he never had been I had been a fool to want something so perfect.

The bell rang above the classroom, ending my lesson.

I was back at school. When I had first come back everyone asked where I had been? What I had been doing? I had burst into tears, ever since then people avoid me. They don't look me in the eyes in fact they avoid my gaze when I walk to corridors. I've never felt so alone in my entire life. Alice tries her best to help me but whenever I look at her I see Edward. She walks with me through the corridors, she watches over me and sometimes I just wish she would give up. I think she blames herself slightly for encouraging the relationship at least that's what her eyes tell me. I also know she still talks to Edward, I only found out by accident. Alice had picked up her phone one time when she was sitting with me without looking at the caller ID. I had heard a small echo down the phone of his voice before Alice quickly said, "Bad time. I'll call you back." She slammed the phone shut before shoving it in her bag.

I called Edward's phone everyday and after a while he disconnected it.

I grabbed my books of the table quickly and shoved them into a bag; I made my way to the canteen. It was crowded like always Alice was sitting at our usual table, right next to Mike Newton's crew. We tried our best to keep up the preteens of life before we sat with them just not with them with them.

I grabbed a can of soda quickly paid for it and sat down next to Alice. She smiled at me putting her phone away slyly at the same time. I was more aware of people's actions theses days. I was now a people pleaser.

"How was Chemistry?" asked Alice.

I watched her for a few seconds her eyes where fogging over she was physically with me but her mind was wondering.

"It was ok. Nothing special it's just Chemistry I'm not good with it anyways."

I don't know if Alice was aware but I caught the double meaning to my words. I wasn't good with Chemistry. I laughed the second time that day to myself. I never laughed out loud anymore. Nothing seemed funny.

"You're not that bad you're a biology girl."

She pulled two sandwiches from her bag and sat one down in front of me before saying, "Eat."

I unwrapped the sandwich and took small bites from it. I had learnt to just eat the food Alice provided since the first time I rejected it Alice screamed at me for how bad I was becoming. She'd grabbed my wrists and shook them calling me "skin and bones."

She smiled at me proudly for eating the food, it wasn't that I didn't like food but it just seemed such an effort to look after myself. I'm surprised I shower.

"Do you want to hang out tonight?" asked Alice.

I gave her my look, "I'd love to."

My look was my mask for doing things I didn't want to do but did because it kept up the pretence of me moving on. What I really wanted to do was go home and talk to Charlie, he understood me. He had lost my mum like I had lost my life when Edward left, he knew what to say. He cared about me.

I still can't believe it's been nearly 8 months of Edward not being here…..it still feels like he'd only just left me. He'd left just before Christmas I hadn't even realised what date it was back then.

I felt my leg vibrate slightly, I pulled my phone out from my pocket and answered it I didn't check the ID. Only two people called me these days and since one was next to me I knew who it was.

"Hey dad," Alice winched slightly at me calling him dad.

I turned away from her hurt and her reaction, "Hey bells, listen the Black's are coming over tonight to discuss something and I need you here tonight."

"Sure thing."

I shut the phone quickly and began to get up. Alice looked up at me with a pained look, "Going somewhere?"

"Dad wants me home for this thing could we take a rain check on tonight?"

"Sure," she sighed. "I really wanted to talk about you birthday party. You've been avoiding the subject."

"I don't want one," I simply stated.

"But.."

"No Alice," I didn't want to tell her the reason.

"OK."

I drank my soda and chucked it in the bin along with the rest of rubbish Alice had wrapped my sandwich in.

"See you tomorrow."

I quickly but carefully ran out the canteen, I felt eyes on me but no one said anything.

EPOV

"Alice," I said.

"Hey, what's up?"

"Is Bella there?" I winced slightly when I said her name.

"She just left, why?"

"Good I need to talk to you urgently."

"About?"

"Bella."

"Shoot."

"Is is engaged?"

"What the hell Edward of course she's not."

"Then I suggest you go home and check your mail."

"Why?"

"In the post I got an invitation well a un-invitation."

"To?"

"Bella and Jacob's wedding."

"WHAT!"

I unfolded it to double check if I was seeing correctly.

You are not invited to the wedding of Jacob Black and Isabella Marie Swan

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