WOW….WOW….WOW is all I can say. I had like 16 reviews for the last chapter in less than 12 hours. That is the most reviews for one chapter throughout this entire experience. Thank you all so very much….it warms my heart to see that you are enjoying this story.

I know that I left off with a cliffy but hopefully this chapter will explain most of the reasons behind Bella changing her mind. It is going to be a sad chapter though….sorry….

1 year later

Bella's POV

I haven't seen my family in one year. I hate being away from all of them, but I had to do this for me and my daughter. The more time I spent away from Edward I realized who I was. I thought I knew who I was with Edward but becoming a mother has really put things into reality for me. I am meant to be a mother, and how could I be a mom and give my daughter up for any amount of time. I would miss way too much, and that would be unfair to my daughter. She didn't ask to be brought into this world, and I had to do what I could to protect her. It was my job not my parents.

Edward was upset with me about changing my mind, upset isn't probably the right word. It was a mixture of sadness, guilt, remorse, hurt, and anger. I don't remember a time when Edward was more mad at anything..least of all me. We talked for hours that night when he called. He was trying to reason with me, and make me see that everything would turn out for the best, but I had already made up my mind. He told me that he only did this for me, and that if he knew he was going to loose me he never would have done it. We said a lot of hurtful things to each other, and I regretted every single word that came out of my mouth.

The next morning Rosalie and Alice called me to find out what the heck was going on. I tried to explain it to them and they understood. They saw me growing as a woman once I became a mother. They told me they respected my decision. I told them that if they still wanted to become vampires that I would support their decision. They decided to go ahead with it. After all, they agreed to become vampires for me, but also to be with Emmett and Jasper forever.

I talked to Alex six months back and he said that Alice and Rosalie were doing well, but that Edward wasn't. He had really lost all of his control and it was a constant struggle to keep him from hurting anyone. A few nights later, Edward came to my house to try and convince me to change but I still didn't give in. We got into another huge fight and he scared me, I knew he would never hurt me but for a moment I thought it was possible. That's why I left Forks. I didn't even tell my parent's where I was going. I didn't want anyone to know where I was because I really didn't want to see Edward again…..not until he regained his control.

My heart broke more and more everyday. I was missing the most vital part of who I was, Edward. I never doubted for a moment that he was my soul mate and that we were meant to be together forever, but I didn't see how that was possible anymore. I mean he was a vampire that struggled with control and I was a mother that needed to protect our child. I knew that was no life for my daughter. Keeping my thoughts was a constant struggle for me, I wanted to be with Edward and I didn't want to be with Edward. My mind changed almost every minute.

Edward had only called once after he found out I left Forks. It was not a very long conversation; he only said he was sorry and that he wanted to make sure I was ok. I think he knew I needed time to work through all of this craziness. I missed talking to him, we had always been each others rock, and whenever anything would go wrong he would be the one I would run to. I was always close with my parents but they didn't get me like Edward did. Now I was stuck with no one to talk to. I couldn't call my parents because they didn't understand why I left, and all we would do is argue. I couldn't handle another argument.

My best friends were now vampires as well and were caught up in their new lives, I hadn't even heard from Alice and Rosalie in months. Although I couldn't blame them really, I mean the phone works both ways and I wasn't calling them either. I just couldn't believe how much my life had changed in the last two years. I had married the man of my dreams, had a precious baby, my husband was changed into a vampire, all of my friends were turned into vampires, I lost my husband, and I ran away from everything I knew. It has been full of happiness but more despair than I think one person could handle in a life time.

I had moved to Phoenix, Arizona. I had taken a job at a local day care center to pay the bills. I found a cute little two bedroom apartment that was affordable and had everything I could possible need to raise my daughter by myself, well except for the father. Today is Saturday so I have the day off. On Saturday's I would dedicate the whole day to my daughter. I would take her to the park; buy ice cream and just bond with her.

I was laying in bed pondering over the predicament I found myself in waiting for Resenmee to wake up. I had already got up and cleaned the house, took a shower, and made me some breakfast. I loved the fact my daughter would sleep in until 10 on the weekends, it would give me some time to myself. I wanted so much to run back to Edward and be the wonderful family I knew we would be but I was sure that Edward wouldn't want me back now. I had hurt him in everyway possible and he wasn't trying to reach me either.

My phone started ringing so I leaned over to answer it. When I looked at the caller ID it said it was Alex. This brought a smile to my face, Alex was my only life line to my friends I had lost.

"Hello" I said anxiously

"Hello Bella, how are you?" he questioned.

"I'm miserable" the minute he asked the question I immediately started sobbing.

"Bella, please don't cry" he sighed loudly

"I'm sorry, I just…I just miss everyone so bad" I sobbed between words.

"Bella, you wanted this remember? No one asked you to leave" he said sternly. He would always be brutally honest with me. I hated it but I needed to hear it.

"I know Alex. How is everyone doing?" All I wanted to know was how Edward was doing.

"Everyone is doing well" he was short with that answer.

"Is Edward ok?" I questioned

"Well that's why I called" he stopped

"What's wrong? Is Edward ok?" I was anxious now. Alex would never hold anything back before, why was he doing it now.

"Yes he is doing extremely well. He has a favor to ask of you, but couldn't take another disappointment so he asked that I call you" he sighed.

"What favor?"

"He wants to know if he can come see his daughter. He is doing really well with his control now, almost better than the rest combined. He misses his daughter terribly. Would it be ok?' he questioned.

Would it be ok for him to come see his daughter? Would she be safe? I knew he wouldn't hurt our daughter, and Alex wouldn't even suggest it if he didn't think it was ok. He didn't want to see me? I really have messed things up haven't I? He has already given up on us.

"I…I..guess" was all I could get out. My mind was running a mile a minute.

"Really?" Alex sounded excited.

"Of course, I would never deny Edward the chance to see his daughter if he wanted to see her, and control himself of course" I emphasized the last part.

"I wouldn't even agree to this if I didn't think he could handle it. When would be a good time to visit?" Alex asked.

"I guess next week will be fine. I have a week's vacation coming so I will take it then, will that be alright?" I hesitated.

"That will be perfect. Thank you Bella for agreeing to this"

"Will everyone be joining us next week?"

"Well, that's up to you. I know everyone wants to see you and Resenmee. So if you are ok with it, we will make a family trip out of it" he seemed in better spirits now.

"Of course they can. I have missed everyone so much. I can't wait to see them" I exclaimed.

"Great. Where do you live?" he asked. Of course, he would need to know where I lived. No one knew yet.

"I live in Phoenix. I will text you the address and you can MapQuest it, is that good?"

"Yes, that will be perfect. Well I better get going. We have a lot of arrangements to be made. See you next week Bella"

"Ok Alex, see you in a couple of days then. Take care of everyone, and tell them I love them"

"Of course Bella, bye" Alex said then hung up the phone.

I immediately jumped out of bed, and started doing a goofy dance. I was going to see my family again. I was beyond happy at the news of that. I would be seeing Emmett, Jasper, Rosalie and Alice for the first time since their change. And I was going to see Edward; my heart was beating so hard thinking about seeing Edward again. I missed him so much, and I hoped that he would be happy to see me too.

I quickly texted Alex my address, and he responded letting me know he got it. And then I heard Resenmee stirring. I went into her room and picked her up. I hugged her gently and said to her "you are going to see your daddy soon baby"

She lifted her head up at me and said "daddy" and smiled. That made me realize immediately that I was being selfish by keeping Edward away from our daughter. Even though she was still so tiny she knew what daddy meant. Her eyes were sparkling, and she was smiling. Could my daughter be ok with Edward being a vampire? Why wouldn't she be? She would love her father unconditionally like I did; I could see it written all over her face.

Right then and there I decided that I would take Edward back into my life if he would have me. We would be a happy family together, I knew it. I was never more sure of anything in my entire life. I now knew what I wanted. I wanted to be with Edward forever, and I would go all the way with it.

I am finally ready to change into a vampire. My love for my daughter and Edward would make everything ok. My family would help me with the struggles of the change, and I wouldn't have to give up my daughter in order to do it. I could have the happily ever after that we were supposed to have. I just knew it…..but the only thing I didn't know was would Edward want me.

I know this is a shorter chapter than last, but it seemed like a natural place to end.

With everything that happened between Bella and Edward in the last year do you think he will be able to forgive her????

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