Okay, so I am sooooo sorry. I just graduated High School! YAAAAS, CLASS OF 2016! Along with that I have been busy preparing for college and my inevitable departure from home as well as trying to handle my social life and keeping my friends from taking me to the club almost every night. Anyway, this is the final chapter of It's Not Fair. It will be told from the point of view of Ciel. After this, it's all over. No more crying, laughing, or getting extra mad at some of the character traits I have slipped into our favorite Kuroshitsuji cast.
Please read the author's note at the end.
Without further ado~ I'd like to present to you, the last chapter of this story...
Chapter 24: The End
I put the last of the tape on the box and fell on the floor in exhaustion. Looking up at my naked ceiling I let out a laugh.
"This is really happening..." I whisper to myself just as I hear footsteps walk into my room. Turning to my left I see Sebastian leaning against my wall. "The trucks ready when you are." He says and I frown at him, turning away. "I'm tired," I replied, "You do it." I hear him chuckle as I lay comfortably on my floor. It was spacious and cool until Sebastian decided to come and cuddle me. Though from the way I turned and pushed my face into his chest, one could definitely say I wasn't complaining. "I'm going to miss you. Why did you have to be so smart? You're fucking leaving me tomorrow morning. You're leaving Ciel. Who's to say the next time I will see you." Sebastian is breathless by the time he stops speaking and if I hadn't known any better I'd say he was crying.
Leaning back so I can reach his face, I pull him into a soft kiss. When I pull away, he just stares at me a moment before sighing and I smile. "You are so cute." I say and his face heats up as he tries and fails to get away from me. My grip on him was fierce. "We have weekends. Your school is like an hour away, you turd. Don't forget holidays and breaks. We aren't going to forget about each other, I'm not going to forget about you." I jump up and lean my hand down to help him up. "Now come on and let's get this truck filled. I don't have time to do this in the morning." I say. Sebastian rolls his eyes but let's me help him up, immediately grabbing two boxes.
I decide to grab one, knowing my own strength, and we start to make our way downstairs. When we reach outside, I see the others casually sunbathing as if I hadn't been working my ass off all day to get ready for freshman move in day tomorrow. The whole lot of them. My acquaintances turned friends, Alois, Lizzy, and Claude. Wherever Freckles was, it wasn't here. "Ay! How about you guys get off your asses and help us get my things in the truck!" I yell at them. They complain and in the end the only ones who decide to help are Finny, Snake, and Joker who had arrived a little after my yelling. When the trucks filled, I turn to Joker who's playing some stupid game on his phone. "Have you seen my Dad?" I ask and he shrugs his shoulders a bit before focusing back on the game.
Rolling my eyes, I join Alois on his beach chair, and by join I mean sat on him. He doesn't complain. His only reaction is wrapping an arm around my midsection and pulling me a little closer to him. I close my eyes, relaxing into his grip listening to the nature around us. It's really hot out, so the sound of a car passing by is minimal. The birds a chirping and the sound of the ever annoying cicadas is a constant background noise. I breath in deep, smelling freshly cut grass and the ever constant smell of that disgusting Old Spice Sebastian just adores.
It's peaceful.
We stay this way for the rest of the day. I was switched from Alois to Sebastian at one point because apparently Alois was "Hogging me all to himself." Sebastian's words, not mine. It was around ten, right after the fireflies came out, that everyone decided it was time to go.
Lizzy and Claude were first to leave.
"Ahhh! I'm going to miss you so much. Don't forget to invite us to your parties and call whenever you need us. Isn't that right, Claude?" She had exclaimed and Claude had merely grunted, pulling me into an uncharacteristic hug before grabbing on to Lizzy and pulling her away. She waved until they turned the corner.
The second to leave were MeyRin, Snake, Pluto, and Drocel.
Snake had wrapped an arm around me nuzzling his face into my hair before whispering goodbye. MeyRin and Pluto, embarrassingly enough had pulled out their phones and basically made me do a photoshoot so they could remember me by. Though I do admit, the pictures came out sexy. Drocel, the ever weird one, gave me a small doll he had made that looked exactly like me. I had smiled at him a bit awkwardly as I had never received something like that. He nodded and within minutes they were gone.
Next were Finny and Joker.
Here's a shocker. I found out a few days ago that they were currently in the 'talking phase' which meant they were flirting up to dating. Crazy, right? But whatever floats their boats. Finny, as always, pulled me into a ten-minute hug. Joker finally pried him away only to pull me into a twelve-minute hug. Had it not been for Sebastian who complained they were stealing his boyfriend away, I don't think I would have made it in the house at all tonight. Before they got into Finny's car however, Finny pulled into one more rushed hug, whispering a few words I will never forget.
"I love you, Ciel. I'm so proud to be your friend." He had said and if I was any less of the person I am today I would have cried.
I turn to my lover, my boyfriend, my one and only, Sebastian and instead of me being the one pulled into an unexpected hug, it is him. It is in that moment when his arms wrap around my trembling shoulders that I realize I am less of the person I am today, because tears now drench my face. I can't believe all that's happened. How fast everything went by. I'm going away to fucking college. Who the hell would have thought that would come true. Not to mention I'm re-dating Sebastian motherfucking Michaels. I finally can call Vincent father and the doctor's say I am on my way to making a full goddamn recovery.
Sebastian wipes away my tears, pulling me into a stereotypical mind-blowing kiss that I respond to eagerly and with enough passion to last me the week I have to go before seeing him again. Pulling away slightly, we rest our foreheads together. "This is it." I say lowly and he smiles, caressing his hand over my cheek. "Yeah." He agrees. We stand there in silence for a few more minutes before I pull away slowly. Giving his hand that had been in mine a small squeeze I let go.
"See you in the morning, right?" I whisper. It feels like if I talk any louder, this moment would be ruined, and for some odd reason this brief goodbye, feels very important. Sebastian nods, though he doesn't say anything as he takes a few steps back, toward the street. "I love you." He says, loud enough for me to hear but still low enough not to ruin the mood. I smile brightly, taking a few steps back myself, closer to my house. "I love you more." I speak back, turning and walking into the house before he can argue.
The last thing I hear from him is his low deep tremble of a chuckle.
It doesn't take long for me to get ready for bed. It's so damn hot out that the only nightclothes I need are my boxers. Hugging my bed pillow close to my chest, I fall asleep to the constant sound of those damn cicadas.
0o0
"CIEL!"
I almost jump out of my skin at the sound of glass breaking outside my bedroom door, along with the loud scream coming from my Dad. Looking at my wall clock, I see that it is around 3am. What he was doing out so late, I couldn't tell you if you threatened me. Sliding out of my bed, I stumble over to my door, opening it. On the other side is my Dad, leant against the wall. His clothes are in a disarray, probably from running here because judging by his lack of breath, that is what he had done. Moving closer, I reach out for his arm to steady him, only to have him grab my hand in a tight hold.
I let out a pained moan and this seem to spur him further as he grabs my other hand with the hand he already has on me, turning us and forcing me into the wall. My hands are trapped above my head in a vice grip and I beg this situation isn't what I think it is because this isn't the first time I have been held like this by him. However, my pleas seem to go unheard by whatever god I was wishing on because I can smell the stale whiskey on his breath and I can feel his cold palm slowly trace the outline of my body before moving into the back of my shorts.
I knew it was too good to be true. My eyes start to water as I feel fingers enter me dry. "Father...father please don't do this. We were doing so good. Please..." I beg. He only continues, tearing my boxers to shreds when he deems me stretched enough. His hand leaves me and by the sound of rustling fabrics I know he is getting something out I want to have no acquaintance with. "Please no. Daddy, please." As a last ditch effort, I call him Daddy, something I haven't called him since I was a child. Instead of stopping like I hoped he would he looks me in the eye with a sick perverted grin stitched to his face.
"I love it when you call me Daddy."
And then he's inside me, and he's no longer my father. He's Vincent, the man I always knew him to be. The man who would never change. He's pumping himself in and out of the place I promised would solely belong to Sebastin. He's making me build all the walls I promised myself I would never need again. He's making bleed from the inside out. He tearing me apart and if only it was physically because who's to say I will ever recover from this betrayal.
And then he's done, and I'm sitting on the carpeted hallway floor, drowning in my tears as he walks to his room to go to sleep. I could stand to curse him for longer but somehow I'm not worried about the man who had just raped me, yet again. How could I, when it was getting harder and harder to breath. How could I when my vision was getting spotty, when blood was dripping from the corner of my mouth.
I don't want to die.
My hand was covered in blood, but the wounds from the glass had long since healed.
I don't want to die.
But it still wasn't fair that he had taken the things I would have been happier with.
I don't want to die.
I know I would hurt later because I would remember that what was happening was not fair. Alois still had everything that didn't belong to him.
I don't want to die.
Maybe I was this soulless Master they spoke of, or maybe even the reincarnation. But there was one thing I knew for sure about us. We both thought of life as a game. One move could change everything, and that may have been the only thing that was fair.
I don't want to die.
It wasn't fair that everything in my life was fucked up and those who I thought I knew were actually very demented. Ugh~ my life.
I don't want to die.
The last thought that surfaced through my brain before I blacked out, was that it really wasn't fair I couldn't change into a person that would be much better than this.
I don't want to die.
Pulling out the suitcase Beast had left me with, I finally did what I had been dreading. I had to hold back the gasp of shock that almost came from me at the first thing I spotted.
Wow...it really wasn't fair that things like this always happened around me.
I don't want to die.
"WE'RE FREE!"
The hats went flying and Ciel promised he wouldn't cry but with all the emotions flying around and the numerous other people who had already started crying reaching his ears and eyes, he knew it was fruitless to try and stop the onslaught of tears. He welcomed the numerous hugs and kisses. The congratulations and the pats on the back.
Ciel was happy and he'd be damned if anyone thought this wasn't fair after the hell he'd been through.
"I d-don't wa..."
The words won't come out as I choke on my own blood. My eyes are closed and I see a bright light. Something is gripping my shoulder and it feels like my whole body is shaking.
I need to open my eyes.
I need to open my eyes.
I need to open my eyes.
Like some sort of mantra, I hear myself saying this over and over and like some sort of angel from heaven, I briefly heard Sebastian's voice.
"It's time to wake up."
My eyes finally open and it feels like years' worth of crust is built up in the corners of my eyes. The drapes over my bedroom windows are pulled to the side and Sebastian had my morning tea ready as always. I stare at him a bit longer than usual today.
I feel as if I am forgetting something.
"Is everything alright, Bocchan?" He asks though I know my demon of a butler merely asks out of curiosity more than care. Rubbing my eyes I shake my head no. For a brief moment I swear I feel pain on my lower limbs but chalk it up to phantom pain. Grabbing the teacup and I take a long sip smiling warmly. To say Sebastian is shocked would be an understatement, but I swear if I looked long enough, he would have a knowing sparkle in his eye. Of what, I'm not sure. "So the tea is to your liking?" He asks.
"It feels as if I haven't had it in years."
~THE END~
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