( Kyle ) ..what happend next to us is what they called processing us and that was horrific they removed our inderviguality really so to say first we were led to into a small room with no privacy or anything and then we were made to strip naked also the fat Nazie seen my gold Star of David pendent and also Jacobs and dads and he screamed no jewlery hand them over dad and Jacob took theirs off and gave them to the fat Nazie but I wasn't going to give him mine then to my horror he pulled a gun on me saying hand over that gold necklace Jew you heard me no jewlery so terrified I took it off and watched him smugly put it in his pocket saying from now on you will obay me alright so i said yes sir but I so wanted to punch him but I couldn't after we were stripped naked we went into shower rooms and had a shower the water was freezing icy cold and also as I was so thirsty I desided to drink a few drops but almost gagged their was disafectent in the water but luckly I didn't swallow too much and I was okay and to make matters worse that blond Nazi kept watching us and I think he was stairing at me I felt so embraced and angry at him also I feel so vulnerable naked too didn't mind being naked in front of Stan but here is an entire different story and also they took our clothes away so just now we have no clothes as we were led naked into another room and next they fucking cut all our hair off shaved us bald ad also they shaved of my pubic hair too my little curly ginger fuzz is gone im now bald as a baby now that was so embaracing and they did it roughly too even cutting the skin a little so only hair I have now is my eye lashes as they fucking shaved off our eyebrows trying to make us look like aliens I feel ugly now so I'm bald all over and my curls are in a huge pile on the floor and Jacob was going to kick up a fuss but he didnt he just sat their quietly as they shaved him bald all over too and they even shaved off dads beard but far worse was still to come than ultra short haircuts
Then they tattooed numbers on the inside of our arms and that fucking hurt like hell and I screamed out in pain first the Nazies take our freedom then they take our looks away and now our names even I'm no longer called Kyle well apart from my family they call me Kyle but I'm now known as 627425 that's tattooed on my arm and also like the others we have been given stripped uniforms to wear that's sort of like Pjamas and a bit on the big side and also my numbers on that too under a yellow star of David so much for not wearing it now I'll be wearing it 24/7 urgh
The first day here was really given over to processing us that's what I heard them. Call it really but the next day we were given work duties I was given a horrible job that made me feel sick I was out outside collecting bodies and taking them to the crematorium I found out that all the poor Jews who were on the left were told they were being sent for a shower but really they were all gassed instead of water they put has in the showers killing them so we're burning the bodies their was me and 5 other prisnors as that's what we are now and that's when I seen something horrific I will never forget as long as I live I found my own dear mothers body I had to move her to the crematorium dump her and others in a hand cart but first ii had to cut off her hair they even cut the hair if the dead as the hair would take much longer to burn and also it can be sold I really felt sick and wonderd now I could do this plus their was Nazies and those Kapos nearby and they can be worse than the Nazies their evil bastards and their ment to be on our side their Jews too do before I cut my moms hair I whisperd to her in tears oh god I'm so so sorry mom I hope your at peace now that was the hardest thing I ever had to do and worse still she was naked too and mom was a very proud modest person shed have hated dying like this in no dignity but I still had to do it otherwise I'd be next to die
After I did that horrific Job I ran to the corner of one of the nuts and threw up but sadly I had to do it or I'd dread to think what would happan to me and I had to do that job really everyday it's the job they assigned me to do and I hardly sleep at night haunted with bad dreams I wish Stan was here to hold me I often think of Stan and how things are with him I really miss him and our privet moments those seem like a different life time now and he'd think I'm ugly if he seen me now
My other job in the camp is fetching and carring as their building more huts and rooms to house the prisnors and also a. few times I have found myself up on the roof hammering nails good job I don't mind heights and also Jacob is working in the Office area along with dad they manged to get some paper for me to start another diary I told them about my idea they think it's good and if I ever see Stan again and get the old diary back add the new one to the old one but so hoping I will see Stan one day and reclaim the diary and thise Nazies have taken Stan my teddy that was in my case
Life in the camp is totally the fucking pits really already I smell bad and to combat lice they say we get shaved all over once a week even our eyebrows but really I think it's to humiliate us and stop us escaping ha some chance of escaping from here anyway discoverd today that the damn fence is eletric some stupid guy who arived with us tried to climb it a already he's had enough and wanted to go home and just let's say he got fried poor thing so that's the idea of climbing over the fence to escape out the window I'm not going to do that now
God that fucking fat Nazie seems to hate me for some reasons apart from being a Jew he's somehow singled me out for punishment I don't know what iv done wrong really but the fat prick pushed me over into the dirt and laughed calling me Jew scum and I won't be long for the Gas chambers but to my shock the blond Nazie with the blue eyes somehow stuck up for me yelling. Look just leave him alone Cartman the kids new and scared and he's trying to work without you on his ass I was totaly stunned and also the bond Nazie smiled saying you okay 627425 I said yeah I guess but I still don't trust him as I seen him screaming and yelling at other Jews even push one but he put the fat Nazie in his place that's for sure
Aug 1943 Kyle ...Dad managed to get me some more paper from the office today' so more pages for the diary and when or if I get back I will add these pages to my old diary and let Stan see them so he will know now much I miss him I really do and miss our privet times together tod wonder what he'll say when I tell him that my mom is dad along with Ike Dr Goldberge and the others but dad and Jacob are still alive thank God but I try not to dwell on what happend or I'd go mad and maybe end up the same way so I try to think of positive things like getting out of here and back to Stan that keeps me going
Oh god got a huge shock also in here I seen Francis my old jewish friend I can't beleive he's alive and here I nearly died and when I think no one was looking I gave him a quick hug but he looks so different now he's lost a hell of a lot of weight he's like a walking skelinton now his skin is grey like paper and his head and eyebrows all shaved off like mine and that sad haunted look on his face it's hard to beleive he's only 16 he looks like an old man now and identical to the others here but it's so good to have a friend in here that's not family but shame he's not in our sleeping hut he's like a 5 miniute walk away as the camp is huge really,
francis also told me his mom is dead now and his dad so he's on his own here but he's coping okay just the hunger gets to him but he said best thing is don't complane just keep your head down do what the Nazies and Kapos tell you to do cause no trouble and you should be fine just blend into the background and be a model prisnor so I think that's good advice and will keep that in mind also I think iv lost some weight too not really sure or maybe it's the uniform that's way too big for me well it's what I was given so I just took it but I'm fucking starving never known such hunger in my entire life my stomocks growling at me to feed it but the little food we get in here is crap it's like watery soup and a tiny bit of bread no nourishment at all I wouldn't even give this to a dog hell when Scrappy was with us he was better fed than thise so if a dog dosent deseirve to eat this no human should but the prisnors ate starving and wolfing it down in one mouthful practically their so hungry their desperate really and as for our beds their wooden hard bunks 3 stories high and some even 4 I share with Jacob worse luck and dad is above me as theis like 4 pepole in the same bed but I warned Jacob to keep his hands to himself or Auchwitz or no Auchwitz hell get my heel in his balls and he better not touch any of or other bed mates but this sharing is fucking driving me crazy and one of the other guys near me snores like a pig I had to hit him in the back to get him onto his side a few times but he flopped onto his back and snored louder fuck sake even Stan didn't snore
I really thought I'd end up I deep shit today as I was digging the yard so we could lay the foundations of the new huts and I stopped for a moment as I was so warm and sweaty so desided to wipe the sweat off my face and I seen that blond Nazie watching me I was really expecting him to start screaming abuse at me to get back too work but to my suprise he didn't even say anything he just let me off so maybe he's not as bad as the others after all really
Did I tell you that some of the ground in Auchwitz is really dirty and when mixed with water ewwoo yuck as I discoverd today when we had an almighty thunder storm I was working outside too but I couldn't run for cover as being out on storms can be dangerous and normally I'd go inside but here I just had to work through the storm and the ground turned to mud really yuck I also slipped a few times so the bottom of my pants are caked in mud and as their the only clothes I have well couldn't change them I hate those damn fucking uniforms but I did manage to get hold of a hat to stop the sun burning my head so that helped a bit but when we eventually finished work it was round about 5pm and then evening roll call oh we get roll call a lot really early in the morning were up at 4 am at role call then lunch and evening and a couple of times that fat nazi for a laugh had fucking roll call in the middle of the night and I swear he was laughing fat bastard god I'd love to kill him one of these days but can't even get near him
Well that's that chappy done Again short but powerful I guess and all events that are happaning are based on true stories even when Kyle had to cut his dead moms hair that did happen to a young prisnor in real life poor guy also I think some camps shaved the eyebrows off the prisnors not sure about Auchwitz though but more coming later so stay tunned