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Tori's POV
I'd gone to bed that night still not believing that had actually happened. I kept replaying it over in my head and making sure that it wasn't a hallucination or anything.
Jade kissed
I mean, I kissed her
Or we kissed each other
My head was completely messed up; I didn't know what to think. Maybe we both just got caught in the moment, but I felt like there was more to it.
I thought back to the split second that seemed to last forever when we locked eyes, electricity going through them. We both saw and felt the same thing at that exact second:
Desire
I know don't why we both felt that way, it was inexplicable. We'd fit together perfectly, our lips moved in sync; I felt the touch of her surprisingly soft warm hands on my neck almost 12 hours later. I stood motionless staring into nothingness at my locker when Andre came up behind me
"Why so glum chum?" he asked
Should I tell him? I mean, he was still my best friend and I felt like I could trust him with my life.
"Nothing, just had a rough night" I lied
But I decided not to tell him, this was about me and Jade we had to work this out, whatever this was. I couldn't run to him everytime I had a problem with Jade, which I bet would be a lot in the next few months.
"If you say so. Wanna grab some coffee before first period?" he asked, deciding not to push it
"Sure" I said, shutting my locker and walking with him
"Speaking of coffee, where's your caffeine addicted girlfriend?" he said innocently
"I honestly don't know" I answered "I think she's feeling out of it today"
But I really had no idea why she wasn't here, I know she freaked out last night after our little make out session, but why would she miss school for that? I'd called, texted and even considered going to her house, but she didn't answer any of my texts or phone calls.
He seemed to buy my excuse anyway. We got our coffees and walked together discussing whether his grandma was or wasn't crazy on our way to our first class of the day.
After an uneventful day at HA, I sat on the steps of the staircase, alone with my thoughts, which was probably not a good idea. I kept thinking that senior year would be a great experience for me, but I never expected to be forced to have a fake relationship with the person I most hated in the world, but I'm so sure I do hate Jade now… I thought maybe that my life would change, that I would change. I felt like I was being turned inside out by one of those horrible 19th century torture contraptions.
The worst part was I couldn't tell this to anyone. I couldn't even begin to think of how Jade was feeling, she might've just killed me, although I had a feeling she wouldn't. She'd been really nice to me these past weeks. I wondered if this had anything to do with the fact that she and Cat had been awfully close lately, whispering all the time. Then, as if destiny was finally on my side, the redhead was walking a few away from me
"Cat!" I called
"Ahhhh" she screamed as she started running away
Quickly gathering my things, wondering why the hell she was running away, I stood up and started chasing after her. I cornered her at the Black Box Theater when she stumbled getting in and fell down.
"Cat, I just wanted to talked to you" I said catching my breath and helping her up "Why did you run?"
"Well, you sounded mad" she said softly
"I'm not mad" I exhaled "I'm angry yes, frustrated, confused, sad, happy… I don't know what I should be feeling right now. And I'm also so freaking curious to know yours and Jade's little secret"
I sat down on stage and put my head in my hands trying not to cry
"You wanna talk about it?" she asked softly taking my hand
"I can't tell you" I said "You wouldn't get it"
"I might get it a whole lot more than you think" she mumbled loudly enough for me to her
And then after a few seconds of contemplating the consequences of this, I told her everything. The challenge. Us coming out to our friends. Our huge fight last week. The recent kiss. Everything.
"And now I have absolutely no clue how I'm going to handle this with Jade" I said snuffling and wiping my tears with my sleeves
"You're right about me and Jadey having a secret… I already knew about Sikowitz's challenge, she told me couple weeks ago" she confessed
"You knew" I said "But that still doesn't explain why you had to be so secretive about it"
"It's not my place to tell you, it's Jade's" she said touching my arm and getting up "Do you think you might like Jade, you know, like for real this time?"
"I don't know Cat" I replied honestly "But I think that I might actually have feelings for her"
"Whatever you decide Tori, you have to talk to Jade and work this little fiasco out, after all, you guys still have to be a couple, real or not. I'll be supportive of you guys whatever you decide okay" she said giving me a friendly kiss on the cheek and walking out of the theater, leaving me once again with nothing but my confusion.
I was parked outside the West residence, deciding whether or not I was really doing this. It took me a few minutes to get my mind wrapped straight around my decision.
Taking a breath, I got out of the car and rang the bell. When no one answered, I rang it again; I was sure Jade was home. I heard an "I'm coming!" from inside so I just waited until that voice opened the door.
"Tori, what a surprise!" Mr. West said "Please, please come in"
"Okay then" I said stepping in "Is Jade here? I really need to talk to her"
"Yeah, upstairs" he said
As I was walking up the stairs he grabbed my arm
"Fix this will you, she's a wreck and don't think I've helped much" he said with a sad but hopeful look in his eyes
"I will" I smile and he released his hold and I went upstairs to find Jade
I didn't exactly see her, but I could hear her sniffling in her room and blowing into a tissue. As much as it was corny, I found it cute…
"Knock, knock" I said knocking twice on the door
She turned, alarmed "Vega" she said trying to recompose herself, which frankly, was a poor attempt
She had a makeup stained face from the mascara and she was dressing in her sweats watching Sex in the City, eating ice cream; I call that pretty depressing
"Hey" I said sitting in front of her in the bed, crossing my legs
"Hey" she said looking away
"Jade" I said hoping she'd look me in the eyes; no response "Jade" I said gently taking her hand in mine
That did the trick
"What?" she asked
"I came here to talk to you about last night" I said
"There's nothing to talk about" she said wiping her face "Shit"
Mascara was all over her hand now, but she just wiped it off on her clothes
"Clearly there is"
I looked into her sad blue eyes even though she was trying to put on a brave face
"You're much more of a hot mess than I am" I chuckled trying to make her laugh
"Yeah well…" she smiled
"Listen" I said fiddling with our intertwined hands "I don't know what happened last night"
"It was clearly a mistake. Not my fault you had to kiss me"
"Oh no, don't try to pin this on me, you kissed me too" I defended myself "And… I didn't not like it"
"Doesn't matter now, does it?" Jade said getting up
"But it does Jade" I said getting up as well and spinning her back to face me "I talked to Cat, she told me that you talked about our challenge with her"
"Tattle tale" she said rolling her eyes "What does it matter that I told her?"
"Why did you?" I asked "I thought we agreed not to bring anyone into this"
"Because I was freaking scared, you happy?!" she screamed as she threw herself on the bed
I laid down next to her staring at the ceiling "Scared of what Jade?"
I turned on my side to take a better look at her. She shut her eyes tight and covered her face with her hands. What she said next caught me off guard
"That I might actually fall for you Vega" she said closing her eyes and exhaling, turning on her side and opening her eyes
I focused on her electric blue eyes; they were so full of hurt. I didn't know what I should do
"That's okay Jade…" I said quietly
"Easy for you to say Vega" she replied
"You could said something to me" I said brushing a strand of hair off her face and putting it behind her ear
"Yeah, let me just tell me fake girlfriend that I might actually like her when I was really supposed to hate her" she said sarcastically "Cat was helping me try to woo you"
"Jade" I whispered looking into her ocean blue eyes "I didn't know this until a few hours ago, but call me crazy, I might actually like you too. Your wooing might've just worked"
"Don't you dare fuck with me…" she warned sadly
I closed the short distance between us and kissed her softly; sparks shooting up my whole body, but I pulled away, still leaving my hand on neck and brushing circles on her back.
"I'm not playing with you Jade. I like you, I really do" I said softly "So now, we have two choices, either we go back to fake dating, end this challenge and get it over with, or we could really try this out for real"
"What do you wanna do?" she said, a tone of hope in her beautiful voice
"What do you wanna do?" I said mocking her
We both smiled and just looked at each other saying nothing. One of my hands was on her neck and the other was pulling her close, rubbing small circles in her back, while her hands were playing with my hair.
"Are we really doing this?" my girlfriend asked smiling
"Yes, we are" I said kissing her briefly and resting my forehead on hers
"You know Vega, for someone who didn't want to kiss me, you sure are kissing me a lot" she mocked
"You want me to stop?" I said jokingly
"No!" she yelled whispered almost desperately
"So not a chance you're gonna stop calling me Vega?" I asked chuckling as we sat on the couch in her room watching the rest of the movie she'd been watching
"Well, I do it mostly to tease you but I can stop" she said sweetly
"Actually, I kinda like it now" I smiled "No one calls me that, so it could be your special nickname for me or something, but then what would I call you?"
"You already do call me by my nickname" she said
"Oh yeah" I laughed "I'm glad we're doing this Jade"
"So am I Vega"
A/N: Cliffhanger, kind of… R&R! I'm feeling very confident about this story now, I got my Jori juices flowing! Tell me what you guys thought of this chapter that I'm gonna post right now because I'm so freaking excited.