A Beautiful Mess

Chapter 25

Dante was gone. Gabi would never see him again until her death later in life, which he told her, wouldn't be anytime soon. She felt so alone in this world. Dante was dead and he was the person she was closest to besides her friend Emma who was home in Brinnon and she hasn't talked to her for a while because of the whole Justin thing and Emma kept telling her how lucky she was to be dating him. she had no clue about the beatings he gave her and he still seemed like the popular cool guy at school with a great life.

Dante told her that Kendall cared. That she could trust him. Dante was gone and she needed someone. A shoulder to lean on. She just couldn't go to her parents about this. Her mom would look at her differently. Not to mention her dad, he would have a heart attack for sure because his baby wasn't 'pure' anymore. It wasn't her choice though. But her dad would still freak. Which results with her not telling her parents because of that.

She did need someone right now. Kendall did tell her that if she needed someone to talk to, that he was there. The offer may have only been for talking though. But it was worth a shot. She did need someone right now. Looks like that was her only choice.

Gabi stands up from the edge of her bed where she was sitting and previously talking to her brother who was visiting her from the beyond. She takes a deep breath and lets it out before she walks to her closet and grabs an old concert t-shirt and a pair of jeans to change into out of her sweats. She wanted to at least look a little decent when she told Kendall her who abusive story so she quickly changes into the blue skinny jeans and a Evanescence concert t-shirt from when she saw them live two years ago and runs a brush through her messy blonde hair so it wont look as bad as she felt right now. She then takes another deep breath and walks out of her bedroom and into the living room of her apartment and grabbing her purse off the sofa before walking out the front door of her apartment and heading over to 2J where she knew Kendall and the rest of Big Time Rush lived.

She waited outside the apartment door for a few minutes before knocking because how nervous she was. After she does knock, Kendall opens the door almost immediately and sticks his head out. He is shocked to see her

"Gabi, what are you doing here?" Kendall asks her. "you haven't talked to me for three days, since Dante died,"

"and you…and you um…kissed me," Gabi replies.

"yeah, that too," Kendall says. "its not that I don't want to see you, its great that you have left your apartment, I just wasn't expecting you,"

"yeah, I know that," Gabi says. "are you busy right now?"

"no, not really," Kendall says. "I was just going down to the pool, why?"

"I really need to talk to you," Gabi tells him. "its something really important, are you alone?"

"yeah, my mom and sister are shopping, Logan's with Camille, James is at the pool, and Carlos is wherever Carlos is," Kendall answers her. "why don't you come in,"

Kendall opens the door fully and Gabi walks inside and he shuts the door behind her.

"what is it you wanted to talk to me about?" Kendall asks her.

"its actually, something I really need to tell," Gabi tells him. "and it's a long story,"

"then lets take a seat," Kendall says as he points to the sofa in the living room.

He and Gabi walk over and take a seat. She looks at him for a moment.

"I honestly don't know where to begin," Gabi says.

"start from the beginning," Kendall tells her. "that way I will be able to understand,"

Gabi takes a deep breath before pushing her hair back, reaches into her purse and pulls out a water bottle. She opens it and pours a little into her hand and then puts her hand to her right eye and wiping away makeup revealing a purple bruise. Kendall looks shocked as he sees it.

"I got this the night before I came here," she tells him.

she pauses and takes a deep breath and begins to tell her story.

"after Dante left for Iraq, I was missing him and this guy who went to my school, Justin Wilson asked me out," Gabi tells him as she caps the water bottle and puts it down. "Justin was this really cool guy at my school, so I thought it would be a good idea, you know, to help me get my mind off my big brother being in Iraq and I was worrying about him. that was the stupidest thing I ever did. He was using me to get his ex girlfriend, Alyssa jealous because she dumped him because he just wanted to sleep with her. And when it didn't work at getting her jealous, he took his anger out on me, he hit me so hard that I thought that I might have loss consciousness,"

Gabi pauses for a moment and takes a deep breath.

"I thought that it would have been a one time thing, he got his anger out, he only dated me to get her jealous, that I was free, but when I went to school the next day, he was all nice to me, he acted like nothing happened, that he never hit me or used me, I was confused, but once school was out, he hit me again, then again." Gabi says as a few tears fall. "he was pissed his plan failed, so he told me that it was my fault, and that if I told anyone, he would kill me. I was afraid, for the first time in my life, I was afraid for myself,"

Kendall looks at her.

"you didn't tell anyone, did you?" he asks her.

"no, I didn't," Gabi replies "I was scared, so I kept hiding it every time he hit me, I wanted to leave so much, I hated him, but I was so afraid of what he'd do to me, so I stayed in the relationship and let him use me as a human punching bag. I wrote song after song on how I felt. Nobody's Home is defiantly about how I felt then. Then I entered in the Washington State Singing Competition and made it to Regionals at Port Angeles. The winner of the competition got a record deal, I was so determined to win so I could get away from him. Gustavo came when I was doing my performance of This Is Me, right after it, he found me and said that he wanted to sign me, I was so excited, not because I was being signed, but because it was the perfect way to get away from him,"

"let me guess, it wasn't the perfect way out," Kendall says.

Gabi nods.

"no, once again, I was wrong," she replies "did you know I was supposed to be here two months ago. Now, I should be working on recording me first CD. But I am still working on trying to convince Gustavo to let me right my own songs. you know why that is?"

"no," Kendall says.

"the night I was supposed to leave, my parents were at the diner, I was waiting for them to get home to drive me to the Olympia airport," Gabi tells him "he showed up, and to say he was mad, would be an understatement, the beating lasted so long, but I remember nothing after going unconscious, I was beaten so bad, I had to be airlifted to an Olympia hospital to get medical attention because I was so beaten, I almost died,"

Gabi pauses again and takes another deep breath and wipes away a few of her tears.

"I said that someone broke into the house. I was too afraid to tell the truth, that it was him," Gabi tells him "that I never saw his face and I had no clue what he looked like. I was so scared of what he would do next,"

"Gabi, I am so sorry that this happened to you," Kendall tells her "this guy is some sick twisted son of bitch. If I could see him now, I would beat him into a coma,"

"will everyone stop it with the beating him into the coma," Gabi says frustrated. "I know, I want to beat him into a coma too, but hearing that is getting old,"

"who else said that?" Kendall asks her confused.

"it doesn't matter, but what does is what he did to me a week ago, before I came here," Gabi says.

"what did he do?" Kendall asks her.

Gabi struggles again with being able to say it out loud. She did not want Kendall looking at her differently. Dante said he cared and right now, she needed someone who cared. Dante didn't look at her differently, so hopefully Kendall wouldn't.

"he…he raped me," Gabi says in tears.

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