Hermione Granger And The Point Of No Return

by MissSiriusBlack-x

Hermione travels into the past to save the future, and falls in love with Severus Snape, things are not always that simple however and fate has a nasty shock in store when she arrives home. Hermione/Severus

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Hermione Granger & the Point of No Return

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I love you, and because I love you, I would sooner have you hate me

for telling you the truth than adore me for telling you lies - Pietro Aretino

Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way – Backstreet boys (I want it that way)

A/N some words in the following chapter may cause offence. Remember the rating is 'T' for a reason.

Also, the whole of this chapter is important! Please do not skip anything, explanations are at the bottom of the chapter.

Silence. That was all Hermione could hear for a few moments as Severus examined the ground at his feet, his breathing laboured. To her it felt like a great stress had been lifted off her, setting her free. She could only imagine how Severus felt, the women he loved was over Thirty years his junior. She watched sadly as he wiped a tear away from his cheek. If she had explained it to anyone else she could have known they would accept it in a heartbeat then move on. But she knew when she'd told him that Severus could never do that, he was too proud to accept things that didn't needed a plausible reason. After all, that was part of the reason she loved the man.

Slowly the sounded around her managed to force passage into her ears and she heard laughter and music from the great hall. The grounds however were eerily silent except for a few students making out here or there.

"You lied to me?" His voice was broken and cracked at the end.

Hermione bit her lip, she could feel the tears stinging her eyes, but refused to let them fall. He was hurting more than her, and she wasn't even comforting him.

"Severus, I am so sorry, but I had no choice, no one was to know. I shouldn't even have told you, but I had to, it was tearing me apart lying to you day after day. Severus please? I never meant to hurt you," even to her ears the excuse was pathetic.

He snorted, "No choice? You had a choice Hermione, you could have just left me, rather than giving me the false hope you did," his words held no bite to them. And Hermione wished they did, she could deal with a sarcastic Severus, but one that was almost in tears? No way.

"I am so sorry. But Severus, if I hadn't have come you would have turned dark and we would have lost you forever. You have no idea how important you are to us, to me. I cannot loose you, neither can The Order. Please? I am so sorry," tears streamed down her face as she begged him.

Severus stood up, "sorry isn't good enough Hermione," his voice softened when he started talking again "I'll never turn dark after what you've done to me. Give me a few months and I might be able to look at you again," his hand stroked her cheek slowly, drawing it out for both of them, he jerked away abruptly, "Goodbye Hermione," with that he strolled away into the darkness.

"Goodbye, Severus Snape," whispered Hermione quietly after he had disappeared back into the great hall.

How long Hermione stayed out there she didn't know. After her arms had gone numb a pair of white arms wrapped themselves around her. Turning around Hermione buried her face into Lily's shoulder and cried.

April 1st – Four Months Later

There was no official story concerning Severus's and Hermione's break up. And because of that rumours spread wildly around the school, some obviously not true, but others had reduced Hermione to tears. No one apart from Severus and Hermione knew what had happened that night. Lily hadn't pried something that Hermione was eternally grateful for. By the time Lily had managed to get Hermione inside she had contracted a frightful cold which landed her in the Hospital Wing for almost a week. It wasn't only the cold she had got, but as Madame Pomfrey said to Lily "some things pierce so deep even magic can't heal them."

It had taken Hermione weeks to recover from the cold and even longer for her to talk to anyone. Only speaking in classes when she was asked, it had finally taken Dumbledore saying he would remove her head girl badge before she reverted to the old Hermione. No one seemed to know what had happened to her, she stayed distant from everyone except for Lily and The Marauders. James and Sirius quickly became the brothers she never had when they had saved her from some Slytherin's who had cornered her on one of her patrols. Remus became closer than a brother could be, but not close enough to fill the gap Severus had left. Lily became Hermione's sister; literally they had become blood sisters mid march. (1)

And Peter? Well Peter became a friend. Even though Hermione knew what a traitorous little bastered he was in the future, she couldn't help but start to almost like the boy who had caused the death of her best friend's parents. They would never be best friends, to much was left unsaid between them and Hermione knew she could never forgive him. But she was willing to try, for the others sake.

True to his word, Severus had ignored her for four months now. She knew he would possibly never be able to forgive her to lying to him, but she could still hope. The only thing that kept her sane when she thought about him was the fact that he was avoiding the rest of his house.

Classes were getting tougher, so at this current moment in time, Hermione sat with her back against her tree staring over the lake. Her Charms homework littered the floor around her. She sighed softly, during her weeks of depression she had gotten behind in her classes and she was still trying to catch back up.

But Hermione couldn't and wouldn't pretend Severus didn't exist. Every time he passed her it was like a stab in the stomach. Her hands itched to hold his. She missed the snarky git. Every second he was away from her tore at her. Her heart was ripped in two and the other part lay with him. She knew she could never love another, he was hers and she was his. If only he would forgive her.

She was so lost in her thoughts that she didn't even notice a figure sit down next to her till he spoke "its lovely out here isn't it?" His voice was slightly colder and sharper almost sarcastic.

"I think it is," she flinched as he turned his black eyes on her.

"You would wouldn't you?"

"You used to once,"

"I still do," he smiled slightly at her, but his eyes stayed cold.

They sat silently for a while, girl and boy. After time Severus spoke again "I forgive you."

"Thank you," said Hermione simply.

He reached out and took her hand pulling her towards him.

Hermione hadn't expected him to kiss her, but he did, he pulled her close to him and tangled his hands in her hair. And Hermione kissed him back.

"You have no idea how much I've missed you," he muttered when they had both drawn breath and their foreheads were pressed together.

"I missed you to," mumbled Hermione before pulling him down to another kiss.

When they arrived in the great hall a hour later they went their separate ways, Hermione to The Marauders and Lily and Severus back to the Slytherin's.

July 9th – NEWT's have finished (Early Evening)

Hermione sighed as her and Severus sank onto the ground by the lake. Severus tucked an arm around her waist pulling her closer to him, while she rested her head on his shoulder. They sat in silence for a few hours, Severus playing with Hermione's hair and Hermione dozing softly. When she was awake she gave him a quick kiss and they watched the sun set together.

The last two months had been incredibly stressful. While they were both trying to rebuild their relationship, they also had to work around their NEWT's. Their relationship was even better than it was before, now they could talk freely about everything neither feeling like the other was lying. But Hermione still wouldn't tell him the future. She felt the future was too important to be told away. During their closeness however Severus had become slightly tense sometimes. Hermione's brow contracted as she worried he might be going off her.

As if hearing Hermione's thoughts Severus tensed under her head.

"Hermione?"

"Yes?" muttered Hermione sleepily.

As the final light of the sun beat down on them making Hermione want to jump in the lake, Severus wriggled out from under her. Somehow during her doze he had become stuck under her while she moved about, now she was sitting between his legs, one of them stuck out at a painful angle, trying to accommodate her. His movement forced her more awake and she moved slightly so he could get out. Moving backwards so her back hit the tree she watched as he dug around in his pocket.

He turned away from her and stared across the lake for a moment before saying "I wanted to do this before you told me about where you came from all those months ago. I was going to leave it to you got back. But if I do it now, I can spend twenty years thinking about you and not worrying you will reject me," he turned around. Pulling a small box from his pocket he said "Hermione Granger will you marry me?"

Hermione stared at him. Well that was unexpected. Snapping herself out of it Hermione said clearly"I'd love to."

His crinkled forehead straightened out as he heard those words and he smiled widely, the first time she'd seen him do so in months. His smile turned into a grin as he opened the box and she gasped. The ring was simple; a diamond glittered in the middle surrounded by much smaller ones. But to Hermione, the simple ring was perfect. (2) He pulled her up as he slid it onto her finger and gave her a second to admire it before pulling her into a passionate kiss.

When they separated and had caught their breath they started to make their way back to the castle.

"I was going to ask you when you told me about you coming from the future," Severus murmured silently in her ear as they separated in the great hall.

July 13th - Hermione's room, (A few minutes to midnight)

Hermione sighed; the last half week had been busy. Packing had started, for the Hogwarts Express would leave tomorrow. Hermione had spent the last week gathering pictures and memories from her time in The Marauders time. It had not seemed odd to anyone, for everyone was doing it, they would leave Hogwarts soon and none of them wanted to forget about it.

When The Marauders had seen her ring they had of course been visibly angry but had gotten over it when Hermione had Severus promise to look after her. All the girls had exclaimed over it and offered their congratulations.

Hermione had finished packing now. All her treasures from her time were in the past were packed in her trunk (magically expanded to fit everything). All that was left in her room, unpacked were her pyjamas which she was wearing and of course her Hogwarts uniform for tomorrow when she would finally be able to go home. Home. Home, though she hated to admit it was almost here. She felt so happy with the people she loved.

The only other things left in the room were Crookshanks, who would be living with Dumbledore, and a selection of letters. Moving away from the bed Hermione made her way to the desk in the corner and set about re-reading the letters, all addressed to different people. Starting at the top she worked her way down, making final adjustments as she went.

Dear Lily,

You have been my best friend for many years now. I feel however it has not been long enough, for, after I hand you this letter you will never see me again. For that I am truly sorry. Please don't forget about me, for I shall never forget about you and how great a friend you have been to me. A true friend in my time of need.

I beg of you don't cry, as I know you will be by now. I am not dead. I am just floating through the vortex of time.

The future is a strange and beautiful place Lily, and I only wish you were there to share it with me. But rest assured you will never be forgotten about. For you Lily Evans are possibly one of the most important people ever to live. I am sorry I will not be there for yours and James's wedding, please try to keep him and Sirius in line.

I leave with you words of wisdom. Sirius and Remus will be ever faithful please do not forget that. And Peter? Peter will choose his own path, a path that will lead to destruction, but please, do not hate him, he made his choice. And his choice shall be his undoing.

Finally Lily, never show this letter to anyone, not James, not Sirius, not even your future family.

Love,

Hermione Jane Granger

P.S You may leave any letters you wish to write to me with Albus Dumbledore, for he shall make sure I receive them.

P.P.S Don't let Peter know who I am.

Hermione smiled slightly as she finished Lily's letter. It was perfect, Lily would understand it and if anyone else happened to get their hands on it then, they would not. For even though codes were not Hermione's forte she knew how to word a letter, she was clever like that. Pulling an envelope out of her desk she opened it and pushed the letter in it. Sealing she sighed it 'To Lily Rose Evans, from Hermione Antoinette Babineaux.'

Hermione put it to the side and pulled forward the next letter.

Dear James,

Where to start? Firstly, don't ask Lily to show you her letter, nor the others. Secondly, James, you are like the brother I never had. I love you like a brother but even so I cannot tell you what is going to happen in your future. You will understand in time James. After all, you're not as stupid as you pretend are you?

Prongs, my Stag friend.

Neither am I.

I hope I've got your attention now.

Now, James, you are going to ask Lily to marry you, do not ask how I know this. But let me tell you now, as I won't be present then, if you break her heart (which I doubt you will) I will break your face. James you are my brother in all but blood, but that will not stop me hurting you if you ever hurt her.

I am so truly sorry what awaits you. I wish I could say, but I cannot. I know you will face loss in your future, but please remember everything comes at a price.

And above all remember, not everything is as it seems. Just because Remus is a werewolf does not mean he is evil. Just like when you thought Sirius would be evil once because he was a Black. You will forget about it, I know you will. But I know I have tried and that is what is important.

Look after Lily James, for she is your life.

Love,

Hermione Jane Granger

P.S You may leave any letters you wish to write to me with Albus Dumbledore, for he shall make sure I receive them.

P.P.S Don't let Wormtail know who I really am.

Hermione frowned in concentration, she had given James a warning and that was all she could do. She knew James would figure it out like Lily. She only wished she could say a proper goodbye. Pulling yet another envelope out of her desk she opened it and pushed the letter in. Sealing it she signed it 'To James Charlus Potter, from Hermione Antoinette Babineaux.'

Putting the letter to the side she pulled forward the next letter.

Dear Remus,

Moony, my friend. You must have guessed by now. For you are not a foolish wolf. You will know when I am from. Mooney please do not show this letter to any living soul. For the information in this letter is something that could bring about the destruction of the world.

Wormtail is a traitor.

You have known that for ages now. As have I. I feel I may have known longer than you, after all I have known since third year. I am a friend of Harry Potter's. Yes. James and Lily's son. You must know Remus what is to happen, for I know that wolves can see the life of a person and even know James and Lily's are drawing to a close, a couple more year then the end.

When you have read this letter I know you will forget everything I have said by the time it comes in useful. But I understand you will have far more important things to worry about.

Do not blame yourself, it wasn't your fault.

I hope you enjoy Lily and James's wedding.

Please look after everyone for me, especially Sirius when he escapes.

Love,

Hermione Jane Granger

P.S I have said to everyone to write me letters if they wish, but do not feel you must do that, for I will be seeing you soon Moony my old friend.

P.P.S Treat Harry as the son you never had, he will need it.

Hermione smiled slightly. She knew it was risky letting Remus know so much. But she trusted him with her life. Pulling out an envelope she pushed the letter inside and sealed it before writing 'To Remus John Lupin, from Hermione Antoinette Babineaux.'

She put the letter aside and pulled forward the next one, for Sirius. This one had been the hardest to write.

Dear Sirius,

Your letter is going to be the hardest to write, so please pay attention.

Sirius Orion Black, you are the bravest man I have ever met. And I trust you with my soul, you saved my best friend from depression so many times, I feel I owe it to you to tell you something.

Please do not tell another living person, ever, what I am about to tell you. Neither can you show the letter to them, in fact, it would be safer if you burnt it after reading it. It is most important Peter never knows who I am Sirius.

I have riddled it to the others, because their letters won't be burnt as yours will be. I know you Sirius, and I know how stupid you can be sometimes.

So I'm going to be blunt.

Sirius my name is Hermione Jane Granger. And I come from twenty years in the future.

…

Are you awake now? I had a feeling you might have fainted and dropped the letter. But don't worry.

Carrying on, Sirius I hope you shall never forget me. The years you will spend in Azkaban will not be your downfall remember that. For in 1993 I will meet you.

Please know, that,

A – Severus is a spy

B – I love you like a brother

Enjoy being best man at the Potter's Wedding.

Love,

Hermione Jane Granger

P.S I will be seeing you soon, please don't hate me, I will explain everything

P.P.S Treat Harry as the son you never had

Hermione frowned, yes, that had been the hardest to write. Grabbing an envelope she pushed the letter inside it and sealed it before writing, 'To Sirius Orion Black, from Hermione Antoinette Babineaux.'

Putting it on the pile with the others Hermione pulled forward the last letter.

Dear Peter,

I know the choice you made long ago Peter. But I forgive you, it was not your fault you lacked strength. I only hope you find a away back to us, one day.

Your once friend,

Hermione Antoinette Babineaux

Hermione barely glanced at that letter. Sealing it she wrote, 'To Peter Pettigrew, from Hermione Antoinette Babineaux.'

Putting the letters back into a pile Hermione made her way over to her bed, rubbing her eyes Hermione threw herself down, where she fell asleep before she'd even hit the pillows.

Hermione's last day in the past

The nest morning Hermione woke up to the sounds of birds singing and James banging on her door telling her to hurry up. Yelling she'd be out in a minute she grabbed her clothes and pulled them on. Pushing her pyjamas into her trunk she closed it. Grabbing her wan from the table with the letters she shoved the letters in her pocket and levitated the trunk.

Almost 3 hours later Hermione was standing on Hogsmead platform saying goodbye to her friends. The morning had passed quickly, she had levitated her trunk to the headmasters study, and they had spoken briefly before both had left for the final feast of the year. The fest had been quick and Hermione had sat at the Gryffindor table with The Marauders and Lily.

"I'm going to miss you," muttered Lily pulling her back into another hug.

"I'll miss you to," murmured Hermione back.

When they separated Hermione smiled around at them. The quiditch team members had already been said goodbye to, the official story was that she was going back to France, via portkey. So now, all that was left was to give her friends the letters then leave. Sadly it proved harder than it should be.

Gathering her courage together just as the whistle blew to tell everyone to get on the terrain she said hurriedly " I have something to give you all," before pulling out the letters and handing them to the corresponding person. They took them and together the six of them shared another quick hug before the dashed onto the train. Moving back Hermione smiled and waved. As the train began moving Hermione walked along side it before slowing down and watching as it sped around the bed and out of her sight.

Making her way back to school Hermione took Severus's hand as he fell into step beside her. He was going to apparate home after they had said goodbye. Together they made their way to the headmaster's office. Opening the door Hermione and Severus entered. Walking over to Dumbledore Hermione took the time turner of him and smiled sadly. Putting it over her head she said sadly "goodbye professor."

Dumbledore nodded at her. Putting a hand on her trunk and checking her pocket for her wand Hermione took the time turner in her spare her. Before she had a chance to spin it, Severus had hurried over to her and kissed her soundly on the lips pulling her toward him. When he moved away she saw tears shining in his eyes, wiping away her own she replaced her hand on her trunk, from where it had become dislodged during the kissing and spun her time turner.

When the darkness had lifted Hermione let go off her trunk and surveyed the room. Fawkes was resting on his perch behind the door. The portraits of headmasters and headmistresses were watching her and sitting at his desk was Albus Dumbledore, but the most shocking thing above all was that now, standing directly behind Dumbledore stood Severus Snape.

End of Chapter

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Sorry it took over a week to update but holiday was a pain, and unpacking when I got home was worse.

I'm starting to think this story could end up totalling over 100,000 words. If it happens, I think I might faint. I hope you're enjoying the slight more detail I put into this chapter. I have already planned out the final chapters, it might divert slightly, but they should be done by September.

I know that you may think this year has gone to quickly but please understand, I will not be able to finish it when I get back to school in September, I'm banned from the computer till weekends, then I will be busy, back at swimming. So please do understand, im trying to hurry it to not keep you waiting.

I know some of you will think I hurried their engagement, but don't forget they had been going out for almost a year and before that they were friends. Presides they live in a school together its not they only see each other once a week.

(1)– Blood Sisters, when two girls cut heir hands and pres them together, their blood gets mingled, they share the same blood.

(2) That's the description if the ring, obviously, it is a pretty simple design, to my mind. If it's not to yours, then just imagine it as something else.

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