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CHAPTER 5

"Oh my god, I still can't believe it" Beck said still shocked by what they'd just seen. "Of course, that's why she's so changed, that's why she's depressed, that's why she starts shaking when people touch her, that's why she panics every time he is close to her, oh my god, it was so painfully obvious, how could I not notice?" He asked madly, he felt so impotent and angry and sad, he just couldn't cope, he wanted to kill Nick.

"Everything makes sense now" Tori added. "Now I understand why she wouldn't yell at him or do anything when he is close, she is terrified of him... And she's got reasons to, he was a beast with her" she commented sadly and angrily.

"I knew there was something wrong but I couldn't tell what it was, god, I am such an idiot... she made it completely obvious and we didn't see it, instead i literally blamed her for it, i'm an asshole" Beck said angrily.

"Do you guys think she remembers?" Cat asked.

"Of course she remembers, Cat, if she didn't then she wouldn't be acting like she does" Beck affirmed. "She is not even trying to hide it; the only thing she could do to make it more obvious would be to write 'I was raped' on her forehead, we've been so blind all this time"

"Why didn't she say anything, though? She had nothing to lose anymore" Andre commented.

"Maybe she's ashamed" Robbie responded.

"That's why she was confused when we told her about the suicide thing, Jade is not suicidal, she is a rape victim" Beck affirmed. "She wanted to tell us but she couldn't, remember? She said I had no idea what I was talking about, she said things weren't like that, she said she was in the clinic for the wrong reason and she was right in everything she said but we didn't get the message, she made all those comments that didn't make sense but now they do, every single thing makes sense after seeing this"

"What are we gonna do now?" Cat asked.

"I wanna see her; I need to hug her... I need her to feel safe" Beck said, they all got in the car and drove to the clinic, he couldn't wait to see Jade but he knew that seeing her after watching the video would be hard.

When they arrived to the clinic Jade was walking around the gardens as usual, that was all she could do. "There she is..." Andre said sadly, they just couldn't look at her the same way, they felt so bad for her and so guilty for not helping her.

As Beck and the rest of them stepped closer to her, he was getting flashbacks of what had happened to her, he saw her standing there and then remembered her screaming on the bed, he saw her folding her arms and remembered her being unable to move as Nick raped her on the chair. Every single moment of that video would live in his head forever.

"Hey" Jade said emotionlessly when she saw them.

"Hi" Tori said nicely trying not to seem sad.

"How are you?" Cat asked trying to seem happy and Jade sighed.

"Good, I'm good..." Jade lied, she never felt good anymore and they could tell she didn't mean it.

"Jade, what happened that night?" Tori asked and Jade stared at her not knowing exactly what to say. "What made you want to do it?" She questioned pretending not to know what had really happened because they wanted to see if she would open up to them.

"Is that why you came?" Jade asked back and they looked at each other.

"Please, what happened? You were fine that day, how did you end up in a hospital?" Andre asked and Jade sighed as she looked down sadly but she knew she had to pretend.

"Well, as far as I know you guys took me there" Jade said but they only stared at her emotionlessly.

"Jade, you know what I mean, how did you end up bleeding to death?" Andre asked again but she remained quiet.

"Please, Jade, trust us" Tori said.

"That night I realized a lot of things, I realized I am completely alone, I realized that nobody really cares about me, not even my own parents, I simply realized that life is not worth it, it really isn't" Jade said and their hearts broke because she wasn't even lying to them, that's how she truly felt about that night.

"Jade..." Beck said and she stared at him coldly. "We know." He informed and she looked at him confused, she had no idea what he meant.

"What? What do you mean? Know what?" Jade questioned.

"We know about Nick" Andre said and she raised an eyebrow at him still not understanding their point.

"I know, Tori couldn't keep her mouth shut" Jade commented coldly and Tori looked down.

"We know what happened that night" Beck informed and Jade's face immediately changed, she got really nervous and they could see it.

"The night I tried to kill myself?" She asked hoping they didn't know what had actually happened.

"You didn't do anything and you know it" Beck said and she could feel her heart beating faster. "We know what happened, what really happened"

"I don't know what you're talking about" Jade said but she had some tears in her eyes by that point.

"Yes, you do" Beck affirmed and she looked at him trying to hold the tears back but it was too hard for her. "We know what he did to you" He informed and she stared at him nervously with more tears in her eyes.

"No, no you don't" Jade whispered. "You don't know anything"

"Yes, Jade, we do..." Beck said sadly and the tears started streaming down her face as she shook her head.

"No, no..." Jade said and started walking back while shaking her head. Jade was so confused, she couldn't understand how they had been able to find out but it made her feel horribly humiliated, she was crying and trying to get as far from them as possible, the last thing she wanted was to be reminded of what had happened by someone else especially him.

"Jade, listen to me, Jade..." He said as he walked toward her but she was shaking her head and covering her ears while crying. "I know he raped you" Beck informed and she started crying even more. "I'm so sorry, Jade, god knows I would've died to save you from that animal, I'm sorry" He said sincerely with tears in his eyes as he embraced her.

He had Jade in his arms but she refused to look at him, she was looking down with her arms on her head and lots of tears streaming down her face. "No, no, NO!" Jade screamed and pushed him away, she looked at him completely hurt and he felt an impotence he couldn't explain because there was nothing he could do to make her feel better.

"Jade, please..." Beck said and she continued crying.

"You couldn't have...no, nobody knows" Jade said. "Nobody can know"

"Jade..." Tori said sadly.

"He told you, right? It was a lie, I swear" Jade affirmed anxiously. "He is lying, he is doing it to punish me but nothing happened, I was sad that night and I tried to kill myself, I really did, I grabbed the scissors and slit my wrists with them because I was sick of life, i still am" she said trying to seem believable and she was but they knew the truth.

"Jade, stop it, we saw it you don't have to deny it anymore" Beck informed and she looked at him even more confused.

"What? You saw it?" Jade asked and he nodded sadly.

"We saw what happened, all of it" He responded and she looked at him with even more tears running down her face.

"It wasn't my fault, it wasn't..." She said. "I didn't want it... I didn't, I swear" She affirmed and it simply broke Beck's heart to see her like that. "I told him to stop, I told him to leave me alone but he...he didn't listen, it wasn't my fault, it wasn't... it wasn't my fault" She affirmed. "I know you think I let it happen and that i wanted it but it wasn't like that, i never wanted that i swear but he was stronger! You have to believe me, i'm so sorry"

"No, Jade , no, this wasn't your fault at all, i was an idiot to say that to you" Beck affirmed. "He did everything, he raped you and he tried to kill you, you're completely innocent" He commented and she broke out crying even more so Beck immediately hugged her.

"It's okay, it's okay, he is never gonna touch you again I swear" Beck affirmed as he held her tightly and kissed the top of her head. The rest of the gang was just watching them and feeling really sad for her, Jade cried into Beck's embrace for several minutes and then she broke the hug.

"Jade, I'm so sorry, I should've stayed awake... I knew what that animal had been doing to you, I should've known he would try to hurt you" Tori commented sincerely and Jade looked down. "God, I'm sorry..." Tori said and hugged Jade, she just needed to and Jade hugged her back. "I hope you know that everything he said to you wasn't true, we do care about you, Jade, we are your friends, we love you, you're not alone, okay? You're not" She affirmed and broke the hug.

"Why didn't you tell us what happened when you woke up? You knew you hadn't done anything wrong" Andre commented and Jade took a deep breath.

"Was it because of him? Did he threaten you?" Beck asked upset; he just really wanted to kill Nick with his own hands.

"He was there" Jade commented. "At first I was so confused, I didn't know what had happened, you guys were asking why I had done it but I didn't know what you meant" she began. "But then I remembered everything and in that second he appeared so I just... I don't know, I froze, I was so scared" she explained. "Everyone was asking me why I had done it and he was there like nothing had happened so at first I thought everyone was blaming me for what happened..." She admitted.

"You thought we knew about the rape and blamed you for it?" Beck asked confused and she nodded slowly.

"Yes, everyone was saying that what I had done was wrong and I didn't know what they meant so I assumed they were talking about that but then he said something about suicide and I understood everything" Jade commented. "You all started talking to me about how suicide wasn't the right choice, telling me it had been a mistake but i never did anything so it was like hearing you talk to someone else"

"After you guys left, Nick came back and said that even if I accused him he wouldn't go to jail because there are no proofs, he told me that my mom wouldn't believe me, that he could say it was consensual and I would not be able to prove he raped me" Jade confessed. "And he was right, it's been months...and my mom won't believe me, if she knew what happened she would think I caused it to make her dump him and she would kick me out" She affirmed.

"No, she wouldn't" Tori said.

"Yes, she would, you know she would" Jade responded. "He said that if everyone learned what i did i would have nowhere to go because everyone would think i'm a whore and that i would have to move in with him, he told me it would be official and that he would do all those things to me every day..." she said with tears in her eyes and a disgusted facial expression. "I don't want to live with him, i would rather die"

"First of all, you didn't do anything and second, you know we wouldn't leave you alone if your mother kicked you out" Beck affirmed. "How could you believe that?"

"You don't understand, i didn't say anything when i first woke up so i lost my chance, even you thought i was agreeing to it, what did you expect me to think?" Jade asked.

"I told you i was an idiot but still, Jade, you're not alone and you should know that" Beck responded.

"Anyway, my parents decided to bring me here and I'm actually glad they did, I don't want to go back to that house... I can't, if I ever step into that room again I'm not gonna be able to handle it" Jade said.

"You can't stay here forever, besides, you don't need therapy for suicidal people, you need therapy for rape victims" Beck said and she looked down as she wiped a couple of tears away.

"Things felt better when I was in coma, why did I have to wake up?" Jade asked sadly. "The last thing I remember before waking up in the hospital is being in my room, Nick tied me and covered my mouth with a tape... he made me bend over my desk and... started raping me, again, I remember him holding my face as he did it and saying 'see you in hell, darling', after that everything is black" she informed and they looked at each other sadly. "It would have been better if I had died like I was supposed to"

"No, don't say that" Beck demanded. "You don't have to feel bad about anything, you should be happy that you're here, you should be happy that he didn't win"

"I shouldn't have to feel bad about anything? I had sex with my mother's fiancée, Beck, how am I supposed to feel good?" Jade asked. "And how did he not win? He raped me, he ruined my life, by trying to kill me he was actually doing me a favor but he is so stupid that he didn't do it right"

"No, you didn't have sex with him, he raped you, it's not the same" Beck clarified. "You're the only victim in this situation and no, he didn't win, what he did to you was horrible and I understand how you must be feeling but he only wins if you let him, you need to recover"

"It doesn't matter, I still feel the same way... I just wanna go back to sleep and never wake up" Jade commented sincerely. "I don't care anymore, Melissa can marry him and live happily ever after, I just don't want to see him again, every time he is close to me it's like he is raping me all over again, his breath makes me want to puke and when he touches me I feel an intense need to shower and rip my skin off, I can't help it... I'm afraid of him, it's so pathetic"

"No, it's not pathetic, it's a normal reaction, what he did to you was disgusting" Tori affirmed.

"Nick is going to jail or dying, there's no other option for him" Beck affirmed.

"How am I supposed to send him to jail? I was alone, you were all sleeping, nobody saw" Jade commented. "If I speak up and say what happened, he is either gonna say I'm lying or that it was consensual and it'll just make everything ten times worse"

"Did you forget what we said?" Andre asked. "Robbie's got the video in his computer, Nick is gonna go to jail for a long time"

"Yes, Jade, you have to tell your mom and the police what happened and the video speaks by itself, Nick won't be able to make his way out of this" Tori affirmed and Jade thought about it, if they had a video then they were right, she could prove that it had been rape and she had nothing to lose anymore.

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