A/N: Oh boy, damn sorry it took awhile. Two of my cousins had birthday parties, and if that wasn't bad enough I had to get a job. Now I baby-sit four times a week, and that sucks. Especially since the kids I baby-sit like to abuse me in a way. I got chased around by two three year olds and a four year old each carrying a plastic bat… oh boy was that fun.
Disclaimer: Uh, oh. Sorry guys still don't own Inuyasha.
Dedicated to:
EmoTomboyOnInWeekends LFanGirl- Well action's cool!! Go Neko-Chan!!
StalkerishEmmettFan- See what I mean Kyou is awesome!!
Chapter 25: I Can Leave If It Hurts Too Much…
When I woke the next morning I looked older, my chubby fingers were thinner. I felt taller, and now my hair had grown as well for once with me. Now instead of being short it was past my shoulders. Kyou was lying next to me still asleep. I went down and looked at his peaceful face, his lips and body both moving with the motion of air being pulled and pushed in and out of his lungs. I starred at him for god knows how long, just watching him breathe.
I did not notice when I bent down so that out faces nearly met, slowly I inclined forward. My lips slightly parted. When I saw his purple eyes begin to flutter I jumped back. He starred up at my face still half asleep, he raised his hand to my cheek "You grew" his angelic voice reached my ears, they twitched.
"I know"
"Your hair is longer" his hand touched my hair petting it slightly.
"I know"
He kept looking at me, then he stood, still slightly half asleep, lifting me with him. When I stood I was now up to his abdomen in height. "You're taller too" he bent back down and sat in front of me stroking my hair. His eyes were light purple, unlike his usual dark purple.
His head lunged forward, his body and head still half asleep. His lips met with mine, I felt my face become red but when his hand reached behind my head I felt like I was in a daze. I put my arms around his neck pulling him closer. Ok, so there were parts of me that had grown faster than others. But then he jumped out of the embrace now fully awake.
His face was flushed for once he showed emotion. I blinked twice so confused. I touched my lips, "Was that a…"
"No! It was Not! I repeat! NOT!! A Kiss!!" he was back now, one hand supporting him the other straight out.
"Then what do you call that?" I asked.
"…" he remained silent; he stood his back to me. I growled at him dominantly, he couldn't help but turn back to face me. I jumped up so that my legs were both on the sides of his chest, both my arms on his shoulders holding myself up "What's up with you?" I asked, my face puckered with confusion. Then anger "I wanna be friends with you but its hard…" when I paused I began to quiver slightly "I can't read your expressions… you're rough and tough so its hard to know what I should do. Then there are times you make me wanna cry because I don't know what to do or say and I get really confused or sad for some reason…" I slid down off him.
"Maybe… maybe you should just be a normal dog demon. I can remove that mark if you want. You can keep your powers and go your way. You can forget everything and just live a normal dog demons life" Kyou looked down at me as I spoke, "I can give ya a few days to think about it. I'll go my way for awhile and you can go yours. Then we can meet back up when you want me to take off that mark…"
"Do you want me to go?"
"I want you to have a choice. I don't own you, so you should be free to decide… But ya gotta remember I ain't my grand father. I get rid of that mark it's gone forever…" I took four steps away… "I'll see ya in a few days"
I jumped away tears in my eyes already knowing exactly what I was going to do. I ran into Night-Run jumping onto her back "We're gonna finish that mission… by my rules".
"Ok what about Kyou? I don't smell him following you like he usually does"
"It's nothing, let's just go get Dark-Paw and Splinters" she jumped around smelling around for her partners. When she found them they quickly packed a few things, I changed into a different pair of clothes. Not because I might need to change into my dog form quickly and I didn't want to ruin my clothes but because of their scent. They smelled like Kyou, I hid them placing leaves over it slightly.
Two days later we were on the borderline between the cat demon kingdom and the out lands. "Here's were my rule comes to play" I turned to face them, "you all must leave"
"We can't just leave you here to face those cats all on your own!" Night-Run was the first to jump in, even though she was not the leader.
"Princess after all the years we've waited for you to lead us, will this be how it ends!!" now Splinters was slightly frantic.
"Shut it! I'm no princess. We all know that Kagome will be giving birth to a pup just about as strong as I am! He can be your leader"
"He's a beta he's just higher than Sesshomaru… there's no way the dog demons will respect him like they do you"
"But they all know another pup will be born later on, until them that beta is to care for all of you"
"But! Princess!" Dark-Paw whimpered.
"No more questions, go!" I growled at them. They jumped the two females whimpered as they left. I waited till they were far enough to let out my full aura and my five tails. I did not hide myself as I ran straight towards the cat prince. Many of the cat demons who tried to stop me were lower cats. I jumped over the large cat and kicked higher with my leg, jumping towards the palace. Of course not all cats hated dog demons. There were a few that had punched their own kind for me to get through. Cats made each other slaves; dog demons took their rule over the cats making that illegal by law. I growled at the cat's guard halting to a half run. I kicked the cats face as the other tried to grab me. I pushed his back jumping over the two. The third guard managed to catch my foot as I almost made it above him. My claws I swiped at his right eye, I scratched his eye just enough for him to maybe be blinded. He fell over yowling in pain.
I ran right into the palace, four cats attempted to dog pile me (no pun intended). I smacked over them and pushed the last one off myself. I bit into ones leg with poison as he attempted to kick me. I pulled him over myself swinging him like a bat then tossing him. I jumped once again over the stupider guard on the inside. Once I finally made it to Ke he was guarded by a sum of seventy cats, his parents were there and so were two younger members of his family. They seem to know they were lesser beings to the family and kept their presence hidden when I had came in.
Ke stood, "Awe so glad to see you came"
"Don't play with me cat! I'll kill your men, every last one of them! Including the pup your mother is carrying" his father hissed.
"Guards! Attack!! We will not Let These Dogs Rule Us Again!!" I saw who was hesitant and who was not, the ones who were hesitant because of far or because they felt they had no reason to attack me. I growled a warning at them "Cats, I promise you I come here with no reason to kill. I have merely slightly wounded a few men, but not to any murdering as you have done to my tribes. So I say this in peace, Fall Back, Allow me to prove that the dog treaty still stands firmly and I will go in peace"
"And How Do We Not Know This PUPPY will not Betray Us!? HOW ARE WE TO KNOW IF SHE IS MERELY A FAKE!! She came alone! Wouldn't the dogs want to protect their mutt of a princess?" the king stood now. Several of the cats became stronger with his energy while several hindered back, knowing how true my blood was.
"I swear I am the True Blood. Had I not been wouldn't I have been born as weak and as feeble as a human? Yes I was mothered by a human, fathered by a half demon. But that makes me something stronger. Something you cats cannot control. My mere weak human mother you see was the great protector of the Shikon Jewel!"
More of them fell back in fear, "Do you still wish to fight? Or will we be talking trash about your disgusting blood all day!? Cat ATTACK!!" I heard the cats hiss as they attacked me. Without fear I attacked them each, my eyes closed so I could concentrate and kill those in which really meant harm. When I had killed about thirty the cats retreated back, and those who had wanted me and were strong enough to had crawling over to my side. Soon enough my numbers were twenty and theirs were fifteen or so. More guards went to the cat's side.
I heard a growl soon enough, out of habit I turned to face it. Kyou? He jumped in front of the crowd, in a low crouching position. His ears forward, his chest out, his claws scratching the floor. "Kyou! What are you doing here?"
"What do you think I'm doing? I'm protecting you, it's the only thing I can do, it's the only thing I want to do. Just going home for my swords was difficult enough" I blinked surpised, "Don't YOU GET IT DAMN IT!! I'm a Guard! I was Born To Protect you!! Anything you want me to be, anything you want me to do I will make happen! But I Will NEVER leave Your Side!!" The cats began to attack again.
My claws met with the first one in front of me. Then I kicked the one behind me, jumping above them as well. I glided easily to Kyou's mother then put two claws around her. One hand against her neck, ready to slit her open. The other around her young one within her belly.
"I will kill her if I must, tell your cats to back off!" her mate jumped in fear, while Ke took two steps back.
"BACK DOWN!!" the king yelled.
"Ok good. Do you remember what the great dog demon smelled like"
"How am I to know?! I knew him as a young pup only!"
"Then who knew him!?"
"My father!"
"Get him!" I growled. He jumped and as I pressed my claws closer to her, "Well?"
"He's dead! How am I to know what to do!?" I growled.
"You should know these things! Can't you even tell by my aura!? I'm stronger than you, I can even fight better than you, I'm a freaking monster if I'm not related to royalty! Would I have ran in here ready to die or kill?!" Ke hissed I sensed him attempting to attack me from behind, Kyou pounced him punching his face. They fought on the ground tumbling. "Touch her and you die" I heard him growl at Ke.
"Well?! Cat!? Will you risk the life of your mate and son or would you rather fall back and summit?!" he tried to go against my aura. It wasn't that hard to make him fall back. After all, his mate's life was in my hands. "Good" I held her with one arm now. Ke was against the wall Kyou's claws dug into the wall making it impossible for Ke to get out of his clutches. In fact he was choking.
"Do you fall back then?" I asked him. I felt something stab my back, almost through my heart. I looked down at my chest, a sword had gone through it. I turned to the woman next to me. My eyes flashed red, I tried to keep control of the beast within me "Are You Ready To Die? No more nice little Half Demon" the demon chuckled as he took almost complete control, she was going to murder the woman with the pup.
My head twitched to the left my fangs grew as well as my claws. The demon about to swipe at her chest and end it was forced to break her arm instead. When the woman screamed out in the pain the demon smirked. She turned to face the man with that wicked smile "You be glad my master won't let me kill you. Fucking half demon, you should have taken advantage of that weak child and fallen back as she asked. But no, with your pride in between your legs you cowered in fear and attacked her"
"Guards!!" the man screamed trying to get away as his guards ran for the demon. She didn't even attack the men; all she did was walk towards the man. Her claws attacking anything they touched. When she got a hold of them she would toss them back. She was patient today, usually with blood thirsty lust she would attack blindly. There was no good blood near by other than Kyou's, she saw him as a friend. So she settled for the next best blood, the cat kings, or Ke. And since the cat demon King had pissed her off he was dead.
Suddenly she wildly growled and lunged forward attacking him, her teeth snapping closed in front of his face. "Ok! I Give! I Give! Please don't kill me!!"
"Too Late!" she howled exploding into her dog form, she didn't crush the man. In fact she was playing with him, see how long it would take before he screamed. When he saw the demon in her dog form, blood red eyes with purple poison dripping down her large canine teeth he screamed and cried out. She put one paw on him, slowly she added pressure. The man screamed and withered beneath her. Suddenly he popped, his boy crushed into a red pool bellow her paw; she smirked wildly and looked around the room.
"Well Catz still think you're all so tough?" she was going to kill them I knew so, yet I wanted her to. Those who had attempted to kill my family, by brothers, my sister, my friends, my father, my mother, Kyou, even me. And now… they were going to die.
The human gripped my legs, begging for the madness to stop. I looked down at her and spoke my word "Sorry…", the demon lashed out one poison attack at half the cats, killing many of them instantly.
"Are You Men or Are You MICE?!" I heard Ke scream at them, "FIGHT!!" Kyou growled his hand closing over his mouth. But then I remembered Ke had a tail… I could feel Ke smirking, I changed into my human looking form as I ran towards him unable to speak. Everything was so crystal clear. The pounding of my heart, the screams of the men I had attacked. The pounding of feet from the men attempting to block me. And then the one sound that came from Kyou's mouth as he was stabbed with a poison dart "Prin…cess…" then he fell limp. Ke tossed him to the side. I stopped right on my feet, even though I was naked and exposed and I knew this I had to pause. The rage came on all too fully as my eyes went from Ke's hands filled with green poison, to Kyou's dead limp body, to the men, and back to Kyou again. I howled in rage.
I knew dog demons would come to my aid, the howl I'd let out was an all out attack symbol. I turned to the cats I had though deserved a chance "If You are on my side you are to be stripped of your clothes, on the ground on your knees. This is a symbol to my men that you are the new cat demons… the rest of you… will all Die" my eyes rolled back then came back and golden stilts, red and purple markings appeared on my skin. I howled out again changing into my full dog form. I attacked at anyone and at everything, Making sure the body of my protector remained unharmed. I bit Ke and chewed on him like a doll, not enough for him to die. And as he tried to insert poison in my mouth, it back fired against him. Dog demons like me had no problem digesting with poison within our mouths.
I tossed him against the wall where he hit it and fell back down. His men attempted to help and kill me with spears. I pushed them away crushing a few and poisoning others. I saw when the other dog demons entered they helped me with the last few weaker demons, Sesshomaru was there. I changed back into my human form falling into his arms. "Yasha?"
I didn't listen I jumped out of his arms running over to Kyou, his heart was still beating. It was a weak beat but it was beating. I quickly removed his armor and pulled open his kimono slightly. I put my ear against his chest, and then I bit into his heart sucking out the poison and his blood both at the same time. It would cause him some discomfort, he wiggled and moaned panting; unable to close his mouth his pants were short and connected. His heart began pumping faster. When his blood tasted like blood and no poison reached my lips. My fangs retracted I pulled back and next to him vomited out the poison.
Many of the dog demons had been starring at this wondering whether or not I was partly vampire. A kimono was placed over my shoulders covering me; it was white and now stained with red because of me. I looked behind me, Ukiyo's father was there Jan. "Hey princess are you alright?" he asked, helping me up as I sat up. I covered myself with the white kimono stained reddish-green.
"I'm fine" I looked back at Kyou, his purple eyes were open as he starred at me. "Are you ok?" I asked him. He couldn't move much but he managed a half smile and to lift his hand slightly above his chest. I took it and rubbed my cheek against it.
His finger edged me closer to his face, my ear came closer and he whispered for my ears only "I am now". I blushed as he spoke, his head turned slightly so that it could kiss my bloody hair. I sighed and put his hand back on his chest. I held my kimono together with my hands and walked towards the surviving cats. The two kitten twins from the king's family were pressing their heads against the ground stripped to their lion clothes.
"There were many cats who asked for peace outside princess, they should be coming here soon. Also it seems that every abandoned child at the moment has a parent who was killed by us yet they wish to be ruled by us" one of the higher dog demons told me this passing me a red sash. I tied it one giving him a nod.
"Cat demons cannot be true to anything they do not agree. Even at the age of a pup…"
I looked down at the mother who was holding a pup within herself, I growled at her. "Up woman" I growled. She did as I said. "Why Should I Be KIND Enough To Give You Peace?!" I growled at her angered by her presence.
She could not answer; the child within her was four months of age, the same age and size I had been at birth. If I killed her I could cut her out and spare the kittens life. "I ment no harm…" she was lying, she wanted to become the queen and rule over the cats, and I laughed snorting at her.
"You're lying" I cut her at her neck, "but your child is not" before she fell I caught her putting her down to the ground, I used my claw to open her from the womb; many of the more sensitive cat men whimpered.
"She'll be fine" I lifted the healthy baby girl, she cried loudly in my arms umbilical-cord still connected. I imagined myself and it was quite easy to do so. We were the same age, we looked pretty much the same, and her parents were both dead. I cut her cord from her mother when she stopped her crying. She opened her eyes; they were silver and new to the world. So innocent and pure, I smiled at her and then carried her correctly. I looked down at her twin brothers; "stand children" they did as I asked.
"Both of you will be the new rulers of the cat kingdom. You both know the reason your father forced you out of his life and not Ke?"
They shook their heads at the same exact time. "He pushed you away because he knew you liked dog demons, you both are the true airs of this kingdom"
"And our sister?" the blue eyed one spoke first, and then the brown eyed one spoke "Who will care for her?"
"You both will, as well as a nanny" I passed them their little sister, blue eyes held her while brown eyes cooed at her she giggled at them both.
"I make my leave now" Blue eye's head snapped up when I spoke with my back turned already seven steps away with a dog pup who had been involved with the fight jumping at my heels. He looked about 13.
"Princess!" he meowed.
I looked back at him and his brother. Both of them spoke, "Thank you for this second chance" I put my head down, my bangs covering my eyes as I walked.
"Why'd ya do it princess?" the dog boy asked, confused at my reasoning, "they're cats and they threatened to kill you and your mate. Would you want to kill the heirs of the throne? Keep them straight?"
"I do not blame those who have tried not to do wrong; I shall not kill a pup that hasn't had the chance to live… because they all deserve to live…" he tilted his head, "It's ok if you don't understand, had you known my life you would understand my reasoning" he followed me on four feet.
Kyou was being sat up by two other men; I was at his side in a second. I sniffed him making sure he was fine. His body could fight off the last of the poison. I put my hand on his left arm, it was bent strangely he hissed in pain. Ke had broken it to insure his poison would kill him. "Can I have some help to carry him home?" I asked the last few remaining dogs, two dog boys, twins, ran to me ready to help. Both looked 15, they lifted him helping him walk, "Careful with his left arm" the boy eased up on his hold and moved to his waist to hold him up.
Besides the twins who helped, seven other dogs followed me home as I walked. They were all young, the youngest being 12 the oldest being 15. We didn't walk with much hurry, one of the younger boys had offered to carry me but I refused him. Kyou limped and starred at me the entire time during the walk; as soon as we got home I would give him medicine. Fix his arm, which would have healed by its self in a mere two days, and make sure he was rested.
"Princess, can we have a break? We've been walking for the whole day" I sighed, well they were still young… in a way.
"Sure" I said, the twins set Kyou down leaning against a tree. The rest of the boys set up groups to do work, some were going top get fruits, others were going top find meat, one was going to make a fire then start searching for a river or a place to bathe and get water from, one more was going to make some bandages, and I was going to make both medicine. The 12 year old boy stayed behind to fetch me anything I needed. I put Kyou's head down against the ground on the soft grasses, his good hand touched my hair "sleep" I whispered.
The boy tossed some wood into the fire making it larger and stronger. I turned and looked around for what I could use for poison medicine; I sniffed around looking around the opening. I found a dark green weed plant that was good for fatigue, I lifted this and tossed it towards the boy; he caught it in his mouth. I guessed that he was more of a shape shifter than a human shaped dog, some newborns were born in their dog shape and shape shifted later when they learned how to or if their parents wished the dog priest could shape shift them into their human forms.
I walked a little deeper and collected a few berries which were poisonus if eaten but were good for cuts. I found a bush of herbs and plucked a few of them out. This was all I needed; I walked back to the campsite and put the stuff into the boy's arms. I pulled a nicely sized rock towards me in the clearing, I punched it in so that it had a round dent in it, and then I ripped a sleeve from the Kimono and held my hand out in back of me "Berries". The boy put a hand full of berries in it.
I squezzed them together and a blue juice gushed out gathering in the center of the thick kimono, "Leaves" I held my blue hand out again. He placed them all in it. I chewed them, keeping my tongue away from the stinky leaves; spitting out any spit that gathered to much flavor into the blue juice, then I put the leaves in it and mashed them together. "Herb" he passed me the last ingredient.
I cut it straight in half and the green liquid that dripped onto the medicine made it change to a white color, then it became smooth and creamy like frosting on a cake—except it didn't taste so sweet. I lifted it and walked to Kyou's side, the boy followed. Kyou's purple eyes starred up at me "eat this" I put the herb in his mouth. He chewed it and ate the plant.
"And this" I took my clean hand and put some of the medicine in it, he licked my hand clean, not complaining about the taste nor the smell. I rubbed the last of it all over the sleeve and rapped it around his broken arm; I bent it correctly and made sure the bones were healing the way they should.
When the other boys came back, I used the leaves to make the cast and hold it in place. I ripped my other sleeve and the rim of my kimono to make a sling.
"There that's better" I smiled at my work, one of the 14 year old boys passed me a fish.
"Would you like it princess? It's the biggest fish" I shook my head and chewed on the fruits; Kyou sat up and with one hand ate three fish.
"Are you feeling any better?" I asked him as the boys laughed and told stories about how scared the cat demons had been.
"Much, thank you for the medicine. And please do not flaunt over me princess; this is a mere flesh—" I stopped him there putting my finger to his lip.
"Been there heard it" I growled slightly, "tell me the truth did it hurt much?"
"It didn't hurt much, but he did step on it twice. That's when it really hurt; when he cracked the bone he hadn't moved it much out of place. When he stepped on it I lost most of the feeling on it, but now it's much better" he spoke hushed.
"Maybe we should go home ahead, you think you can hold on to my fur through out the night?" I asked him. He gave me a nod. And so we waited for the dog boys to go to sleep, at around midnight I had walked Kyou and myself a good ten yards. I removed my clothes behind a bush and discarded it there.
"The moon looks beautiful tonight does it not princess?" he said/asked.
"Ya" I looked up at the full silver moon that shone brightly in the sky. I smiled and waved at my grandfather in the moon, as well as my star… but he was right behind me. I smiled and changed into my dog form. Kyou's hand was on my fur as he walked trying to get in front of me. I bent down and he pulled himself up, along with the help of my snout. He sat himself between my shoulder blades, he fit perfectly between them. He clutched some of the fur; I stood back up and ran at a jogging pace slow enough that Kyou didn't have to worry about falling off. In fact he sat up during my midnight jog. Being that I was in my dog form I did pass lands quite quickly.
"Ya'll doing ok up there?" I asked him.
"I'm good, you can go a little faster if you want" he gripped my fur tighter just in case I did but I remained at the same pace.
"Yasha… in your dream with the pups… why did you yell out Yuzuyu? Why not father, mother, or even my name?" he asked. I though back to the end of my dream, my pace skipped a jump but I got back into my pace easily.
"Yuzuyu… I guess it was what I wanted to name my—our daughter" I staggered at the end but I said it correctly in the end.
"Bells… silver bells…" (This is not a true translation; I just prefer this one to the other, Yuzu means citrus fruit yu means hot water or increasing) "Well I guess the name matches…"
"What do you mean?" I asked him slowing to a trot, we were close to the village.
"In your dream you heard bells going off, and when you saw the girls silver hair the automatic response is the name Yuzuyu"
"Yuzuyu…" I sighed remembering the warm little red body I had been holding, the short silver hair that flowed onto my arm, her flushed pink face with her beautiful dark purple eyes. I smiled at the memory not wishing to go farther than that one spot where I felt it was just me, Yuzuyu, and Kyou all in one yet not together physically.
"We should be there soon" I said walking now, changing to the right so that the humans would not see my demonic form and become scared then begin attacking us as well as Inuyasha and Kagome; and anyone associated with them.
Kyou stepped off me and held my fur leaning on my side but still walking on his own some how. When we were closer to where I hid my clothes I nudged him, he was half asleep "Hu?" he turned to face me.
"My clothes, I need to go put it on" I walked him near a tree and he sat himself down his body sagging down like a weeping willow. I yawned in my dog form, which sounded more like a whimper/howl. I walked behind the tree, and changed back into my small human form. With wobbly legs I fell on my butt; unable to walk for a moment or two I crawled around looking for my clothes. When I found them I sloppily put them on. I hadn't tucked in half my shirt, nor had I pulled up my sleeves, my pants were baggy and hung down on my legs, you could see my bare naked hips from my hakama pants, and I hadn't tried to close the Haori it was closed enough that you couldn't see my breast and that's all I needed to know. I walked back to Kyou.
"Done" he tried to get up on his own, but he couldn't do it. I let him lean on my head, being that I was too short to do much more. When we got back to Kagome and Inuyasha's house, we let ourselves in. Kyou staggered, I pulled him to help him walk. When we made it to the spare bed room which was mine Kyou lied down on the floor his broken arm over his other, his legs the same way. I curled up next to him in the same position but to the right my back and head pressed against his back.
(Kyou's dream POV) (OMG! Kyou has dreams!?)
I'd never been here… it was sunny yet I could not see, it was clear where I was yet I was lost. I could hear panting a few whimpers and screams and something always seemed to tighten around my right hand's wrist and bite into my palm. Then a sudden jolt ran through my body and a scream woke me from my daze.
I could see Yasha she was the one who was screaming, she seemed to be in labor she was the one biting and screaming words no one could or would ever comprehend. A screech ran through her body and she became quieter whimpering in pain, two hands passed me a blanket. I held my hands out using only my palms to push away the child. I sat Yasha up as she took the child from the hands. She kissed the little baby, "Yuzuyu…" the baby's eyes fluttered open and they were… mine. Little purple eyes on a small pink faced baby and she was mine…
I held my hands out now, asking for Yasha to pass me the child. She smiled, still quite weak from labor. Her hands showed me how to hold our child without speaking. When she felt I was ready she placed Yuzuyu in my arms, one of my hands held her small weak head up. She was perfect, had there been any other word to describe her other than that I would have used it. She was perfect, with puffy flushed cheeks, her small strands of white hair that stuck up in all directions. She held her hand out wishing to touch my face. I put my nose against hers, she inspected me. She sniffed me, she knew me, I could tell by her simple early age thoughts that were filled more with shapes and colors than words and events. She knew no words for emotions but several things were clear to me.
She adored us as her parents, she loved red, and she wished to be held by soft warm arms like ours that smelled of peaches. I felt her wiggle in my arms; careful of my claws I switched her position. Now I under stood why my father had been so scared. I was afraid as well but for my mate… Yasha's sake I'd carry her, but it made me feel giddy with joy. I wanted to carry her more often. Yasha held her arms out now, her blue eyes telling me all I needed to know. It did not hurt me to read her mind, we were already connected, body, soul, heart, mind, and person…
I passed Yuzuyu's small frail body to Yasha's which was as equally weak to me at least. Yuzuyu snuggled into her mother's chest, she curled up as she had been in her womb; I noticed something about her name. She had the same 'Y's' as both me and her mother and then the end of her name sounded like mine as well (Pronunciation Yu-Zuu-YU long U at the end short u in the beginning).
I turned Yasha's face gently so that she was looking at me, "I love you…" forbidden words I could speak on here. She smiled and kissed my lips softly; "I love you too" she had less difficulty to speak since this was where she came from. This was where we existed as one, where no one other than we existed. Yuzuyu's white blanket fell slightly from her head, I touched her snow white hair and ears with complete caution and delight that quelled out almost every other one of my senses. Her fuzzy hair was Yasha's color but it was my hair, little curls had already formed so that her hair would be like mine, fuzzy looking until she was old enough and grew it out. Once she grew it out it would become wavy like mine had been.
She bit Yasha's breast once, smelling food. I lost my bravado and sat behind Yasha as she fed Yuzuyu. Yuzuyu suckled on her breast, Yasha blushed in either joy or slight embarrassment. But she half smiled; I did the same kissing her cheek one hand on her waist as if that was my normal response. I sat up behind her, still much taller then her though she looked 14. One hand on her shoulder, my legs were on either side of her body, my cheek pressed against Yasha's white hair. When Yuzuyu was finished eating, she composed herself and held Yuzuyu out for me to see her as well. I curled one of my fingers as I reached to touch our daughter's cheek, careful of my sharp killer claws.
But how could something from a killer and an angel be so perfect? How could something ment to be impossible to control be more calm than my heart? How could I feel this all made sense?