Author's Note: So I started writing this chapter before I got CSIMiamilover101's review, which said that they love Connie and Guy, but it inspired me to keep working on it. Like I said, there are a few things I want to wrap up...hopefully this will do that. Also, a couple of the chapters are going to be switching perspectives back and forth in the chapters, it's pretty clear the changes.
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Chapter 25: First: Connie and Guy
I'm flying laps around the city. I can't sleep, and why not do it. I've learned by now how to keep out of eyeshot. People don't notice me anymore. I can't figure out when it all got so heavy. When this started out it was fun. Like a game. Our powers were shiny new toys. Now it's scary. I'd trade my flight for safety now. At least, I think I would. Maybe not. It's complicated. I sit poised on a building. I feel like such a cliché. I put my costume on and now I'm this mysterious dark figure sitting like a gargoyle with my cape flying behind me. I can't stop thinking about him. The other kid who could fly, on their side. The way he mocked me, the way his ice blue eyes seemed to be laughing. I never got a clear look at his face. But I can't forget the eyes. I close my eyes. I don't like what I've been thinking about. Where my mind's been wandering. Right now, I'm staring down. I wonder what would happen if I let myself fall. At this height, would my body just instinctively start to fly, or would I plummet down to ground? I shiver, stop thinking about it and fly back to the shop, careful to land in the back and slip in unnoticed.
"You were gone a while," Guy's sitting waiting for me. I nod and sit down with him. "Are you OK?"
"Yeah," I nod. We don't need to say anything, as he kisses me. "Guy,"
"We're gonna be OK Connie," He whispers, and starts nuzzling my neck. My Guy, the eternal optimist, that's who he is. All he sees is hope, he believes that we really can figure it out. Now that I know what's happening, the first thing I thought of was running away. I just want it gone. He sees hope, I see fear. He just wants to press on, and I wondered what it would be like to fall to my death. Not that I wanted to die, I just thought about it. But just being near him is enough to send every feeling I had earlier flying away. It's like his optimism is infectious. He starts to nuzzle my neck softly.
"Guy," I whimper, "I need you tonight." He pulls away. "I know we said that we'd wait. But we don't know what's going to happen, we could die tomorrow, and I want to know that I was with you."
"I love you," He whispers and kisses me. Every second feels right. We walk slowly to one of the extra rooms. I don't think I've ever been more nervous about anything. I sit down cautiously on the bed and Guy kisses me gently, his hand grazing up my thigh. I press myself closer to him and he pulls the halter of my costume over my head. He kisses all down my neck and across my chest. He's being so gentle. Not that I expected anything different. Even once I'm pressed under him, he's soft. He runs his hands through my hair. Every second feels better. This is what it feels like when your boyfriend makes love to you.
I see her there sitting on the bed. She's beautiful, and she looks nervous. I'm nervous too. I kiss her softly. I'm trying to go slowly. I mean, your first time is only once right? How many guys are lucky enough to have the one girl they've loved their whole lives naked underneath them whimpering their name over and over again?
"Guy," She pants her eyes closed. I'm trying to keep mine open, just because she's so beautiful and I want to see her.
"Connie," I whisper, "I love you so much." She makes a non distinct whimper. Once we've finished, she snuggles close to me. "Are you feeling better?"
"Mm hm," She smiles, her eyes still closed. "Tell me again."
"That I love you?" I say softly and kiss her hair.
"No," She says, "About what you want." I laugh and hug her.
"I just want to figure it out," I say softly, "Study it, find the other people, help them understand."
"I'm glad you didn't want to keep waiting until you figured it out," She whispers and kisses me.
"I love you," I say, "That's all I had to figure out about this." She smiles and kisses me again.
"I thought about killing myself tonight," She whispers. I look at her. "I know, it's awful. Not that I would have done it, but I just, I wanted to escape, it was the only thing I could think of,"
"Listen to me," I say looking at her, "You are not allowed to leave me here. The next time you need to escape, you and I will go someplace, we'll fly away and it'll be over, I can grow wings now, we can do that." She kisses me.
"I love you," She says, "And I know all this. It's just,"
"You still see him don't you?" I look at her. She nods. "Connie, he can't hurt you here. Or anywhere."
"You don't understand," She shivers, "None of them could do what you do, and it was scary, not to mention he was better than me."
"No one's better than you," I say. "I know you have these feelings of inadequacy because your power hasn't grown Connie, but what you can do is amazing."
"What you can do is amazing," She smiles at me. I nod. "I don't just mean your power. You have so much inside of you, Guy, it lights me up." I kiss her softly. "You make me better."
I'm going to marry this girl someday. To me that's the most amazing part about all of it. I know that, we're going to be together forever. No matter what else happens, I'll always have her. I think that's how I keep the optimism. If I didn't have her, I don't think that I would have that.
A little short, I know, but please, review it!
