"..So you finally know what you are.." The cloaked woman looks over at the girl who is staring up at the starless night.
Maka doesn't respond.
"It's ok Maka..embrace who you are..embrace who we are.." The woman is getting closer to her..her voice is soft. "Embrace who your mother was.."
"..My mom was a witch.." She speaks the words numbly..her brain still stuck on it.
"Yes she was, your mother was a great witch.." The woman's voice is now a whisper.. "Kami was a dear friend of mine you know?"
"..Who are you?" Maka looks over at her..but her face is blank.
"I'm a lot of things." She crosses her arms.
"..I mean your name."
"What's in a name? I rather not speak it now..You still don't trust me."
"I can't trust someone if I don't know their name."
The woman stares at her for a long moment before sighing.
"..You know your mother said the same thing to me when we met..I always admired that about her..she trusted no one..some times I think she didn't even trust me.." Maka can hear the smile in the woman's' voice. "..She was a smart woman."
"So your saying you can't be trusted?"
"No, I'm saying you are much like your mother Maka..it almost hurts me really." She puts a hand to her heart.
"..I don't even really know if I knew my mother at all.." Maka looks back up at the sky..her eyes are blank. ".. She was a witch..and Kid said witches are evil..and they can't love but..my mother did care for me..didn't she?"
"..Witches can't love. I can't love. You can't love." The woman speaks coldly now..like it was a bad subject.
"I wasn't talking about love. Love isn't real." Maka keeps looking expressionless. "..I was talking about care. Care is different then love."
The woman stares at her a moment.
"..You will surpass your mother Maka. You understand more then she did." The woman takes a step closer. "..But even care is hard for us to grasp."
"Maybe but..i'd like to think my mom felt it for me, like I did with her."
"I wouldn't know. Kami was always careless." The woman growls. "..She never cared about anyone but herself."
"I can't believe that. I won't believe that." Maka grips her fist. "My mother..I saw care in her eyes..I saw affection for me..before she went insane I know I saw it."
"What you saw was fake." The woman averts her gaze. "..She was always a excellent actor."
"I won't believe that."
Maka pauses.
"..So does this mean i'm a.."
"Your a witch." The woman nods.
"..All Kid was saying was true and I totally.." Her mind flashes with the nightmares she's been having. "..Would Kid kill me if he found out?"
"Why wouldn't he? Your a witch, your evil. He will kill you to maintain the order. They hate witches..Why would they spare you?."
Maka doesn't respond..a deep frown on her face.
"..Do you know why my mother didn't tell me?"
" She wanted to try to stop you from being what you are." The woman growls. "..That's why. She tried to throw away who she is..all for some..man!"
The woman takes a deep breath.
"Do you hate Spirit?"
Maka looks over at the woman a little surprised at the question.
No one has ever asked her flat out if she hated her father..
In her head it was obvious..of course she hated him but..
When it was time to say it..she faltered.
"He just beat the shit out of you." The woman sneers when she sees the hesitation in Maka. "How can you not hate him after all he's done to you!"
"..I'm numb." She responds blankly. "..I don't really feel anything right now to tell you the truth."
Maka looks back up at the sky.
"..It's like i've lost all feeling. I should hate him. I should feel pissed right now but..I don't. I can't...Maybe i'm broke again..I don't know. I can't feel anything."
"..You really are just like her.." The woman sighs. "..She never truly hated..but she was always numb to feeling..all feelings.." The woman speaks bitterly.
"Some times it's better not to feel. then nothing can hurt you." Maka's voice is so bland.
"..I wouldn't say that." The woman starts to fade away. "..It would be better if you hated Spirit..for what your about to see may break that shell you put on your heart..you might just lose it..and everything will be lost.."
She disappears.
"If you thought things were hectic before Maka..there about to get a lot worse."
Maka slowly opens her eyes.
Her head is throbbing.
Her vision is blurry.
Her body aches as if she just ran a marathon..
She feels she's laying on something wet..it's on her hands..and by her head.
Maka blinks viscously trying to get her sight back..
When it finally focuses..
..No..
Spirit..or should she say what's left of Spirit lays in front of her..his dull, lifeless eyes staring back into hers.
It's only his head.
She doesn't see his body.
Maka's brain can't wrap around what she's seeing.
She feels that wet stuff is soaking in her clothes but..she keeps staring into Spirit's eyes..those eyes of death.
Maka forces her self up..a pain shoots threw her and she falls back down.
Everything hurts.
Nothing makes sense...
Her mind can't wrap around what's going on..she's confused..
Her vision is starting to get blurry again.
"S-Spirit.." She calls for him.
There's no response.
Is this another one of her horrible hallucinations or..is this real..
Is this really Spirit's severed head she's looking at?
It can't be..
He was just alive wasn't he?
What happened?
When she tries to rememebr a pain shoots threw her head and she whimpers.
Suddenly the front door bust open.
Cops come running into her home..but Maka just lays in whatever it is she's laying in.
They have mixed faces of disgust but it's mild as if they were expecting this.
They scan the scene before there eyes fall on her.
"..We got a call about a man screaming from this home..well now we know why." A cop comes over and turns her over on her stomach forcefully, she feels him hand cuff her hands behind her back. "Your under arrest for murder."
"W-What?" Maka's eyes shake as he lifts her up. "M-Murder? I didn't kill anyone!"
"Then what's this?" He points down at Spirit's severed head..Maka stares at it a moment before looking back at him.
"..I don't know.."
And really she doesn't.
This is to fucking crazy.
"I don't know!" She screams now, her eyes shaking as she looks at Spirit's head..at his dull eyes..at the blood that is leaking from him..the blood she was laying in. "I don't fucking know! What happened to him?! What happen?! Why can't I fucking rember?!"
"I think I know what happened." The cop speaks coldly as he starts to drag her out of her home. "You killed him. You finally snaped kid and you killed him."
"I didn't! I know I didn't!" Maka screams her eyes shaking badly..her shirt is clinging to her..soaked in Spirit's blood.
Spirit is dead.
Someone killed him.
"Yeah sure. Tell it to the judge." The man growls before he throws her into the back seat of his cop car.
"But..But it wasn't me! I know it wasn't me! I wouldn't kill him! I wouldn't do that! What the fuck is going on!" She's screaming and kicking out everywhere now.
She feels Spirit's blood on her hands..on her shirt..in her hair.
Spirit is dead.
And she's being arrested for his murder.
Maka screams till she can't.
Then she breaks.
Her eyes roll back..
She loses her consciousness.
"We are here today for the case of Spirit Albarn's murder.." The judge speaks eyeing the girl..the one who is being convicted coldly.
She sits in the stand..her head bowed. Her eyes can't be seen.
The jury is all glaring at her..there all a part of the town she's from.
Maka can feel Kid's eyes on her..he's in the crowd..he came to the court house to see her.
Everyone did.
They came to see her fall.
"Maka Albarn, what do you have to say in defense to this? They are saying you killed your own father, aren't you going to speak up?" The judge raises an eye brow at the unresponsive girl.
Maka doesn't respond.
"Your honor, if I may I have a defense for the defendant." That's Kid's voice.
Maka doesn't look over at him.
She knows everyone is glaring at him now.
Why would he stick up for her..after all she's done to him?
She's been horrible to him.
And she's a witch.
If he knew he probably would just kill her.
"Your not a part of the jury and you can't just-
"Maka wouldn't kill her own father! I know you people are ignorant..but come on! Maka would never kill anyone! She is a good person-
"I heard they got into fights all the time!" A person in the jury interjects. " There's even a video on Youtube showing Spirit pushing her! Maybe he was pushing Maka and she just snapped!"
Everyone mumbles in agreement.
"No! Even if he was pushing her, or hurting her , Maka would never just cut her father's head off! It's true they didn't have the best relationship but-
"See? They didn't have a good relationship! Maka probably was feeling mad about everything he's done and she just killed him!"
"I heard he cheated on her mother..maybe she did it to get revenge!"
" No Maka wouldn't-
"I'm hearing from everyone but the defendant." The judge suddenly growls causing everyone to go quiet. "..Now girl you must have something to say. They are charging you with your father's death! Say something, stand for your case. Tell me your story."
"My story is nothing but sorrow and confusion." Maka finally speaks..but it's low and she doesn't look up.
"..Just tell us what happen with Spirit." The judge studies her.
"I don't know but I didn't kill him."
At this the whole jury scoffs.
"Silecne!" The judge growls and they shut up. "..That's hard to believe with the evidence i've gotten. For starters your the last person to see him..you were there still laying in his blood when the cops found you. Though they couldn't find a weapon, your hands where stained red. You two have had a history of getting into fights..and now he's dead. It's some hard evidence against you."
"That still doesnt' prove she did it!" Kid protests.
The judge sends him a look and Kid pipes down.
"Do you have anything to say for yourself Maka?"
"..Is it sad I don't feel anything right now?.." She holds out her hands that are clean now. "I don't feel sad. I don't feel anything but this emptiness. I have lost my mother. and now I lost Spirit. I have no more family yet..I don't feel anything."
"Maka did you kill Spirit?"
"No..I didn't kill him."
"Then what happened?"
Maka then remembers the demon..remembers him standing behind Spirit..reaching out towards him..
She shivers in fear.
Her head whips up, her green eyes are dilated and glossy getting a couple people to gasp.
"I know what happened!" She screams.
"..What?" The judge looks at her wryly.
"It was that man! It was the demon! He killed Spirit! He's the one who did it not me!" Maka grips her hair..her heart is speeding.
She fails to realize that what she's saying is pretty much the same thing her mother did.
And you know what happen to her.
"..Maka albarn I here by convict you for the death of Spirit albarn and I rule you as insane. You will spend as many years as it takes in Dark Side asylum till you are healed of your illness." He slams down his hammer, sealing her fate.
"It wasn't me! It was the fucking man don't you see?! My mother wasn't lying! She wasn't insane! i'm not fucking insane! He killed him! He killed him!" Maka screams standing up from her seat only to be tackled by two cops..they cuff her and start to lead her out.
Maka keeps screaming, fighting against them.
She finally gets to see Kid.
The boy is looking at her with his golden orbs shaking..a look of fear in them.
Then it hits her.
This is just like her mother.
And her mother was telling the truth.
The demon really did start the fire..
But Maka didn't believe her.
She thoughtt she was insane.
Now it's happening to her.
And everyone thinks she's insane.
They think she killed Spirit but she didn't.
It was the demon but they won't believe that.
Now Kid is looking at her like she looked at her own mother..with fear in his eyes.
He thinks she's insane.
He doesn't know what she's seen, what's she's gone threw.
No one does.
What goes around comes back around and she deserves this completely.
She thought her mother was insane..and she wasn't.
And the hurt in her heart at seeing kid look at her with fear..she can only imagine..what her mother felt when her own daughter did the same thing.
Just a second ago she didn't feel anything..now she feels to much.
She feels hurt, scared, frustrated but most of all..guilty.
Maka howls like an animal.
Tears stream down her face.
She deserves this.
She deserves this completely.
Everyone looks at her, nodding in agreement..relief in there eyes to have finally got what they wanted.
She's being sent to Dark Side asylum..where she belongs apparently.
But she's not insane..and neither was her mother..
What kind of daughter is she?! What kind of friend is she?!
..She deserves this.
Kid..she's sorry..
Mom..she's so sorry.
Spirit..she's even sorry about him.
She's just sorry about everything.
Kid watches her stuggle and yell..before she's pulled out of his sight..she catches a single tear that falls down his face.
She's never seen him cry.
And it hurts her all the more.
Maka lets out another howl as they lead her out of the court house..
She breaks again.
Her tears stop and she goes limp against the cops.
They have to drag her the rest of the way.
Her mother is dead.
Spirit is dead.
She's an orphan.
She's insane.
She's broken.
Everything is moving to fast for Maka to understand.
One mintue she's sitting in a car..then the next she's being dragged into a building.
Her senses are dulled.
Her movement is forced.
..What's happening again?
What's going on?
Why are people holding her so tightly?
Where are they taking her?
Maka doesn't know but she just lets them drag her.
There's no use in fighting.
There's nothing to fight for.
"Here she is Stein..something's wrong with her though. She gave us a heck of a fight at the court house but now she won't even move unless someone drags her. It looks like she's shut down." One of the people holding her grunts.
"..I'll take it from her.." Maka feels someone new grab her arm..pulling her away from the other people.
Her eyes finally focus on Stein..the doctor is studying her.
Maka expected him to be smiling, or something of that nature..isn't this what he wanted? Her to be fucking here?
But no, the expression on his face almost looks..like he's upset..or disappointed.
Maka's disappointed in herself too.
"..I told you...I warned you Maka.." Stein takes deep breaths. "..now your here and Spirit's dead."
She doesn't respond.
He doesn't have to remind her.
"..Lets get you into your room..your going to be staying here for a very long time." Stein starts to lead her over to the elevator..she now notices they aren't alone.
Four other people are following them.
But Maka doesn't really focus on them.
There not important.
Nothing's important.
They get into the elevator and go up.
They get off.
Maka hasn't blinked once.
Stein keeps leading her..or more like dragging her threw the hallway.
"..I have to apologize for this in advance.." Stein takes a deep breath. "..I'm sorry about your room."
They stop in front of a door..
Door 403.
Her mother's room.
"There aren't any other rooms available at the moment.." Stein looks over at her to study her reaction.
Maka smiles.
..She thinks it's a good thing she's smiling..but what she doesn't know is how warped it looks..how unnatural.
The nurses around her tense.
Stein just looks at her with cold eyes before unlocking the door.
You may not think so but..Maka's happy she's going to be in the same room her mother was in.
It's familiar and..
She wants to go threw everything her mother did..
She wants to feel it all because she deserves it.
She deserves all of this.
"Now Maka i'm going to leave you in here with some female nurses, there going to help you change into her hospital gown..and they will be taking your clothes. You will get them back when you are well enough to leave.." He gives her a look before him and all the male nurses leave.
"Here.." One of the woman nurses holds out a white gown..her hands are shaking. She looks nervous. She looks afraid.
Afraid of her.
Maka just looks at the gown.
What she doesn't know is that warped smile hasn't left her face.
"You have to put it on." Another nurse speaks up.
Maka stares at the gown.
Doesn't she know someone who wears a gown like this?
For some reason she's seeing pink..
Isn't that crazy?!
Maka giggles as she walks closer to the nurses.
They shake but they stand there ground.
Maka takes the gown from there hands, grinning down at it.
Yes..she definably knows someone who wears this thing..
But why is she seeing pink?!
Soon the nurses are on her, they start to undress her but Maka doesn't do anything. Doesn't blink. Doesn't move.
She just smiles.
A nurse lifts her arms up before putting the gown on her..it slides on easily, it's a size to big.
"There you go..see it wasn't so hard.." A nurse smiles nervously at her.
Maka doesn't respond.
They fold her old clothes and take them away..
It's like watching them fold her old life..and then having to watch them take it away.
Maka keeps smiling.
"I know you have been threw a lot today Maka.." Stein walks back in with his note book out..his glasses hiding his eyes from her. "..But I want to ask you some questions."
She stares at him.
"..Have a seat." He pulls up one of the black chairs..the same black chair her mother use to sit on.
Her smile grows as she takes her seat..A seat she deserves.
"..Why did you kill your father Maka?" Stein takes a deep breath..it comes from his lips to fast..her being able to catch the hurt in his voice.
She doesn't respond.
"..Answer me Maka. Why did you kill Spirit? What caused this to happen?"
"My mom was a witch." She suddenly blurts out in a giggle. "Did you know that mr. scientist? My mom was a witch!"
"..We're not talking about your mom right now Maka..we're talking about Spirit.." Stein writes something down.
"Spirit knew mom was a witch..Spirit can sure throw a punch!" She keeps laughing.
"..So you killed him because he was beating you? Did you just snap?"
"How can I snap when i'm already broken?!" She throws her head back. "I'm already broken!"
"..Maka lets stay on Spirit..What happen Maka?"
"Spirit was killed! Spirit was murdered! Spirit got his head choped off!" Maka's eyes shake madly. "I didn't see the body though! I wonder where it went huh? It couldn't have just crawled off huh?!"
"..Why did you kill Spirit Maka?"
"I didn't kill Spirit! It was that man! It was the demon! He did it!" Maka screams gripping her chair. "He's trying to frame me!"
"..Maka you can't start getting better until you admit what you did..we have to start there-
"Admit what?! There's nothing to admit because I didn't do a thing! It was all the demon don't you see? It's always been him!"
"..You can't really believe that Maka. Is it because your mother said these things that you are claiming them now?"
"Don't you see?! My mom wasn't lying! She wasn't insane and neither am I! The deomn is real! He's doing all this!"
"Maka-
"What kind of daughter am I?! I didn't believe my mother! I thought she was insane! and now i'm insane! but i'm not really..no.. the demon is ruining everything! He's destroying my life! He's taking everything away!" Maka grips the chair tightly..her breathing is uneven now. "My mom's dead! Spirit's dead! Witches are fucking real! My mom was a witch and i'm a fucking witch! Isn't that crazy?! It's fucking insane isn't it!"
Maka throws her head back and starts to laugh.
It's loud and crazy and it fills the whole room.
"..You have been acting strange but you were no where close to this when you saw Crona last Saturday-
The laughter dies on her lips at the boy's name.
The memory of him floods her mind.
Her eyes get watery..and her heart aches.
"Crona!" She shouts looking over at Stein with wide eyes. "Shit! Fuck! What's today?!"
"..It's Wednesday.." Stein studies her.
Maka's breath catches..her heart hurts all the more.
She missed seeing him Thursday.
She broke her promise to him.
She's a piece of shit.
"I have to see him!" She screams desperately standing up. "I need to see Crona!"
"You can't-
"Is he ok?!" Maka grabs a hold of Stein shaking him slightly. "Im suppose to see him Thursday! but I didn't! This had to fucking happen and I missed it!"
"..Crona is the last thing you should be worring about Maka, your father is-
" Dead! I know! but Crona's alive and he's waiting for me!" Maka trembles still shaking him. "Please..please tell me he's alright.."
"..I think it's best you get some rest Maka.." Stein pulls her off him as he starts to walk out of the room.
"No!" Maka grabs onto his arm..hugging it trembling. " You can't leave me! If you leave me alone the demon will come! He'll kill me! He'll kill me like he killed Spirit!"
"..Maka your safe here..get some rest now.." He rips her off him by force, he's quick to run out of the room.
The door shuts behind him.
She's locked in.
"Fuck you!" Maka screams as she picks up the chair and throws it against the door. "You didn't tell me how Crona was! and now i'm going to fucking die because of you!"
There's no response.
She screams till she can't scream anymore.
Crona's smile flashes threw her head.
Her voice cracks..
Soon hot tears are falling down her face.
She throws herself on the bed..crying into the blanket.
Everything is shit..
Spirit is dead.
They think she's insane and that she killed him.
Her mother was a witch and now she's dead.
She's a witch.
Medusa and her mother were friends.
The demon is going to kill her.
She broke her promise to Crona.
Kid is a witch hunter and will kill her.
Maka's going to die.
She's stuck now, stuck in Dark Side asylum.
The same room her mother was in..
How..How did it come to this?
How is she suppose to deal with this?
..No she can't..
She can't be sane anymore.
Her tears stop.
She's broke again.
Maka hears a thump from beside her.
The air around her is so heavy.
It's back.
It's come for her.
Maka doesn't move.
She's broken.
A dark chuckle fills the room as she hears foot steps come closer.
"..Your..mine..now.." It's voice is a growl..it's steps are getting louder.
She still doesn't move.
She deserves this.
It stops right by her side..she feels it's breath on the back of her neck.
Maka is going to die.
She's fought this long just to die..die in the same room her mother was in..the same room her mother suffered in.
Maka deserves this.
Suddenly Maka doesn't feel the demon anymore..
It's as if he just disappeared.
Maka still doesn't move.
She hears the door open.
Then close.
It's silent.
Someone is in her room.
Maka doesn't move.
She hears shallow breathing..
Then she hears soft foot steps walk towards her..slowly..carefully.
They stop beside her.
"..M-Maka.." She feels a shaky hand on her shoulder..the boy's voice cracks. "..O-Oh M-Maka.."
She turns slowly and when her eyes lock onto his blue swollen eyes..
Maka is revived.
"..Crona.." She speaks his name in disbelief.
"..M-Maka.." He stares at her with the same disbelief but soon his eyes water and he tackles her, crying into her shoulder. "I-I thought you were gone! I-I thought he got to you! O-Oh god Maka..I-I thought you were dead..R-Ragnarok got beaten by the demon..H-He even got hurt and Ragnarok's never gotten hurt before! I t-thought you were a goner..and w-when you didn't come Thursday..G-God my heart felt like so..I-I felt so..I..H-How did you make it? How did you live? W-What happened Maka? W-Why are you here?" The boy is shaking so bad in her arms.
His concern causes her tears to flow..and she tightens her grip around him.
"Crona my mom was a witch!" She cries loudly. "And she was friends with Medusa!"
"..." The boy doesn't respond to this..his body tensing badly.
"The demon killed Spirit Crona! It killed him and they all think I did it! They think i'm insane!" She grips him.
"W-What? N-No! T-They can't convict you o-of a crime you didn't commit!" Crona tightens his grip around her..his breathing is uneven.
"But they can! They can't feel the demon like me and you can..They think i'm crazy.."
"B-But your not! Y-You don't belong here Maka! Y-You don't belong in this awful place!" His tears keep falling down on her. "I-I'm so sorry Maka..t-this is all my fault!"
"Crona you had nothing to do with this, you have nothing to be sorry about." She rubs his back gently.
"..Y-Yes I do!" He wails, his hair brushing against her cheeks. "..I-I..I-I wished that we c-could be together..b-but I didn't want this to happen! I-I didn't want you to e-end up here! T-This is the last thing I wanted..O-Oh maka this is horrible!"
"Crona.." She lifts his head up so he's looking at her.
The boy sniffles..his eyes are so puffy..bags are under his eyes..and his face is so pale.
It looks like he hasn't slept in days.
"This isn't your fault. You have done all you can to help me..you sent Ragnarok to protect me..and right now..your holding me together with your arms." She looks away from the crying boy. "..I'm sorry."
"W-What are you sorry for Maka? I-I'm the one who failed you! I-I couldn't protect you! C-Couldn't stop this from happening.." He sniffles.
"I'm sorry I broke my promise." Maka can't look at him. "..I didn't see you Thursday and I-
"D-Don't be sorry about that!" He looks at her with wide eyes. "M-Maka i'm just happy your alive! That your breathing! D-Don't be sorry at all! t-there was no way you could have came!"
"But still-
"S-Still n-nothing!" Crona grabs her face gently turning her head so she's looking at him. He has a stern look on his face..but it looks more like a pout. "D-Don't be sorry Maka..y-you being alive..i-i'm so relieved..y-you never broke your promise..y-you never left me.."
"I'm never going to leave you now." She gives him a sad smile. "Me and you are stuck her together buddy."
"M-Maybe for right now.." Crona's gaze shifts. "..B-But..w-when me and Ragnarok leave..w-we are taking you."
"How are we going to leave?"
"I-I don't know yet..s-she hasn't given the order.."
"..Is Ragnarok ok?..you said he got hurt." Maka frowns thinking about the yelp she heard before she didn't feel him anymore.
"..I-I don't know..H-He doesn't stay long with me.." Crona frowns..she can see the worry in his eyes. "Raganork let me in here but..he left to go back to M-Medusa..s-she's helping him I think.."
"..How bad are the damages?" Maka rubs his arm trying to soothe him.
"..T-The demon bit a chunk out of him.." Crona's eyes shake. "..B-But Ragnarok seemed more mad that..h-he lost and h-he almost seemed worried about you." Crona looks at her with an odd look. "H-He tried to go back to help you but he couldn't..n-no matter how much I yelled the command..h-he couldn't enter the h-house anymore.."
"..It's not his fault or yours..you two did all you could.." Maka pulls him closer.
"I-I won't let that demon touch you Maka..n-now that your here..i-i'll be with you all the time and i-i'll protect you..m-me and Ragnarok will..y-you'll be ok Maka.." Crona leans in..his forehead against hers..his blue eyes look at her intently..taking in everything.
"..Crona.." She trembles and he just holds her closer.
Then he leans in and kisses her.
It's a ghost of a kiss but..it warms her whole being.
It defrosted what's left of her frozen heart.
"S-Sorry.." He blushes darkly and averts his gaze. "I-I'm just so h-happy your alive...t-that your here and breathing..I-I couldn't help myself I-
Maka cuts him off by kissing him.
It's deep and needy.
She wraps her arms around him, loving the feeling of him.
Even after all that's happened..she feels bliss.
She fucking feels bliss and it's because of Crona.
"I don't want to ever leave you again Crona.." She speaks against his lips..her eyes are closed. "..I can't do this without you..i'll fall if not for you.."
"W-We won't be apart n-now Maka..I-I won't let you fall." His breath is on her lips..it's uneven, she can feel how fast his heart is beating.
"Are you still mine Crona?"
"I-I will always be yours Maka."
"Promise me?"
"I p-promise you."
A tear falls down her face...a smile on her lips.
She actually feels happy..after everything she feels happy..
And it's because of Crona..
Because of this boy..
"..Y-Your mine.." He cups her cheeks..his face is so red. "..F-Forever."
"..Forever." She repeats..that smile still hasn't fallen.
"F-Forever." His eyes lock onto hers.
Then Maka cries.
She balls.
She buries her head in his chest and just cries..cries everything out..
Crona rubs her back gently..looking at her with that concern that hurts her heart.
Maka doesn't know how long they stay like this..with her crying and Crona holding her, comforting her..but that doesn't matter.
Crona is here..and everything is going to be ok.
Despite all this shit going on..it's going to be ok..
Maka does one final sniffle.
Then she's ok.
"..Thank you.." She looks up at Crona with her still puffy eyes.
"D-Don't thank me Maka.." He rubs her face so gently, kissing her cheek. "Y-You have done so much for me..y-you held me when I cried..I-I'm repaying you for your kindness Maka..b-but I will always be in debt to y-you.."
"You have already done enough Crona.." She smiles at him.
"N-No..I-I could never d-do enough for you Maka.." His eyes hold something that causes her heart to beat so fast.
She sees deep adoration in them..but there's something else..something she can't understand but it's powerful..and he feels it for her.
Her cheeks tint.
"W-Why are y-you looking at me l-like that?" Crona's face turns dark as he looks away from her.
"Looking at you like what Crona?" She gets closer.
"L-Like t-that!" He squeaks his face getting darker when he glanced over at her. "I-Is there something on m-my face?"
No, but there's something in your eyes..
"Yes." She states bluntly and she can't help but to smirk when he squeaks.
"W-What? W-What's on my face?" He starts feeling all over his face frantically, his eyes shaking.
"Me."
"G-Gah! How can you be on my face Maka when your right here?!" Crona starts tugging at his hair, his eyes wide. " H-How is that even possible-
Maka pulls him into her, kissing him deeply, grabing his hands to stop his tugging.
He gasps into her mouth and she can feel his body warm.
"That's how.." She smirks breaking the kiss.
"O-Oh.." He blushes and averts his gaze. "..T-Then I don't mind you being on my face M-Maka..e-even though it sounds scary at first."
Maka chuckles..
She can still laugh and it's because of him.
"..Crona what do you think of me?" She props her head up with her hand looking at him with a amused smile at how red he gets.
"W-What do you mean?"
"What do you think of me? How do you feel about me?"
"..T-That's a lot to say M-Maka."
"Then just say some of it."
"..I-I think.." He bites his lip before taking a deep breath. "I-I think your a-amazing Maka..y-your like no none i've e-ever met..y-your the only one who has been nice to me, or not scared. Y-Your the only one w-who has called me..b-beautiful. Y-You make me feel so good..y-you give me courage to do things I wouldn't even think about doing before.." His eyes get a far away look..a small smile forming on his lips. "I-I think your s-so nice, s-so beautiful, s-so..j-just perfect. T-There's nothing wrong with you..n-nothing at all. Y-Your like an angel sent to me..but instead of judgment you g-gave me absolution." The smile is starting to grow. "Y-You make me feel warm, and safe. W-What you do to me is amazing..I-I can't understand it and maybe I don't have to."
He rubs her cheek so gently..so lovingly.
His words hit a chord in her heart..
She feels her heart beat speed as his eyes finally lock onto hers.
"..W-What do you..t-think of me?" He speaks softly..his eyes shifting away from hers.
"I don't know."
Crona frowns..a look of hurt in his eyes and uncertainty.
"I don't know because i've never felt this way..or acted this way with anyone before." She cups his cheeks. "..I always keep to myself, never bothering with meeting new people..I can barely deal with the ones I already know but you..you attracted me right away..and at first it was just fascination..then you became a need..and i've never needed anyone before.." His eyes get wide as she gets closer. "..So I don't know what I think of you because there's so much to think Crona. Your the only one that can make my heart speed..or that can make me giggle..or laugh in general when all this shit is happening. You make me feel safe..when your with me I feel bliss..like it's just you and me and no one esle..this feeling I have for you..I don't know how to explain it in words..I was never good with words.."
"Y-Your doing good with t-them now Maka.." Crona blushes but he still looks at her..awe in his eyes. "...I-Is the feeling love Maka?..D-Do you love me?"
She freezes.
What is she suppose to say?
Love isn't real but..would he be hurt if she said she didn't?
..Does he think he loves her?
She has to find out.
"..Do you love me Crona?" She looks him in the eyes.
The boy tenses, his face becoming so red as he looks away but..
Maka saw the look in his eyes.
How bright they got..
He thinks he loves her.
Maka's heart hurts.
But love isn't real..
So she doesn't love him..
She can't love him.
And he doesn't love her.
He just thinks he does.
"..Y-You can't love can you?" This comes out no more then a whisper.
Maka just stares at him a little shocked.
"..Y-You're a witch..l-like Medusa. Y-You can't love.." His voice is hard to hear it's so quiet. "..Y-You don't love me."
"..I don't believe in it." She averts her gaze feeling uncomfortable.
"..T-Then what is it you feel for me M-Maka?"
"..I don't know."
"..Y-You can't love." He repeats the words..his eyes shaking as he bows his head. "Y-You can't.."
"Crona-
"B-But I can.." He suddenly looks up..something in those blue eyes. "..A-And I l-love you Maka..I-I know I do."
Maka frowns.
He smiles sadly.
"..I-If only you could love me too.."
These words hit her hard..and it hurts her..because she can tell it hurts him.
In times like this she wishes she was a normal teenage girl..one who could just say..'i love you too' but she can't. She can't say she loves anyone. She never said she loved her mother..or Spirit or anyone. and she can't say it to Crona..and it's hurting him.
Maka is a honest person.
At least to the people she cares about.
"Crona.." She cups his cheeks so he can't look away, her eyes looking straight into his. "I don't know about love..but I can say that I care about you Crona..I care for you more then anyone. I'm sorry though..I can't tell you I love you..that I can't just except that you love me..because I don't think you do Crona. I think, you think you love me..but really you just care..like I just care."
"N-No Maka..t-this feeling." He puts a hand to his heart. "..I-It can't be just care..i-it's so much more.."
"Crona-
"B-But it's ok.." He smiles at her sadly again. " F-For you just to care about me..i-is enough. E-Even if you can't love me..I-I like to dream..i-if you were able to..y-you would love me..j-just like I love you."
Maka doesn't know what to say.
That smile is still hurting her though.
"..If love was real I would Crona. I would love you.." She pulls him close, rubbing his cheek gently. "..But it's not."
Crona just keeps that sad smile on his face.
She doesn't want him to be sad.
Maka kisses him, wanting to erase..to get rid of whatever he is feeling.
He kisses back weakly.
She tightens her grip on him and deepens the kiss..
He needs to feel how much she cares for him.
Her tongue gazes his bottom lip causing him to gasp.
She's quick to stick her tongue into his mouth, raiding his tongue with her own.
He moans into the kiss when she scratched down his back..so she keeps doing it.
The boy's heart beat is fast..and she feels how hot his face is.
She feels his hands on her shoulders..feels him make circles into them with his fingers.
He's melting into her..what she's doing is working.
He must be able to feel her feelings threw her touch..
She at least hopes he does.
Suddenly Crona's body jerks before he pulls away from her.
"S-Someone's coming!" His eyes shake in panic. "I-I don't have time to leave!"
"Get under the bed." Maka gets up to let him move.
Crona is quick and before she can blink he's hiding under her bed.
Not a second later the door opens.
Her eyes lock onto his.
Girko stares at her blankly for a moment..his face is unreadable as he comes into the room fully.
The door closes behind him.
"..I had to see it for myself..I couldn't believe even Stein when he told me.." The man looks away from her, holding his face in his hands before taking a deep breath. "..Shit kid..just..fuck..your actually fucking here.."
Maka can only look at the man in shock.
He seems..really upset about this.
"..Alright kid..you have to tell me.." He takes his hands off his face to look at her seriously. "..What did Spirit do? I don't care that you killed him..what I want to know is what he did to you kid, what caused you to do that."
He seems worried, he seems concerned.
Maka still feels that fondness.
"..I didn't kill him." She looks him in the eyes.
"..You didn't kill him?"
"No."
"..Look I know your not insane..so did you play the insane card so you didn't have to go to jail for the rest of your life? I mean it's smart but..fuck kid. Did he hurt you?"
"..He hit me a couple of times but that wouldn't be enough for me to kill him. I didn't kill him."
"It's alright kid..I won't say what you did or didn't do..but if you did I just want you to know I don't think you were wrong. He deserved everything he fucking got. I'm just sorry you have to spend your time in this hell hole for doing justice."
Maka doesn't really know what to say.
"..So uh.." He scratches his cheek averting his gaze. "..Look I can make your stay here not so shitty so uh..do you want to go see Crona? You always seem to like that and shit.."
Maka can't help but to smile at the gesture.
"Your turning soft on me Girkio, that's so sweet of you."
"What the fuck ever." He grumbles giving her the middle finger but he seems flustered. "I'm only asking because I know how much you need to see your boy toy and viciously molest him all the time-
There's a squeak under the bed.
"What the fuck was that?" Girkio raises an eye brow.
"A mouse." She suppresses her smirk.
"Really?" He gives her a skeptical look.
"Y-Yes."
Maka can't help but to face palm.
Oh Crona..
"Alright get out from there Crona, I know your there." Giriko grunts crossing his arms. "How the fuck did you get in here?"
"He's a magician." Maka states bluntly as Crona crawls nervously out from under the bed.
"Magician my ass, who the hell let you out Crona?" Girkio raises an eye brow.
"I-I used my magic to unlock the doors." Crona mumbles. "A-All it took was a flick of the w-wrist."
"Crona mastered the power to unlock doors." Maka dead pans. "He's a fucking beast at it."
"..You two are totally fucking with me." Girko looks between the two..but he seems almost convinced. "..Right?"
"Oh no we're not. Crona is a magician, a great magician and i'm his sexy assistant." Maka keeps a straight face. "We just didn't want to tell you..it's a sercert. Crona is so powerful we can't let anyone else know."
"Y-Yes n-no door is safe with me." Crona nods in agreement.
Maka can't help but to feel a little proud.
He's doing a lot better at this.
"..You two are totally fucking with me."
"Oh gee what gave you that idea." Maka can't help but to smirk. "Nice thinking there Sherlock."
"Fuck you." He gives her the middle finger which she returns. "And fuck you too." He gives the middle finger to Crona.
"G-Gah I-I don't want to do that w-with you!" He trembles, his eyes shaking looking at the male nurse in fear.
Maka can't help but to crack up.
His face is priceless.
And how Girko is looking at him with his eye twiching.
It's to funny.
"That's not what I fucking mean you smart ass." He growls giving him both his fingers now. "It's not literally, I can get way better then your skinny ass."
"I don't k-know how to deal with t-this!" Crona goes to hide behind Maka, still trembling. "T-The shark man s-still scares me!"
"Just give him the middle finger back." Maka gives Girko the finger to demonstrate. "It's a way to tell him to fuck off when he's bothering you."
Crona looks at her finger for a moment before he looks at his hand.
He slowly puts down all fingers but his middle one.
"T-There take that!" Crona holds it up in the air as if it was a sword he is going to slay Girko with.
"Look what your teaching Crona, your a bad influence kid." Girko grunts but he's smirking, even he finds this amusing.
"Fuck you Girko." Maka chuckles giving him the middle finger which he returns.
Middle fingers all around.
It's perfect.
"..I'm glad to see your still the same." Girko gives her a smile..and it's not that sharp. "Still an ass hole even after everything."
"I wouldn't be me if I wasn't an ass." She grunts but she's smirking.
Crona looks between the two..he looks nervous but theres a smile forming on his lips.
Because she's ok.
After everything she's alright.
And it's all because of Crona.
"Well I better go before someone gets suspicious.." Girko turns to leave but pauses. "I'll see you tomorrow. Crona do you want me to take you back to your room?"
"N-No i'm ok."
"Told you he was a magician."
"I don't care how many times you say it, I ain't falling for it." He grunts before leaving the room.
The door shuts behind him.
"..This is going to be interesting." Maka comments.
"U-Uh huh.." Crona nods.
Maka turns on him, giving him a serious look.
He tenses when she grabs a hold of him.
"Crona.." Her eyes narrow.
"W-What?" He squeaks nervously, his gaze shifting till he throws up his hands in defeat. "D-Don't hurt me!"
"I would never hurt you Crona." She smiles reassuringly only to..
Give him the middle finger.
"G-Gah! W-What did I do?" He looks at her finger with wide eyes, his face getting pale.
"We need to work on that middle finger of yours Crona." She smirks. "Give it to me back."
"I-I don't want to..t-to do that. I-It's bad isn't it?" His gaze shifts.
"Not always."
"H-How is it good?."
Maka uses her middle finger to lift his head up by placing it under his chin.
"Fuck you." She whispers close to his mouth.
Maka has never seen him change from pale to bright red so fast.
He's so flustered with his mouth opening and closing.
"I'm sure you can see how it can be good right?" She smirks.
He's to flustered to answer.
"Give me the middle finger Crona." She pulls away so he can calm down.
"I-I can't!"
"It's easy.." She grabs his hand and gently pushes his fingers down for him. "See?" She kisses the tip of his middle finger.
Crona's so red..she loves it.
She hears the door open.
Crona looks over at it and his eyes light up.
She turns around.
A boy Maka hasn't seen before walks in, the door shutting behind him. He looks around there age, wearing nothing but black. He wears knuckle braces and chains on his pants. His skin is tan. His eyes are a piercing dark blue..on his nose there's a scar of an X just adding to the bad ass look this boy is admitting.
"H-Hey Ragnarok.." Crona smiles slightly.
"Don't smile at me. I told you that shit makes me want to throw up." He walks closer.
"Ragnarok?" Maka tilts her head..blinking a couple of times..
"That's my name don't wear it the fuck out-
He pauses when he sees she's looking right at him.
He moves to the side, Maka follows him with her eyes.
"..M-Maka can you see Ragnarok?" Crona quirks an eye brow looking at her.
"She can't fucking see me, she's just getting lucky right now." He grunts still moving around the room, Maka just follows him.
"Yeah I guess I can." She studies him. "Wow Ragnarok you look more like a douchebag then I imagined."
"Fuck you bitch I look good!" His eye twitches only for his face to fall. "..Wait a mintue what am I wearing then if you can see me?"
"Just all black. A black shirt. Black pants. The only thing on you that isn't black is your eyes. There blue." Maka watches the boy's face fall in bewilderment.
"..So you can see me.." He studies her a moment before giving her the middle finger. "And I don't look like douchebag, I look sexy. When I was alive girls were breaking down my fucking door to bang me."
"I highly doubt that." Maka grunts. "You look like a nightmare before chirstmas reject."
"Listen here you little bitch-
"R-Ragnarok." Crona glares at him, getting in front of Maka protectively. "D-Don't call her that."
"Oh you wana act all big and bad in front of your little girl friend now? Ok I see how it is." Ragnarok looks over at Maka with his piercing eyes. " Crona likes to play with his ass hole."
"I-I do not!" Crona wines, his face getting a dark red, his eye starting to twitch. "He's lying!"
"Oh yes he does, he likes that ass play. if I remember correctly just the other day he had a dream that he was messing with your-
"S-Shut the hell up!" Crona charges for the other boy. "That' never happened!"
Ragnarok is cracking up now..and Maka can't help but to chuckle at how frustrated Crona is getting.
"Wait what was he messing with?" She smirks.
"N-Nothing!" Crona looks like he's about to faint.
"Jeez calm down you spaz." Ragnarok chuckles. "It's not that big of a deal you dream about you-
"A-Anyway!" Crona glares at him but he still looks like he's about to faint. "I-It's about time i-isn't it?"
"Time for what?" She raises an eye brow at Crona.
"..F-For me to g-go." Crona frowns at her.
"Oh.." Maka's smile is wiped right off her face.
She's going to be alone.
She's going to die.
"D-Don't worry." Crona must catch her fear because he gives her a reassuring smile. "R-Ragnarok is going to stay with you to proctect you."
"When the fuck did this get decided?" Raganrok growls.
"J-Just now." Crona sends him a glare. "Y-You be good to Maka o-or y-you'll get it."
"Get what?" He scoffs.
"I-I'll sing Barbie girl for a hole day straight."
"You fucking wouldn't."
"I w-would."
They glare at each other for a moment.
"Man what the fuck!" Ragnarok growls before kicking the wall. "Why am I stuck baby sitting this girl? I don't even like her! God damn it!"
"H-He'll get over it." Crona walks over to Maka looking sort of nervous.
"..You really have to go huh?" Maka frowns.
"Y-Yeah but i-i'll be back in the morning! A-And we can eat lunch together..or d-do a activity.." Crona smiles thinking about it.
"..Alright." Maka sighs before she pulls the boy close to her. "Give me a good night kiss?"
"O-Of course." He blushes before he leans in and gives her a kiss on the lips.
Her heart beat picks up speed.
"I-I promise you Maka..e-everything is going to be ok." He speaks against her lips.
"..I believe you." She rubs her nose against his.
"Gay." Ragnarok grunts.
Maka and Crona give him the middle finger.
"Hell yeah there you go Crona!" Maka beams before pulling him into a deep kiss, shoving her tongue in his mouth before he was a chance to react.
Crona squeaks in surprise but he quickly melts into her.
When she pulls away he's panting, out of breath.
"Well damn, rape him why don't you?." Ragnarok grumbles looking away with a glare on his face.
"I would." She smirks at how red Crona gets. "But we're out of time."
"...S-See you tomorrow Maka.." He looks at her with longing..and when he pulls away she can tell he doesn't want to leave.
"See you Crona." She smiles at him but she can feel it's sad.
"M-Maka-
"Alright lets go before you get caught." Ragnarok appears right in front of Crona. He looks back at Maka. "i'll be back after I walk him back..so don't die while i'm gone alright? Crona would bitch me to my second death."
"I'm not going anywhere." She grunts.
He stares at her a moment before he walks over to the door and opens it.
Crona looks back at Maka..that longing in his eyes before he walks out with Ragnarok.
The door shuts.
She's alone.
Maka stares at were Crona use to be for a moment before she walks over to her bed and sits on it, pulling her knees to her chest.
What a day..
Her first day of many at the asylum.
It's not so bad.
She feels a presence in the room with her.
"I'm back." Ragnarok groans reappearing a few feet from her bed with this arms crossed. "Damn Crona, that ass hole."
Maka looks over at the boy for a moment.
"Are you ok?"
"What the hell are you talking about?"
"..Crona said you got hurt fighting the demon." She studies him. "Are you ok?"
"I'm fucking fine, I don't need your concern." He growls as he looks away from her..something flashes in his eyes. "The demon got lucky that time but he won't beat me again."
"Good." She smiles at him. "I'm glad your alright."
"What the hell is wrong with you?" He snaps, taking a step back in alarm. "You should be pissed off! I fucked up and because of that he almost killed you. Why the fuck are you being nice to me?"
"Is it not reason enough that you saved me? and your helping me again right now-
"Only because I was told to by Crona if not for him I wouldn't give a shit about what happens to you!-
"Still." She smiles over at him. "Your still helping me, whether you want to or not. It doesn't matter i'm still thankful."
Ragnarok looks at her in disbelief..his piercing blue eyes flashing with something before he looks away from her.
"Your fucking werid."
"I know."
"..heh, I guess you and Crona do fit perfectly together." He grunts. "Your both fucking bizarre."
"Hell yeah we do." Maka grins.
There's silence for a moment.
"So uh did he hurt you?" Ragnarok looks over at her only to look away a glare on his face. "Not that I give a shit but i'm just curious."
"He didn't touch me after you left but he killed my father."
"..If he can kill people he's pretty fucking strong." Ragnarok grips his fist. "..Did you like him?"
"Not really. I don't really know how to feel about the whole thing." She shrugs.
"Huh."
Silence.
"..I won't let him get to you again." Ragnarok suddenly speaks but he isn't looking at her, he's burning holes into the floor. "The next time I see that mother fucker i'm going to shove those annoying scarves down his throat. Then i'm going to choke him with his fucking gay sweater."
"Sounds awesome." She smirks. "I know you could. I seen how you fight. I'll admit it's pretty bad ass."
Ragnarok looks over at her for a moment..he looks like he's trying to sort something out.
That's when the lights shut off.
Maka can't help it.
She screams.
She still can't handle the dark.
"What? What the fuck's wrong with you?" She hears Ragnarok's growl, he sounds closer.
Her scream dies down only for her to grab her hair.
"T-The dark..I-I can't.." She trembles, her teeth chattering.
"Your scared of the fucking dark." He chuckles darkly. "What a pussy."
Maka can't even be mad she's to scared..
It's to dark.
Maka sniffles.
"..Are you fucking crying?"
She doesn't respond as she wipes the water coming from her eyes but she can't stop it.
Maka's making sounds too..it's embarrassing.
"What the hell man.." Ragnarok grumbles but it's..some how softer then useal. "Stop crying alright? There's nothing to cry about."
"I-I can't handle..t-the dark." She cries gripping her hair.
Ragnarok doesn't say anything for a while though she can feel his eyes on her.
She keeps sobbing, keeps trembling.
She hears him cuss..and then he's gone.
He left her alone.
Maka's close to hyperventilating.
What if the demon comes back?! She won't even be able to see him! It would be over for her, it would-
Maka hears the door open.
Ragnarok's back.
She hears him march over to the wall.
Suddenly there's light in the room.
It's not to much but..it's enough to calm her down.
She looks over to see Ragnarok holding a night light..it's on in his hand.
"There are you fucking happy?" He growls. "Here's some light so shut the fuck up."
Maka stares at him a moment..her breathing slowly going back to normal.
"..Thank you."
"Don't fucking thank me. I only did this to shut you up. Your crying was fucking annoying." He grumbles looking away from her.
"..Still..thank you.." Maka smiles at him.
Ragnarok looks back at her..his piercing blue eyes hold something in them..a mix of surpise and..she doesn't know what else.
"..Go the fuck to sleep." He growls looking away from her, crossing his arms.
"Fine." She smiles at him again before laying down.
With the light from Ragnarok's night light she's able to go to sleep.
The last thing she feels is the boy's gaze on her..
Then it's all dark.
..so yeah. please review! and if I ever review for my own story it's my sister. so if she says some weird crap just ignore it lol. she likes to get into my stories. thank you so much for your support! really guys it makes me so happy :) intill next time.