Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
xxxxx
After being stuck in the hospital till 11 PM, I was finally released to go. As happy as I should've been, I wasn't. I had a severe concussion and I couldn't go to sleep for 12 more hours, and I was beyond exhausted. Needless to say I wasn't the only one who was in a bad mood. My dad was pissed at Cody, although it really wasn't his fault, Punk was pissed at Cody for texting me and knocking me over, and Ryder was pissed we couldn't hang out alone. I decided in the end to go to the club just so I could stay awake and have some fun while I was at it.
We went back to my dads bus so I could hurry and get ready. I picked out my tight. black, strapless dress that stopped right before my knees. I scrunched my hair, applied my makeup on with my new smokey make-up, which made my blue eyes even bluer, and found my black heels. They weren't that long but whatever made me taller worked for me. I walked out in the living room area of the bus to get my phone and stopped when I heard a whistle. Thinking it was Zack I looked up and smiled, but it was quick to disappear when I realized it was Cody.
"Sorry if I scared you, I told your dad I wanted to apologize and take you to the club so we could talk." No, no, no. This can't be happening again. This kid just does not get it. I thought but instead of speaking I just nodded.
"Punk was going to take me, where is he?" He just shrugged and started playing with his watch. I nodded again and left with Cody for the club. As soon as we pulled away I felt my phone vibrate and sighed when I saw it was from Punk
Where are you? I came back to the bus and you weren't there? -CMP
Cody said he didn't know where you were, so I went with him...he wanted to talk -Emmy
After about 5 minutes I didn't get a response and I inwardly groaned. He was mad, I knew he was mad. But if it were him in Codys place I'd give him a chance to apologize too. As soon as I turned to say something to Cody my phone went off again.
You're with Cody? Are u fucking serious right now. After all that's happened and how I feel about him u seriously go to the club with him? You know what Em? Fuck it. Have fun with him. Don't fucking bother talking to me for the rest of the night. You think you would've learned your lesson by now but apparently not. Hope you enjoy every second you spend with him, just know that the more you're with him, the more you're breaking my heart... Guess that doesn't matter though. Have a nice fucking night, I'm not coming. -CMP
I stared down at my phone in disbelief. He seriously wasn't coming because of this. I was letting the kid apologize and give me a ride, not getting back together with him. He's so jealous, it's unbelieveable! I shut my phone off and put it in my purse and stared out the window, fighting back the tears that were ready to fall.
"You OK?" I nodded never taking my eyes away from the outside world.
"Listen Em, I know you don't wanna be with me anymore...and I understand. I'll always love you though, I never expected to fall for you so fast...but I did and I just hope that maybe sometime in the future we can work things out. But on another note, I didn't see you walking Em, and I would never hurt you intentionally."
I snapped my head over to look at him and I raised a brow. He gupled and looked back to the road. He knew exactly what that look had meant.
"I fucked up OK. If I could take that back I would Em. I just haven't got it in so long...nevermind you wouldn't care. Listen let's start over OK? Let's have fun tonight and forget about everything."
I smiled and nodded."OK Code, I can do that." If it was only that easy.
When we got to the club I went in and ran straight for the bathroom. Pull yourself together Emilie. I sighed and looked in the mirror. I'll never get how anybody can look at me without crying. I look TOO much like my mother, it's scary. I fixed my hair and walked out. I bumped shoulders with someone and dropped my purse.
"Sorry sir I didn't see you there." I bent down to get my purse and our hands met for a brief second. I looked up and stared into a too familiar pair of green eyes. He stared back at me, jaw slightly ajar, and stood up. He looked familiar, too familiar.
"It's OK..?" I shook my head and held out my hand.
He shook it and handed me my purse. "Christopher, Christopher Edward." I chuckled a little at how formal he was, then furrowed my brows and looked at him.
"Emilie, Emilie Catherine...and you...you look really familiar." He smirked and shrugged and waved goodbye. I walked back to find my dad, but couldn't get that man out of my head. Those eyes...and that name...Where do I know him from?
"Helloo? Earth to Emilie!" I snapped out of my thoughts and looked up to see Ryder standing there smiling. I squealed and jumped in his arms.
"Woah there hun, watch your head." He set me down and I sumbled a little, he was right, that was a dumb idea. We walked over to the bar and he got three shots for himself.
"Want anything sweetheart?" I shook my head no and when the shots were put down I grabbed one and downed it. He looked over at my and raised a brow. I shrugged and downed all his shots and winked at him. He ordered us another round and before I knew it those were gone too.
"What the hell is going on?" I froze when I heard his voice. I was in deep shit now. I gulped when I felt him put a hand on my shoulder.
"Hi Randy." I mumbled looking away.
"You mean to tell me you're doing your first shots, and me nor your dad is here to do them with you? Pshh what is the meaning of this! Bartender, two more rounds please! I'm going to get your dad, be right back." I sat there in shock. I looked over and Zack and he just shurgged and laughed.
"Better they do it with you, then you get in trouble for it." I nodded and tensed up again when they both came back.
"So I hear you're doing shots Em, care to tell me why?" I shrugged and handed them both one and raised it up.
"I'm getting drunk, get over it, cheers!" I downed it again and I had them all laughing. It was actually pretty sad that Randy and my dad were drunk before me and Ryder were.
"Yous...yous jus like yo momma, take forever to get drunk." My dad slurred and laughed. After a while more of drinking I was beyond gone. Zack had stopped a little bit ago because he was driving home.
"Letsss dance." He laughed and helped me to the dance floor. Everything was like a blur around me, it seemed like everyone was moving a thousand miles and hour besides me and Zack. I turned to face him and grinded up against him. He threw his head back and groaned.
"Keep doing that young lady and you'll be coming home with me tonight." I giggled and shook my head no then winked at him. He laughed again and held me close so I wouldn't fall. After a while of dancing I decided to call it a night and ride back with Zack.
"Take me...to seee Punky." I said giggling. He gave me a look but nodded and drove off to where the bus's would be.
"Why do you wanna see Punk Em, he usually doesn't like drunk people...you sure you don't just wanna come back with me?" I shook my head no and laughed at him.
"I don't see what's funny." He mumbled looking down when he parked.
"Punks mad at me, I needa make it all better." He nodded once again and got out to open to door for me. As soon as he opened the door I practically fell out into his arms, laughing the whole time.
"Em, is there something going on between you and Punk?" I shrugged and winked at him. My mind was screaming at me to tell him no, but the alcohol wouldn't let me do anything.
"Why you jealous there Ryderrr?" I slurred stumbling a bit as we walked.
"Jealous! Seriously Emilie. No shit I'm jealous. I've liked you for how long? Have you not noticed..I mean we flirt all the time, I always try to get you to come back with me. Hell Emilie I don't even wanna sleep with you, I want to cuddle with you and talk and yeah kiss you, but with you everything is so different. You're different. But yet you seem to want Punk or Cody...I don't get it."
I stared up at him, not believing what I was hearing. I knew he had a crush on me, but I didn't honestly think he liked me that much. I had to tell him nothing was going on between me and Punk or Cody, I had to lie.. I couldn't get anybody in trouble again. My dad would kill them.
"Zacky I'm not with anyone, I swear!." I slurred and fell on my ass. I burst out laughing and soon after he did too. I leaned against one of the bus's and he sat there next to me.
"We can go when you're ready babe, I don't want you puking everywhere." He laughed and slid an arm around me. I leaned my head back on the bus behind me and let out a sigh.
"I-I never drunk before." I slurred and laughed. My head fell to the side and I stared at Zack. He smiled and pulled me in a little closer.
"Emilie...don't go see Punk...please. Come back with me." I could hear the saddness in his voice. I shook my head no again and hiccuped.
"I gotta make it betta." He let out a sigh and nodded. I looked back over at him and for the first time ever I felt weird. He was GORGEOUS. I could tell the alcohol was taking over because I got the sudden urge to just kiss him.
"Ride-her." I slurred saying his old nickname I had given him. He looked over and me and smiled. I smiled at the little gap he had between his teeth. He really was handsome. I scooted a little closer and put my hand on his cheek.
"I don't know how I didn't notice you before." I whispered and crashed my lips against his. I felt him deepen the kiss and he pulled me onto his lap. He ran his tongue across my bottom lip, making me shiver and open my mouth for his tongue to meet mine. I put my hands on either side of his neck, turned my head slightly and deepened the kiss even more. He moaned against my lips and gripped my hips harder.
I broke the kiss for some air but he didn't give me a chance and crashed his lips back against mine. He gripped my hips even harder and starting moving me back and forth so I was grinding against him. I let out a groan when I felt him harden from underneath me. In one swift movement he had picked me up, turned me around, and slammed me up against the bus. I gasped and slammed my eyes shut when he moved from my lips to my neck.
"I've wanted you for so long babe." He whispered into my neck. I opened my eyes and let out a sigh. I couldn't do this.
"Zack I-I cant do thiss." I slurred a little and he looked at me.
"I'm so sorry." He gently put me down and looked the other way. He nodded and took my hand in his.
"It's OK. I never get the girl, I never will." He leaned down and pressed his lips to mine once more. It took everything I had in me to not deepen the kiss and take it further again. He pulled back and kissed me on the cheek.
"Come on, I'll take you to Punk." I nodded and he took my hand and led me away from the bus we were on.
"Oh wow it's right there, closer than I thought." I stopped walking and looked ahead of me. His bus was in clear view, which meant if he were to have looked out the window...he would've saw us.
"Shit." I whispered and closed my eyes.
He walked me to the bus and gave me one more kiss on the cheek. I sighed and opened the door and stepped in.
"I'll see you later babe." He whispered and turned around. I watched him go and it actually broke my heart a little. His head was hung down and his hands shoved in his pockets. I sighed and closed the door, waiting for Punk to come out and realize I was drunk and hate me even more. I slowly turned around and froze.
"Punk."
So this chapter was deticated to anon1(the guest) I made Ryder jealous and added a little spark to it, so I hope you liked it ;) Anyone else have any more suggestions? Just let me know please! I really wanna start writing this again so hurry with the reviews please! I wanna write again today if I get no suggestions for the next chapter just wait until the next one.
and the song on the top was thousand years - Christina Perri-love her!