Like always I want to thank each and every one of you who reviewed, favorited, followed and have read so far! I can never tell you enough how much I appreciate you all!

weallfindlove: thank you for your idea :) but you are correct I do write in advance and actually I have already finished just writing the epilogue now. Your idea wasn't bad though!

I'm thinking about starting another 100 ff just not sure yet lol need some new ideas... Actually for some reason I really wanna write a Clarke/Murphy ff just trying to work out stuff for that... I'm a Bellarke shipper but for some reason I cant get the idea of them out of my head sooo usually that means I need to write lol just gotta get a story.

Chapter 25

I woke up feeling groggy not really sure what had happened the night before. The last thing I remembered was drinking a few drinks and dancing with the girls. I couldn't even remember leaving or how I got home. I turned over in the bed and realized right away that I wasn't alone, now I was starting to freak out just a little but that was nothing compared to a moment later when I realized I had no idea where I was. Looking around I knew I wasn't at home but once I started seeing familiar things my heart dropped. I couldn't see the man's face who laid next to me but I knew who it was and I wasn't very happy that I was laying in his bed.

I was beyond pissed I let myself do something like this, I just sat there staring at him hoping it had been a horrible nightmare but the longer I stared the more I knew that I would have no such luck. Finally I couldn't take it anymore so I screamed "Wake up."

He stared stirring and when he turned around all my worse fear came true, Finn was lying in bed with me. "What's up?"

"What the hell do you mean what's up?" I was so furious I couldn't keep my temper in check.

Finn was rubbing his eyes "man do you always wake this pissed?"

"No just when I wake up next to someone and have no idea how I got here." I told him.

"What do you mean you have no idea how you got here?" He sounded concerned.

"I mean that last night is a big blur to me, all I remember is drinking a little and dancing with Maya and Octavia nothing more." I was so mad that I had actually started crying.

Finn stood up quickly which revealed that he was dressed, just in a pair of shorts but it was something.

"Clarke I don't know what you think happened but nothing did, you were too drunk to drive home so you asked if you could just crash here." Finn told me "You fell asleep on the couch I have no idea how you wound up in my bed."

I couldn't help but relax "but I still don't understand how I got here in the first place."

"We came back here after the club closed, you really don't remember? It was your idea." He was looking at me like he didn't believe me.

I shook my head "I don't get it, I didn't drink that much."

Finn shrugged his shoulders "I don't have any clue about that all I know is nothing happened between us last night, that I'm 100% sure about."

I sighed with relief "Thank God."

I felt bad for my reaction about Finn but I couldn't have myself going back down that road. We may have kind of become friends now but it will never be anything more than that. In my heart I will always love him but not the way I use to anymore.

I left Finn's pretty quickly without saying another word to him, I knew it was getting late and Bellamy was probably wondering what was keeping me. I still had to go back to my place, take a quick shower and change. The moment I walked into my house I went straight to the medicine cabinet and got some aspirin and full glass of water, I had a headache from hell. Once the aspirin started doing its job I finally got into the shower.

As I showered I started getting flashbacks from the night before.

I was dancing with Octavia and Maya, just by my actions I could tell I had drunk more than I had previously thought.

Then I was dancing with some random guy that I had never seen before, I felt it was innocent even though it didn't look that way.

Finn drug me away from the guy I had been dancing with, telling me he thought I had too much to drink.

The group was together, Finn was telling Maya that he thought I needed to head home. I didn't like that idea so I got another drink. Once I was finished with that one I suggested moving the party to Finn's, surprisingly he agreed.

We continued having a good time at Finn's, Octavia left shortly after arriving though but she only left after making me promise that I'd be alright.

Maya and Jasper were obviously tired, they wanted to go but I still wasn't ready. I begged and pleaded until Finn agreed to let me sleep on his couch, Maya didn't like the idea but finally left after I pretty much forced her out the door.

It was obvious that Finn was tired as well but he stayed up to entertain me. I tried to make him dance with me but when that failed I couldn't believe what I did. I started dancing on him, he was sitting on the couch and I was pretty much giving him a lap dance. Thankfully I did have my clothes on.

I could tell that Finn was kind of enjoying everything at first but that all changed the moment I straddled him and began rubbing myself all over him.

Finn tried to get through to me, tried to ask me to get off him but I wouldn't listen. I knew if he truly wanted me off of him he would force me and since he hadn't yet I took it to the next level. I kissed him, I seriously kissed my ex-husband.

I saw Finn give in for just a moment but that moment was all, he pushed me back and onto the couch standing in the process. He was pissed that was obvious. He yelled at me some, grabbed a blanket throwing it toward me and then went into his room closing the door behind him.

I laid down on the couch but when sleep didn't come I got up. I slowly walked to Finn's room and knocked lightly. When there was no response I opened the door and seen he was already fast asleep. I walked further into his room and climbed into the bed next to him, turning the opposite way of him and fell right to sleep.

I stood there in the shower, my water now running cold an emotion wreck. I couldn't believe I would do something like that, especially to Finn. I knew Finn had a harder time moving on than I did and for me to do that, I felt ashamed. As soon as I got out of the shower I grabbed my phone and sent him a text.

Why didn't you tell me?

I got a response almost immediately.

There was no reason to

I disagree, I took advantage of your kindness

Don't worry about it

Thank you for stopping me

Clarke you should know if anything were to ever happen between us again I wouldn't want it to be like that

My heart hurt, I think this gave Finn hope that I forgave him and that we might have a chance one day. But that was so far from the truth, I could never be with him again. As much as I didn't want to bring it up I knew I had to tell him and make sure he understood that nothing has changed.

Finn, nothing like that will ever happen again. It was a drunken mistake but I won't allow it to happen again. I don't love you anymore.

When I didn't get a response back I had a feeling that we wouldn't be talking again for a while.