Blazing Glory, yeah, Randy isn't really trusting Adam. I kinda more than believe Matt did blow it. Jeff being possessive of Adam.. in a sick way, I really like that :P LegacyChick, I agree, hun. It's not really love. I luv miss Jeff and Edge, yup. MagicallyMalicious, eh, I've seen Jeff beat up before pretty bad in a fic. Awe, cut Addy some slack. He's come along way in this fic. He's not a total douchebag... & thank you, as always. I'm happy u like my work, XD. redsandman99 & Esha Napoleon, thanks, always :) fangirlxfantasies, lol, mean ole Hardys :P Matt might. I dunno.. Jeff's a different story tho.. RatedRKandi, aww, thanks. XD. BellaHickenbottom, I'll always lean toward any scenario in which Jeff has Adam.. but that's just me :P KakashixIrukaLover, lol, I would've said Ted & Cody, but it may be awkward (shrugs) Poor Randy.. JoMoFan-spot, chp 23, eh, Jeff muse backed down on both ideas for now. He still wants them, but he's being patient. Jeff muse: Not dying at Randy's hands. Addy was mine first. (huffs) Terrah: There's no reasoning with him. I'm gunna do the M-Preg one, I just have been too lazy to work on it.. I also get what u mean about the little traveling together thing. It's kinda those little things in a fic that make the couple sweet. More so than sex. I've read fics where Jedam's a background couple and I giggle whenever they touch or hug. Usually they just have sex, & it's hott, but there's more to romance than that... Jeff muse: Bullshit, Randy wouldn't have done it! He'd of still taken my Addy! Randy muse: Haha! Jeff muse: (growls at Orton) If I don't stop, it's going to go on forever, lol. & I honestly prefer Adam being the one fought over, & it NEEDS to be done more! Ch 24, u're prolly right about Randy, but when I try to make sense of it, my Jeff muse throws a fit. It's actually quite amusing. (sees Jeff sulking) Sadly, this fic was built on forced sex... Hehe, Ted & Cody should watch out for Randy's baby when he's away :P Jeff muse: (growls) Terrah! Terrah: (blinks) What? Oh, hush & go play w/ Addy. The image of Adam in the cubby hole is cute, esp because he was all pouty. Jeff muse: (sniffles) Jeffy just wants Adam. Why's that so wrong? Edge muse: Jeffy! Stop antagonizing the writer & cum play w/ me! (giggles) I has edible body paint! Jeff muse: (eyes light up) Ooh! Coming, Addy! (runs off) Terrah: Finally... (sighs) & I'm planning on Jeff/Adam where Jeff is sweet & takes care of him. RRatedauthor, lol, well, yeah prolly. If a certain Hardy isn't trying to get into Adam's pants, then my world ain't right :P Yeah, Codiasi is pretty popular now.. But.. eh.. They work. & no, they're staying right where they are as far as this fic's concerned. They're a couple, & they're helping their 'leader' watch after his lover. That's pretty much it. Seraphalexiel, chp 23, thanks. Poor Hardys, but there was consequences just the same. Chp 24, eh, I'm actually trying pretty hard for a happy ending. Might not make it tho, lol.
Sold to a Hardy;
Chapter twenty-five/ 'Sweet Li'l Voice of Reason'
Rated; M/ L, (a conflicted Addy making lotza excuses, a rape/violent theme)
Adam was in catering when Jay came in. Randy's goons still lingered nearby, to keep an eye on Adam. At least they weren't too smotheringly close though.
"Hey, Adam." Jay greeted, sitting down beside his friend.
"Oh, hey, Jay." Adam mumbled, picking at some slices of fruit.
"So, how've you been, buddy?"
"Eh, been better." Adam replied dryly, pushing his plate away.
"Yeah, Amy told me some of it."
Adam raised his head up. "Uh... what.. what did she tell you?"
Jay cleared his throat and took a breath. "Basically that Matt bought your contract and you and Jeff had this thing and Matt got jealous and you guys got into it and you ran right into Randy's arms. She also told me that Matt's seeing Jeff and Jeff loves you and Matt's a big pile of confusion and angst as always. Feel like she's leaving shit out though.."
Adam sunk down in his chair. "The relationship was sexual."
Jay blinked. "You and Jeff? I know that."
"Me and Jeff.. and Matt.. It got a little rough.." Adam sighed.
Jay's eyes darkened. "Rough? What do you mean by rough, Adam?" His voice was a bit raised.
Adam made a move towards Jay like he was going to cover his mouth, but didn't. "Shhh.. keep it down, man. I'd like to not notify the entire locker room."
Jay took Adam's hands down. "Sorry. What's wrong, Addy? Did Matt and Jeff hurt you?"
Adam sighed and began. "I lost my virginity, so to speak, to Jeff in a locker room. He came into catering, sucking on a lollipop and he seemed to know what he was doing way more than me. It was hott and rough and it hurt a little, but Jeff took care of me. Loved on me. Tried to make me feel good and like it.. But later I met Matt and Jeff at their hotel room and everything was okay at first.. but Matt.. I dunno.. he got.. angry and he got rough and.. it wasn't enjoyable anymore.. felt like he was trying to hurt me deliberately and he was.."
Jay listened, waiting for Adam to continue as Adam took the moment to run his hands back through his long hair.
"And Jeff tried to take care of me, make me feel better. I never stopped to think how hard this was on him. Trying to stay loyal to his brother and trying to protect me what he could.. Matt found out Jeff was fooling around with me and he got pissed.. I mean, psychotically pissed.. he got me in the locker room.. and.. and.." Adam nearly stammered. "He just.."
Jay reached over and moved Adam's hair from his face before moving his hand down to rub the blonde's back. "What, Addy? What happened?"
"Matt got a little too rough.. he hurt me.. he was so angry.. He wasn't even like that.. over Amy.." Adam replied solemnly.
Jay swallowed thickly. "He raped you, didn't he?"
Adam nodded as he looked down. "He wanted to hurt me and he did.. With Jeff it was different. Jeff wanted me to feel good too. Jeff played with me. Matt didn't want me to feel good. Matt wanted to destroy me.."
"Damn bastard.." Jay muttered. He wasn't sure if he still believed all the shit going on between his friends. That Matt could be so damn cruel after this long. But over Jeff? Jay guessed he could see that. He just didn't get it.
"I walked out on Jeff after he found us. Jeff had nothing to do with what Matt did.. he was confused and hurt and he tried to help me and I pushed him away. Blamed him. I hurt him back.. But I didn't know.. I still loved Jeff.. But I didn't know he felt the way he did about me, I thought he was just following Matt's orders." Adam took a drink of his water and continued. "Randy came and took me to the doctor after I basically fainted.. and I dunno, I wanted to teach Jeff a lesson, so I started seeing Randy. Then Randy slept with Jeff out of spite when they both hate each other and wanna kill each other."
Jay's eyes widened, he shook off that image and held his head with the hand that wasn't rubbing Adam's back.
"And Matt and Randy tried to kill each other, Jeff got hurt and ended up in the hospital... then Matt came to see me.. and we had sex.."
Jay lifted his head. "He rape you again?"
Adam shook his head. "No.. It was different. Matt was almost like Jeff. Rough, but.. there was almost seduction there... I dunno.. He made me go see Jeff in the hospital and I held him for all of two minutes and I swear, I just wanted to stay there forever. I wanted to stay in Jeff's arms and I wanted Matt to just not hate me. I wanted us all happy and that's not possible. I left him. I walked out on Jeff and out of his life. I went back to Randy, started seeing him. Matt and Jeff left me alone. Me and Vickie are in the midst of divorce.. I thought I was okay.. then Jeff showed up at my hotel room and I tried to tell him no.. I was with Randy.. but he wouldn't take no as an answer.."
"He rape you?" Jay asked again, alarmed.
"Well.. it... He was forceful and he was hurt.. and angry.. but he didn't want to hurt me. He wasn't like Matt had been.. Jeff played with me and made me want it. He didn't fuck me till he had me begging him too.." Adam explained, resting his head on his fist as his elbow was propped up on the table.
"So he just molested you and impaired your judgment?" Jay smirked dryly.
"You don't get it, Jay. No one does. I wanted Jeff to. I know it was wrong and I tried to fight back to be faithful to Randy.. but deep down I wanted Jeff to do what he done. I liked it. God, I'm fucking sick and twisted, but I liked him being rough and dominating me like that. Like I said; with Jeff it's different. And in the locker room with Matt; I didn't like it. But Jeff made sure I felt good. He made sure I was pleasured. I'm sick. I'm sick because I like Jeff getting rough with me.. I have feelings for Randy. I really do. Hell, I think I'm falling for him. But Randy's.. he's too easy at times.. and it feels good to me too because Randy's gentle and loving and takes care of me.. but Jeff sets me on fire.. It's funny, they both know me in and out. All that touches me, they know."
Adam laughed dryly and shook his head. Jay just studied his friend as Adam ranted.
"I want them both and I can't have that. It isn't fair to either of them and it isn't fair to Matt.." Adam sighed. "Matt's still this dark area.. I had wanted to explore it.. but I'm afraid. M'sick and disgusting, Jay. I know."
"You're not sick, Addy.. or disgusting.. You like when Jeff's rough because it's passion. Some people need and like it rough and hard. Makes 'em feel like they're desired as long as their other is just playing and would never intentionally hurt them without consent. And not abusing them for their own pleasure or anger like Matt apparently did. And you like Randy being loving and gentle because you deserve love, Adam. Randy treats you like a prince and that's to be adored... You're not the first person to be torn in two, Adam. This problem as plagued man and woman since the beginning." Jay said wisely.
"Is it possible to love two people, Jay? I mean, Matt loves Jeff.. and Amy told me Matt used to love me 'fore I screwed up. I called Shannon to confirm it. Jeff loves Matt and me. Randy loves me and I love Jeff and.." Adam swallowed and shook his head. "I think I love Randy.. So is it possible to love two people?"
Jay pondered a moment. "I'm not sure, Adam. I think it's possible to feel something for two people. We all love different things in life and sometimes more than one thing.. I'm sure our love isn't limited to one.. but usually when you love two somethings, you always love one more than the other."
"M'talking about equally though."
"Then I dunno." Jay shrugged.
Adam scoffed. "Some help you are. What do you care anyway, Jay?"
Jay looked at Adam. "I do care about you, Adam. I'm still your best friend. I care a lot about you and you know that."
"Then where have you been when I've needed you?" Adam asked, waving his hand pointlessly into the distance. "You've.. you abandoned me, Jay. You never call. You never stop by. Where have you been?"
"You were wrapped up with Vickie and her band of goons. I didn't think you wanted me anymore." Jay shook his head. "You were too busy eating up your power. You didn't call or stop by either. You abandoned me too. You changed and I was..." Jay's tone softened. "I was scared I'd finally lost you.."
Adam wrapped his arms around his friend and hugged him tight. "You'll never lose me, Jay-Jay.. I just.." The taller blonde sighed and closed his eyes. "I lost myself for awhile.."
Jay hugged back. Just happy to have Adam back in some way. He had missed his long-time friend, his brother, severely. "S'okay, Addy. I'll never leave you again."
-xx-
Jay entered the hallway. He made a mental note to talk to Matt later about Adam's little deal. He and Matt were still friends, after all, and it didn't hurt having an third party. Hell, with Matt, Amy and Adam all those years ago, Jay tried to keep out of it from being trapped in the middle and being forced to take sides. He didn't know what Adam had been thinking back then, but Jay knew Adam couldn't of been thinking rationally. He tried to remain supportive of his dear friend, but Jay was close to Matt and Jeff as well and Jason didn't want to be an even bigger wedge.
The thought of Adam with Vickie disgusted him enough. He was glad they were divorcing without too many problems. And as sorry as Jay was for Matt hurting Adam, Jay was kind of glad Jeff and Randy pulled Edge out of that mess and forced Adam to follow his heart for once.
Jeff and Matt being together-together didn't really shock or disgust the blue-eyed blonde Canadian. They were always closer than any two brothers could ever be.
Ted and Cody stood up when the locker room door opened and Jay peeked his head in. They looked at him intimidatingly as he stepped inside.
Jay was not intimidated. He merely glared back. "Oh, I would just stand down, wingus and dingus."
"It's okay, guys. It's just Jay-Jay." Adam spoke up and Ted and Cody backed off.
"How we doing, Addy?" Jay asked as he sat down on the bench in front of Adam's usual locker cubby hole where he liked to dwell these days.
Adam shrugged. "Fine, I guess. Sick of being under Legacy's personal surveillance." He glared over at said surveillance.
Jay turned back to Ted and Cody. "Guys, little privacy? Please?"
"We can't do that, Christian." Ted shook his head, arms folded over his chest.
"Just stand outside the door." Jay urged.
"But, Randy..?" Ted began.
"Randy knows better than to fuck with me when it comes to Adam. Randy also knows I'd never hurt this man for the world." Jay said pointing at Adam. "Now, I've got to talk with my best friend. I'd like you two to stand outside the door." He ordered sternly.
Cody nodded and moved to get up as Ted opened the door, holding it for the smaller man before shooting one last warning glare at Christian and exciting himself.
"And no making out out there!" Jay shouted back to them.
Adam laughed and shook his head.
Jay sighed and turned back to Adam. "I'm not gonna make promises, but Imma talk to Matt about the contract thing."
"It's not gonna work." Adam shrugged, picking at a torn seam on his hoodie.
"I can try. Matt's, uh.. Amy told me Matt signed himself in Anger Management for a few weeks or so. Jeff's all alone right now." Jay informed.
"So? What's that got to do with me?" Adam asked, raising his hand to his mouth to nibble on his thumb nail.
Jay reached forward and took Adam's hand down, a habit people close to Adam usually had because the blonde would chew them down to nubs when frustrated. "I think Matt's trying to get better and Jeff's alone right now.. I dunno.. you could go see him, talk to him and try to make amends. You two don't have to be bitter enemies over this. You both still care for each other and what better time then when Matt's not there to get involved."
Adam looked down and went back to picking at the torn seam. "I don't think I can, Jay."
"Come on, Addy. I hate seeing you like this. I know Randy makes you happy and treats you right, but I also know that you feel like there's something missing. You need to go find out what it is."
Adam shook his head. He knew what it was. It was Jeff and there was nothing he could do about that.
-xx-
Jeff laid his head down on the table in catering. He was alone now and miserable.. Well, he had Shannon and Shane.. but since those two discovered to say to hell with women and that they could just fuck each other, Jeff had become invisible... Okay, so they had always knew that shit.. but it was just different with Matt now away in Anger Management.
Jeff knew his older brother thought it was for the best. Matt had been angry and hurt and look what it caused him to do. Matt wanted help and to change and Jeff couldn't blame him none or disagree. Jeff loved his brother, but Matt could be scary when pissed off.
"Uh.. Hi there, Jeffro.." Jay greeted as he walked up to the table.
Jeff sighed. "Hi, Jason."
"You okay...?" Jay almost winced. "Well, I mean.. I guess not.. Sorry about Matt and everything."
"You know too, huh?" Jeff groaned, rubbing his tired eyes. "Amy is such a loud-mouth."
"Awe, c'mon, Jeff. I'm still your guy's friend. I'm concerned is all." Jay leaned forward and placed his hands on the table casually.
"Thanks, Jay. Seen Adam? How is he?" Jeff asked, staring up at short-haired blonde.
"Fine. A little conflicted. But when is that knew?" Jay smirked.
Jeff snorted a dry laugh. "Happy with Randy fucking Orton. I tried to talk to Randy. I told him me and Matt loved Adam. Jerk won't listen. He treats Adam like a child who can't make his own decisions."
Jay shrugged. "Maybe Adam likes the security."
The younger Hardy snorted. "And maybe I like pinecones shoved up my rear end."
"You don't?" Jay grinned.
Jeff glared at him. "Only Matt's."
"Ooh, nice one." Jay smarted.
"Whatever." Jeff scoffed. "Can you talk to Randy for me? Matt needs to talk to Adam and if Adam says he doesn't want anything to do with us after that, we'll leave him alone."
"Adam is happy with Randy, Jeff." Jay bluffed. He knew how to play them. "Why should I jeopardize them?"
"Adam.. ugh.. Adam loves me too, Jay.. and why should I just let him go without something of a fight?" Jeff snapped.
"If you love something, set it free, if it comes back..."
"That's bullshit and you know it, Jay. You don't set it free, you fight. All I'm asking is for me and Matt to have one last fighting chance before we.." Jeff gritted his teeth. "Before I.. accept defeat."
Jay nodded. "I guess I understand that."
Jay is now in charge of trying to figure their shit out. Good luck, Christy, you'll need it :P I'm still conflicted 'bout Matt. But I'm trying to sort something out with Randy, Jeff and Addy. Anger Management? Yeah.. I just needed Matthew out of the way for awhile. I should'a had Jay pop up long ago, might'a helped a bunch. Sorry for the confusion and the mess, but I had to get Jay up to speed. & the chap got it's name b/c usually when Jay's a mediator in fics I have a habit of calling in a 'sweet little voice of reason.' & I know, Jay should want blood for what's been done to his Addy, but killing people & more violence isn't gunna help. Jay's gonna try and be reasonable and help Adam thru this. & no, Jay's not gonna be AntiRandy or AntiJeff.. Matt? Eh.. Mebe a different story...
Also, everyone feels for Randy. But I get the feeling it's just b/c they want Randy to win b/c he's Randy & not b/c it has anything to do w/ concern for Addy.. JoMoFan-spot not included, I know her feelings on Addy. I need more Edge fans like her to share my drooling over Addy-ness! Lol! Also, sorry I'm so behind w/ everything. Real-life issues..