"Nina!" Amber squealed running over and pulling me into a hug. I laughed and gave her a sideways hug avoding crushing Sarah, who sat in my arms. "Hey Amber how was France?" I asked moving over to let Fabian have a share of Amber hugs. "Oh Nina it was Fab! I got Sarah and Austin the cutest little outfits ever! And I took so many photos and I even took some fashion classes. I litterally shopped till I dropped!" I laughed as Amber talked excidetly about her summer. "Sounds Amazing!" I complimented. Fabian handed me Austin before heading back out to get our trunks."What about you how was the Rutter Family this summer?" I opened my mouth to answer but Someone bumped into me from behind. "Oh sorry! Oh hey Nina, Amber!" Eddie smiled before giving us each a hug.

"Hey Eddie, how was going to the states? Where is Patricia?" I questioned.

Eddie looked at me nervously before replying. "I don't know where Patricia is and um the states were fine." Eddie walked off sulkingly. I glanced over at Amber who looked just as I felt. Confused. Not a second later patricia walked in with her trunk and headed straight towards the steps. "Hey Trixie, What happened to Peddie?" Amber shouted chasing Patricia up the steps. "Hey Nina, How are the little ones?" Trudy asked coming up to me with a big warm smile. "They are good!" I gushed and handed Austin over.

"Oh they look so much bigger." Trudy laughed craddeling Austin and grabbing his hands. "They are eight weeks now I can't beleive how old they have gotten." I sighed.

"Oh sweety cheer up!" Trudy placed her hand on my cheek "Now come on I need to get the cookies out of the oven, before Alfie arrives." I followed Trudy into the kitchen where Jerome and Mara sat laughing and giving eachother little pecks of kisses on the lips. "Um hey guys." I announced as they pulled apart and looked up at me.

"He Nina!" Mara welcomed as Jerome gave me a wave.

My eyes darted between them "Soo um you guys are close friends now?" I asked

They both laughed. "I asked out Mara earlier this summer." Jerome smiled pulling Mara into his chest. "And I obviously said yes. I mean I could'nt deal with Mick it was too hard and I think Jerome's been all I wanted and needed all this time."

"Well congrats." I gave them a thumbs up before going after Trudy in the kitchen. "I smell cookies!" bellowed threw the house as I heard shuffeling run threw the halls.

"Alfie no running!" I heard a girl yell as Alfie burst threw the kitchen and grabbed a cookie right off the tray. "Hot!" He yelled dropping it down. I laughed before shifting Sarah to my other arm and walking to Alfie. "I believe those just came out of the oven." Alfie frowned and looked at his fingers. "I think I can tell now."

"Oh come here!" Trudy huffed handing Austin back to me. She looked

down and examened his blistered fingers. "What was with the rush Alfie?" Joy questioned walking in with Fabian behind her. "You nearly killed us." Fabian muttered walking over to me and grabbing Sarah. "Well sorry Trudy had cookies!" I rolled my eyes. "Oh but Hey guys!" He said cheerly.

"Oh Nina the twins look so big!" Joy giggled running over to play with Sarah.

"Nina can I talk to you?" Patricia asked from the doorway. I looked at her and glanced into her eyes. She looked as if she'd been crying, but Patricia does'nt cry. I handed Sarah to Joy and rushed to Patricia."Here lets go talk in Fabian and I's room." I guided her to our room where she slowly dropped herself to the bed. "Nina, I think I need your help." She stuttered.

"Does this have to do with you and Eddie." Patricia nodded sadly.

"In America me and Eddie decided to get a hotel room to get away from his Family because he has alot of siblings since his mom got re-engaged. Well One thing lead to another and Nina, I think I might be pregnant. I'm two weeks late." I gasped and covered my mouth. "Patricia, did you guys not use protection?" She shook her head. "Have you taken a test?" She shook her head again. "I bought one on the way here I just wanted someone with me." I nodded and we walked to the girls bathroom. "Go take it quickly and I will check it for you." Patricia nodded and walked to the bathroom and came back out a minute later. "I have to wait for ten minutes." She sighed before dropping down next to me. "Nina, What am I going to do if I'm pregnant?" I looked down at my hands because I did'nt know what she would do. I have two kids and I don't even know what I'm doing half the time. "I don't know but you will make it threw this I mean we don't even know if you are pregnant." Patricia nodded and looked blankly across the room. I don't understand how she is being so calm I was hysterical when I found out. "Is this why Eddie and you were acting so weird earlier?" I asked Patricia looked over at me. "Actually we broke up a couple days ago." I nodded.

"Nina what am I going to do if I am pregnant and I dont have Eddie. Why would he want me back with a kid if we already split?" I gave Patricia a hugs and told her I didn't know. "Nina just because I'm worried doesn't mean I want a hug." She shrugged me off and pulled on the ends of her hair. "God it has only been four minutes this is taking forever." Patricia's eyes glanced around the room before she jumped up and began to pace. "Oh my god this is the longest ten minutes ever!" I watched Patricia pace until the timer went off. I stood up and ran to the bathroom. I looked down at the test before looking up at Patricia. "Trixie?" I asked

"Yeah?" She whispered. I lifted up the test to show her. She gasped.

Hey Guys I'm back if you had'nt noticed or if you do not follow my instagram then you would have noticed I'v been missing. This is because I have taken a break. I just wanted to say I am back and I will still try to post once a week. Though I do have a busy schedule.

Monday: Dance Team

Tuesday: Cheer

Wenseday: Cheer and Dance

Thursday: Cheer and Dance Team

Friday-Sunday: compitions (Every once in a while), Free time, youtube filming days, and I guess writing days.

Also I wanted to just apollogize for my break it is just that my anxiety has been super bad now and it is really hard. And it is always around this time of year (Fall and Winter) where the bad thoughts really get bad and well Its kinda tough I dont want to get into it but it gets bad. Anyways please reveiw for more and also favorite and follow. Don't be shy go and follow my Instagram Brit_stayingstrong.