When Life Catches You Unprepared Chapter 25, a big bang theory fanfic

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Chapter 25:

After they woke up, Amy and Sheldon got dressed and decided to go to Amy's apartment so that Amy could change and then they'll decide what to do for breakfast and for the rest of the day.

While Amy was taking a shower and got dressed, Sheldon sat in the living room taking a better look at her apartment and memorizing every single piece of decoration Amy has in her apartment. In Sheldon's mind every single decoration and object in the apartment was another piece of Amy.

After about ten minutes in which Sheldon look around, he saw a book on the coffee table. It was Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone. It picked Sheldon's curiosity. He wondered how many times Amy read it. he remembered that when they saw the movie with their friends a few months ago, she agreed with some of his commentaries about how things happened in the book, so he knew she read the books and he could see that by the looks of the spine, the book was read a fair amount of time.

He took the book and started reading it until Amy came out of the shower.

Darn it. now I will have to finish the entire series soon. He thought as he got suck into the book and into Harry's world anew.

When Sheldon got to the half of the first chapter Amy came out of the shower all dressed up but for the first time since she got back to her apartment, Amy wasn't wearing makeup. She went to sit next to Sheldon quietly. As Sheldon heard her coming to the room he looked up at Amy and wondered if everything was okay. she wasn't as cheerful as she was when they got to her apartment. he put down the book as Amy sat next to him and turned to face her.

"Is everything okay?" Sheldon asked Amy and caressed her hand lightly.

"Yeah… why do you ask?" Amy asked him, somewhat surprised by his question.

"Because you seem like something happened during the time you were in the shower." Sheldon said and Amy looked down at her hand that were placed between her thighs.

Something did happen but she wasn't sure if she wanted to get into it right now. She will have to eventually, but she assumed that it's too soon to talk about it now.

"It's okay. I just got a little tired. Do you mind if we stay in today and do some cooking?" Amy asked Sheldon. She really didn't feel like going out today.

"Sure. are you sure you're okay?" Sheldon tried again and my just nodded.

"Thanks, I'm okay. We can make breakfast and then you can pick a movie to watch." Amy told him as she leaned a little on his shoulder and Sheldon moved a little closer to her so he would close the gap between them.

"Okay." Sheldon said softly as he put his hand on Amy's. He had a feeling that something was troubling Amy but he didn't want to pressure her, so he decided to just be there and hoped that eventually she'll tell him what is troubling her. He just hoped that Amy was feeling okay.

While they made breakfast, Sheldon came up with the movie he wanted to watch. He remembered the last time he and Amy watched this movie and he wanted to make it a better experience for her.

"I've decided which movie I want to watch." Sheldon told Amy as he set the table for breakfast.

"Good. Which movie would you like to watch?" Amy asked him as they switched places and Amy went to the table to put on the salad she just made and Sheldon went to the kitchen to watch over the eggs Amy just put in the pan.

"Harry Potter and the Philosopher's stone." Sheldon said confidently.

"But we already watched it together. Wouldn't you want to watch something else?" Amy asked him as she walked over to the fridge to take out some drinks. She was a little confused by his movie choice.

"I know we have watched it together, but I just started reading the book while I waited for you and it made me want to watch the movie." Sheldon said as he looked at her. He then paused for a few moments, turned to face the pan with the eggs so the food won't get burned and then continued his explanation.

"Also, I remember pretty well when we watched it and if you don't mind, I would like to try and make this time a better experience for you." he said quietly and didn't turn to look Amy in the eyes as he spoke.

Amy was touched by the rest of his explanation and walked over to him and put her hand over Sheldon's hand that was now holding the pan as he scrambled the eggs and looked up at him.

Sheldon didn't dare to look at Amy directly. From the corner of his eye he saw that Amy was now on her tiptoes and felt her warm breath approaching his cheek and the next moment he felt he lips kiss him gently on his cheek.

"Thank you." Amy whispered and continued setting the rest of the table. Sheldon blushed fiercely and smiled to himself. he still wasn't use to this side of him; the side that wanted to make someone happy, but ever since Amy's hospitalization the urge to see her happy and smile got stronger in him, and ever since they started dating that urge became one of his main goals in life. he was still navigating through this relationship, but every time he made Amy smile he felt more confidant that he can actually be in a relationship, but he also knew that the only reason he felt this way was because it was Amy, since she was the only woman to ever make him feel the way he feels at this moment, and he knew deep down he wouldn't have it any other way.

After breakfast and cleaning the table, Sheldon went to the living room while Amy looked for the movie's DVD and then she sighed heavily.

"It's back in my mom's house." She said after she remembered she forgot, yet again to bring the movies back to her apartment.

"I always forget to bring the movies back." She sat next to Sheldon with a small thud and laid her head on his shoulder. He put his arm around her shoulder awkwardly in consolation.

"I think they have it on Netflix. Let's check it out." he said as he rubbed her shoulder. After a few moments of searching, they found the movie and then went to grab some snacks for the movie.

At some point during the movie they covered themselves with a blanket and snuggled under it and after the movie ended they just stayed there, cuddled.

"Thank you, Sheldon." Amy said eventually as she looked up to him and kissed his cheek lightly and put her head back on his chest. His idea of re-watching the movie was a great idea and it really made up for the last time she watched it.

"You're welcome." Sheldon said and kissed the top of Amy's head.

"What do you want to do next?" Sheldon asked her. since they weren't in his apartment he wasn't sure what their options are.

"Um… I don't know. we can always watch another movie. Maybe going out and have some fresh air…" Amy suggested.

"Didn't you want to stay home?" Sheldon asked her and looked at her trying to understand how she feels now. It seems like she was in a better mood than she was before breakfast.

"Yeah, but I feel better and I think fresh air will be a good idea. We could get some ice cream." Amy wiggled her eyebrows at Sheldon in an attempt to convince him.

"Hahah… Okay." Sheldon laughed and kissed her cheek. she was too cute to refuse her.

After they got their ice creams, Amy tried to convince Sheldon to walk through the park, an attempt that failed since he refused to go to the park on a Sunday during the noon hours since the park was crowded with people and kids. Instead they walked in a parallel street to the one Amy lived in.

"What bothered you more about the idea of walking through the park? The people or the kids?" Amy asked Sheldon with a small a small smile.

"Hm… I think it's the combination, and again the fact that it's more crowded on a Sunday. I never was good with big crowds. But then again, I never was that good with people either; neither kids nor adults. Even in small groups" Sheldon said as he thought over some his interaction with kids and adults. Well, maybe except his nephew since they kind of do get along.

"I know what you mean. It takes me a while to get used to people as well. better say, trust people." Amy said as they got closer to her apartment.

"What? How can you say that? the first real conversation we had you poured your heart out and we barley knew each other, let alone liked each other." Sheldon said, shocked.

"The talking and sharing sometimes just comes to me. That doesn't mean it's easy. Over the years I've worked on not over sharing private things to people I know, so it won't come back and bite me in the ass, but sometimes it's just too much to bare and I guess that blurting everything to a stranger was what I needed at that time and easier to do then to share with someone I know, since what could you have done with that information at the time?!" Amy said and smiled a sad smile at the horizon.

Sheldon looked at Amy and saw the sad smile on her face and wondered how she was feeling. She seemed okay, but something in her expression didn't quite fit in and he wondered what that was.

By the time they got back to Amy's apartment they were both done with their ice creams and they both wanted to wash their hands from the ice cream.

When they got in the elevator, Sheldon took Amy's hand in his and didn't let it go until they got into her apartment, despite the fact that he wanted to wash his hands more than anything in the world at the moment, and so did Amy, but it warmed her hear that Sheldon decided to hold her hand despite the stickiness from the ice cream.

When they got back in Amy's apartment, they both went to wash their hands and then sat down on the couch in the living room, both a little lost in their thoughts. Sheldon glanced at Amy and saw that her gaze was far away and that she looked a little sad again so he pulled her into his arms in a hug. Amy was a little surprised, but went willingly and put her head on Sheldon's chest.

"Are you okay?" Sheldon asked her as he kissed the top of her head.

"Why do you ask?" Amy asked him, her head still buried in his chest.

"Because you were a little quiet today and maybe a little sad, if I read your facial expressions correctly." Sheldon said as he caressed Amy's arm.

Amy sighed and sat up and looked at Sheldon.

"Well… you kind of read it correctly. Remember earlier today, after I took a shower I was a little distracted?" Amy asked Sheldon and he just nodded.

"Well… I got up today with some aches in my stomach and I was sure it'll pass by, but by the time we got here and it got a bit stronger. Ever since everything that happened I'm always thinking about the surgery and the hospitalization, and every little pain scares me. Eventually, I saw in the shower that…" Amy pause. She was a little embarrassed, but then she saw the look on Sheldon's face and quickly continued her story.

"I saw that I got my period." Amy whispered. It wasn't something she wanted to tell Sheldon, but maybe it's for the better that way. she the continued.

"I just needed some time to calm myself and remind myself that it's okay to have some pains and that not every pain will be related to what happened, and that's why it took me a while to get out of the shower. I'm sorry if I worried you." Amy said and lowered her eyes.

Sheldon took her hand and caressed it.

"I can see why you'd be terrified every time you have a little pain in the area of your surgery, but I want you to tell me if something is bothering you. even if it's just your… well menstrual cramps. I told you I'm not so good with social cues, so I might need you to tell me exactly what's bothering you." Sheldon told her.

"I know. though you are better than you think you are." Amy said with a smile.

"I don't know… somehow I can sometimes understand you, but with others it's a lot more difficult." Sheldon said and looked down at their hands for a moment.

"So that's what was going on with you the entire day?" Sheldon asked her with one eyebrow raised.

"Pretty much. It really affects my mood, how I feel physically and mentally. A lot of the times I get into deep thoughts about my life and almost every time I get super hungry a few days before." Amy told him.

"And how are you feeling now?" Sheldon asked her.

"I'm just a little tired. I took a painkiller in the morning and I think I might take one now before its affect will fade away completely." Amy said as she felt a little cramp and went to take a pill.

"Do you want me to do anything? do you want me to leave?" Sheldon asked. it was a first for him and he didn't know what to do. I mean, he grew up with a sister and a mother but he never wanted to help his sister and his sister never wanted him near at that time. and if he was near he got kicked in the nuts, so all the more reason to stay clear from his sister.

"No. I want you to stay. We can watch TV or something." Amy said as she got back to the leaving room.

"Um… do you mind me going to change my pants for a moment?" Amy asked him.

"Not at all." Sheldon said and she went to change her pants and got back after a few short moments in her pajama pants and sat next to Sheldon. She then turned on the TV and they ended up watching a documentary about WW2.

At some point in the documentary, the pill Amy took started to affect her and she fell asleep on the couch, leaning lightly on Sheldon's shoulder. Sheldon noticed that and woke Amy gently.

"Amy wake up." He said gently and she moved and looked up at him.

"Sorry. I guess I got a little tired." She said with an apologetic tone.

"It's okay. it's getting late and you're getting tired. I think that's the cue for me to go back home." Sheldon said with a smile, but inside he wanted nothing more than to stay with her another night.

"I'm so sorry. I guess the pill had a string affect on me. I'll take you home." She said and got up to take her stuff to dive Sheldon home.

"No way. you look pretty tired. You need you're rest. I'll take the bus." Sheldon got up as well."

"Are you sure?" Amy asked. and in response to that, Sheldon leaned and kissed her lightly on the lips.

"Yes. Go rest." He said firmly and kissed her again, more passionately than the first kiss.

"Okay. just let me know that you home safe." Amy said as they broke the kiss.

"I will." Sheldon said and kissed her once more and then left.

After Sheldon lest Amy cleaned the leaving room and the kitchen, took a shower and then went to bed. Sheldon was right` she was exhausted.

About fifteen minutes after she got into bed, her phone rang and she looked at the screen and it was Sheldon.

"Hey. Is everything okay?" She asked him. she was sure he'll text her when he'll get home.

"Yes. Everything is fine. I got home and I wanted to tell you that I had a lovely weekend with you." Sheldon said in a soft voice.

"I had a lovely weekend too, Sheldon. I'm glad to hear that you got home safe. I really enjoyed our weekend together. All of it." Amy said, hoping that Sheldon will understand what she referred to.

"I enjoyed it as well. All of it." he said with a shy tone and Amy understood that Sheldon knew exactly what she was talking about.

"Goodnight Amy, sleep well and I hope you'll feel better soon." Sheldon said after a few seconds of silence.

"Thank you, Sheldon. have a good night as well." she said back and they hung up the phone.

They both went to sleep happy after an enjoyable weekend together, which they both wished wouldn't end.

The next days Amy and Sheldon texted and talked on the phone most of the time. they were both extremely busy with their work, but with every day that passed Amy's messages were shorter and straight to the point or it took her a while to text him back, a thing that got Sheldon suspicious and after five days of that, Sheldon decided to check on Amy in person.

Sheldon checked his schedule on Friday and saw he could miss a few hours at work so he decided to go to Amy's work and talk to her. when he got to UCLA he was a bit lost, but after some help, he found Amy's lab. He watched her for a few moments, as she was examining something under her microscope.

She's so pretty. Sheldon thought as he saw Amy in her lab coat, working. Sheldon was used to see Amy after work. Seeing her during work was refreshing, and kind of sexy, if he would be honest with himself.

You're here to see what is going on with her, not to stare at her like an idiot. Sheldon scolded himself and knocked on Amy's lab door.

Knock, knock, knock, Amy.

Amy looked up from her microscope with a confused look that quickly change to something different, that Sheldon could assume was scared.

"Hey Sheldon. What are you doing here?" Amy asked him as she opened the door and let him in.

"I came to see you. I was getting worried about you." Sheldon said without hesitation.

"What? Why?" Amy said as she went back to her desk and wrote some notes on her note-pad.

"Because it seems to me that you got a little distant these past few days. Is everything okay?" Sheldon asked her. while he was talking, Sheldon noticed that Amy haven't made any eye contact with him, and it rose his suspicion even more.

"Yeah… I was just busy." She dismissed him and still didn't looked at him.

"Amy, please talk to me. Is everything okay? you don't even make eye contact with me" Sheldon pressed.

"Yes." Amy answered and briefly looked at Sheldon.

"Amy, I maybe not good with reading people's feelings, but in these past months I learned some of your expressions and emotions. I still don't excel at it, but right now I can tell that something is up, so please tell me what's wrong. Are you okay? is everything okay with the surgery?" Sheldon pressed. He wasn't leaving until he'll get his answers.

"Yes. Everything is okay with my surgery." Amy answered and kept working.

"Amy please stop for a few moments. I promise it won't take long." Sheldon pleaded. Something was going on and he didn't know what it was and it scared him.

"What Sheldon?" Amy finally stopped her worked and looked at him.

"What's going on with you? why are you so short with me? Did something happen? Did I do something?" Sheldon asked her, a sad tone in his voice.

"Everything is fine Sheldon, I already told you." Amy said. She was indeed bothered, but not because of Sheldon, but because of herself.

"It's not! Stop telling me that. I can see that you're going through something and you try to distant yourself from me. Why are you doing this?" Sheldon asked her with anger.

"Because…" Amy faltered.

"Because what?" Sheldon pressed.

"Because I'm a mess Sheldon, okay? I'm a mess and I don't know how to handle it so I don't know how you can handle it." She finally broke. She was about to cry or throw up or both.

"I've seen you hospitalized dealing with things I couldn't even dream of dealing myself, I've stayed after you told your dating history. I think I proved that I want to be with you and that I can handle whatever it is you refer to as 'mess'." Sheldon said with anger. He didn't like the fact that Amy still didn't give him enough credit.

"How are you going to deal with it if I can't even deal with it or accept it completely? Tell me… how are you going to deal with the fact that I pick at my skin for years to the point where I have scars on my body and I feel ashamed of myself? How are you going to deal with the fact that I used to hit or bite myself if I got extremely angry or frustrated? How are you going to deal with the fact that I'm so insecure that I'm literally afraid of doing things and want to stay in bed? Tell me… how are you going to deal with it? because I don't even know how to deal with it." Amy finally broke. Those things have been weighing on her for the last few days and she was mortified about them. she didn't know how to deal with them and she didn't think it'll be fair towards Sheldon to deal with them either.

Sheldon stood there, shocked at this turn of events, he didn't know what to say or do. He just found out about some private things about Amy and he didn't know how to digest this new information.

After a few moments of silence between them Amy finally spoke.

"That's what I thought." She said and got back to work.

Sheldon just kept standing there, gazing at the space, before he snapped out of his shock.

"I don't know." he whispered, but Amy didn't reply to it because she figured that's the answer she would get from him and that the next thing he'll do will be to go and relax. She didn't know what she wanted anymore. She knew she wanted Sheldon but she was also at a point that her insecurities clouded everything that she was willing to just give it all up.

"I don't know how to handle those things. I don't know what you're trying to achieve by keeping your distant and then snapping at me like I'm the one to blame. I'm not the one to blame here Amy, and you shouldn't take it out on me. I can walk away now and maybe in another time I would have done it, but we've got to a point where I can't just walk away from you. so I don't know how to deal with it or how to help you, but I am willing to try if you are, because if you're not ready then this is where it will end. It's your decision now." Sheldon said as he looked right at Amy.

Amy lifted her head to look at Sheldon and her eyes and nose were red.

"I'm sorry." She whispered and Sheldon just stood there. He didn't know what's the meaning of this, he didn't know if Amy was apologizing for what just happened or if she was ending things.

After a few moments of silence Sheldon turned to the door without another word. He didn't know what just happened, but the pain he felt was something he didn't want to feel. He felt like someone just punched him in the stomach.

As he walked towards the bus station he made a promise to himself that this is the first and last time he's going to date. He didn't want to experience that kind of pain ever again.

In the meantime, Amy snapped out of her shock and ran after Sheldon, but all she saw was him getting on the bus. She knew she have to apologize to him. he was right. He wasn't the one to blame for her problems and the way she told him everything was inappropriate. She knew she wanted to be with him, more then anything.

She went back to her lab to grab her stuff, but she didn't know if Sheldon went back to work or to his apartment. she tried to reach him on his phone but he didn't answer. She decided to try Leonard, who answered on the second ring.

"Hey Amy what's up?" Leonard answered.

"I'm okay. Look Leonard, I need you to do me a favor. Sheldon was at my work and we had an argument and he left. I need to talk to him and I don't know if he's back at his apartment or if he went to work. I tried and call him but he didn't answer my call. Can you please try and contact him and tell me where can I find him?" Amy practically begged him.

"I'll try and reach him, though if you ask me, my guess will be home, since it takes time to get here by bus from UCLA." Leonard said.

"Thanks," was all that Amy said and they hung up the phone.

Leonard called Sheldon who answered, and as he predicted Sheldon was on his way home. Leonard texted Amy and she grabbed her things and drove to Sheldon's apartment.

It took Amy pretty much the same time as the bus to get to Sheldon's apartment, since there was a traffic jam. She practically ran the three flights of stairs and knocked on Sheldon's door as she stabilized her breathing.

Sheldon opened the door the look on his face scared Amy. He didn't look good. He looked like someone just punched him and hurt him deeply and all Amy could think of was that she was responsible for that look on his face.

"Why are you here?" Sheldon asked her coldly.

"You said it was my decision." Amy said brokenly.

"Haven't you made it already? You came all the way here to inform me? I think I got it." Sheldon said and was about to close the door.

"I'm sorry Sheldon." Amy said and put her hand on the door.

"You said that already." Sheldon said and proceeded closing the door, but Amy spoke up before he closed it completely.

"I want to be with you." The door stopped moving and then started to open again.

"What do you mean by that?" Sheldon asked her, confused.

"Look. I handled things horribly. I shouldn't have distanced myself like that or talk to you like you were the one to blame for my own issues. You were right about that and I'm so sorry about it. I will never forgive myself for it, trust me. I will probably beat myself up about it in fifty years. It's just that in the last few days my gloomy thoughts took over and I couldn't shake them off. I can't tell you how sorry I am for the way I acted and reacted, but I can tell you that I do want to be with you, if you're still willing to handle with all of me." Amy said, lowering her eyes. She knew, as well as Sheldon, that this is the last time that these sorts of things happens. She can't risk losing Sheldon again. She won't risk it.

"I'm willing to do so, but we need to talk about this first. I don't want to do it here, so do you mind if we'll go to your apartment?" Sheldon asked.

"Sure." Amy said and they went to Amy's car and drove to her apartment.

Back in her apartment, Sheldon and Amy talked about everything that Amy told him in her lab and Amy explained to Sheldon that the fact the she picks at her skin is part if not the main reason, as to why she didn't like to wear revealing clothes. Sheldon just listened and took all the information in. after Amy was done with that part Sheldon reassured her that he's not going anywhere and that he accepts her just the way she is and that he's going to be with her through everything. They started to tell each other a little about their childhood. They discovered that they were both outcasts and were bullied in some way or another back in school, Amy told Sheldon that back in high school she wrote journals, that the only person who saw a small part of one of them was her ex, and she told Sheldon she regretted to ever show him that, since it was personal and she wasn't sure about the relationship and also all he did was to pity her after he read it and that's not what she wanted. When Sheldon asked her if she'll show him them she answered that once she'll feel more comfortable and confidant with herself and the relationship, she will show him the journals, a thing that Sheldon understood.

They talked for so long, that eventually they fell asleep on the couch and woke up when Leonard called Sheldon to see where he is. Sheldon told him he's with Amy and that he'll stay at her apartment that night since it was late.

After Sheldon hung up the call, Sheldon and Amy went to Amy's bedroom, changed clothes and went to sleep. Well, Sheldon only took off his pants and his top shirt, since he didn't have anything else.

Once in bed, they hugged each other tight and went to sleep, with a mutual thought in their mind that neither one of them was ready to say out loud, but both of them knew that the moment was getting closer than ever.

A/N:

Thank you all for your support and understanding. I'm hoping to go back on track with my writing soon. I hope you enjoyed this chapter. The part where Amy tells Sheldon what she's dealing with, is the things I'm currently dealing or dealt with them in the past, and those are some of my greatest insecurities.