Hey guy, guess what ! I'm ahead on chapters for once :D
I know for some of you, the last few chapters were confusing, so I'll give you a brief run through :)

Pretty much, Jacob didn't propose to Ness, he didn't spend the night with her, and she didn't get threatened, but she did get attacked, she did meet Damien and she was in the hospital for two weeks :) I hope that clears some things up, if you have any more questions feel free to ask, you can either leave a PM or write it in a review :D I will reply as soon as I get it.
Anyway, hope you like this chapter :)

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Chapter 25 – Jealousy Is A Sin, Jake.
RPOV

Oh the things I wanna do to him right now…

Oh the things I couldn't do to him right now with these bandages stuck to my back like leeches. Why couldn't that sex have been real? I mean god damn! Give me a dream that good and then rip it away? Who do you think you are?

I was so scared about being intimate with Jake, I mean, even though I couldn't feel my back right now, I can feel it when he touches me, but I would never admit that to him. The dull roar of the flames that still burned my open wounds struck me again. I knew it was time for my meds but I couldn't take them in front of Jake.

I continued to kiss, but my kisses were being controlled by the amount of pain I could endure, if something sharp hit me I would lunge into the kiss, giving it full force, and I'm afraid that Jake might've gotten the wrong message. Of course I wanted to be kinky and sexual with him right here, right now, but I have to face the truth, with injuries like mine, its best not to take chances.

I cleared my throat hesitantly and broke away from the kiss, when I looked at his face it was the most adorable thing I had ever seen, his eyes just beginning to open unwillingly, his lips, just a bit swollen from my all too forceful kissing and his cheeks the perfect shade of russet brown.

"What's wrong?" He asked curiously and I had to take my meds right now whether it hurt him or not so I decided to just be upfront about it and not beat around the bush, he was going to have to deal with it for the next week or so till the wounds completely close.

"I- Um- I need to take my meds." I said and his eyes instantly dropped. Should I just talk to him about it now so that I wouldn't have to deal with this expression every time I had to take my meds around him?

I got off him and reached into my bag which lay still and silent on the floor of the passenger seat, I pulled out a water bottle and my little orange box of pain killers that I was supposed to take five times daily. Unlike the average human who would only need three doses a day, since the venom works fast to relinquish the pill and its effects, I have to take it more often.

"Jake, look at me." I said and he lifted his gaze, but not to look at me, instead he stared coldly at the bottle of pills in my hand. It made me feel like a drug addict or something. "Jake." Only then did he lift his eyes to mine, they weren't angry, they were filled with grief, as if someone had died.

"Yeah?" He said in a monotone voice.

"You're gonna have to tell me what's wrong, so might as well do it now, that look is in your eyes every time I talk about the attack and my injuries, Jake, I have to be able to come to you when I wanna talk about these things without you making me feel bad about even mentioning it." I said and looked down at the bottle before tipping two pills into my hand; I quickly put them in my mouth and gulped down a heap of water. I heard him sigh and looked up at him, urging him to talk.

"You wer—I was sitting on my porch—I can't—" He took a deep breath before starting again. "I was waiting for you on my porch, I knew something was up when you didn't call but I didn't think anything of it, I didn't know—" I wanted to say something, interrupt what he was saying but I thought it was best to let him get it all out. "And then Edward calls and you're screaming and I can hear you, Ness, that sound is imprinted on my brain, I never want to hear it again, it was my fault that you were out there in the first place— and then that blood sucker finds you, so fucking coincidental."

I could tell he was getting angry now so I decided to cut in, "Jake, it wasn't your fault that I was out there, it was mine, sure I got in trouble because I was out with you, but I— Me— I chose to argue, I chose to leave, it was me, my choice, and how could you have known that this happened?" I asked a rhetorical question but it looked like he was going to answer anyway.

"God, I love you so damn much! I'm supposed to protect you, I'm such an idiot, I should've come and got you, I should've been with you, I would've protected you, I would've kept you safe… It's my job." He whispered the last part and I instantly felt bad, I should've called him as soon as I left.

"This right here," I pointed to the bottle of pills, "This is my fault, I should've called you, but I didn't, you have no reason to blame yourself, all this," I shook the bottle in my hands, "This is all me. Don't blame yourself, look at me," I took his hand and placed it over my heart, "I'm still alive, I'm healing and I will be fine. The only thing that matters is that I'm alive." I said in an attempt to make him see things my way.

"I was there when you nearly died, I was the one who fought, I fought for what seemed like hours, you died, your heart went flat, your face went pale. You died." He wasn't yelling, he wasn't even raising his voice, he was whispering, like if he talked any louder he would break into tears.

I took his hand and pressed it against my face, "I'm alive now, I'm not pale anymore, my heart is beating, I'm here." I whispered back. He leaned forward and pressed his forehead to mine, we sat like that for what seemed like hours when in fact it was only a couple of seconds.

"I just—I can't lose you." He whispered and I closed my eyes, I felt like there was some huge lump in my throat constricting my breathing, forcing the uncomfortable stuffiness to turn into tears in my eyes.

"You never have to lose me." I said and in that instant his lips were on mine, gentle yet hasty; if this was his way to deal with things then I wasn't going to stop him.

"Ness, you don't understand though, I belong to you, every fibre of my being belongs to you and only you, but you have the power to walk away at any moment, without any warning, you can leave me whenever you want to, and I'm terrified of that." I knew there was always this doubt at the back of his mind that kept reminding him that I didn't have to stay with him, that I could go off and love another without feeling a shred of guilt about it.

"Jacob Black, if there was such a thing as half-vampire-hybrid-child-imprinting, I would've imprinted on you, I'm tied to you, you are my everything, the reason that I wake up every morning, I will never stop loving you, and I have an eternity to prove that." Both of us chuckled quietly, he knew I was telling the truth, I would never lie to him.

"If that's true then don't go out tonight with him, stay here with me." He pleaded, I couldn't do that, I had made plans with Damien; it would be rude if I didn't honour my word. After all he did save my life.

"Jake, what do you have against Damien? I mean he saved my life" I asked curiously, was he jealous? The thought seemed plausible; after all, Jake was the over-protective come-near-my-girl-and-I'll-kill-you type of guy.

"You can just sense that something isn't right with him, I mean how can we trust him? Yeah, I know he saved your life, but for me, that's not enough proof that he's okay for you to be hanging around with… Edward can't read his mind; Jasper can't tell what he's feeling and Alice can't see his future, reason to not trust him, check." I didn't know about all this, wow, he must have a pretty impressive ability if that's the case; I made a mental note to ask him about it later.

"How about this, if you don't trust him, then send a pack member to guard me outside the restaurant, problem solved, and plus, even if he is untrustworthy, he obviously doesn't mean any harm if he saved my life." I emphasised the last phrase to make sure it sank into Jakes head that this guy did save me, and that's all the proof I need to be able to trust him.

"Fine, that is exactly what I'll do; I'll send Paul to watch you guys." He smiled his sly smile and looked at me like he was up to something.

"Paul, really?" I gave him an expression that clearly said that I was not amused, he probably knew that Paul would try to get into it with Dee, apparently, a while ago, Paul nearly caught Dee but instead was flung off a rock into the river that separates Quileute land from Vampire land. Paul really has it in for him.

"Yeah, you said a pack member, so Paul it is." Okay, now he was just trying to annoy me.

"Send Seth or don't send anyone at all." I gave him an ultimatum and he sighed, Seth was older and more experienced now, and I have to say that he did grow into a handsome young man; unfortunately he is yet to imprint.

"Fine, you have a deal." He chuckled and I was unsure as to whether I should be worried or happy that I had made this deal with him. I glared at him for a minute or so, he would give me what I wanted sooner or later. "What?" He asked when my staring became uncomfortable for him; it was always my special control over Jake.

"Why do you seem happy about this?" I glared at him some more and he chuckled.

"Well, for one, you'll be safe and two; I'll know what you guys are talking about, I'll be sure to listen carefully." He winked and I automatically regretted telling him he could have someone stand guard for me.

"Deal's off." I said in a voice that clearly stated it was final.

"You can't do that, the deal is on." He said in his alpha voice, Oh so he wanted to play this game.

"Jake, you may be used to using your Alpha voice with the pack, but with me, it doesn't work, deal's off." I smiled and he raised his eyebrows.

"Oh, really now? He said slyly, I had to giggle at his tone of voice, the one that said when I'm done with you; the deal will be back on, yeah right.

Soo, the deal was back on, and Seth, the one I had chosen will get to watch over me with his skilful eyes, and eagerly awaiting ears to send every bit of information he got to Jacob, I could tell Jake was satisfied with the way things had turned out in the car. DAMN! Him! And his too persuasive kissing abilities ruined my tactics!

So now I was at home, sulking at my stolen victory, waiting for a call from Dee. I didn't know what I should wear; the bandages were so huge that it looks like I had lumps on my back. Most of my dresses were open backed which made me hate my wardrobe at this exact moment.

I decided to raid my closet, there had to be something in here that was bound to be appropriate for such an occasion, not too seductive yet just a tad sexy. I pulled out an above the knee black dress, one that had a fully covered back in exchange for a dangerous plunging neck line.

I tried it on and sure enough it was the perfect dress, it did expose a bit of cleavage, but it accentuated everything but my back which made this one a winner. Great, now that I had my dress sorted, I just had to find the perfect shoes to go with it.

As I was looking at the neat rack of shoes at the back of my walk in closet, I heard my phone go off with that irritating ringtone; I had to remember to change that later on. I quickly ran to it, knowing well who it would be, after all, it was six-thirty on the dot.

"Hello?" I said breathless into the receiver, it was a hassle to find it and my closet was big.

"You seem out of breath, am I interrupting something?" He chuckled and my cheeks flushed, he probably wasn't even talking about that but my mind, being dirty and inappropriate picked up the ambiguity of his sentence.

"Oh, uh no, I was just waiting for you to call." I laughed and tried to catch my breath, it must've been the pain killers that really took it out of me.

He laughed again, "Okay, well how about I pick you up in an hour?" He asked and I was startled, an hour didn't give me much time for anything but I could probably have a speedy shower and get dressed in time, maybe even make him wait a bit.

"Sure, that sounds good… Oh and, um, where exactly are we going?" I asked, I had no idea where he was taking me, and I had to tell Jake so that Seth could be a little guard dog.

"It's a surprise." I could hear the smile in his voice and I smiled too, "Don't worry; I'm sure you'll love it." He said and chuckled.

"Hmm, so you know what restaurants I like then?" I laughed and took a seat on the bed.

"Who says I'm taking you to a restaurant?" His laugh was as easy as breathing; it came so easily for him. "I guess you'll have to wait and find out in an hour." He said teasingly, talking to him was so simple, I didn't feel like I had to put on an act for him.

Over the last two weeks we had become reasonably good friends, much to Jakes distaste, but he seemed to be someone I could relate to easily, and I didn't have to worry about being perfect around him, he had seen me at my worst.

I giggled before speaking into the receiver, "Well, now you've got me curious, I guess I will, see ya' soon." I said and hung up after he said his quick goodbye.

I fondled the phone in my hands while I stared aimlessly at it, did I really want to know all the details I had been avoiding for the past few weeks, what if they brought back memories I didn't want. I didn't want to turn into someone who was afraid to go out and be adventurous because of this.

I pushed the thoughts aside and hopped off the bed and into the bathroom, quickly dropping my clothes to the floor and staring at the bandages stuck to my back. I half-peeled the first one from the corner of my back, just beneath my shoulder. I was scared to look at the reflection in the mirror, in the past two weeks I had not once looked at my wounds.

I could see the cut; a deep slash that left a great big hole in my back, oozing from it was weird yellow stuff along with little drops of my blood, UGH! I quickly put the bandage back on; making sure it was airtight so that I could get in the shower.

Standing in the shower was different now that I was fully conscious of how I moved and how everything felt, I couldn't get used to that image in my mind, I never imagined having cuts or bruises on my skin because it was impossible back then, but now I didn't know.

When I was done with my usual routine, I wrapped the towel around me and headed out into my room to see that black dress laid out perfectly on my bed, with my low level heels that had a jewel strap. I wasn't taking any chances with walking.

Carefully fitting myself into the dress, I zipped up the side and stood to face myself in the mirror, who was this person I saw? I couldn't recognise myself, when did I become so serious? So formal?

I quickly unzipped the dress and let it fall to the floor, that wasn't me; I was someone who went for bright, blazing colours, not corporate black and grey. Considering I had no idea where we were going I pulled out a white chiffon dress from my wardrobe, it had a purple silk belt that tied in the back. This was me, fun.

I threw the black shoes to the side and picked out a pair a purple peep toe heels that were just the right height and just the right amount of support. I gave myself a look up and down before smiling.

I heard a car pull up outside and for some reason I was nervous, I had never been out on a date as some people would call it with anyone besides Jake. I sat on my bed, making sure my shoes were fitting properly, then checking that I had everything in my bag while I listened carefully to what was going on downstairs.

"Damien, what a lovely surprise." Said mom's voice, I could tell she was only being half sincere.

"Oh yes, I just came to pick Renesmee up, she wanted to talk about the attack." He said politely like he was the scared date trying to impress my parents.

"Well, that's very kind of you, please do come in, I'll go get her." She said and I heard the door close behind him, there was some shuffling on the floor and then footsteps coming up the small staircase, if you could call four steps a staircase, I figured this would be the perfect time to exit my room. Just as I opened the door she was about to touch the handle.

"Oh, Damien's here for you." She said and smiled, she was trying to hide some emotion behind her happy exterior, did anybody in my family trust this guy I was about to leave with?

"Yeah, I know, I was just getting all my stuff." I said and smiled, she could voice her concerns for me later when I'm emotionally scarred from all the information I will absorb tonight. I almost laughed at how I could say that in my head without really caring.

When I got to the end of the hallway, I saw him, he stood there in a pair of black jeans, a purple and black striped shirt and his signature leather jacket, how in the world did he know I would wear this dress? Or anything purple for that matter? Maybe it was just a coincidence that his shirt happened to match my dress.

"You look beautiful." He said and took my hand to press it to his cold lips. His eyes never left mine and I felt like I was crossing some line so I just shyly pulled my hand away and smiled.

"Um, should we go?" I looked at him and he smiled genuinely before looking at mom and dad, no doubt he had a talk with dad about taking me out tonight. I had to laugh, at least dad got to threaten someone.

"I won't have her home late." He said quickly before taking my hand and leading me out the door. He seemed very polite, good manners, good looks, good charms, there's no such man..

Well, since I already have the other chapter waiting, I'll let the reviews decide when I should put it up ;DD
Its a really good chapter to get to know Damien :) BONDING ! hehehe.