After Sebastian ended his talk with Burt, he immediately texted Kurt
From Sebastian
Hi. So I wondered if you would come by my place after school today?
Burt had actually said okay for Kurt and him beginning to spend time alone again. He had to pinch himself several times, before he actually believed that the conversation with Burt had been real. But he was so so grateful for that. And he was determined not to fuck this up again, but he needed to talk to Kurt and have him on the same side. He looked down as his phone beeped i with a message.
From Kurt
? I'm pretty sure my dad won't be home to come by too.. But if Travis is there, i can come by!
Sebastian smiled, as he replied.
From Sebastian
I know that Burt won't have time, he told me. And we agreed you could come over by yourself.
From Kurt
What?
From Sebastian
Yep :)
From Kurt
I'm gonna leave right away.
From Sebastian
No! :) You have to stay for the last two hours and then come over after school.
From Kurt
:(
From Sebastian
Don't :( me. I look forward to see you :)
From Kurt
Me too :) :) I can't believe my dad said it would be okay.
From Sebastian
Believe it. See you later Kurt Xxx
From Kurt
Xxx
Sebastian grinned and stuffed his phone down his pocket, before he went home.
"So.." Kurt said and looked up from where he had just taken the last sip of his cocoa.
Sebastian smiled "We should talk."
Kurt nodded and began fiddling with the fabric on his jeans.
"Hey, don't be nervous. It's just me." Sebastian said and covered the boy's hand with his.
Kurt breathed out, and he blurted out "I think we should talk about Owen."
Sebastian's eyebrows shot up into his forehead, because he hadn't seen that coming. "Ehh.. Okay.. What do you wanna talk about?"
Kurt bit down at his bottom lip, before he answered. "Are you still seeing him?"
Sebastian started shaking his head, before Kurt had even finished the question.
"No."
"Oh! Why?"
Sebastian sat back against the couch "Because i'm not interested in seeing anyone like that."
"Okay." Kurt said and blinked. Sebastian turned his body against his. "Can i try and explain?"
"Of course." Kurt answered and turned so he was also facing Sebastian.
"When I meet you a little over four years ago, i was beyond thrilled…. But in the age thing freaked me out.. Alot! But as time went by i got used to it. And even though i still want to be with you, in any sense of the word, I know that, that will not happen, not yet. Because you are 13 and i'm 28 and there would be so many things that wouldn't be okay if any of us reacted on that. So I have to wait and see how things will go. I know that we have done..Ehm, some stuff.. And I don't regret any of it, even though some of it shouldn't have happened. But we need to take a step back and get this.. Us, to function without being afraid of overstepping each other boundaries." Sebastian held out his hand, so Kurt could take it if he wanted.
"Me being with Owen, was something I needed, because i'm a grown man and I like to have sex and Owen was attractive so i choose to be with him, because it felt right." Sebastian could feel Kurt had tensed a little and squished his hand. "You finding out about Owen the way you did, was not how I wanted things to go and i'm sorry if I hurt you in any way. But i can't promise you that I won't be with other men."
Kurt nodded and looked down to see Sebastian's bigger hand covering his smaller one."Tell me what you're thinking?" Sebastian whispered.
"I don't really know." Kurt said and looked up and into the green eyes which meant so much for him. "I know we cannot really be together because of the age thing and to be honest i'm just happy if I can spend time with you whenever I want. I..I don't like the thought about you hugging anyone else or stuff like that, but i understand that I can't really decide what you should do or not do."
Sebastian listened to the boy and when Kurt's voice trailed off by the end, he leaned over to hug him, but the boy held up a hand. "I have ti finish, because else i'm not sure i will have courage to say this." So Sebastian nodded and sat back to listen.
"I like when we hug. I really really like it, because i feel safe in your arms and I haven't felt like that since my mom died. I think that's why i don't like the thought about you hugging another man… But i'm not sure if that is because of the soulmate thing or because i'm feeling something more for you. And.. And i think it will be good for me to figure that out on my own this coming years."
Sebastian nodded, because that sounded like a great decision.
"I talked with Travis that day at the game." Kurt said and looked down, which made Sebastian frown a little, because what had that to do with anything. "What did you two talk about?"
Kurt swallowed. "I told him that i hadn't slept well. That i'm having nightmares almost every night and that i think it's because you and I haven't been spending time together…"
"Kurt..!" Sebastian gasped and took the boys hands in his.
"I didn't know if telling you was okay.." Kurt sniffed and a small tear rolled down his cheek.
"Hey.." Sebastian and tilted the boys head up to look him in the eyes. "Remember what I always tell you?"
When Kurt didn't answer, Sebastian stroked his cheek. "I always tell you that you can talk to me. And I mean it. No matter what. I will alway be here and listen when you want to say something."
"I know." Kurt whispered and crawled into Sebastian's arms, relaxing when he feels strong arms surrounding him in a tight hug.
They sat like that for almost 20 minutes, before Sebastian whispered. "Do you want to watch Grease or another movie?" But Kurtmshook his head and snuggled closer into the man's arms. "No... But will you sing for me?"
Sebastian smiled and placed a small kiss in Kurt's hair. "Always."
"I don't wanna see you ever sad
Everything I've got, you can have
When it's all too much
You need some human touch
To see it's really not so bad"
"Anything that hurts you, hurts me too
I'm not gonna let your, world turn blue
Will you take my hand"
"And feel how close I am?
There ain't nothing I won't do for you"
"Hold on, till you feel a little stronger
Hold on to me yeah, now I said
Hold on, everything's gonna be alright
Just hold on to me tonight"
End of February
Sebastian: Happy birthday to my favorite boy
Kurt: :) Are you still picking me up after school?
Sebastian: Of course. You dad borrowed me the van, so Sam and Annabel can drive with us.
Kurt: That's great.
Kurt: What about Casper?
Sebastian:? I thought you said he couldn't make it?
Kurt: He may have changed his mind.
Sebastian: Well, if you want hm there the kid can come too.
Kurt: :) Xxx
Mid April
Kurt: Casper won't be home for his birthday
Sebastian: Why not? I thought his parents changed their mind and wanted him to stay home this time?
Kurt: I did too.. But apparently not.
Sebastian: That's crap! When will he leave?
Kurt: This sunday :(
Sebastian: You want to cancel our playday and go hang out with him instead?
Kurt: It doesn't matter, because Daisy will be home sunday and as long as she is their it won't' be fun to hang out at his house. And we can't be here either, because dad is having some old co-workers over for some card playing.
Sebastian: You guys can be here, if you want? Then you can have a sleepover from friday to saturday and invite Annabel and Sam too..
Kurt: REALLY?!
Sebastian: Of course :)
Kurt: Can you ask Travis if he want's to come too?
Sebastian; You want me and Travis to be there?
Kurt: Of course :) you guys are Casper's friends too.
Sebastian: :)
Around July
Sebastian: See you at the beach in 20 minutes? (Picture of Sebastian in swim shorts attached)
Kurt: Sure:)
Kurt: By the way I like the picture….
Sebastian: Of course you do, we're soulmates ;)
Kurt: Dork
Sebastian: Yep
October
Kurt: So halloween?
Sebastian: No..
Kurt: ;(
Sebastian: Kurt, i'm turning 28!
Kurt: So? when i'm 40 i will still dress up for it.
Sebastian: I hold you too that
Kurt: Does that mean you want to do it?
Sebastian: No! But send me a picture of your outfit. And have fun with Sam.
Kurt: Will do :)
1 hour later.
Kurt: My Halloween costume. (Picture of Kurt in his 'ring on it' leotard attached)
Sebastian: ! That is what you're wearing?!
Kurt: Yeah :) I made it myself
Sebastian: Did your dad see it?
Kurt: I told him about it, but he haven't really seen it.
Kurt: Why? Is something wrong with it?
Sebastian: No!
Sebastian: ...
Sebastian: It's perfect Xx