A/N: This chapter has some Clexa in it, but I wanted to talk about Octavia some as well, so get excited! =D Thank you guys for being patient with me! This past week was crazy. Really stressful and a bit disappointing in some aspects, and I probably won't get another update up until next Friday/Saturday, because next week is my midterms week. Exciting right? Ahah.
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Clarke grabbed her lunch out of her locker and started to the cafeteria as fast as possible – she was trying her hardest to avoid Wells so she didn't have to feel the pain that she knew would come the next time she saw him. As she hurried, Bellamy intercepted her.
"What's the rush, princess?"
"Rather not run into Wells," Clarke answered, shaking her head. "Sorry, I didn't think about the fact that you were gonna meet me there."
"Don't worry about," Bellamy insisted. "How's your Monday treating you?"
"Depends on if Raven has a phone for me when we get to lunch," Clarke answered, letting out a light sigh.
Bellamy gave her a curious look. "What happened to your phone, princess?"
"The evil queen took it once she found out that the princess decided to drink and lie about it," Clarke answered, rolling her eyes. "Which is totally awesome, since if she wanted to, she could go read all of my texts with everyone. Including Wells and Lexa."
"I'm guessing the queen doesn't know about her royal daughter dating another princess?" Bellamy asked, smirking as if he thought his continuation of the monarchy theme was amusing. Clarke just rolled her eyes fondly at him.
"No, she doesn't. And I'd prefer it to stay that way. Fingers crossed she doesn't look at it," Clarke muttered. They were now approaching the lunch table, and Bellamy made his way around to sit on the opposite side as Clarke took her normal spot.
"Raven, where's O?" Bellamy asked.
Raven shrugged. "Not sure. She was here in first period."
"Where would she go?" Clarke wondered.
Finn sat down, and Bellamy immediately looked to him. "Was Octavia in fourth period?"
"Nope," Finn answered. "Should she have been?"
"Uh, yes," Bellamy answered, looking rather disgruntled.
"What's going on?" Lexa asked as she sat down suddenly, seeming to be able to sense the concern at the table.
"We don't know where Octavia is," Clarke answered, looking at her girlfriend with a slightly worried expression.
"Would she be with Lincoln?" Lexa wondered.
Everyone's heads turned to where Lincoln normally sat for lunch, but he was there without Octavia. Bellamy let out a huff. "I'm going to go find her." He was up and gone in a matter of seconds.
"Should we...?" Clarke started slowly.
"No," Raven answered, sighing. "Whatever is up, Bellamy is probably the best to try to talk to her first. If she won't talk to him, we can try. Oh hey, by the way. You might want this."
She slid an slightly used looking iPhone across the table, and Clarke picked it up. "Thanks."
"You'll have to use your email to message from it," Raven said, waving her hand. "Should be fine. My number is in it, by the way."
Clarke messed around with it for a minute, and Raven fell into conversation with Finn. Lexa wasn't saying anything, and Clarke wondered as she messed with her phone if she was worried about Octavia.
Once her message app was set up, she slid the phone across the table to Lexa. "Gimme your number."
"Smooth," Lexa commented, a small smirk on her face as she grabbed the phone.
"I never claimed to be smooth, so don't make fun of me," Clarke said playfully, and Lexa handed the phone back to her.
"Who said I was making fun of you?" Lexa was still giving her that amused look.
Clarke leaned forward a bit in her seat, though she didn't really notice she was doing it. "Your face says it all."
"Oh yeah?" Lexa asked, quirking up an eyebrow.
Clarke nodded. "You can't hide things from me, because your eyes are really obvious."
"My eyes?" Lexa asked, and Clarke would've sworn she saw the beautiful green eyes sparkle.
"Yes," Clarke answered, and then she made the mistake of looking into Lexa's eyes for a second too long, and she just really wanted to kiss her girlfriend. But leaning any further over the table would've made it awkward.
"Hey blondie," Raven said suddenly, snapping Clarke out of her gaze.
"What?" Clarke asked, looking to her right at the other brunette and leaning back a bit, ignoring the amused half smile on Lexa's face.
"Where are you friends?" Raven asked.
Clarke blinked, realizing that Jasper and Monty were not at the table – it was just Lexa, Clarke, Raven and Finn. She immediately glanced over her shoulder and saw that they were sitting with Wells. However, they didn't all seem to be talking. In fact, Jasper and Monty looked a bit uncomfortable, and Wells just looked upset.
Clarke felt her stomach twist and she tore her eyes away from them.
"Are you okay?" Lexa asked her.
"Yeah, I just... ugh," Clarke muttered, running her hands through her hair. "I'm fine."
"You can't feel bad about the way he reacted to things," Finn piped up kindly. "It's not your fault."
"It sure feels like it is," Clarke said, letting out a short sigh. "Whatever. Let's just talk about something else."
"Ooh, I have something!" Raven said, grinning widely. "So, assuming that everything is alright with Octavia, I think that the six of us should go on a triple date on Saturday."
"Six of us?" Lexa asked, raising an eyebrow.
"Me and Finn, you two, and Octavia and Lincoln, obviously," Raven answered, grinning. "We can go to the arcade or something."
Clarke and Lexa exchanged a quick glance, and Clarke shrugged. "Fine by me, assuming my mother hasn't decided to lock me in the room by then."
"If she does, we'll come kidnap you," Raven volunteered.
Lexa smiled. "I already told you I would be your getaway car anyway."
"You did say that, didn't you?" Clarke said cheekily, grinning at her girlfriend.
"You know," Finn said, drawing the girls' attention to him, "I'm not sure how I didn't notice that you two were together. It's so obvious the way you look at each other."
"Yeah, same," Raven agreed, frowning. "I feel so unobservant."
"You are," Clarke said helpfully, and then the bell to dismiss lunch rang out around them. Raven sighed.
"Clarke, let me know if Octavia is in sixth period."
"Sure thing," Clarke answered, before getting up from the table and walking with Lexa out of the cafeteria. "Do you think Octavia is okay?"
"She's probably just a little overwhelmed with everything. School, and trying things out with Lincoln. It happens every now and then," Lexa admitted. "Hopefully she'll be fine."
Clarke nodded slowly, wondering what exactly was up with her generally chipper friend. "I can still come to your place after school, right? I'd like to stay away from my mom for as long as possible."
"Sure," Lexa answered, smiling, "but don't get into too much more trouble."
"She can't really do much more. She can't take my keys – without my phone that would be awful. And she can't monitor whether I go out or not, because she's never home," Clarke said, shaking her head. "I'll just tell her I stayed after school for tutoring or something."
"Well I'm glad she can't make you stay home," Lexa commented, "because then I would miss my Clarke time."
Clarke felt her cheeks turn pink as she smiled. They stopped at the spot where they usually split directions, and Clarke gave her what she hoped was a cute smile. "You're cute."
"Likewise," Lexa said, her cheeks flushing as well. "What are you looking at me like that for?"
"Like what?" Clarke asked, but before Lexa could answer, she said, "You always think I'm looking at you like something."
"Because you always are," Lexa defended.
Clarke rolled her eyes, but she was smiling. She took a small step forward and placed her lips boldly against her girlfriend's. Lexa immediately kissed her back, though she seemed a bit surprised. They weren't quite accustomed to public displays of affection. When she pulled back, the blonde gave Lexa a smile and a bat of her eyelashes. "See you later."
Art class was, as per usual, her favorite class of the day. They got a new theme to sketch for, and despite Clarke's progress, she found herself constantly getting distracted. She was either wondering about Octavia, or thinking about Lexa, or trying her hardest not to think about Wells or her mom, and then she would realize that she needed to be paying attention to her art.
On her way out of fifth period, Dr. Wright said, "Clarke. Try to be more attentive tomorrow, please."
"Yes, sir," Clarke responded, nodding. As she left the classroom, she scolded herself mentally for zoning out so much.
Clarke walked into her sixth period, immediately noticing that there was a substitute teacher in the class and that the board announced that it was just a study day. Clarke found herself relieved at that, and she sat down in her seat.
Moments later, Octavia walked in, noticing the writing on the board and looking relieved as well. She sat next to Clarke, who was giving her a concerned look. "Hey, are you alright?"
Octavia let out a long breath. "I guess."
"What's up?"
The bell rang to start class, and neither of them spoke as the sub quickly introduced himself and then let them begin to study and work among themselves. Clarke looked back at the brunette, who looked like she didn't know how to start whatever it was she wanted to talk about. Finally, she asked, "Do you ever wonder if you and Lexa moved too fast?"
Clarke blinked. She hadn't been expecting that question. "I mean... no, I don't. But I guess we moved kind of fast."
Octavia shrugged. "I'm not trying to say it's bad or anything. Both of you needed each other, so it's fair enough that you would get attached so quickly. I get pretty close to people pretty quickly too, especially friends. That's probably why I'm so picky with people that I like. I know as soon as I get close to someone it'll be a done deal, you know?"
Clarke nodded, even though she didn't really know the feeling exactly.
"But I guess that's not why I'm picky. Right before I met Raven and Finn – I met them around the same time – I wasn't really close to Bellamy as much. He was just my brother who was somehow exactly old enough to be in the same grade as me. We never really talked though, because we were always in different level classes. I was in this really big group of friends, and it was fun and always exciting to be a part of. Parties, hangouts, gossip. They were really good at making everyone feel like a part of the group, even though there was nearly like fifteen people a part of it. But I was the one that was always struggling to be a part, I guess," Octavia muttered, rolling her eyes.
"Maybe I should've known that having to fight so hard to stay a part of a big group that didn't seem to fight to keep me there was unhealthy, or maybe I should've at least figured it out before they decided that their group was too big and they dumped me and left me behind. They said that I was clingy and weird or something like that."
Clarke furrowed her eyebrows. "Wait, seriously? They don't sound so great."
"Exactly," Octavia said, sighing. "I'm not going to lie, I'm pretty resilient. I was fine a couple of months later, when I met Raven and Finn. But for a little while there, I had nobody. I didn't want to talk to Bellamy about it, but when he noticed that I wasn't always out doing things, he asked me about it. And I told him, and we've been closer ever since. My friends are all really protective over me because of it, but I'm usually fine. I trust all of my friends, you included, Clarke. And I hope you trust me."
Clarke nodded, because she did trust Octavia. Why shouldn't she? She'd been nothing but honest and trustworthy thus far.
"Every now and then, when things are changing a lot, I get... panic attacks I guess. It's probably stupid, because people get panic attacks for way more important reasons. But I just start to feel like things are changing and I'm going to be left behind and... that's what I don't like. I don't like feeling like I'm going to be left behind while everything is still moving around me," Octavia murmured.
Clarke gave her friend a sympathetic smile. "O, that would never happen. We all love you too much to leave you behind."
"I know," Octavia said, smiling gratefully. "It's still a scary thing to think about. Anyway, now that that's out of the way..."
She didn't say anything else, so Clarke took the conversation into her own hands, even though she knew that she should probably be using this time to actually study. "So... do you think that Lexa and I moved too fast?"
"Well... you're girlfriends... you've had sex..." Octavia listed, and Clarke felt her face flush at how bluntly Octavia said it. Luckily, no one seemed to hear around them. "I know plenty of people who have moved faster than you two. You haven't said the three words yet, right?"
Clarke's eyes widened. "Oh. No."
"Then you're perfectly fine," Octavia reasoned, waving her hand. "In my opinion, the only thing that can be defined as too fast is when you tell someone you love them before you know for sure. So as long as you only tell Lexa you love her once you actually love her, I think you're going at the perfect pace."
The blonde relaxed a little bit. "I guess that makes sense. Thanks."
Octavia smiled widely. "Don't worry about it. So, I texted Raven that I'm all good, and I heard something about a triple date on Saturday?"
Clarke laughed lightly. "Yeah, apparently we're doing that."
"You and Lexa are going, right?" Octavia asked.
Clarke nodded. "I think we are."
"Yay!" Octavia squealed. "I'm so excited!"
Clarke smiled fondly at her friend and then finally pulled out her studying materials. She might as well use the period for what it was being given to her as.
This wasn't my best chapter ever, that's for sure, but it was kinda necessary I think for a few reasons. So I hope you enjoyed it nonetheless :) Let me know in a quick review?
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