Hello out there beautiful readers! I want to thank all the people who are following this story, for all your reviews, favorites, to all the guests and viewers. Thank you so much for still being here with me, I really appreciate it.
Now… I'm not a person who gives excuses but I think you should know that I had a little accident and my hand got hurt so it has been really hard to write this and post it. Doctor says is going to be a whole month of recovery but not even that is going to stop me so... here's a new chapter. Just be patient with me :)
I want to dedicate this one to TowerOfRavens and DFope, thank you so much for being there.
"No Hate, No Cyberbullying, Just McHastings' and PLL' love"
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"Love me Without Fear. Trust me Without Wondering. Love me Without Restrictions. Want me Without Demand. Accept me How I am.
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The world outside was gone. The movie marathon was long forgotten and everybody was in their respective rooms, including Erick who was Paige's guest for the night.
When they decided it was time to go to bed, Paige walked Katy to her room to make sure her little girl wasn't uncomfortable with the new environment, but thankfully Katy was more than happy to spend the night in her new room. Erick was the next one; he agreed to spend the night in his sister's apartment so he went outside to take some stuff from his truck and then went back inside to the room Paige assigned him earlier. Paige finished to put Katy in bed and went back to the living room where Spencer was waiting for her.
The TV was still on and Spencer was staring at it but without paying too much attention, she was just trying to calm herself. It was clear that she was a little nervous of the conversation they were about to have, she even took her time alone in the living room to look for a good way to explain Paige what had happened the night before, not because she was afraid of Paige been mad at her but afraid of telling Paige that she went to Aria's to cried her problems out instead of going with her. Is not like she can't trust Paige, is just that everything with her is so new and she has to get use to have a new person in her life.
But talking was the last thing Paige wanted to do, she wasn't going to waste the short time she got with Spencer asking for explanations, now Spencer was there with her and nothing else was important so Paige walked to the couch and slowly sat next to her. The other girl smiled when she saw Paige getting close and before she could even notice; Paige's lips were on hers, and this time she wasn't holding back her emotions, this time there was nobody around to interrupt and this time nobody was going to stop them at least they decided to stop.
Although the kiss took Spencer completely by surprise, she wasn't complaining, it was quite the opposite actually, she was happily responding to Paige's mouth.
The kiss started slowly, their lips almost asking for permission to be touch until Spencer wrapped her arms around Paige's neck and deepened the kiss. Spencer taking the lead was exactly what Paige wanted, not only in these intimate moments but in the whole 'relationship' thing. She didn't want to push Spencer too far so Paige waited for her to make the first move and thankfully, she didn't have to wait for too long because just a few seconds after being in the same rhythm, Paige felt Spencer's tongue brushing her lips, asking for permission into her mouth; which Paige allowed gladly.
The kiss quickly became very heated as Spencer slid her tongue into Paige's mouth. Spencer moaned into the kiss as she felt Paige's hands gently slide up and down her side. Without breaking the kiss, Paige leaned into Spencer's body as she pushed her over the couch until she was on top of her. The couple broke apart only for a second in order for each of them to take in a quick breath. Spencer tangled her fingers into Paige's hair as their lips met again, though Spencer's hands didn't stay buried in Paige's hair for long before they slowly moved downward, across the other girl's broad shoulders and down her toned biceps. It surprised Spencer how fit Paige was; even over the clothes she could feel Paige's muscles.
Spencer's hands slipped lower, still down Paige's back and to the hem of her jeans. Spencer slowly moved her hands up underneath Paige's shirt, caressing the small of her back. Spencer tipped her head back when she felt Paige leaving her mouth and moving to her neck, trailing a line of kisses across her throat. Spencer pulled Paige closer and wrapped her legs tightly around her waist in an attempt to feel Paige's body as much as humanly possible.
"Paige…" Spencer exhaled sharply and closed her eyes as she felt Paige sucking on her pulse point
The sound of Spencer's husky voice brought Paige back to reality, she was not only very aware of the throbbing between her legs but she was also aware of how fast things were carrying away. She was very happy that Spencer felt so free and comfortable around her but she also realized that it was too soon to take their 'relationship' to the next level, they just started to deal with their feelings for each other and jump so fast into the sex stage could ruin everything they've worked on so far.
Paige reluctantly took a deep breath and stop her movements abruptly, making Spencer open her eyes by the suddenly change. Spencer looked at Paige with concern not knowing what was happening.
"Is everything ok?" Spencer asked worried. She was still breathing heavily from their heated make out session
"Uhm… yes, it is" Paige answered, trying to recover her breath "it's actually pretty good… too good to be honest and that's why I had to stop"
"I don't get it…" Spencer said softly
"Spence, I don't want to do something we could probably regret later" Paige said honestly
"But I thought you wanted this… that you wanted… me" Spencer said with a hint of sadness in her voice. She was feeling a little hurt thinking that Paige was probably getting seconds thoughts about them
"Believe me; there's nothing I could want more than be with you in that way but I don't want you to feel pressure and I don't want to feel that I'm forcing you into something"
"But you're not forcing me into anything" Spencer put her hand on Paige's cheek and caressed the skin there with her thumb, always looking into Paige's eyes to make sure the other girl understands that she wasn't afraid of give herself completely to her.
"You can feel that right now but I think we should wait for the right time to come. I don't want to let myself drag for the heat of the moment. I want to make things right and I want for our first time to be special, as cheesy and tacky that may sounds. I really want for that moment to be just you and me, enjoying each other's company and nothing else between us"
Spencer's heart was about to explode, never in her life she has felt such a powerful feeling taking over her whole body, not even when she actually had her first time. Everything at that moment felt so rush; she was afraid of losing the person she loved and the pressure from her girlfriend at that moment wasn't helping at all, so she took what she thought was the best decision for both of them, she agreed to have sex with her and of course the moment was everything less special, leaving her a sensation of emptiness the next morning.
But Paige wasn't her ex; Paige was an adorable, thoughtful and considerate woman that was always putting other people's needs over her own and that was something that always makes Spencer's heart melt. Paige was her wonderful present, beyond the real world that was waiting outside, and if she had even had a little doubt before about her feelings for the girl in front of her, now there was nothing that could make her think other way.
"I love you…" but the words let Spencer's mouth without permission. It was so suddenly that not only surprised Paige but also Spencer herself
"What…?" Paige whispered still trying to process Spencer's words but Spencer was in shock, she didn't plan to say what she was feeling to Paige and now it was too late to change her words
"I… uhm… it's nothing…" she looked away trying to hide her embarrassment
"No… I heard what you said I just…"
"Forget you just heard that… you… you don't have to say anything. I wanted to say how I feel but I know you don't feel the same way… at least not yet and…" Spencer's rumble was cutting off by Paige's soft lips. She took Spencer by surprise but she couldn't let Spencer think that those were only a one sided feelings.
Paige pull away after a few seconds looking for Spencer's eyes to let her know that what she was going to say next was nothing but the truth
"I love you too" Paige's words were soft but firm at the same time, she didn't even blink when she pronounced them and Spencer didn't let that unnoticed
"Really…? I mean… you're not saying that… just because I said it first and you don't want me to feel bad about it… don't you?" Spencer's voice was a mix of concern and surprise. She wasn't expecting from Paige to say she loves her back and of course she was thrilled about it but she was also worried that the other girl was saying those words only because she felt obliged
Paige let out a soft smile "Do you really think I'm the kind of person who says something that important just to make someone happy?" Paige waited for Spencer's answer
"No…" Spencer let out the answer more as a question than an affirmation
"Spencer Hastings… Do you seriously doubt about my feelings?" Paige tried to sound as serious as possible but truth was that Spencer looks so cute when she is concern about something, with that little frown in her face and that sweet pout on her lips.
"No… no… of course not" Spencer answered immediately "I didn't mean to…" but before she could continue with what she was about to say, she heard Paige laughing which make her feel a little confuse.
"I'm just messing with you, Spence…" Spencer quirked her eyebrow at her and Paige gave her a soft peck on the lips. When Paige pulled away her smile was replaced for a serious expression "Listen, I want to be 100 percent honest with you here… I won't deny that I felt devastated when I found out that Emily was cheating on me" Spencer was looking at her intently "for me was really hard to know that the person I loved for so many years betray my trust, making me even feel that I wasn't enough for her or for anybody" Spencer took one of Paige's hands on hers "and I was ready to close the door to any possibility of falling in love. I was feeling awful and the last thing I wanted was to get hurt again but that night, when you showed up on my table, you made me feel different. I don't know if it was those beautiful eyes looking directly at me, or that charming smile you gave me seconds later but you just got to me. Even when I was rude to you, you never gave up. At any point over the last few weeks, you could have stopped seeing me. When I was broken and mad, you had the perfect excuse to drop me off and never return, but you didn't. You were always there; you helped me heal my wounds, both physically and emotionally" There were tears forming in the corners of Spencer's eyes "At first, I was scared of any possible relationship so I thought that having a friendship with you was the best option but then, we spent more and more time together and you even showed me the most private side of your life and I couldn't help but falling in love with you. You're a wonderful human being, not to mention that you're also gorgeous, sweet, smart and I can go on and on describing you but I prefer to live this instead of talking. So… just to stop my word vomit; I want to say that I love you, not because you said it first but because that's how my heart feels and I'm going to prove that to you every single day of my life. I know things are difficult for us right now but we're going to fight it, together… if that's what you want, of course"
Spencer cupped Paige's face in her hands, pleased when the other girl leaned into the touch "Of course, I want to… you're the person I've been waiting my whole live, you gave me hope when my world was falling apart and I don't want to be without you anymore"
"Then I want to ask you something… I know this is going to sound really crazy under the current circumstances but I'm going to ask you anyway… Spencer do you… do you want to be my… girlfriend?" Paige asked doubtfully, she knew the question sounded stupid giving the fact that they were still married with other people but she did what she felt was the right thing to do at that moment
"You're right…" Spencer smiled "it sounds pretty crazy but I really want to be with you and of course I want to be your girlfriend. I want to be yours and only yours"
They were happy beyond words. Things were going pretty fast again but what was the point on holding back their feelings for each other? They wanted to be together no matter the obstacles on the road and if they would have to fight against everything and everyone then, they were ready to do it.
Paige took the initiative to celebrate their new official relationship with a breathtaking kiss. Their love was already out, whether the world was ready to accept it or not
"Stay the night…" Paige let out with a soft voice after they broke the kiss "I know we're not ready for anything beyond kissing but I really want to wake up with you next to me. I want to feel you and see your beautiful face in the morning"
"I'd love to stay"
Paige smiled wildly at Spencer's answer and after giving her a final peck; Paige took Spencer's hand and headed to her bedroom with her. Once they were inside Paige walked to her closet and gave Spencer a sweater and a pair of sweatpants to wear for the night before climbing into bed.
Paige lied on her back and Spencer immediately cuddled against her girlfriend's chest. Paige slid her arm over Spencer's shoulder running her hand up and down the length of her arm. After a couple of minutes of comfortable silence Spencer remembered the main reason that took her to Paige's house
"Paige?" Spencer turned her face upwards to be able to look into Paige's eyes
"Yeah…? Paige asked softly
"I'm really sorry for not calling you yesterday but everything was a mess and…" Paige didn't let her finished, instead she leaned forward and put a kiss on Spencer's lips
"I'm sorry" Paige apologized with a small smile on her face after she pulled away "I know you want to talk but I can't help myself from kissing you every time I'm with you. I just missed you so much. I know it's been only a day since we saw each other but it's been a really long day"
Spencer smiled wildly. Paige makes her feel wanted and desired like no one has been able to make her feel before.
"I missed you two, you have no idea how much I wanted to talk to you and hear your voice but I couldn't do it. I felt terrible and the only thing it cross my mind in that moment was to go to Aria's house"
"It's ok Spence; you know I'll always be here for you if you need me but, if you feel more comfortable going to your friend's house I understand… I love you and all I want is for you to be ok" Paige said sincerely
"Say it again…" Spencer rolled over until she was almost on top of Paige, using her left arm to prop herself up a little
"What?" Paige asked playfully
"That you love me"
"I love you…" Paige started to leave little pecks over Spencer's face "I love you, I love you, I love you. I could say it all night and for the rest of my life"
"I love how that sounds, I love to be like this with you and most important I love you with all my heart" Spencer grinned and flopped down against Paige again, nestling her face into the crook of her neck and resting one of her legs between Paige's
"I love to know that…" Paige held Spencer's hand underneath the sheets, squeezing her fingers lightly "Now, if you want to talk about what happened I'm here for you"
"Well…" Spencer cleared her throat before start "do you remember I called you before I went to get lunch with my parents?"
"Yes, with that business man"
"Everything went surprisingly ok with him at the restaurant, my parents were happy about the meeting and I even pretended that I was enjoying the evening but after we came back to the house everything became a mess. They were talking about business as always and then they started to ask me about my job, saying that I was always working for nothing and one thing took to another and we ended up discussing about my life and how they manipulate it all these years, that's when my mother got mad and she… she slapped me and I just ran away from there… that's how I ended up in Aria's house last night"
"I can't believe your mother hit you" Paige said concern, moving her other hand comfortingly across Spencer's back under her sweater
"Well, she can be a tough woman when someone doesn't agree with her. That's what makes her a wonderful lawyer"
"But a lousy mother" Paige replied, regretting her words immediately "I'm sorry… I didn't mean to…"
"It's ok; I know I don't have the best parents in the world. They've always been the rough kind of people"
"That doesn't make it right, you're a grownup woman who can take her own decisions and if they're not agree with that then is their problem not yours"
"I wish it could be that simple, but I told you about my parents and their 'particular way' to solve things, so they are going to make things in their own way because they think they can"
"It could be that way before but now you have me to fight your battles, even against them if it's necessary. I'm not going to let them control your life anymore. Besides you have your sister and your friend Aria to help us too so, you're not alone in this"
"Thank you"
"For what?"
"For being so amazing… I love you" Spencer raised her head up kissing Paige's lips
"I love you too…" Paige answered when they pulled away "and since now on I want to be part of everything that happens with you, the good and the bad, ok?"
"Ok"
"Promise me you're going to let me know everything, no matter how bad it is"
"I promise"
"Good. I was worried about you yesterday and when I didn't have news from you I got a little scared"
"I know… I'm sorry but… I was calling you this morning, I even wanted to get lunch with you but I couldn't reach you, so I waited until I was sure you were home and here I am…"
"I spent the morning with Erick and then we went to pick up Katy, after that I just turned off my phone because I didn't want for Emily to reach me, the day was too good to fight with her again"
"That's why my calls went directly to voice mail"
"Yeah, I'm sorry for that but I'm going to turn it on right now" Paige made a move to get out of the bed and reach her phone on her jacket's pocket, but Spencer didn't let her
"No, you can do it tomorrow; I'm too comfy for you to move"
"Ok, it's not like the world is going to end just because I have my phone off for one night, anyway" Paige leaned down and kiss Spencer's forehead "But the way, there's something I need to tell you too"
"What is it?" Spencer looked at Paige with concern "Is everything ok?"
"Yeah… I just wanted to let you know that I told Erick about us and…"
"What?" Spencer let out as a whisper
"He also knows that you're married" Spencer's mouth dropped open
"Oh my God, what did he say?"
"He was surprised at first, and then he got happy to know that I'm with you now but he never thought that you're married"
"He probably hates me now, thinking that I'm a whore who cheats on her husband"
"Of course not, Spence…" Paige sighed and put a strand of Spencer's hair behind her ear "I obviously had to explain to him our situation but he understood and he even told me that I should fight for your love"
"Seriously…? He said that?"
"Yeah, he just warned me that we should be careful about the people around us but then he told me that whatever we need he is going to support us"
"That's so sweet from him"
"I know. I love to have him around again. I can't wait for you two to spend more time together and know each other better"
"I can't wait either"
They got into a comfortable silence again. Paige held Spencer tightly and started to stroke her hair slowly. Spencer sighed softly, relishing in the sensation of Paige's fingers against her scalp until she felt asleep.
"Good night, Spence. I love you…" Paige dropped a kiss to the top of Spencer's head and then let herself fall into a deep sleep
They were floating on a bunch of clouds. They had that powerful feeling of being untouchable. The world outside could wait; right now all that matters is for them to be in each other's arms.
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