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Okay, before we start this I'd like to make some things clear, I am not commenting on my own story! I don't know why it is so hard for some people to believe that people still LIKE Nair and LOVE reading about them. Why is it so hard to understand? I have nothing but respect for all the other ships (Chair, Dair, Serenate…) but it's not like every single GG fan adores Chair. True the show is over, thus we confide in fanfictions even more because fiction is all we have left. To say I am really surprised too that I get all of this feedback, because I don't think I write that well yet, but others seem to like it. And for God's sake 180 reviews in 24 chapters isn't even that many, I have no idea why would someone think I'm pathetic enough to comment my own story… but if you think it's somewhat unfair and you feel offended for a reason I will disable anonymous comments. As for the followers, what would I have to do with that, please tell me, because if there's someone who makes a bunch of different accounts and writes different stuff on each one of them so she/he could follow their own story, then they should do something more productive with their life. I respect all of you guys so much because you give me confidence and make me want to write more and better, I'd never ruin that, it would be like liking your own facebook status or lying to yourself. To all my loyal Nair sweethearts, sorry for a long intro, but I had to get it off my chest.
I'm also sorry for the long wait, but this chapter is important so I wanted to make it perfect :) I've been playing around with writing in past & present tense, I actually think I like this present one better, but if you liked it more before just speak :D
I do not own the characters or songs used, just the ideas.
Song: Sorry
''Nate-'' she mutters breathily between kisses. For the first time in a while, he really couldn't get enough of her. He thinks of it now and all of the arguments he had with himself, the pros and cons, they stopped to matter. Only now did he realize how much he missed the simplest things about her. Running his hands trough her hair, her rosy scent, her sundresses she almost exclusively wore, the way her lips felt so soft right about now.
And if he could choose one person to spend the rest of his life with, it would be her. All of it kind of scared him to be honest. He never was so serious about anyone and this territory was very foreign, but he knows she's there for him and hopefully she always will be.
He gets this crazy rush of adrenaline and his heart feels like it'll beat out of his chest any minute now. All of the vine they had earlier -and maybe the love he held in his heart for this incredible girl – kicked in and made him delusional.
''-I love you'' she breaths out unexpectedly and he just stares at her. She can't believe she just said it and his reaction (well there was none to be exact) wasn't helping. But to hell with it all, it was out now, might as well throw it all there.
''I mean…I loved you for so long-'' she starts and can't make herself stop, he's still staring at her ''- and I tried to deny it…I wanted so bad not to have all these feelings-'' her eyes water up ''- not to love you, because what the hell? We make absolutely no sense together, none at all-'' she moves away a bit and is everywhere all of a sudden, she's out of control, and he…he's still motionless ''-but I can't help it. I love you Nathaniel Archibald and honestly, I can't do it properly''
Oh I had a lot to say
was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me want to die
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue,
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds,
and baby the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry:This time I think I'm to blame
it's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame
Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
it's never too late to make it right
He wishes he could freeze this moment in time and let it still. There was a girl, a beautiful girl whom he adored so much, professing her love for him and he couldn't move. He was stunned to say at least. Al he can think about is that catalyst cab ride half year ago. Because he could have taken the cab right before hers, the one after or simply let her take off alone. He couldn't by this day explain why he had an urge to mess with her that day and provoke her. And going back to that very day when they briefly couldn't stand each other, they have come a long way.
From rivalry to friends. Friends to attraction. Attraction to passion. Passion to pretending. Pretending to strangers. Strangers to friends. Friends to love.
And she's still the same drama queen he met that day and he's still the same bad boy he was. It was true what she was saying at the moment. They made absolutely no sense, yet they were stuck together like magnets and fought like one.
She's blabbering way too much and he can't think of a better way to shut her up than to kiss her, and so he does.
She's surprisingly cut off by his kiss and it would be a lie if she'd say it was a disappointment, it was indeed right what she needed in order to convince her she didn't just made a fool out of herself. In all honesty, she didn't expect a feedback from him, she didn't need to hear him say it back (although it would impregnate her insides with happiness) she just needed to know that he knows and he's okay with it, that he's okay with her loving him because she can't keep it to herself. Not anymore, especially when she feels like taking a megaphone and letting the entire world know how she feels.
There's something different about his kiss though. He was gentle and loving and embraced her like she might break under the slightest pressure. It was already decided in his head, this was the perfect moment and he will wait no longer.
''Blair…my sweet little gorgeous minx-'' he said smiling against her lips and let his eyes probe deep in to her brown orbs ''-I love you'' he whispered and placed the gentlest of kisses on the suppleness of her lips.
He watched excitedly as her eyes widened, looking at him like he was from another dimension.
''Wha-what-'' she muttered ''-are you drunk or something?'' she said in all seriousness but Nate broke down laughing
''Not exactly the response you want when you profess your love, but I'll take it'' he teased her
She shook her head quite in disbelief. Well she surely wasn't expecting that. Yes, guys have already told her they loved her, adored her and all, but this. This was coming from a man she lived for, the man she thought would never replicate her feelings and now he did. It all seemed surreal and all of her emotions came crushing. She held on to him a bit tighter afraid that she might pass out, not that he would ever let her fall.
He stroked her cheek gently and started placing butterfly kisses all over her gentle skin, repeating how he loved her so much, while she decided for once in her life not to think it over and just let herself enjoy this extraordinary moment.
Her mind once again failed to remember how they got to the point of laying down on the sand on the completely other end of the beach a few hours later, but they were. There was an empty bottle of some unknown beverage next to them so that probably had something to do with her temporary memory loss.
She was giggling, not able to contain herself while he placed sloppy warm kisses down her neck and her cheeks. She decided she couldn't be happier at the moment.
''Nate-'' she says sending a giggle after
''-Mhm-'' he murmurs placing yet another kiss on her shoulder before looking up at her lovingly
''-Just tell me how-'' she says ''-how is it possible that someone like you could fall in love with someone like me…it makes no sense at all''
''Love doesn't'' he says simply and smiles at her, just like that she falls in love with him once more
And by this point they are completely wasted, drunk, sloppy but more than all in love.
They are cut off by some commotion and noise coming near them
''What's that noise?'' she says and lazily gets herself to sit up on the sand. He follows her action and squints his eyes as there's light in form of torches.
''Oh my god-'' she gasps in delight as she spots a girl wearing a white linen dress and flowers in her hands and a guy walking out of what seems like a chapel ''-They must've gotten married'' she squeals and a huge smile spreads her features. It always amazed her how some couples could afford the luxury of being that spontaneous. She wished she could do that.
''Blair-'' he says even more excitedly than she has gasped a minute ago and stands up quickly taking her with him ''-let's do it'' he speaks, getting a confused expression from her ''-let's get married''
Her eyes widen even more than when he told her he loved her. And by this point he has no idea what in his right mind he's doing. And it's insane because they aren't even officially together. And they have just managed to come clean about their feelings, but he has never felt this alive ever. And he wants this feeling to last forever, he wants to be with her forever, he wants her for all eternity.
''Are you insane-'' she almost shouts and it's mostly because she's so fond of the idea, she's afraid she'll go through it in a blink of an eye ''- we can't-'' she's hysterical because dramatizing is the only thing keeping her from jumping him right now and screaming yes, cause she wants to
''- I know it's crazy…but that's us Blair. Think about it, we've been through so much and stuck together trough everything. And I love you insanely. Isn't that what really matters?'' his hands are intertwined with hers and she's almost crying from all the feelings inside her, she's already said yes in her head 15 times.
''-And I love you too…so much. But you have to be sure, because if you regret it-'' he started shaking his head no, but she continued anyways ''- maybe not now, but in a month, a year….20 years-'' great, now she's crying again ''-I couldn't stand the fact that I made you give up your amazing single life, who you are, for me and then come to regret all of it later on. It would destroy me'' she can't stop her tears now because there's just too much going on
He takes her face in his hands and kisses her tears away ''-I want you-'' he assures her ''-and when I say I want you, I mean forever. My life is amazing as it is because of you. I have been dead until you came and will be dead inside without you. I love you-'' he says and kisses her lovingly
''-So-'' he says smiling at her kneeling down on the sand. She can't help but cry from happiness and laugh at the same time ''-Blair Waldorf, my love, my life….my everything from now on till forever, will you take my heart under your guard and marry me?''
''Yes-'' she nods like a crazy person ''- a thousand times yes''
He picks her up like she's air and kisses her with all he has, swirling her while she squeals of glee.
''Let's do this'' she says when eventually put down, grasping his hand in hers and leads him towards the chapel.
The 'priest' is surprised as he sees these two euphoric kids enter the chapel. They are not the only ones waiting to be married as there's two more couples around there. This feels like Vegas, but she figured Barcelona is a lot more romantic and a perfect place to tie the knot overall. And she has her white dress on and her epic love for this man beside her. She couldn't care less they're getting married without anyone's knowledge. She has him and it's all that really matters.
It's insane what they're doing and sure enough, there's a lot of explaining waiting for them to do after all of this is done, not a soul knows they were ever even together, but neither cares.
It's their turn now. He feels like he's 10 again and he finally has the permission to play his favorite Nintendo game after a long time of anticipation. And it kind of is the same, in a weird way he has been waiting for this, well not this exactly, especially not marriage which he didn't plan on going trough in the next ten years if even. But she changes it all. And the way she's smiling at him right now, the realization that he wants to witness that smile every day for the rest of his life, is more than enough to make him go through this. If he would ever actually get married, this would be the way to do it. Simple and honest, no orchestra, money in the form of diamond decorations hanging everywhere, horse carriages and numerous guests they don't even know of. At least now they can say their marriage is out of love, not publicity.
The whole ceremony is in Spanish and frankly they understand none of it, but when the time comes, they know and they say their respectful 'I do's'. The atmosphere is amazing and she is sure there will never be a more perfect moment in her life than this.
The 'priest', who was actually a captain of sort (Blair made sure he was licensed to marry first) pronounced them husband and wife at last and gave him the permission to kiss her. To kiss his wife for the first time in his life. God knows he never in his right mind even thought about using the term related to him, let alone husband. He was someone else's husband from now to eternity and it held a certain burden on his heart.
But as kiss lips touched hers creating the chemistry you could only find once in a billion, he was sure, this wasn't a mistake.
Hopefully they would both remember all of the heart-twisting things they said to each other and did right now, tomorrow morning. Hopefully…
To be continued.
Thanks for all of your feedback, I really appreciate it! Till next chapter xo L