It was Monday. Monday the 24th. Of May. Partly sunny, with a chance of heartbreak.

I ran my fingers along the long staircase railing inside of Billings. I was on my way to class. The seniors were out in two weeks. That was only two weeks more of waking at up 6 in the morning and running. Two more weeks of Noelle ordering us around.

Two more weeks of actually having friends.

Two more weeks of going to the same school as many of them for the rest of my life.

Shit.

They couldn't get out as early as last year. June was the date. Late? I know right. But I didn't get out until the 18th. Which is stranger. But whatever.

For the first time, I was excited to go home.

I loved the feeling.

Still no word from Josh, it's been a day. I'd think he'd call by now. Saying he was such an idiot. I know what it is. It's the pills. He's fucked up in the brain right now. He just needs to get them back under control.

"Reed, let's go." I followed Constance out into the quad, my messenger bag slung over my shoulder. The air was warm. And humid. Very humid. I squinted at the sunlight pouring on us.

The quad was very busy. It seemed like everyone was out today. Typical monday morning.

"Reed!" Noelle waved us over. I walked over in her direction.

"Look at you." Portia cooed. They all looked down at my outfit. I smiled.

For probably one of the scarcest things is happening.

I was wearing a skirt.

Not any skirt, a white one. With Steve Madden gold gladiators. And a silky teal tank top. My hair was in it's natural stage, straight. My bangs were probably the best they've ever been. And my hair was somewhat poofed up, like I teased it just a bit, and massively hair sprayed, yet not. Hard to explain.

My reason?

"Hollis will make up with you in a heartbeat." Shelby smiled.

That exactly.

"I just want this day to be over." I pouted, and looked out on the Pemberly girls like Ivy Slade, looking at us while walking by.

I tugged on the skirt.

"Reed, stop fussing." Noelle spat, she turned and started to walk, the rest of us followed her. I quickly jogged to catch up with her.

"Are you sure this'll work."

"Well, I'm sure that it'll make him want you. I don't know if it would get him to come crawling back." She shrugged.

I groaned on the inside.

I saw Josh three times. And now a fourth time, lunch.

And there are just so many announcements today. Like Senior Prom at Diamond Gardens, Senior's Last Day, and even Graduation in the Chapel. All of which, Josh is apart of.

I sat pondering on the situation. He was sitting in his respectful spot at the Ketlar table. Dan was sitting on the other side of the table. They seemed to not be talking still. I would hate to be sitting there.

I wondered what Dan was saying. I really did. I think I might ask him? It probably wouldn't help my case a whole lot. What if Josh found us talking in private? How pissed would he be?

Oh boy.

I kinda scratched out the idea, setting it aside for a different date.

"I'm leaving, I'm done." Noelle spoke. She sat up and threw away her lunch. I threw away the little that I chose but picked at. Whatever. What would loosing a few pounds do to me?

"Are you seriously not eating?" She asked me right as we walked past the Ketlar table.

"No." I said in a annoyed tone. "I'm just not hungry." I don't think Josh even looked at me.

I honestly don't know what I did. Oh yeah, I danced with another guy. One other guy.

Maybe being with Josh wasn't all that great. If he's going to be this overprotective all the time. It's not like we are married. That would be a different story. He's probably just in shock. Whatever. I'm hoping he'll get over it.

Hoping.

"So what are you doing for Prom?" I asked Noelle.

"Well, Dash is coming back here. And he's going to be my date." She shrugged.

"Sounds great." I forced a smile.

"Don't worry, I'll make sure you'll get in. Words out about your and Hollis's fight. I wouldn't be surprised if plenty of guys started to want to be friends." She raised an eyebrow.

I shrugged, "It hasn't been happening."

"What's up with you and that Dan kid?"

"Nothing."

"Reed."

"Noelle." I whined.

"Fine." She put her hands up.

"Nothing. Is. Going. On. We're just friends. And even if me and Josh did break up, which is not going to happen, I would never go out with Dan." I shrugged.

Noelle's eyes widened. She then let out a small laugh.

"What?" I looked to my side and there was Dan.

He was giving me a confused look.

"Oh my god. I—I didn't mean for you to hear that?"

"Is that a question or a statement?" He teased.

"Noelle, don't wait up." I stopped walking and grabbed Dan's forearm.

"No, it's fine. I know you would never date me." Dan smiled.

"No, you're a great guy. It's just that. I shouldn't think of that. Me and Josh aren't breaking up."

"Then..." He scratched his head, clearly confused. "What's between you two right now?" He asked.

"We're fighting."

"He doesn't think that."

"What?" I hissed.

"He says you guys broke up."

I put my hand on my head. What? What? Wait, What? I looked for something to sit on. The bench was just a few paces away.

I sat down and breathed.

By myself.

My single self...

"Reed, I am so sorry, I thought... that you knew." He said. He sat next to me. He placed his hand on my thigh, my exposed thigh from this damn skirt. I could feel it rubbing its way. But I chose to ignore it.

I placed my hands on either sides of the end of the bench. Leaned forward. "Why does he think we broke up?" I sounded like a little girl. Fuck that. Fuck him. Fuck.

"I don't know... all I heard was that you guys weren't working out anymore. I heard he hooked up with some Pemberly girl too." He shrugged.

I laughed, "Okay, you got me. You're funny."

He was joking. He was so joking.

"Reed, I'm not—"

"Please, Dan, no more games." I forced a smile and turned to go back to Billings. I thanked God ten times for not letting Dan follow me.

Because I needed to be alone, before I started to cry. I looked over my shoulder and saw Josh, he was probably watching us the whole time. Who knew what he saw, who knew what he heard. I didn't know. He looked majorly pissed off. Maybe it was a cross between him and the guy he was fighting with talking, and the guy he was fighting with, his hand rubbing my thigh. I needed to leave.

I knew Dan wasn't joking. I knew it.

I started to think more once school was over. Josh plus a Pemberly girl? Unless every flipping thing he said to me was a lie.

I really didn't believe that.

He meant everything. You can't fake that whole thing, just for sex. He would have ran away once he heard I might be pregnant. Josh isn't like that. Dan if just mixing him up with someone else. Maybe Dan's just lying? I pulled milk out of the fridge in Billings. Poured myself a glass, and walked up to my room.

"Reed!"

Oh great.

"Yeah?" I asked turning around.

"Come here." Tiffany whispered, she was in Juicy sweats and a sweatshirt. I secretly envied her. I followed her into her room.

She shut the door. "So, Dan."

"I don't have anything with him!" I moaned.

"What? No. Shit, you're self centered." She teased.

"Oh. Well, what about him?"

"I googled him."

"What?" I hissed.

"I am in love with him already."

"Wait, you googled him?" I squinted.

"Yeah, you've never googled someone?"

Guilty as charged.

"Well, he was recognized at his last school for having all A's. Like above a 4.0. Part of the reason he has a scholarship here. But, I also found out that he has been to like over 24 schools. Not even spending a whole year at one. Unless there are just a lot of people with his name?" She asked.

I shrugged. "What else?" Feeling like a complete creeper.

"His dad is a lawyer, and his mom I don't know. His brother's name is Roger. He submitted a paper about it to this newspaper. And he wrote another one about his little sister that died from leukemia when she was only 10. That was a paper for people who knew someone who lost, fought, or won over cancer. It was really sad. He was interviewed for many local papers, said he was a perfectionist freak. And that he played a variety of sports growing up. But he has a few medical problems enabling him." She finished.

I stood speechless, and a little freaked. "How did you find all of that on google?"

"Well, because of all the contest and newspapers he was in, it helped. And I even got a few medical things too. Like you know how Noelle got all those files about Josh's problems at his old school? It's like that." She said.

I nodded.

"And, I found something else out. He was in the St. Reagan for a really long time. I'm guessing that's a hospital. Poor guy, he seems so nice."

"He really is, I can't wait to hook you guys up." I bit my lip, remembering that I forgot to tell him about Tiffany.

"Awh, thanks, Reed. It means a lot." She smiled.

"Anytime." I smiled, stood up, and grabbed my glass of milk. I started to walk out of her room.

"Bye." I smiled, and returned one and I opened my door, and shut up close. Leaning against it, as if that mentally locked it.

My outfit was getting uncomfortable.

I needed to change.

I dashed over to my dresser, pulling out the drawers, I found soffee shorts to wear, now i needed a shirt. Something extremely comfortable. Sweatshirt? I pawned through my other drawers. Oh dear. I found the perfect one. Josh's baseball sweatshirt he's letting me keep. I ran my fingers over the back that said Hollis. This would definently be comfortable. But how bad would that look? Apparently, we broke up. And he's already with other girls? Whatever. Dan has things mixed up. That wouldn't be true.

I shed off my clothes. Left in my push up bra, and underwear, I slid the warm clothes on and looked in the mirror.

I smelt the shirt. Tears almost came to my eyes. It smelt exactly like him still. The last time I wore it, I was with him. Don't worry, I wash it.

I walked over to my bed and just laid down. I needed sleep. My body was screaming for it. My fingers ached, my back was stiff, and my legs needed to be stretched. I let out a small whine and laid down. My mind automatically turned off, it felt so good.

ohhh how tired i am.

see, i should be studying but thanks to my all of a sudden adhd, i am physically unable. i'm a littleeeeeeee...

hmmmmmm, i would post links on here.

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i think i'm going to bed now.

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