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Main Characters:
Dani - Britt Robertson
Gen- Nina Dobrev
Kendall Schmidt- Himself
James Maslow- Himself
Logan Henderson- Himself
Carlos Pena- Himself
Julie- Danielle Campbell
Kendra- Lilly Collins
Rick- David Henrie
Cole- Phil Soven
Jackie- Shay Mitchell
Matt-Bob Soven (cropped hair)
Fay- Hayden Panettiere
Jason-Lucas Till
Hyde-Logan Lerman
Kendall
I still couldn't believe it. Moments passed as I attempted to process what just happened. My girlfriend, who I've grown so close to this summer, practically doesn't exist anymore even though she's laying in a hospital bed right before me. I mean nothing to her; she doesn't even know who I am. I know she can't help it, a victim of a rough accident, but I can't help but feel a pang of intense pain. Everything I hold dear, just gone. Just like that. I observe at how awkward Dani feels as she lay in her bed but I can't contain myself. Tears swell in my eyes as I fall into my chair, still bewildered. Why did this have to happen? I unconsciously lay my hand over Dani's, not thinking anything of it. I feel her immediately pull away, adding more suffering and once again reminding me she's not the same person anymore, not who I fell in love with.
"I don't know what's going on," Dani starts, bringing her legs in closer to her center, "and I'm sorry but I don't know you like that." When she first commented about not recognizing me, or anyone else for the matter, I tried to reach out for her, trying to be by her side until the doctor could return. I received a similar response of her trying to recede away from me. I turn to look her in the eyes and see empathy. She doesn't remember me at all and yet she still tries to avoid being rude. Realizing she means something to me even though she doesn't reciprocate the feeling, she decides to still be gentle to me, the stranger. I almost smiled.
I cover my face, not sure what else to do. It's frustrating. I feel like she broke up with me out of the blue and I still have these intense feelings for her; but I also know that's not true because she didn't chose this. The thought still doesn't make me feel better and my emotions still feel battered. Out of the corner of my eye, I spot Carlos, Julie and Kendra fussing outside. Logan's by my side, not wanting to leave me alone, as Gen and James are on their newfound hunt for Doctor Shepherd.
Denial creeps up on me. This just can't be happening. It's a lie or something. I conjure up a thought: This is just a nightmare! The worst I've ever had by far. I'll wake up, soaked in sweat and breathing heavily, and everything will return to normal. I'm just really good at inventing situations, is all. I squeeze my eyes shut hard; silently praying to God to make this a dream; inwardly knowing it's a lie. I'll do whatever, anything at all to wake up with Dani at my side and everything to return back to normal. We'll kiss and have an amazing breakfast. We could even go surfing again, although the idea doesn't seems too agreeable at the moment. Whatever we do when I wake up, I just want her to remember me again. I prepare myself, wishing for all of this, and open my eyes. Looking around, I note I'm still crouched in a bedside chair, still in the hospital and Dani still lay in her hospital bed. Nothing changed. Desperation winds me up as my emotions return to me.
I felt like I was drowning in a current of my racing emotions. Relieved that Dani was awake. Traumatized from her memory loss. Disbelief that everything I had, my relationship with Dani and her love, could be taken away just like that; and still unaccepting of the situation's hopelessness. I just can't believe that my love in her eyes became a lost memory that will cease to exist. Because a love like this is forever and I'm going to fight for it. There had to be a way for her to remember. Something. Anything.
I jump out of my chair, Dani's words "who are these people" repeating in my mind, as I will myself to leave and find the doctor. He could fix this. He had to be able to. I had to do something and it didn't matter to me that Gen and James were already attempting to hunt down Doctor Shepherd; I had to keep myself busy for a distraction. Desperation overpowered other logical thoughts; thoughts that tried to remind me that her memory may never return. I note Logan following me out, still not wanting me to be alone at a time like this, as I search for Doctor Shepherd.
"We need to talk," Logan started.
"No, right now I need to talk to the doctor," I comment, already a good measure away from the room. "He obviously missed something because my girlfriend doesn't know who I am!" I broke. I didn't care that I was in a hospital or that people may be watching; I found myself crumpling down to the floor against the wall, a tsunami of tears spewing out as I began to sob. My emotional burst seemed to come out of nowhere. But I didn't care. I wanted to cry and damnit I will! I found myself dropping my face onto my knees as I wound my arms around myself as I wept. Logan lost no time at all by joining me on the ground and trying to be a comfort. I felt his arms wrap around my shoulder as he let me get everything out; all of my frustration, worry, sadness, even anger. Everything unfolded before me as my walls came down.
"Logan," I find myself saying. "This can't be h-h-happening. I can't lose her." My breathing was ragged and I couldn't control words through my sobs.
"Shhh, don't talk like that," he calmly comforts. "Everything will be—" he stops, unsure of what to say. I know he wants to console me in telling me everything will be okay. But how can he promise me that when it's a huge uncertainty in this situation? "I'm here for you. We'll figure things out. Even if we have to convince Dani to fall back in love with you, I'll be at your side as a support. But don't worry about that now, just get everything out," he adds. He leaves my side briefly to quickly grab a few Kleenex from the help desk in front of us and brings them back for me. A few more moments pass and I finally get ahold of myself, wiping stray tears away. I sigh deeply as I try to release leftover tense emotions.
"Thanks man," I say, turning to him.
"Everything good?" he asks and I know he's asking if I got everything off of my chest for the time being.
"Yeah." A few minutes pass as I gather my scattered thoughts. "Let's go help find the doctor." Logan gets up and reaches his arm out for me to help hoist me up. As I stand up myself, I gratefully hug him. The kind of hug you give someone who's been there for you and has sentiment to it; the long, strong ones as if they may be leaving you.
As we break off our embrace, Logan adds, "'Here for you man. Let's do this."
Not wanting to waste any time, we immediately ask the help desk before us on where Doctor Shepherd may be. The nurse helping us quickly checks a few charts then answers. "It seems he's helping a patient at the moment. I'll page him for you. What's you dilemma?"
"My girlfriend—" the word gets caught in my throat as I stall on the idea of whether she's still considered my girlfriend. Believing she is in my book, I continue, "she is having problems and I need Doctor Shepherd to take another look."
"I can call an available nurse—"
"No. I want Doctor Shepherd. I don't mean to be blunt but I really wish he be the one to help her."
The nurse doesn't look like she took offense to my words and I'm thankful; I don't want to add "being guilty for being mean to kind nurses" on my list of things to worry about at the moment. She registers my urgency and sighs almost as if in defeat. "I'll page him for a quick return," she admits, already in action to regain his attention and picking up the phone.
"Thank you so much."
"You may have to wait a few minutes," she continues, gesturing for me to wait alongside the nearby wall as to not disturb working nurses and patients. I nod in comprehension; Logan and I walk the short distance and begin to wait. Not distracted for the current moment, thoughts rush back into my head as I try to recollect any knowledge I may possess pertaining to memory loss. I've never had personal history, not that I'd remember I guess, about memory loss but based off of a few movies I believe some patients can regain their memory. Not that movies are a solid base for information considering they'd want to make the plot as dramatic as possible but I cast that logic aside as I cling onto the hope for Dani's recovery.
It didn't take long before Doctor Shepherd returned to my line of vision. He noticed both Logan and my presence and had a puzzled look displayed on his face. He walked over after returning probable paperwork to the nurse station to be logged before heading over to meet with us. "Hello boys. What can I do for you?" he asked, putting his hands in his uniform white jacket as he waits for our problem.
"Not to be rude but you missed something," I begin. I feel Logan jab my side at my bluntness but I ignore him. I'm not going to beat around the bush with this kind of a problem. "Dani lost an entire years worth of her memory."
Shock invades Doctor Shepherd's expression as this new piece of information sinks in. I can see him go over probable causes mentally as I wait for him to respond. "She must have hurt her head more than we initially intended," he admits, giving us the simplest explanation. "Before I go on further, I'll have to revisit her lab results for further diagnosis as well as confirmation for my other assumptions," he continues before beginning to walk away. He motions for us to follow as he spins around. "Can you give me a personal account of what exactly happened? Not another recollection of the event itself but in what state you found her in."
"We couldn't find her for a few minutes; we had to make a few trips down under in order to return to the surface for air. At the point of finding her, I'd say she had already been underwater for a few minutes. Upon finding her, all I could notice was that blood was oozing from her forehead, scratches down her cheek and a few more scratches alongside her lower body."
He turned to Logan at that point. "How wounded did you notice Dani to be?"
"As we tried to grab the attention of the rescue boat, I didn't pay too much attention. I was too freaked out and pumped with adrenaline trying to get them to safety. But onboard, I noticed her face bruised up on her left side; her complexion itself was slightly blue. Um, she had a few other cuts alongside her body."
"Okay. That's good. Not the fact that she was injured, but that there weren't any other noticeable injuries that we hadn't noticed here. Just to be certain, I'm going to order a few blood tests as well as another CT scan of her brain and abdominal cavity. I want to be certain there aren't other areas of her body damaged from internal bleeding. That way we can rule out whether or not the loss of blood in other parts of her body isn't causing a lack of blood to be pumped to her brain, resulting in her current memory loss," he finished up. He took his eyes off of the paperwork he was previously reviewing and stops at a door. "I'm sorry but non medical personal can't walk beyond that line," he adds, pointing to a line on the ground. "Once I gather my things, I'll meet everyone back in the room. Then we'll prepare Dani for further testing." Without further interruption, he nodded in goodbye and walked away.
Gen
We looked for quite some time for Doctor Shepherd with no avail. James and I left to return to Dani and Kendall to check up on them considering we've been gone for longer than expected. I know neither would be having an easy time.
We return to the room to find that both Kendall and Logan are missing. I know Dani wouldn't know, not even really knowing who they even are anymore, and instead stop and ask Carlos.
"Kendall stormed off," Carlos explains as he and I walk away from the other girls to talk privately. "Logan followed. I didn't want to overcrowd them and decided Kendall needed some space. At least Logan would be there with him, you know? Dani wouldn't remember who we are either," Carlos adds, pointing back to Julie and Kendra. "And we decided not freaking her out would be the best idea. We've been waiting outside her room."
As I try to make sense of everything, I see that Dani has been left alone. I didn't want her to be alone and scared, as I knew she'd be, so I thanked Carlos in order to join her in the room. I look back to James for his support; he squeezes my hand and nods to follow me inside. When ready, I turn back around and enter the room. "Hey," I said, not sure what else to say. I just never expected this to happen. No one did.
"Gen, what's going on?" she asked immediately, leaning up in her bed and peering at me. Yep, she's scared. She reaches out for my hand to hold something familiar in her now unstable universe. "Who are these people and why am I in a hospital?"
"Um," I stall, trying to gather the right words to say. "What do you remember?"
"Last thing I remember was surfing."
"You remember surfing?" I ask, surprised. "So you do remember surfing with the guys?" I try to confirm, pointing back towards James leaning against the far wall of the room. Dani follows, confusion still plastered on her face.
"No. Like I said I don't know who he is," she drones. She shakes her head lightly as if trying to clear her head and continues, "I mean I remember surfing on my vacation. I think in a few days I'm supposed to fly back home to my parents house before college starts back up again."
"Last summer? That's the last thing you remember?" I ask, bewildered.
"It makes sense," James adds. "She doesn't remember our plane ride which explains why she doesn't remember us," he explains, pointing to the few guys present. "We met her originally on a plane ride to Texas."
"Hey, that's where I'm flying in a few days!" Dani adds, glad to finally make some of the conversation clear and familiar.
"Well, her last point of remembrance is now confirmed…"
"Why are you asking me this?" Dani asks, turning back to me. "You still haven't explained anything."
"Okay. Well, this is going to sound very far-fetched but just stick with me. You're in the hospital now because you were in an accident—"
"An accident? What happened?" she interrupted as worry spread across her face.
"You were surfing with the guys. A storm rolled in unexpectedly and caused a lot of the waves to be treacherous. You were caught in a bad wave, lost control and fell straight in. Your leash broke off of your board and you fell straight down to bedrock and hit your head pretty harshly. And that's why you don't remember anything."
"Oh my god," is all Dani could say. She brings her hand up to her probably throbbing forehead and gently grazes her hand against her bandage.
"Kendall saved you. With James and Logan to help, they managed to pull you out of the water and to safety. You were out for a long time, I thought you may not wake up but they thankfully succeeded in giving you CPR."
I can see her eyes racing around, trying to make sense of her current situation as her eyes swell up with possible tears. A few moments pass silently as she tries to grasp the situation. "What all did I forget?"
James cleared his throat in hopes of answering. "You met me and the other guys on your airplane ride to Texas. We talked about how you'd return to college with Gen this summer and we talked about meeting up again," he starts.
"Other than that, I guess an entire year of college for starters," I say, not knowing how to begin explaining summer. I see fear grow on her face, "but you have a medical situation. We'll figure things out with your University. But let's not worry about that until after Doctor Shepherd comes back!" I add, trying to fix her distress momentarily. Sighing quickly, I continued. "How to begin summer?" I ask aloud. I look back at James. "I can't start without mentioning how exciting you were to see Kendall again," I add, finding myself smiling at the love she has…had…for Kendall.
"Is Kendall the guy that was here before? The one who held my hand? The guy who saved me?" She lay further against her pillows, fully consumed in my explanation and I see a tear escape her.
"Yeah. That's him. You guys, ugh…" I broke a silent sob, grief consuming me. "You guys are so cute together," I say with a smile as I hold her hand. "I know you don't remember him but he really is a good boyfriend. You even made the decision to stay with him after summer ended and move in with him." I see a pang of shock run through her face at my last words, probably not expecting her so-called relationship to have been that serious. None of her other relationships were. She looks away from me suddenly and I see her face scrunch up with frustration. "Dani, what's wrong?"
"I just—" she broke, finally sobbing. "I just feel horrible. This guy sounds so nice and I hate ruining the situation. But I don't know him. I can't love a guy based on what people say," she exclaims, sorrow across her face. In a swift movement, she covers her face with her own hands in hopes of covering her tumbling tears.
At that moment, Kendall and Logan return to the room. At first unsure that Kendall may have heard her last words, I see his face change and am almost positive he had.
